Hailing Hellions: An Interview with Victoria Saix

This interview is for “Hailing Hellions,” a Q&A series where I interview sex workers (or ex-sex workers) who have modeled for me and my Sex Positivity* book project. Today’s interview subject is Victoria Saix!

*The longer title being Sex Positivity versus Sex Coercion, or Gothic Communism: Liberating Sex Work under Capitalism through Iconoclastic Art (2023). Part of an overarching movement that connects sex positivity to what I call “Gothic (gay-anarcho) Communism,” Sex Positivity essentially provides a hybrid; i.e., one established between academic (Gothic, queer, game and Marxist) theories, and wherein applied theory towards universal liberation is achieved by challenging Capitalist Realism (the inability to imagine a world beyond Capitalism) at a grassroots level. To it, Gothic Communism specifically occurs through direct mutual worker action and informed intersectional solidarity relayed through Gothic poetics: BDSM, monsters, and kink, but specifically what I call “ludo-Gothic BDSM.” If you’re curious about the book and want to know more, the first four volumes (and additional information) are available for free (the series is non-profit) on my website’s 1-page promo

General CW: BDSM, Gothic content and theatrics (e.g., rape play and death theatre), as well as sex worker abuse and bigotry of various kinds (variable per interview). 

Specific CW: This interview in particular discusses sexual assault/use of the word “rape,” as well as intersex abuse (forced surgery).

Note: All images are of the model or myself unless otherwise stated.

Permissions: Any publicly available images are exhibited for purposes of education, transformation and critique, thus fall under Fair Use; private nude material and collabs with models are specifically shared with permission from the original model(s). For more details about artist permissions, refer to the book disclaimer.

Concerning Buggy Images: Sometimes the images on my site don’t always load and you get a little white-and-green placeholder symbol, instead. Sometimes I use a plugin for loading multiple images in one spot, called Envira Gallery, and not all of the images will load (resulting in blank white squares you can still right-click on). I‘ve optimized most of the images on my site, so I think it’s a server issue? Not sure. You should still be able to access the unloaded image by clicking on the placeholder/right-clicking on the white square (sometimes you have to delete the “?ssl=1” bit at the end of the url). Barring that, completed volumes will always contain all of the images, whose PDFs you can always download on my 1-page promo.

About the series: Like the book series it attaches to, “Hailing Hellions” aims to educate and critique; i.e., by raising awareness towards sex worker rights, but also gender-non-conformity through Gothic counterculture. This extends to gender identity (e.g., trans, enby or intersex) but also orientation and performance; i.e., BDSM and sex positivity through various Gothic theatrical roles that invite things beyond vanilla, heteronormative (thus conservative, reactionary and harmful) sexuality. I would consider this to be things like mommy dommes and consent-non-consent, breeding fantasies and heavy metal (e.g., Satanic material and the Gothic at large). Also, these questions are broader insofar as they cover wide praxial/poetic ideas and concepts. Regarding these, the opinions of the subject and myself are not identical, but often overlap through us collaborating together to raise awareness.

About the interviewee: Victoria is a friend of a friend; i.e., one of my metamour’s play partners from New Zealand and someone from the same Discord server (we fags stick together, on and offline). They’re intersex, and a past survival sex worker (and survivor of rape) who has since moved onto different kinds of work. They’re a super sweetie, and someone who has supported my work effusively insofar as I talk extensively about healing from rape by subverting it through BDSM, ludology and Gothic poetics (monsters and murder/rape theatre). Over the past year or so, their feedback and enthusiasm has been invaluable, as well as working and playing with them (whenever I’ve gotten the chance). Vic’s a class act and a total baddie (so tall and thicc)!

0. Persephone: Hi, everyone! My name is Persephone van der Waard. I’m a trans-woman erotic artist, sex worker, writer/author and researcher who specializes in cross-media studies; i.e., I have my independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania).

Victoria, could you introduce yourself and share a little about yourself with our audience?

Victoria: Hello I’m Vincent or Victoria, but you can call me anything you want. I’m a 34-year old pan/ace guy from New Zealand who, for two years from 18-20, became a casual sex worker to help out my family with money as I was the only one who had a job at that point in my household.

I was living in the garage at that point, as there was not enough room in the house for me; i.e., as the youngest son from my mother’s first marriage and a constant reminder of the first family she had and the decision she made at my birth: born intersex and was made to develop into a boy as Mum ‘n Dad thought it might be a harder life as a 6’2 woman when I grew up. In any event, my mother was homeschooling my younger half brother and sister and my stepfather had lost his job over having asked his boss at the time to remove the nudie mags in the workshop toilets as it “wasn’t proper” for a work place.

I also have Autism and ADHD (undiagnosed despite MHP’s saying I had it but didn’t want to give me the label as it would make it harder for me as an adult). I managed to move out of home properly at 20 but had to fall back to living with my mum or older brother for the next 10 years after breaking up with my then-fiancé after her getting pregnant to another guy (my surgeries to help me develop made me sterile), who then laid a false rape claim against me that got easily disproven but the damage to my reputation had been done so I had to move cities and eventually change my name legally to protect myself and so I could still get work. So not much luck with relationships and being what society wanted of me, heh.

Over the last 4 years of not living with family, I did a year of counseling and then recovery from that. Since then, I have become more comfortable with myself; i.e., I have started dressing up as what could have been: if the coin had flipped the other way (hooray for finding Vicky). Also, I helped run the local Rainbow youth group before handing it back to the younger generation. It was around this time that a person on Twitter reposted a picture of me and I started a friendship with him, who then invited me into a Discord server in which I met you, Persephone.

1. Persephone: This book project views sex positivity as a liberating act. What does sex positivity mean to you? Illustrating mutual consent; i.e., can porn illustrate mutual consent when sex workers are constantly dehumanized by the profit motive and the status quo?

Victoria: Sex positivity to me means being able to be who and what you are and being free to do what you need to do without feeling shame for it, because we are beautiful creatures in this world and owe it to ourselves to be true. Society and the ones who push workers down and make them feel bad are just wrong and can’t understand the feeling and joy that comes from within while doing the work; i.e., being in the moment and feeling seen for a moment even if it is brief (raw, primal, chest-bursting pride and emotion: “I am a beast, hear me roar”).

Being dehumanized for the work just to get paid/for the need to get paid is not right; i.e., a dancer or an artist creating something using their body gets applauded and praised for it while a SW or S actor gets told, “okay get ready for the next shoot or client, you are nothing and will burn for this come reaping time.” And being made to feel filthy or lesser than because of it hurts on a level most people don’t know. I imagine there is some really good “agents” out there that do care for those workers and treat them right, but from what I’m seeing as the years go on is the content is getting more violent and dangerous as people are getting desensitized to everything in it. There does need to be informed and mutual consent for this line of work and protections in place and destigmatized socially as it is a needed career in a world; i.e., that is growing further apart and more online and less in person. People can go years or decades without the physical touch that they need to survive properly.

2. Persephone: In your mind, what is the biggest struggle facing sex workers today?

Victoria: The biggest struggle is being able to do the job safely like you can with most jobs, as it is still looked down upon; i.e., you getting blamed by society and the perception that if anything goes wrong that we invited it upon ourselves and there is nothing to protect ourselves legally in some places. There’s also the general perception that sex workers are lesser or deviant and unclean (if anything, we can be some of the cleanest people because we know the risks better than most), one where we are given the “eww” look if we tell anyone what we do (my experience, or as one of my friends calls me regularly: “slut”). They’ll ask what went wrong in your life? Did you even try to get a NORMAL job? I guess image factor is one of the main struggles; i.e., it is one of the oldest professions and should have a great amount of respect that goes to the workers who have chosen it. And as I said in the last question, the porn side of it getting filmed is getting more extreme in some cases; i.e., as you have to be doing something “exciting and new” just to get more views or purchases so you can survive on the sales.

3. Persephone: How do you feel about sex work being work, thus paying sex workers for their labor? This can be unions, but also their representations in media at large.

Victoria: Gods yes, it IS work; it has all the same things as a regular job: commute, uniform, paperwork, banking, meetings and office space (so to speak)! Most job places have different rates/charges for the work they do so why should sex work be any different? I.e., if it was to be legitimized as a proper profession and taxed (if you want to go that far—it should be tax-free like churches, as we are helping give comfort to the needy). And it does need to be seen in a better light by media and the stigma removed, as it is a normal thing to do and not dirty or vile (insert the Helen Lovejoy “think of the children” meme).

4. Persephone: What are your thoughts on Communism vs Capitalism using Gothic poetics? Can monsters be gay Commies?

Victoria: I don’t know much about the subject other than what I have read in your writings but from what I can understand the answer is: “Hell, yes! Gay monstrous Commies!”

5a. Persephone: What drew you to the project/interested you in working on it together with me?

Victoria: You are a lovely person who, in the time we have known each other, has made me feel seen and happier than I was a year ago. Your writing and art is phenomenal and I just love it; you have added some photos and info about me in some of your work and that has made me so happy that I am a small part of your awesome works. And I wanted to be involved because the way people like us are seen is horrible; we are just the same as everyone else—not lesser but equal (me feeling very much like September from Fringe, down to the little head tilt) and just trying to make it in this messed up world: one where society judges you on how shiny your stuff is. And as a slightly selfish thought: that by even having a picture of me in your books, that even if I perish a small part of me remains for someone to see that I existed at some point. But I mainly wanted to be involved because you are awesome, and your work is important and needed.

5b. Persephone: How has that experience been for you? Can you describe it a little?

Victoria: It has been wonderful, and I don’t feel rushed or made to feel stupid. Us doing the photoshoot was amazing. While a bit challenging at times, it felt good to accomplish something and to feel pride at the result was new for me. You are a lovely gentle person with a huge heart and soul. I would recommend you as a safe person to work with.

6. Persephone: If you feel comfortable talking about it, can you talk about being GNC? What does that mean to you?

Victoria: Admitting to myself—that it is ok to not conform and to enjoy when I am Victoria instead of Vincent—has been freeing. I think when I do I look good that gives me comfort; i.e., that I wish I had earlier in life during the times that I was trying to figure out why I felt WRONG in who I was: while looking at the girls and ladies who had the most fantastic dress sense I had ever seen, and wanting desperately for the power to shapeshift into them or swap bodies for even a moment just to feel beautiful and admired (was a very short chubby cheeked kid then tall skinny teen)! I still feel that way at my job (we have a few stunning goth chicks in my town that I would kill to be able to look as half as good as out in public) but then remembering what people see when they look at me can be rough. But I know now from personal time dressing up that I look better as a perceived woman and that brings comfort despite feeling robbed by my parents of that chance.

Being GNC can be fun. When someone tries to have a go at me and my response being “why is it a problem how I look? Are you scared of a color? Or is it the fact I’m making you feel something you haven’t before?” It can also hurt sometimes knowing what could have been; i.e., if my parents could have seen this future for me—to the point I’m silent-screaming at night because I feel like I’m being pulled apart by the being that is sitting on my back with its claws around my heart. But that is happening less now that I’m accepting me for me!

7. Persephone: What do you enjoy most about sex work? What got you started in it?

Victoria: I don’t really remember much of it, as I was able to separate mind from body for the most part. It was just a means of money coming in to help my family keep the house and food on the table. It was during that time that I figured out I was ace because, for me, it just felt mechanical and a means to an end. And being honest, I haven’t had sex in 13 years, so I wonder if I might like it now that I’m older and have come to terms with things.

What I did like was the feeling that I was in control of my body and that it wasn’t under another’s control—e.g., with me being raped at 13 by my first boyfriend and his friend—and that it was my choice; i.e., the feeling of having personal power and that, hey, I guess there IS something that is desirable about my body (I later realized I had a very twinkish body when I was younger. God I miss it)!

My most enjoyable times doing sex work were when I wasn’t needed for sex but just someone that the client could just talk to while doing cleaning of his house (was cheaper than a cleaner and better conversation). He mostly used me as a sounding board while he got stuff off of his chest and I helped him through a few things. I know that that aspect isn’t really sex work, but it felt nice that he had someone to take care of him even if it was for a little while.

What got me into sex work was my job at the time. It was offering me less hours (as it was after the new year), so I was asking people if they knew of any work going on anywhere in town and a guy asked if I had ever thought of “being a foot model” and said he would pay some money for some pics. I said ok, so we hopped in his car and drove to the local beach where he took some photos, then said I could earn an extra 50 if he could fuck me. I thought, “Why not? The last time I had no control but this time would be different. So, I said yes, and it became a regular thing a few times a week. He told a few others about me, and it went from there. Looking back on it, sooo much could have gone wrong over that 2-year period and I’m thankful that it didn’t. I know some others aren’t as lucky!

8. Persephone: Do you have a favorite piece of sex work that you’ve done, in terms of custom material?

Victoria: No, not really… unless the photoshoot counts? Or the very amateur videos I have sent you and [a mutual friend from Discord].

9. Persephone: Do you friends and family know about the work that you do? How do you talk about it with other people who aren’t sex workers; i.e., how do you communicate sex worker rights to non sex workers?

Victoria: Only one person in my immediate life knows, my older sister, and her response was, “Oh, ok.” And my best friend because I wanted to during the course of friendship. Also a few co-workers know—mainly because I felt they needed some education on the matter (as a few of them are older or made a joke about them throwing in the towel at work and “just becoming a hooker”). So the way I talk about it is saying  there needs to be more protection and safety in that line of work (and that it isn’t as easy as they think and more involved than just having sex). It has caused a few to not talk with me because of it, but that is on them. I think it helped me become a better person, one who can understand what others have to go through to survive; i.e., in a world where everything is so expensive that you end up having to have a side hustle (that the govt doesn’t know about) just to keep your head above water. I’m one of the lucky ones who has a job that gives me enough to live simply. I definitely get some judgement from others who do know and they think they can hurt me by calling me slut or whore or words like that. I just blink, then say back, “So what?” Really takes the wind out of their sails*.

*It really does! I’ve had people call me out for being gay or “liking cock” or whatever. And I’m always like, “My dude, it’s only plastered all over my website and name going hand-in-hand!” Nazis think exposing that shit is the end of the world for someone (major projection, on their part). In truth, if its already out there—i.e., there being nothing to expose—then they don’t really know how to act! —Perse

10. Persephone: What are your thoughts on TERFs in sex work; i.e., those who devalue GNC minorities (and other marginalized groups) in the same profession?

Victoria: Ah them, the ones that think that we are wrong or false advertising ourselves; i.e., in a profession that lets us use the talents and the bodies we have or have modified to become ourselves? I didn’t come across any when I was active but that was before I knew there was a term for them. I have had to deal with a few at work over the years, and who only got louder the more you ignore them and shut them down to them eventually leaving/getting themselves fired because they wouldn’t work with most of the department: 1 FtM, 3 pan, 2 bi, 1 old gay and 2 butch lesbians (one of which was the 2iC night fill). Basically they’d quit over dumb anti-trans and anti-rainbow stuff (it’s amazing how you can’t gain traction when you’re stuck in the mud)!

11. Persephone: How do you feel about billionaires? Israel and Palestine?

Victoria: I feel that billionaires are not needed and that they should be taxed HEAVILY. There is no need for an individual to have that much money when it could be used to further and solve most of Humanity’s problems and fix things for the better of all—not used to control the world or waste it on rockets (and other useless crap). Pay your workers a living wage! Use the money and influence to upgrade healthcare and education! Create jobs that people can be happy going to! And fund some housing for those that need it! You are becoming irrelevant and hated by the masses (take old Elongated Muskrat, for example: Tesla and Starlink getting boycotted and contracts getting cancelled, earning him the Guinness world record for fastest drop in wealth ever)!

I’ll admit, I don’t know much about Israel and Palestine—other than Israel is pulling some shady shit; i.e., laying siege to areas and bombing civilians and counting them as “combatants” to justify what they are doing and trying to genocide Palestinians (I’m ashamed that I haven’t been keeping up with this conflict and, because I know it is important, that I should have done better. Um really bad at other countries and what they are going through; I just know that Israel is massively in the wrong, here).

12a. Persephone: What are some of your favorite GNC pieces of media (e.g., I love Sense8 and Heartbreak High)? Do you have any GNC role models?

Victoria: That one I haven’t really thought about after hiding in the closest for so long. I could think of Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss characters such as Angel Dust (HH) and Stolas (HB). I know it isn’t a great example using them, save that reasons I empathize with them on a personal level* (especially Angel Dust).

*It’s not unknown for queer people—especially from the ’90s or before—to relate to forms of queerness that are more tortured or self-hating (e.g., the xenomorph, or Doctor Frankenfurter from Rocky Horror). —Perse

 

12b. Persephone: To that, GNC people often find their families outside of their birth families; did you have to go elsewhere for that, or is your family relatively understanding of your queerness?

Victoria: Yes, I went elsewhere for that and have ended up with multiple “mothers” because of it. I only came out to my family 4 years ago and the reaction was a non-reaction from my dad and older sister (the equivalent of a shrug)—with Dad saying, “You could have told me 17 years ago, when you were 13; my best friend for the last 40 years is gay.” My mum and younger siblings were like, “that is cool thanks for telling us.” My mum is supportive and learning as she goes; i.e., she has a lot of God-thumping to get out of her head before she understands some things, but she was generally good with me being out and she is proud of me.

My older brother, on the other hand, is the only family I have in this town. Basically 4 months of not talking to me (during which I had a friend who used to call me “big brother” hang herself in a local park 3 days before Christmas that sent me into a spiral that could have ended me): my messages left on read, and whenever I tried going to his place to talk to him he would get in his car and just drive off.

After a while he said, “hey we need to talk” and started off by saying, “I can accept you for who you are… if you never discuss that part of your life to me. I’m also not happy with you for changing your name and throwing away the family last name.” My response was, “I wasn’t going to discuss that part of my life anyway and I hope one day you will listen to why I changed my name.”

Fast-forward—i.e., through 4 years of rebuilding the relationship slowly and him having time to think and talk with people and hearing the locals talking about what I have done for some of their kids and them and how much of a decent bloke I am and how he should be proud of me—and we have patched things up and have brought a house together.

 

13. Persephone: What about sex workers? Do you have anyone you look up to in particular?

Victoria: Not really. The two I have are you and Bay. Even though I haven’t talked to him about it, I’m proud of what he is doing despite our government making things harder for him. As time goes on, I’m proud of all you do and I love you for it.

14. Persephone: There’s often a strong theatrical component to sex work and BDSM; i.e., costumes, gender roles, aesthetics of power and death, music, makeup. How do these things intersect for you, and do they cross over into real life for you? For example, do you find yourself wearing similar clothing and expressing yourself sex-positively when you’re not on the clock?

Victoria: Well, considering that I have been off the clock for the last 14 years… Yes, I do when I get the space; i.e., to mainly shift how I’m feeling as a guy to feeling more feminine and sex-positive—in the sense that I’m better as a woman and, my god, do I feel things as one! It is a sensory shift, as well wanting to do something I haven’t before—to push my own limits of what I can do! So many ideas and scenarios I wish would happen; i.e., if only I could have tapped into this when I was younger, then I could have made a killing! And “theatrical” is a good way to define the shift from Vin into Vicky (as I want to perform for someone else and have someone see me for who I could have been). Sometimes if it isn’t too hot, I will wear a crop top under my normal shirt at work just to keep a little of Vicky in my normal day. I know it sounds kind of stupid but she is the decisive one who gets shit done; Vic is more reserved and the customer-service-type person* (I try to not use my real voice much—very deep and kind of sounds like TFS Hellsing Abridged Alucard).

*Service workers are certainly expected to have higher-pitched voices—meaning more feminine and subservient, deferring to historically male and/or at-least-wealthy and certainly privileged clients (acting high-and-mighty even if they’re just middle-class assholes standing in line for a cheeseburger and punching down at fast food workers. They still want to be king for day). —Perse

15. Persephone: There’s often an animal component to sexuality and gender expression, helping workers establish close bonds with each other and nature; i.e., furries, but also therians and various kinks; e.g., puppy play. How do you feel about these things, be they for work, pleasure, or both?

Victoria: I have looked into that side of it and can see the appeal of it for people; and everyone is entitled to whatever helps them. I could enjoy aspects of those things with someone I can trust to take care of me because I’m such a pleaser to my partner and can lose myself and push myself past feeling safe just to prove that I can; i.e., in the pursuit of doing a good job and the desire to feel something strongly enough to feel alive. It would probably be a bad idea to get me into any animalistic feeling as the desire to sink my teeth into my partner while doing it is STRONG (and yes, I feel it would be for pleasure). I genuinely want to have a bond with someone that can handle the stronger aspects of me.

16. Persephone: Sex workers are generally treated as monsters to harm and exploit under capital. Do you have a preferred way of expressing the humanity of sex workers, be that simply stating it or through the work that you do, art, or some combination, etc?

Victoria: We are human like the rest of you; we have just figured out how to provide a service that most people take for granted in their relationships (some of my clients were not getting it from their partners so they had me, instead). I see us as an image of succubae/incubi, but crossed with nurses for the body and with a soul concerned with the care of Humanity. I tell people who ask what it is like that it feels like a normal job and has some of the same aspects as one—only that it feels more like a nightshift job (and that you try and sleep during the day).

17. Persephone: Do you have a particular aspect of liberation you like to focus on; e.g., fat liberation or decriminalizing sex work? To that, what’s the difference between positive thinking and liberation in your eyes?

Victoria: The liberation I think I focus on is when I can see and help someone become themselves instead of what they think people want to see; e.g., watching some of the youth group Rainbow teens clicking on to the fact that it is what they are and not their entire persona and that it is far less effort to be themselves and not what their friends want them to look like and act. Helping people get over the hump of “but what if others don’t like me for me?” Let them! It isn’t on you to make people like you; they either do or don’t so enjoy the ones who do and just walk past the ones that don’t!

18a. Persephone: How do you feel about BDSM and using calculated risk to confront and heal from trauma? I.e., using collars or whips to experience pain or control as pleasurable, not harmful (I love collars, for instance).

Victoria: I think it is a fantastic way to heal from trauma; i.e., it reteaches trust in others giving up or taking control again. After what happened to me when I was 13

I was at a sleepover party with my first boyfriend and one of his friends and they spiked my drink gradually till I had to go to bed. I passed out only to wake up tied spread eagle on my front with my boyfriend in my throat and the friend in my ass. They proceeded to rape me multiple times, switching back and forth and then leaving me there till the next afternoon. And when I got untied, my boyfriend told not to tell anyone; otherwise he would tell the whole school I was gay. This was back in 2004 when it was very much still not good to be out.

I wasn’t able to wear a watch or have my shirt cuffs or socks put too much pressure on my wrists and  ankles for years, afterwards; i.e., without having panic attacks. Then I learned about self bondage and started looking into BDSM related stuff. Through it, I learned to turn the trauma into something that was calming to me and fun and pleasurable. So sometimes if I have had a rough day I tie myself up to get some relaxing sleep or to decompress for a while; i.e., the loss of control created by yourself (or a trusted partner) feels amazing and im really happy I have found a way to reshape my trauma. I would suggest it to others who need help healing, too.

You’re really brave for talking about that. I was raped, myself, but the specifics of mine involve total financial control and isolation during Covid (emotional and fiscal manipulation, coercing sex and other forms of labor out of me). Even so, from one victim to another, everyone’s trauma is valid and needs to be heard. So often, rape victims are blamed and/or fetishized for their abuse; e.g., white straight women are “turned” into sluts/vampire ladies of the night after being abused, but despite often being pimped for it are also prioritized in Gothic media over other rape survivors. It’s important for rape victims to feel comfortable being able to speak out about such things; i.e., without shame or bias inside but also outside themselves. —Perse

18b. Persephone: Was there ever a moment where you were on the fence about BDSM or sex work/in the closet, but something happened that changed everything? I.e., was it gradual or more a singular event that motivated you to change; or, were you always kind of out (for me, I decided to change after several bad exes, but also watching Stranger Things, and relating to Max’s brush with Vecna in a GNC way)?

Victoria: I can’t remember what it was that came first, the movie Underworld (where I fell in love with Selene and her latex outfit) or my first girlfriend at 16 who was the same height and skinniness as me. She had amazing style who, when I stayed over, would have me be a mannequin/model for her outfit ideas, and give me a makeover. Then she introduced me to BDSM, tying me up while I was wearing her clothes—not to embarrass me but so she could admire her work (I have a lot to thank her for). She helped me feel more right in myself—something that would take another 14 years to figure out once I had my own space to explore more things.

19. Persephone: Does expressing yourself in a dehumanized BDSM position (e.g., CNC or living latex, etc) or state of existence speak to your humanity as something to value?

Victoria: Latex has become a massive love of mine over the last few years—from the shine and feel of it, to the fact that it hides but shows everything at the same time, and that with a hood or mask all personality and the person underneath just disappears; i.e., in a world where everyone looks at you, being hidden and a faceless drone in a sense feels amazing and is really freeing. I would love to have a partner to make some content; i.e., using me as a focus. Such exhibition would be a dream for me—not being seen as human but instead as something else entirely would, for me, be the most human thing in a weird way.

20. Persephone: What got you interested in BDSM? Do you have a preference in terms of what you give or receive?

Victoria: Again, my first girlfriend introduced me to it and I found it fun and calming; re: not having control but trusting the other person, and figuring out it was helping with trauma, too. I would give whatever I could, but would rather be the subject/sub; i.e., of what they wanted to do and I would be focusing on all the feelings and trying to do my best for them just to make sure they were happy and pleased with me.

The service top in me sympathizes. —Perse

21. Persephone: In your mind, is BDSM inherently sexual? If so or if not, can you explain why?

Victoria: I would say “both” as aspects of it are by themselves not sexual; e.g., latex clothing being used for the gentle pressure/compression to relieve anxiety and panic attacks and for the look being unique (or an eternity collar/ring being used as the equivalent of a wedding ring). But yes, it can also be seen as sexual because it fires something in your brain attached to desire or the fear/interest reaction of “this looks like I could be in danger but what if I’m not?” I don’t know how to explain properly*. I used to have a co-worker who wore one hand cuff on her wrist from a broken pair to symbolize her having gotten away and left an abusive ex who made her feel trapped, not a sexual thing but a physical item to help her remember how far she had come.

*The sensation/exercise is generally referred to as “calculated risk” or “informed consent”; i.e., the act of feeling out of control while being in control, in the scenario being performed, to account for a lack of control in our daily lives (generally due to criminogenic and unequal conditions under Capitalism, I would argue). —Perse

22. Persephone: Does BDSM inform the sex work that you do in an educational or therapeutic way?

Victoria: Both because it is a teaching and learning tool; i.e., to know your partner better that also sparks conversations about it (and can lead to a better bond than others can usually get with normal “vanilla,” “in, out and roll over and go to sleep” types of partnerships). BDSM teaches limits and how to give and take and how to trust each other. And it can be used as a therapeutic aid to give someone the space to push past or let emotion out in a way they wouldn’t have been able to normally.

23. Persephone: In terms of calculated risk, how does it feel to surrender some degree of power in a scenario where you can’t actually be harmed? Or vice versa, if you have more power? Do you have a preference and if so, why?

Victoria: It feels amazing and can make you feel detached and like you are floating, going into subspace. The drop into it is a little scary but freeing and the feeling of trust for the one controlling the scene is the closest I have felt to true love in my mind. I prefer to give control to my partner so I can just relax let my mind go blank and obey—to give what is needed of me to help them be happy. I have no desire to stand above another as that is not something I think I need.

24. Persephone: If you feel comfortable answering, can theatrical disempowerment feel healing or therapeutic to you in regards to real trauma?

Victoria: Yes, it would help me immensely if I was to recreate the event from my past in a controlled environment/scene; i.e., with someone I trust to turn it into something good—not being in control, per se, but knowing I have some say in what is happening this time would, I think, be massive and healing.

25. Persephone: What’s the most stressful thing about sex work? The most liberating?

Victoria: Most stressful was maintaining focus and staying to the standard I had set; i.e., performing in a way that satisfied my clients and not letting them down because they were paying for a service and I wanted to deliver properly*. It also feels stressful from hoping that I made enough at the end of the week and to also try and give myself the time to rest and recover. The most liberating thing was being my own boss—I guess knowing that it was all on me, whatever or whoever the job or client was, and that I was using my body in a way that served people.

*One sympathizes; re; service top. Also, service (to one you enjoy working with) can feel incredibly good, as a dom and/or sub (for all you switches out there). —Perse

26. Persephone: What are the benefits to doing sex work in today’s day an age versus in the past? What do you think needs to improve; e.g., open reactionary bigots versus moderate SWERFs posturing as feminists speaking for all groups?

Victoria: Better in some ways; e.g., greater access to testing and treatment of viruses more awareness around the job, and thanks to sites like OnlyFans taking steps towards normalizing it. In the past, it was very hush-hush and frowned upon and, as a guy doing it, laughed at sometimes—all thanks to SWERFs and feminist views not much has changed; e.g., female workers are empowered girlbosses fighting against the patriarchy and male workers are predators and rapists or just trying to add to their conquest count! Or the men are there to be used by vengeful women; i.e., past them saying “stop” so you—the female avenger—can reclaim your power by not stopping so he knows what it is like to feel powerless and afraid [the TERF equivalent to Man Box thinking and revenge arguments punching down].

27a. Persephone: What are your favorite monsters (i.e., undead, demons, and or anthromorphs) and why?

Victoria: Vampires, because they have the ability to fly freely as long as it is night, and because they are sometimes portrayed as warriors against the humans who don’t understand them and as romantics. Also lycanthropes, as they can transform into a beast and can roam in that form without being recognized as their human self (and they have power where the human form might not have). And I love demons and the concept of upon entering Hell you get given the form that will suit you best down there.

27b. Persephone: Media-wise, do you like to read, watch movies, and or play videogames just for fun, but also to gather ideas about gender-non-conformity expression, BDSM and other sex-positive devices?

Victoria: I’m an RPG console gamer raised on Final Fantasy and other High Fantasy RPG games; i.e., someone who loves the games where you can have a custom character. I gravitate towards making a female-presenting character, as that feels more comfortable for me to play as one (and the outfits you can get in some of those games—holy hell, I wish I could go into the game and be my character). I love watching movies, too; i.e., anything that has a coherent story and plot mostly crime/con movies, as I like figuring things out. My comfort series is Supernatural, where things aren’t so black-and-white—with monsters and that family isn’t always blood, they are the ones you find and survive with. I do gain some inspiration from the media I consume for non-conforming outfits, and in scenarios based off of some of the characters (re: Angel Dust).

28. Persephone: What are your thoughts on sex/porn and art, business and pleasure? I like to mix them to form healthier boundaries established between workers; how do you feel about this?

Victoria: I agree sex/porn can be art (as a different form versus art independent of sex) and need to be normalized; i.e., so that there is understanding that it isn’t bad/something to be hidden/ashamed about. And sex/porn is business, as it is something created to generate money/profit in most cases or as a means of survival; i.e., just as an artist creates something then sells it, it is the same for sex work/porn: something created and then consumed by people. It is necessary for people to consume art in its varied forms, as it is something that causes pleasure.

30. Persephone: Can you describe your own struggles with achieving liberation/humanization as a GNC sex worker?

Victoria: I didn’t struggle with being a sex worker at that time; it was a means to an end. The struggle came later over the next few years; i.e., from feeling dirty and like I had done something wrong (as no one knew that I had done it and it was my secret). It was after having got my PTSD label that I realized I was GNC and that what I had done wasn’t wrong and that I had done something that most people would never have the courage to do and that if I had this knowledge and freedom of who I was back then, I would have been way better at it and could have had fun with it!

31. Persephone: I view sex work as an important means of de facto (extracurricular) education; i.e., entertainment, but also a means of humanizing people within the practice at large. How do you feel about this? Can we learn from art and porn as a means of humanizing marginalized groups?

Victoria: We can learn from anything and yes, it is an important means of education; it taught me about what I could do with my body and my view of Humanity as a whole, and being a worker is one of the most humanizing and humbling things. Learning from porn and art is useful and needed as it teaches us about what people want truly in this world and that they would love better access to. So we could add new things/services to what we sex workers do so people can see it and live it instead of just watching it through a screen and, in doing so, would help humanize it as it is; i.e., something people get to feel for themselves and learn about and would see the workers as human. This includes the ones who are GNC being able to do more than the conforming ones, as they are more in touch with themselves and what they are capable of.

32. Persephone: I value establishing mutual trust, healthy communication and boundary formation/negotiation and respect, seeing them to be the most vital qualities in any relationship. Do you agree, and if so, why?

Victoria: I agree, it is vital to earn respect and have trust in your partner. Open communication with your partner is so important; i.e., for safety reasons so you both don’t get hurt physically/mentally and so there are no misunderstandings or boundaries crossed that makes one or both feel betrayed. If there is no communication, there can be no trust; if there is no trust, there can be no respect or relationship going forward—not until things get talked about and put in place for safeties so no one gets hurt/injured. As someone who ended up in a one-way relationship—and having to break it off because there was respect and care only going one way—I had to get out to keep my soul intact.

33. Persephone: How do you orient and what are your thoughts on polyamory insofar as it affects your work? For the layperson/uninitiated, how would you describe the difference between a fuck buddy/FWB and other more casual relationships versus serious ones? Can people be friends and still have sex in a casual manner? What is the most valuable aspect of a friendship regardless if sex is a part of the equation or not?

Victoria: Polyamory is fine as long as it is equal and no one is above another (my experience with it didn’t end well; i.e., I was emotional support whenever they needed it. She was the same for me at first, but then it shifted to all support accommodations for her and none coming my way just getting used for an emotional top-up then told to go away until I was needed again (she also used my deadname as a punishment).

Whereas a fuck buddy is someone who you go around to their place or they to yours have sex then go back home, and is on an as-needed basis, a FWB in my mind is someone you hang out with. Except when it comes to the booty call, then it’s the same as a fuck buddy but: you can stay the night or they can stay at yours have a coffee then carry on (no “ILY”; you keep it professional). If in either of these cases you or they start feeling jealous, then end the contract and return to default, but before doing so have a talk* to see if it is the same feelings for them. But if not, pull the pin and tell them what happened and why. And hope to the gods that you can stay friends (friends can be fuck buddies but in most cases should not do it).

*Good communication is like a contract, and—as I see it as a Communist—isn’t separate from friendship; i.e., you can mix business and pleasure, but as with mixing anything there is to mix, you must be careful and mindful of what you’re mixing and how you go about it. —Perse

34. Persephone: If you have a partner, do they know about the work that you do? How comfortable are they with it?

Victoria: I don’t currently have a partner but my last one wanted me to get tested at the local clinic (where I passed with flying colors), and then asked me a whole bunch of questions; then, she kept bringing it up and told all her other poly partners and friends about me even though I asked her not to. Her response was, “But I was proud of you and it is interesting!”

35. Persephone: What do you think makes an ideal partner?

Victoria: An ideal partner is one that you can trust to talk things out when they and you are upset; i.e., a person who understands that we are both adults, meaning with our own lives and journeys, thus entitled to our support people and systems: a person who I can come home to or them to me who will curl up on the couch together at the end of the day and watch something to relax and decompress. It is a person who is fun in the bedroom while not always it being about sex but instead creating an experience that we can both enjoy and that we both get something out of—a person I can trust with my body knowing that they won’t harm me just because they could when I give them control. It is someone who a) understands gentle touch for a person who has become used to constant pain and hurt through life, and b) a person who I can care for who feels comfortable to take the mask for which the world sees off and just be themselves.

36. Persephone: What advice would you give incels, nice guys and other cis-het men (or token groups; e.g., TERFs and cis-queer tokens, etc) displaying bigoted attitudes towards women and other marginalized groups?

Victoria: To those people I would say this: Evolve, become better as a person, leave people alone; life is hard enough without you adding to it. Leave the women and others alone; until you can love who you are, they won’t love you back. Stop hanging around in her friend group in the hope that she will notice you; i.e., she already has and that is why she has put you where you are: as either for support or as someone she can use to get something she wants. Just ask her what you are to her confess your feelings/truth to see if there is anything and if not, then accept it and either remain her friend or leave before it turns into something bad and you cause harm to her or yourself. You will find your place one day. Leave the other groups alone and reflect on why they bother you. Was it an experience that you had or were taught growing up? Is it pressure from your friends/family? Have you actually sat down with a member and listened to what they are saying? Or is it jealousy/envy that they are living their truth and you aren’t?

37. Persephone: Likewise, what advice would you give to more privileged groups that need to understand the value of listening to those more oppressed than them in a larger struggle for liberation?

Victoria: Listen! Dear gods, listen to them! They are asking for help/protection or something you could provide them and you don’t have to lord it over them if you do. If you are part of a well-known influential group, see if there is a way you can include a marginalized person or give a shoutout to the group to make people aware of them in a positive light. Sometimes all it takes is a few people standing up for others to help out and get the “lesser” groups/people noticed and seen. Stand with them if you can (ape together strong, ape apart weak).

38. Persephone: What are your thoughts on GNC people who are still in the closet but thinking about coming out? Where should they go and who should they talk to?

Victoria: Do it if it is safe to, even if it is a step parent. I got lucky with my stepmum, asking her how I would go about telling my dad and I almost went deaf with her positive reaction and love (she used to work in one of the larger gay/drag clubs in Sydney). Since then, she has been one of my larger supporters on that side of the family. All it takes is one person. Start off small, if you want—slowly changing clothes to add color/prints get your hair cut by the colorful/alt one at a hairdresser’s  (they understand more and will do what you ask for, not what they think you need). Or grow your hair out.

As for whom to go to/organizations, I would recommend going to your local youth hub/trust, as they help all ages or know of people or groups that you could join or talk to. For mine, their code of ethics is fantastic they were the ones that helped me realize it was time to come out to my family after 30 years; and while there was a rocky start with a few members*, it ultimately worked out.

*I would add that, natural families aren’t owed your love; i.e., if someone is being abusive towards you, there’s absolutely zero shame in going no contact (abusers will try to argue against this; re: DARVO). For a good channel about this kind of cycle of abuse, I recommend Theremin Trees; e.g., “Letting Go of Fixing People” (2020). —Perse

39. Persephone: Similarly, for those thinking about doing sex work for the first time, where is a good place to start with that; i.e., what advice would you give to those starting out based on your own experiences?

Victoria: Have a safe place you can operate out of. Get a camera that gets faces on the way into your “office.” Look at ids and write the name down if you can. Use protection let someone know you are going somewhere if you have to go to a clients place. Get regular tests at the clinic and take note of any changes to your health. Get a PayPal or some form of payment app that handles transactions safely. Do yoga to remain flexible/ease tired muscles and allow yourself time to rest and recharge and take care of yourself.

40a1. Persephone: What’s your idea of the perfect date? The ideal fuck? Do you have an ideal experience of either you’d like to share?

Victoria: My ideal date would just be meeting up and getting takeout food and going for a wander around town or go sit by the water and just talk, learn a bit about each other and hopefully end up back at one of our places for the night (no pressure of sex or doing anything but the opportunity of it happening also). I know it’s a bit plain, but getting to know and trust someone takes time.

40a2. Persephone: What’s your wildest/most enjoyable sexual encounter (e.g., sex in public, in the kitchen while the roomies are home, etc)?

Victoria: My most enjoyable time was when I was around at my first girlfriend’s place and she had me in her clothes and heels (she had an amazing collection of boots); i.e., with me tied at the end of the bed kneeling with my arms tied behind me on top of the bed (a kneeling-strappado-type thing). While standing in front of me with me giving her oral, she suddenly gets a message that her parents are going to be home for dinner in 5 minutes! So she grabs the arm rope and pulls me into her wardrobe, ties the arm rope to the clothes rail inside—high enough to bend me over ties my ankles together while in 6-inch boots—pushes her panties into my mouth then tapes it closed and says, “Try to not make any noise; I’ll let you out once they go to bed!” Resulting in the most amazing 4 hours tied like that till she came back, when she did she untied my legs and undid the arm rope from the rail. Then she pulled me over to her bed, pushed me down, tied my legs apart, and then proceeded to ride me quietly till she was done then curled up next to me and fell asleep (god, I miss her).

 

40b. Persephone: For you, what’s the cutest thing a partner can do, in bed or out? For example, my partner Bay loves it when new partners come really fast/are having their first time PIV with Bay. Consent, intimacy and affection are all really sexy and fun for Bay. How about you?

Victoria: Simple affection and touch is the cutest thing my partner could do; i.e., just being in the same room doing different things or them speaking passionately about one of their interests would be amazing. Just the little things, like them finding a cool rock or stick on a walk and giving it to me (I’m a bit basic, in that regard).

40c. Persephone: What are your thoughts on consensual voyeurism and exhibitionism as educational/entertaining acts? Does being able to be more open and communicative help us learn from each other to see each other as human and also what to watch out for/what to challenge at a systemic level?

Victoria: I agree that it humanizes people, and gaining knowledge/awareness through exhibitionism—it makes people think with the subject; i.e., of thought, right there in front of them, watching and seeing everything that is going on and possibly getting involved with the display going on: to have a chance to learn something new to them and learn how to do things properly to avoid problems if they end up doing it at some stage, or the possibility of volunteering/being chosen to be the subject so you can feel what it is like. All of that feels truly human.

41a. Persephone: Does fucking to music, roleplay and other theatrical elements make sex better?

Victoria: Fucking and play is a performance in itself, so of course having a soundtrack or theme would enhance the experience for all parties (as long as you both agree on the song/music). It goes towards setting the mood and creating a space for the event/performance that takes it to a whole new level of enjoyment (also if there was no background music I wouldn’t be able to focus properly).

42. Persephone: If you have any ace leanings, would you like to talk about that in relation to the work that you do?

Victoria: Being ace made the work interesting and mechanical and caused me to act on opposition to my true feelings or lack thereof. Like, I’m not sex abhorrent or sex avoidant but more… sex indifferent? Like, I can live without it and it doesn’t consume me in my life or work nowadays. It’s like, I would rather my body be used as directed by others for their pleasure rather than mine; i.e., like a fuck doll, so to speak. Yet I’m so far out of the game that stuff just confuses me and I need to be led to help them get what they need.

Being Ace also changes my perception of people. Like, being male and female does not change how I interact with people and how I talk to them, so co-workers and bosses have shipped me with multiple people over the years and are baffled as to how, as a guy, I can just talk to women and have a friendship with them. It’s not hard. Just treat them the same as you would a male person [who has privilege] and don’t say anything creepy or talk about your junk!? I think my secret is I’m sometimes asking women for outfit advice and or helping with theirs (gay bestie vibes, lol).

43. Persephone: Connections between sex workers and clients is often discrete under capital. Can a degree of friendship and intimacy make for a better relationship between the two?

Victoria: Yes and no. With repeat client, you can build something with them in a professional sense; i.e., that makes things feel more comfortable as you learn their likes/dislikes to cater better to their needs. And sometimes when you are no longer a client and provider, there is the possibility for friendship or casual acquaintance, insofar as they become someone you keep in touch with (clients seeing me at my low-hours job and saying hello). But it can also turn into something worse.

For example, when I stopped doing sex work, one of my regulars became angry that I had abandoned him and he would follow me down the street from my house—yelling at me from his car as I walked to work and then ending up so angry/hurt that he waited for me one night after me walking a co-worker home. Then when I was alone, he grabbed me from a side alley and proceeded to rape me for one last freebie because he felt I owed him that. He died of a heart attack* a few months later.

So yes you can become familiar with clients, but be careful in my experience!

*Good riddance! —Perse

44. Persephone: For people struggling with gender expectations like being the right size or pleasing one’s partner and enjoying oneself, is there anything you might recommend?

Victoria: For being the right size, nobody is ever perfect, but they do make sleeves that extend your reach and gives you pleasure at the same time. And as for pleasing one’s partner and enjoying yourself, talk with your partner about your worries and how you two (or more/with others) can help out with that; i.e., and find something that will work for you to make it fun and pleasurable. Life and intimacy is a journey and a learning experience, always, so you never know it all; i.e., as new things/scenes are getting created all the time, your tastes and moods/moves change over time and that is ok! Just keep up communication with your partner as that is important for growth and contentment/happiness! And as for expectations about your body, the thing you may dislike about yourself may well be one of the things your partner may love about you/turns them on (people liking my thicc thighs and ass for example*, while they make it hard to find work pants that fit).

*Your thighs and booty are a godsend, cutie. —Perse

45. Persephone: How does it feel being your true self, despite the risks of gay panic and similar moral panics in America and around the world?

Victoria: It took a long time to come out then find out who I really was after masking for over 20 years; i.e., out of fear of what people would think, then the next few years of giving myself space to dress up to feel new things/get feedback from those who I found supported me, then experimenting with toys and restraints to heal from past trauma, and then meeting people who support me in the kinkier side of my personality, and then a further year to finally hit the “fuck it, I’ll dress how I want and do what I want with this vessel I am lumbered with and make the best of it” phase. Life is short, so be who or what you want to be and all the haters that you will encounter mean nothing if you are doing it for yourself. I believe that whoever you want to be will undoubtedly be amazing and people will love you for it!

46. Persephone: Is there anything else you’d like to say or add before we conclude?

Victoria: I just want to say thank you for the opportunity to have this interview and answer these questions! It has been amazing and lovely getting to know you over this last year! Your work is fantastic and important to everyone who is a part of it and who reads it! I’m sorry if I missed the point on some of the questions; I’m not as smart as you, but more “elemental” when feeling about things.

47. Persephone: Aw, you did fine! Thanks for taking the time to answer these questions; and also, for working on Sex Positivity with me! If people want to follow you, where can they follow you and support what you do?

Victoria: My links are:

Twitter/X: @Vin_Necessary

Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/victim-victorious.bsky.social


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). To learn more about Persephone’s academic/activist work and larger portfolio, go to her About the Author page. To purchase illustrated or written material from Persephone (thus support the work she does), please refer to her commissions page for more information. Any money Persephone earns through commissions goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. Likewise, Persephone accepts donations for the project, which you can send directly to her PayPal,  Ko-FiPatreon or CashApp. Every bit helps!

Hailing Hellions: An Interview with Moxxy Sting

This interview is for “Hailing Hellions,” a Q&A series where I interview sex workers (or ex-sex workers) who have modeled for me and my Sex Positivity* book project. Today’s interview subject is Moxxy Sting!

*The longer title being Sex Positivity versus Sex Coercion, or Gothic Communism: Liberating Sex Work under Capitalism through Iconoclastic Art (2023). Part of an overarching movement that connects sex positivity to what I call “Gothic (gay-anarcho) Communism,” Sex Positivity essentially provides a hybrid; i.e., one established between academic (Gothic, queer, game and Marxist) theories, and wherein applied theory towards universal liberation is achieved by challenging Capitalist Realism (the inability to imagine a world beyond Capitalism) at a grassroots level. To it, Gothic Communism specifically occurs through direct mutual worker action and informed intersectional solidarity relayed through Gothic poetics: BDSM, monsters, and kink, but specifically what I call “ludo-Gothic BDSM.” If you’re curious about the book and want to know more, the first four volumes (and additional information) are available for free (the series is non-profit) on my website’s 1-page promo

General CW: BDSM, Gothic content and theatrics (e.g., rape play and death theatre), as well as sex worker abuse and bigotry of various kinds (variable per interview)

Note: All images are of the model or myself unless otherwise stated.

Permissions: Any publicly available images are exhibited for purposes of education, transformation and critique, thus fall under Fair Use; private nude material and collabs with models are specifically shared with permission from the original model(s). For more details about artist permissions, refer to the book disclaimer.

Concerning Buggy Images: Sometimes the images on my site don’t always load and you get a little white-and-green placeholder symbol, instead. Sometimes I use a plugin for loading multiple images in one spot, called Envira Gallery, and not all of the images will load (resulting in blank white squares you can still right-click on). I‘ve optimized most of the images on my site, so I think it’s a server issue? Not sure. You should still be able to access the unloaded image by clicking on the placeholder/right-clicking on the white square (sometimes you have to delete the “?ssl=1” bit at the end of the url). Barring that, completed volumes will always contain all of the images, whose PDFs you can always download on my 1-page promo.

About the series: Like the book series it attaches to, “Hailing Hellions” aims to educate and critique; i.e., by raising awareness towards sex worker rights, but also gender-non-conformity through Gothic counterculture. This extends to gender identity (e.g., trans, enby or intersex) but also orientation and performance; i.e., BDSM and sex positivity through various Gothic theatrical roles that invite things beyond vanilla, heteronormative (thus conservative, reactionary and harmful) sexuality. I would consider this to be things like mommy dommes and consent-non-consent, breeding fantasies and heavy metal (e.g., Satanic material and the Gothic at large). Also, these questions are broader insofar as they cover wide praxial/poetic ideas and concepts. Regarding these, the opinions of the subject and myself are not identical, but often overlap through us collaborating together to raise awareness.

About the interviewee: This interview is with Moxxy Sting. I don’t know her super well at this stage, but we met through my book series and I’ve worked with her before. She’s a single mother who supports her daughter through sex work (and wants to do music on YouTube). Politics-wise, Moxxy is a libertarian, which I don’t agree with entirely. That being said, I don’t entirely disagree with her, either. So I’ve decided to include Moxxy’s answers in this series—doing so to demonstrate class solidarity despite a lack of ideological purity (e.g., we disagree on unions, with me being pro-union and she anti-union); i.e., through an odd pairing that, all the same, still leads to good praxis: here we are, communicating Moxxy’s rights—as a sex worker tied to universal liberation and informed mutual labor action, achieved by a libertarian/classical liberal and Gothic an-com working together (a union in small, despite what Moxxy says about unions)! To it, workers radicalize through who we meet, work alongside and have sex with. Moxxy and I did all three, so use us as an idiosyncratic example of worker solidarity when pushing towards intersectional solidarity among you and yours!

Persephone: Hi, everyone! My name is Persephone van der Waard. I’m a trans-woman erotic artist, sex worker, writer/author and researcher who specializes in cross-media studies; i.e., I have my independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania).

Moxxy, could you introduce yourself and share a little about yourself with our audience?

Moxxy: What it do!? I’m Moxxy.

1. Persephone: This book project views sex positivity as a liberating act. What does sex positivity mean to you? Illustrating mutual consent; i.e., can porn illustrate mutual consent when sex workers are constantly dehumanized by the profit motive and the status quo?

Moxxy: I grew up surrounded by Christian oppression. I wasn’t in one of those skirt-wearing long hair weirdo cults or anything. My parents were small town Texans. They went to church on Christmas. Baptist. I went to the most inbred ass tiny rural schools ever. Everyone was dumb as hell. It messed me up though because there was so much conflict between what I was taught and what I believe. The only thing my parents taught me about sex was “we don’t want a lesbian daughter.” Sexual positivity varies wildly from individual to individual. For me personally it was learning that I’m really awesome at sex, and tons of men fucking suck at it. When I learned how to tell a mother fucker no you want me to swallow that cum? Okay. First I’m gonna need you to suck blood clots out of my pussy on my period. It was being unafraid to voice what I wanted and to learn that I DESERVED BETTER! When this one dude told me that it was intimidating that I was experienced it BLEW MY MIND! I learned in that moment I wasn’t broken for having learned what I know I had power. I was INTIMIDATING. I didn’t have to be that young, naïve, afraid 18-year old who had no idea what she wanted or was getting into anymore. I could ask for WHAT I WANT even if I was getting paid for it.

2. Persephone: In your mind, what is the biggest struggle facing sex workers today?

Moxxy: Assumptions. So many men assume we make bank and it’s really not that much money. I don’t know how many times men have come in my cam room and said they don’t want to give me money because this other girl took all of his and “that bitch was drivin’ a Tesla.” Entitlement from customers is INSANE. It took me forever to learn when to say no how to avoid scammers. I work on a cam site and CPS has been called on me for it I don’t even know how many times. I’m constantly accused of being a terrible mother. The thing is I worked three jobs before this and my daughter was hurting herself and screaming and in a horrible spot because I couldn’t see  her. This is the only freedom I have over my schedule, but I still have a scarlet letter. I think the presumptions and horridness of judgement in general and miscommunication that plagues all other work on is just magnified under sex work. Not to mention the site bans. Everyone hates us. There’s almost no way to really get your work promoted without being shut down. The THINK OF THE CHILDREN! DON’T PREY ON MEN! arguments. Generally the assumption that we’re wicked and evil for charging for services that are in demand. I think male ego about having to pay is the bottom line worst thing we have to deal with. Probably women who are pissed off we got their husbands money, too, tbh. So tl;dr: egos of weak people.

3. Persephone: How do you feel about sex work being work, thus paying sex workers for their labor? This can be unions, but also their representations in media at large.

Moxxy: I don’t really agree with labor unions especially since this is an independently contracted business I don’t want the government to be involved with how I run my show at all. If I were under a union and had a stipend amount that would piss me the fuck off. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a positive representation of a sex worker, but this is a low paying amount of job and the work can be horrendous and go very south. I’ve met lots of great people and we have almost 0 protection and that is a problem but no one that I think will be solved with a union which I believe would only create more problems. I think competition can be generally a very positive thing but the problem is there’s no way to compete because there’s politic and networking issues with being a big name. There’s almost no way to get yourself out there in such an oversaturated and unprotected market. On tv we’re all: 1. evil sluts, 2. tragic sad broken little flowers, 3. the cool girl that’s down for whatevs. When guys find out what I do they act like I’m just a sex doll that came to life and they’re too horny to have a normal convo with me a lot of times. I think customers don’t get it through their heads: Dude… I can go fuck anyone and a million people are spamming me, right now. So why should I waste my time here? I don’t like it when people assume I’m not a person and have 0 identity outside of sex. I don’t like it when people that are not my customers only talk to me when they’re horny. I love sex. I love talking about sex but there are people with 0 respect for any boundaries at all because they just don’t look at sex workers as normal every day plain old fucking people. I’d LOVE to discuss my services and provide them for you, however, I’m not a sounding board for everyone I meet to jack off to all day long I do not have the TIME.

4. Persephone: What are your thoughts on Communism vs Capitalism using Gothic poetics? Can monsters be gay Commies?

Moxxy: Both have their flaws. You can’t create a utopia of people because people fucking suck. I don’t know what Edgar Allen Poe has to do with either of those but I think communism will always fail because it’s corruptible. If you give someone power they will use it for their own wants and needs and usually the people who crave that much power want evil. I think it’s funny how similar capitalism and communism are under a microscope and I think all communists in America would be capitalists.

 

5a. Persephone: What drew you to the project/interested you in working on it together with me?

Moxxy: Honestly? You paid. But after we got to talking and I was offered a space to discuss my beliefs I was down. I usually am silenced and won’t pass up an opportunity to sound off.  I LOVE people who disagree but still discuss without going off in a rage. I adore radical thought even though I think it’s done a lot of harm. I think it’s more important to have a passion and belief than it is to go along with the status quo and keep them to yourself. I love that you’re giving sex workers the opportunity to discuss things like this and giving us a voice where we’re usually silenced.

5b. Persephone: How has that experience been for you? Can you describe it a little?

Moxxy: I sure got worked on that picture set lmao. I’ve been loving these discussions and I’m a very hard worker and proud of what I do. When I do a job I do my best at it. Definitely in the top 5% of experiences I’ve had working with anyone!

6. Persephone: If you feel comfortable talking about it, can you talk about being GNC? What does that mean to you?

Moxxy: You’d be non-conformist, too, if you were just like me!

 

7. Persephone: What do you enjoy most about sex work? What got you started in it?

Moxxy: FREEDOM OVER MY SCHEDULE.

8. Persephone: Do you have a favorite piece of sex work that you’ve done, in terms of custom material?

Moxxy: This one guy wanted me to make a personal video where I came so hard I died, lol. He gave me a script to do wardrobe and I got to act and feel like I was in a production; it’s my fav piece to this day. I really love the weird campy ones who like to PRETEND they’re eating people; I HATE choking stuff or whatever. I’m generally a domme but when something is off-kilter and campy and fun and weird. I love those. I don’t even think I’m getting off; I’m just a performer.

 

9. Persephone: Do you friends and family know about the work that you do? How do you talk about it with other people who aren’t sex workers; i.e., how do you communicate sex worker rights to non sex workers?

Moxxy: Yeah. I tried to get my fam to sign up for site bonuses and kept telling them “NONONONO, it’s not flowers-in-the-attic shit; I’m not online, you won’t see anything” but they were scared to, lmao. My fam are dickheads for totally different reasons; i.e., they’re not cool or anything but they don’t care what I do with my life and if they did they could go fuck themselves. I’m pretty sure my baby daddy keeps calling CPS about it? I tell everyone starting out: YOU CAN SAY NO AND KEEP HIS FUCKING MONEY HE’S PAYING FOR YOUR TIME IF THE SERVICE FUCKED UP THAT’S NOT YOUR PROBLEM.

10. Persephone: What are your thoughts on TERFs in sex work; i.e., those who devalue GNC minorities (and other marginalized groups) in the same profession?

Moxxy: I think everyone has their own niche market and the tastes are so wide and varied if they know where to find the right places they won’t run into that a lot. I think if you’re not at the top 1% you’ll always be bottom-barrel and it sucks. I mean I’m working my ass off for pennies while there are girls that were born rich and get the amount of money I live on for a month for one nude. There’s tons of gatekeeping and I’ve been at this for years trying to get my name out there and you’re basically just silence and blocked if you’re not already established.

11. Persephone: How do you feel about billionaires? Israel and Palestine?

Moxxy: I don’t really know a lot about billionaires. I think taxation is theft and when you have money you should be entitled to it. What I will say though is I think they’re fucking crazy. I don’t think anyone can be in a circumstance where they have that much money and not let it go to their heads. I’m sure there are good and bad ones but they’re all fucking nuts. I think more attention is going to picking a side than concern for the civilians who were born at the wrong place at the wrong time. I think America’s gonna be Israel-vs-Palestine and the whole world if people don’t start understanding there is no US vs THEM—hat we’re ALL JUST FUCKING PEOPLE GETTING FUCKED BY THE 1% AT THE TOP. If you’re a poor ass civilian, you’re a number. I don’t care what country you’re from, it should be better everywhere but it’s not. Yeah what Israel did was fucked up but the thing is it’s a holy war and people are missing the bigger picture.

12b. Persephone: To that, GNC people often find their families outside of their birth families; did you have to go elsewhere for that, or is your family relatively understanding of your queerness?

Moxxy: No, honestly. When I was confused and looked for other places it was usually more of the same. I’m very opinionated. I have my own ideas about everything and groups of people who all adhere to one hive thought don’t like that. I don’t fucking like flags; I don’t like stuff like how the LGBT makes my sexuality a polarizing and political issue. I’m kind of a lesbian (my sexuality as is everything with me complex and weird) and I don’t want that to be any different from being a heterosexual. I don’t want my sexuality to be a party issue, or a source of my angst. I HATE HOW IT’S OTHERED. I think that goes against the entire original point of integration. I think everyone is WAY MORE ALIKE than they like to think they are. My family just hates me for LOTS of reasons my sexuality is the tip of the iceberg but I’m a grown adult and I’m independent from everyone now, so what they think about it is what they think about it. They’re just a group of people I had to live with until I graduated. My dad died right after I came out and he screamed and told me we were disgusting drug addicts but that doesn’t shape my opinion as my father as a whole. I mean that fucked me up. How could it not? But that wasn’t the entirety of who he was, and was a whole ass novel; i.e., in what created that thought process in and of itself.

 

14. Persephone: There’s often a strong theatrical component to sex work and BDSM; i.e., costumes, gender roles, aesthetics of power and death, music, makeup. How do these things intersect for you, and do they cross over into real life for you? For example, do you find yourself wearing similar clothing and expressing yourself sex-positively when you’re not on the clock?

Moxxy: Lol, I wear baggy ass ugly pajamas everywhere. I love being ugly in public. I hate all the attention in my day-to-day and I want to be in control of it and not bombarded. I’m not walking around like, “SEXSEXSEX!” I pay my bills, cut my grass, go get groceries. I’m just a plain normal person. I think if anything accepting that there’s really nothing special or unique other than the gossip, and assumptions about it are kinda it: it’s just a job. I’m more passionate about my writing and music and hope to get out of sex work one day so I can pursue my writing as a career but until then it’s so important to me to have control over my schedule the sex is honestly an afterthought. I just don’t care about it, I guess? I love sex, I don’t care what I look like, at all, but it’s just compartmentalized in my head.

 

15. Persephone: There’s often an animal component to sexuality and gender expression, helping workers establish close bonds with each other and nature; i.e., furries, but also therians and various kinks; e.g., puppy play. How do you feel about these things, be they for work, pleasure, or both?

Moxxy: I have lots of customers who are into it and I provide those services. Again, it’s just something I inherently understand; people are into it. I don’t care. It doesn’t offend me. I enjoy learning about various fetishes. I love performing. I tried a kitten costume for this one dude and it was more about making the cute outfit and acting and doing a job well for me. Mostly for me it’s about researching it and being THE BEST. I am GOOD and extraordinarily competent at what I do and happy to indulge my customers and give them the best experience they possibly can have and everyone always gets addicted. I won’t do gross stuff (e.g., burping and farting—I HATE that) and I won’t do hard kink (e.g. watersports); i.e., I won’t do plenty of stuff but when I LOVE role playing in general they’re my favorite and easiest customers. I think they get kinda disappointed I’m not into their 24/7 fetish and that this is just a 9-5 from where I stand; but in that room when we’re in our chats together my priority is being the best goddamned web model experience you’re ever gonna get in your life and it shows and they always love it. I’m totally cool with furries. I think the loudest worst people get the most attention and ruin it for everyone.

16. Persephone: Sex workers are generally treated as monsters to harm and exploit under capital. Do you have a preferred way of expressing the humanity of sex workers, be that simply stating it or through the work that you do, art, or some combination, etc?

Moxxy: Hahahaha, I think I brought this up a bunch of times. I think people need to realize it was the first profession and it ain’t going nowhere and they need to get tf over it.

 

17. Persephone: Do you have a particular aspect of liberation you like to focus on; e.g., fat liberation or decriminalizing sex work? To that, what’s the difference between positive thinking and liberation in your eyes?

Moxxy: LIBERATING THE INDIVIDUAL! The individual is the most oppressed member of society. I think more people need to realize they don’t have to join a group to be the smart one to have special beliefs; I think people make boxes for their identities. I don’t think people belong in boxes. I think we’re just digging holes for ourselves and making it worse when we make activist groups when everyone can stop making groups at all and just THINK FOR YOURSELF!

 

18a. Persephone: How do you feel about BDSM and using calculated risk to confront and heal from trauma? I.e., using collars or whips to experience pain or control as pleasurable, not harmful (I love collars, for instance).

Moxxy: I think everyone’s trauma is theirs and extremely personal and that it should be explored however they want to.

18b. Persephone: Was there ever a moment where you were on the fence about BDSM or sex work/in the closet, but something happened that changed everything? I.e., was it gradual or more a singular event that motivated you to change; or, were you always kind of out (for me, I decided to change after several bad exes, but also watching Stranger Things, and relating to Max’s brush with Vecna in a GNC way)?

Moxxy: I always thought it was Hellraiser shit. When I was 18 and started cam modeling people came to me with different requests and I just gradually learned what I would and wouldn’t do. I was surprised at how much like vanilla sex most of it was. I think I’ve always been experimental and never needed an awakening or whatever bullshit because I’ve always been who I was. I think everyone’s kinda BDSM and no one’s really vanilla, they’re just ignorant.

19. Persephone: Does expressing yourself in a dehumanized BDSM position (e.g., CNC or living latex, etc) or state of existence speak to your humanity as something to value?

Moxxy: I wanna be worshipped. I love dominating I have a very charismatic and bossy no nonsense personality. I’m extremely creative and get frustrated when I’m not in control. I don’t really think you can dehumanize people because you’re a human no matter what and I don’t think you can allow anyone to take that from you. Like I get that abhorrent terrible things and false imprisonment and stuff can happen and those things are called “dehumanization”; but the first time I heard about someone doing that to a prisoner on a show when I was little I remember thinking: “No. If someone cuts all my hair off and makes me wear ugly clothes and I go to jail for a bullshit holocaust reason, I’m still going to be ME and exactly who I am and THE PEOPLE DOING THAT TO PEOPLE ARE THE DEHUMANIZED MONSTERS, NOT ME!” I think becoming violent and oppressing someone and being so insecure and scared and fucked up you have to do stuff to other people makes THEM dehumanized. Ergo, I feel like when my subs are reduced to states of pure id, they’re the most human they could ever possibly be.

20. Persephone: What got you interested in BDSM? Do you have a preference in terms of what you give or receive?

Moxxy: I like to play with subs but IRL they gotta get on their knees and service how I tell em to.

 

21. Persephone: In your mind, is BDSM inherently sexual? If so or if not, can you explain why?

Moxxy: Yes and no. I think when you’re in school and your teacher is your authority figure you’re being dominated. I think when you answer to your boss and ask them permission to do stuff you’re being dominated. Domination and submission aren’t sexual but can be practiced sexually.

22. Persephone: Does BDSM inform the sex work that you do in an educational or therapeutic way?

Moxxy: Everyone’s traumatized and I always end up hearing about it from clients they def treat me like a shrink and I let them talk their hearts out cause I feel like they needed it more than that nut, sometimes.

23. Persephone: In terms of calculated risk, how does it feel to surrender some degree of power in a scenario where you can’t actually be harmed? Or vice versa, if you have more power? Do you have a preference and if so, why?

Moxxy: I love when my bitches let me slap ’em around!

24. Persephone: If you feel comfortable answering, can theatrical disempowerment feel healing or therapeutic to you in regards to real trauma?

Moxxy: Uhhh, I don’t know—do you mean like reliving your trauma in safe scenarios? I’ve helped people do that. I’m happy to do it for them but in some cases I’ve given subs the task to start therapy too and found ones in their area for them specializing, lmao.

25. Persephone: What’s the most stressful thing about sex work? The most liberating?

Moxxy: Telling customers they have to pay vs getting paid. Also the schedule thing—I can’t reiterate that enough!

26. Persephone: What are the benefits to doing sex work in today’s day an age versus in the past? What do you think needs to improve; e.g., open reactionary bigots versus moderate SWERFs posturing as feminists speaking for all groups?

Moxxy: CashApp and Lovense.

27a. Persephone: What are your favorite monsters (i.e., undead, demons, and or anthromorphs) and why?

Moxxy: I think any monster could be cool or suck; it all depends on how they’re treated by the writers.

27b. Persephone: Media-wise, do you like to read, watch movies, and or play videogames just for fun, but also to gather ideas about gender-non-conformity expression, BDSM and other sex-positive devices?

Moxxy: I don’t think I really think about it that much. I’m pretty selfish and I think of my own issues as opposed to ones of groups most often.

28. Persephone: What are your thoughts on sex/porn and art, business and pleasure? I like to mix them to form healthier boundaries established between workers; how do you feel about this?

Moxxy: I think you gotta be careful with blurred lines, but sex work is exactly like bartending in my experience; i.e., everyone thinks they’re your best friend but you gotta look out for you.

29. Persephone: Per my arguments, Capitalism sexualizes and fetishizes all workers to serve profit, leading to genocide. Keeping that in mind, what is the best way to achieve intersectional solidarity using Gothic poetics?

Moxxy: What?

30. Persephone: Can you describe your own struggles with achieving liberation/humanization as a GNC sex worker?

Moxxy: For a long time I didn’t understand my worth or value, but when I started to brand as a domme and told people “fuck you, pay me,” it was a game changer.

31. Persephone: I view sex work as an important means of de facto (extracurricular) education; i.e., entertainment, but also a means of humanizing people within the practice at large. How do you feel about this? Can we learn from art and porn as a means of humanizing marginalized groups?

Moxxy: You can perform art and porn as anything. Those aren’t exclusive. You can do whatever the fuck you want.

32. Persephone: I value establishing mutual trust, healthy communication and boundary formation/negotiation and respect, seeing them to be the most vital qualities in any relationship. Do you agree, and if so, why?

Moxxy: YES OMG YES 10000000000000000000000% TALK TALK TALK TALK! I hate when people expect me to read their minds! This is a sexual relationship and requires fucking communication! I can’t just know! I’m hot, not telepathic.

34. Persephone: If you have a partner, do they know about the work that you do? How comfortable are they with it?

Moxxy: Fuck that. I’ve been married twice and I’m terrified to get involved with other people. I shut myself away and hide in a cave. I worked too hard to risk losing everything and having to rebuild my life again.

35. Persephone: How did you and your partner meet? What do you think makes an ideal partner?

Moxxy: Nope.

36. Persephone: What advice would you give incels, nice guys and other cis-het men (or token groups; e.g., TERFs and cis-queer tokens, etc) displaying bigoted attitudes towards women and other marginalized groups?

Moxxy: To go die.

37. Persephone: Likewise, what advice would you give to more privileged groups that need to understand the value of listening to those more oppressed than them in a larger struggle for liberation?

Moxxy: Lol, they don’t listen.

39. Persephone: For those thinking about doing sex work for the first time, where is a good place to start with that; i.e., what advice would you give to those starting out based on your own experiences?

Moxxy: Don’t take your clothes off and don’t do anything—withhold and you can get away with charging more.

 

40a1. Persephone: What’s your idea of the perfect date? The ideal fuck? Do you have an ideal experience of either you’d like to share?

Moxxy: Weed, alone, my vibrator.

40a2. Persephone: What’s your wildest/most enjoyable sexual encounter (e.g., sex in public, in the kitchen while the roomies are home, etc)?

Moxxy: There was this gorgeous man who looked like a woman who I had sex with and we just went like animals and laid around naked and played all day long. We just clicked and communicated really well.

40b. Persephone: For you, what’s the cutest thing a partner can do, in bed or out? For example, my partner Bay loves it when new partners come really fast/are having their first time PIV with Bay. Consent, intimacy and affection are all really sexy and fun for Bay. How about you?

Moxxy: I like when they look scared of me. Like when their lips part slightly and they hold their chest and they’re like a mix of scared and turned on.

 

40c. Persephone: What are your thoughts on consensual voyeurism and exhibitionism as educational/entertaining acts? Does being able to be more open and communicative help us learn from each other to see each other as human and also what to watch out for/what to challenge at a systemic level?

Moxxy: It’s always better to communicate.

43. Persephone: Connections between sex workers and clients is often discrete under capital. Can a degree of friendship and intimacy make for a better relationship between the two?

Moxxy: YES! All my best customers are my buds.

44. Persephone: For people struggling with gender expectations like being the right size or pleasing one’s partner and enjoying oneself, is there anything you might recommend?

Moxxy: What helps everyone is completely different, person-to-person; i.e., learning to not give a fuck about anything is the most freeing thing in general.

45. Persephone: How does it feel being your true self, despite the risks of gay panic and similar moral panics in America and around the world?

Moxxy: To be like “lol, they’re panicking” and not care.

47. Persephone: Thanks for taking the time to answer these questions, and also for working on Sex Positivity with me. If people want to follow you, where can they follow you and support what you do?

Moxxy: Diet Coke Head on YouTube!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). To learn more about Persephone’s academic/activist work and larger portfolio, go to her About the Author page. To purchase illustrated or written material from Persephone (thus support the work she does), please refer to her commissions page for more information. Any money Persephone earns through commissions goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. Likewise, Persephone accepts donations for the project, which you can send directly to her PayPal,  Ko-FiPatreon or CashApp. Every bit helps!

Hailing Hellions: An Interview with Harmony Corrupted

This interview is for “Hailing Hellions,” a Q&A series where I interview sex workers (or ex-sex workers) who have modeled for me and my Sex Positivity* book project. Today’s interview subject is Harmony Corrupted!

*The longer title being Sex Positivity versus Sex Coercion, or Gothic Communism: Liberating Sex Work under Capitalism through Iconoclastic Art (2023). Part of an overarching movement that connects sex positivity to what I call “Gothic (gay-anarcho) Communism,” Sex Positivity essentially provides a hybrid; i.e., one established between academic (Gothic, queer, game and Marxist) theories, and wherein applied theory towards universal liberation is achieved by challenging Capitalist Realism (the inability to imagine a world beyond Capitalism) at a grassroots level. To it, Gothic Communism specifically occurs through direct mutual worker action and informed intersectional solidarity relayed through Gothic poetics: BDSM, monsters, and kink, but specifically what I call “ludo-Gothic BDSM.” If you’re curious about the book and want to know more, the first four volumes (and additional information) are available for free (the series is non-profit) on my website’s 1-page promo

General CW: BDSM, Gothic content and theatrics (e.g., rape play and death theatre), as well as sex worker abuse and bigotry of various kinds (variable per interview)

Note: All images are of the model or myself unless otherwise stated.

Permissions: Any publicly available images are exhibited for purposes of education, transformation and critique, thus fall under Fair Use; private nude material and collabs with models are specifically shared with permission from the original model(s). For more details about artist permissions, refer to the book disclaimer.

Concerning Buggy Images: Sometimes the images on my site don’t always load and you get a little white-and-green placeholder symbol, instead. Sometimes I use a plugin for loading multiple images in one spot, called Envira Gallery, and not all of the images will load (resulting in blank white squares you can still right-click on). I‘ve optimized most of the images on my site, so I think it’s a server issue? Not sure. You should still be able to access the unloaded image by clicking on the placeholder/right-clicking on the white square (sometimes you have to delete the “?ssl=1” bit at the end of the url). Barring that, completed volumes will always contain all of the images, whose PDFs you can always download on my 1-page promo.

About the series: Like the book series it attaches to, “Hailing Hellions” aims to educate and critique; i.e., by raising awareness towards sex worker rights, but also gender-non-conformity through Gothic counterculture. This extends to gender identity (e.g., trans, enby or intersex) but also orientation and performance; i.e., BDSM and sex positivity through various Gothic theatrical roles that invite things beyond vanilla, heteronormative (thus conservative, reactionary and harmful) sexuality. I would consider this to be things like mommy dommes and consent-non-consent, breeding fantasies and heavy metal (e.g., Satanic material and the Gothic at large). Also, these questions are broader insofar as they cover wide praxial/poetic ideas and concepts. Regarding these, the opinions of the subject and myself are not identical, but often overlap through us collaborating together to raise awareness.

About the interviewee: This interview is with Harmony Corrupted, a good friend and someone I met in February 2024. They are one of my cover models, having actually been been on two covers (re: the Poetry Module in 5/1/2024 and Undead Module in 9/6/2024) and with plans to appear on a third cover (my final book for this series, the Praxis Volume, TBA). Harmony flat out rules; i.e., I originally dedicated the Poetry Module to them while writing it, in early April 2024. Except, I’ve also compiled Harmony’s portfolio—from specifically working with me—on my special webpage dedicated to them; if you want to check out more of their solo work, though, you can support them on Fansly at a very affordable price!

Persephone: Hi, everyone! My name is Persephone van der Waard. I’m a trans-woman erotic artist, sex worker, writer/author and researcher who specializes in cross-media studies; i.e., I have my independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania).

Harmony, could you introduce yourself and share a little about yourself with our audience?

Harmony: Hey everyone! I’m very happy to be a part of this interview series, toss my 2 rusty cents into the discourse, and most importantly, very honored to be featured in Persephone’s amazing, groundbreaking and audacious work alongside all of her lusciously gorgeous and equally erudite, hard-working and artistically gifted arsenal of models and muses! In this interview, please do expect me to slip on a banana peel (intellectually) and land straight on my big fat manic ass!

So, since I guess I’ll have to introduce myself, no way around that… Hi! I’m Harmony, 27, I’ve been in online sex work for over 2 years now, loving it through all the good and bad times! I’m pan, a switchy fetish/kink model and… I don’t have any cool and effective punchline but just want to keep getting creative in my work, collaborate and connect with exciting people and fill the internet with more authentic, versatile, (hopefully) artistic and goofy porn!

I’m a metalhead, love art in all its forms and taking time to analyze it. I occasionally do some drawing and crafting, read, write – clearly pretty much a homebody but I do venture out on errands or walks.

Persephone: This book project views sex positivity as a liberating act. What does sex positivity mean to you? Illustrating mutual consent; i.e., can porn illustrate mutual consent when sex workers are constantly dehumanized by the profit motive and the status quo?

Harmony: To me, sex positivity is definitely a liberating mindset, too! As much as I’m tired of the term “positivity” because of it being thrown at us by corporate forces in an attempt to make us ignore the rapid degradation of quality of life worldwide that’s being orchestrated by them… I have got no better suggestion for a rephrasing at the moment.

By means of normalizing and demystifying sexuality and nudity, we can hopefully achieve much better widespread sex education and increase safety promote an open-minded outlook, improve intimacy and communication in relationships by illustrating the importance of consent and boundary setting, alongside reducing shame around sexual topics. This will also be hugely beneficial in the formative years, laying a solid foundation for a healthy attitude towards masturbation, gender identity, sexual relations and body image. Evidently, fostering a sex positive atmosphere is crucial, yet not enough and we will have to work on other aspects of our collective liberation (e.g. ensuring and codifying reproductive rights and economic, racial and gender equality) to ensure the best outcome.

It definitely is the profit motive of corporations but also the notion of “hustle culture” instilled globally that is motivating the dehumanization and exploitation of sex workers – bringing about the abusive behavior of porn studios, pimps, brothels, strip clubs, deeply bigoted figures like Andrew Tate – coupled with the lack of accountability and regulations for these toxic control systems. It is also the deep-seated hostility, demonization, criminalization and vigilantism (by the government/law enforcement and the general public) that is being promoted through a multitude of harmful ideological vehicles like right-wing politics, false Christian faith and religious moralism, incel culture, SWERFs/TERFs, the list goes on…

One way in which we can still illustrate mutual consent under these conditions is by means of emancipating ourselves in our work process – staying informed about any political action concerning us; publicly promoting and producing ethical porn; stop catering to toxic porn trends (“traps”, “painal”, “barely legal”, ahegao, etc.) created and enjoyed by revolting white cis-hets only; going independent as FSSW, online SW and porn actors/producers; rejecting management agencies, studios and any predatory “coaches, advisors”. Lastly, seeking out and favoring advertisement platforms, clip and fan sites that are strongly SW-friendly and truly have our best interest at heart, motivating our clients to gradually abandon toxic platforms like Onlyfans and Pornhub along with us and reject deeply hateful, abusive review boards like USASG. Of course, there are more things we can do but these are the ones that immediately came to mind!

Persephone: In your mind, what is the biggest struggle facing sex workers today?

Harmony: Most definitely the Trump administration, all the corporations, international fundamentalist Christian groups and countries allied with it and their ideological backbone Project 2025, clearly outlining their plan to outlaw porn, send its producers and distributors to jail, register any librarian and educator who “purveys” (notice the purposely vague wording?) porn as a sex offender and “shutter” any tech company that hosts porn.

Furthermore, the Project 2025 text opines that porn shouldn’t be protected by the First Amendment rights, equates it with the exploitation of women and its consumption to drug addiction, criminalizes it and smears it as perpetuating pedophilia and the “trans agenda”. Based on this framing, we can see that not only will the adult entertainment industry be targeted but the definition of pornography will be expanded willy-nilly to serve the Christofascist goals of fundamentally criminalizing and attacking the queer, POC and trans communities.

Thus, inherent nihilism (continuously, overtly and covertly propagated by various media over the course of several decades) that’s resulting in more and more “apolitical” people, worsened by dire economic conditions and rising inequality, has already cultivated a perfect atmosphere for the implementation of fascism, reeling in many to switch to the “Dark Side” before Trump had even taken office.

Persephone: How do you feel about sex work being work, thus paying sex workers for their labor? This can be unions, but also their representations in media at large.

Harmony: Most definitely, sex work is legitimate work and the reporting on it needs to stop centering around ogling privileged top creators and their earnings (who in most cases started doing sex work on an existing basis of fame), salacious, degrading stories (e.g., gloating at SWer murders) and overfocusing on known scammers while simultaneously denigrating the legitimacy of the field and appropriating our aesthetics in popular culture. Worldwide efforts for sex workers to unionize already exist (e.g. the International Sex Worker Union run out of the UK) and although I don’t participate myself (yet), I try to stay informed about it as much as time allows.

To readers, I recommend checking out Pandora Blake’s, Siri Dahl’s and SWOP USA’s activism.

Persephone: What are your thoughts on Communism vs Capitalism using Gothic poetics? Can monsters be gay Commies?

Harmony: Monsters can be gay Commies insofar as the latter group is being scapegoated by fake/hypocritical religious moralists who tend to be closely aligned with corporate entities.

By means of filling the marketplace of ideas with our content, for example speaking publicly and bluntly about our day-to-day life and work experiences, laying out our demands for acceptance and respect, showcasing our work/art and participating in online discourse, we can take back control of our representation from the hands of toxic filmmakers/ journalists/political commentators that only either want to ogle and belittle through glorification or demonize and entirely eliminate us. We have to create our own art thematizing our work and life in a realistic and ethical way, alongside fighting for accurate and respectful portrayals from other artists.

Persephone: What drew you to the project/interested you in working on it together with me?

Harmony: Well, first of all, you had me completely perplexed and stunned when you first approached! I had never been contacted about anything artistic before, so my curiosity was immediately piqued and I journeyed through your website and work, panicking a little about whether my kind of output would measure up.

After consulting my partner, I decided to go ahead and take the plunge. As soon as I’ve learned more about your goals, ideals and also interests all across different media, I knew we’d get along great! And once I’ve read a good portion of your work, it was clear that our political views and goals align! The array of awesome artwork you had created, sourced and commissioned was also thoroughly impressive!

I kept thinking: this is the exact kind of stuff we need in the world to raise awareness, organize as sex workers and hopefully even increase media literacy (in regards to analysis and political/historical context). Unfortunately, not many people take those topics and connections seriously and I have made many encounters and hangouts awkward by bringing them up. In some select cases, that lead me to sever friendships. So… safe to say, I was incredibly thrilled to be part of your meaningful, ballsy and fun project! And also, to eventually befriend you!

 

Persephone: How has that experience been for you? Can you describe it a little?

Harmony: Nothing short of awesome! We quickly became friends while working together and getting to know one another, sharing ideas and ranting, swapping new art we find, checking in on each other’s work progress and of course also personal stuff.

I like catching up on your writing and art when I can, enjoying your insights and your eloquent, witty penmanship. Thank you for involving me in your process and sharing your WIP with me!

Your custom requests are among the most detailed and exciting ones I’ve ever done and to a degree they technically challenge me, which is always very welcome! What I enjoy the most is that you create storyboards or idea boards, helping me (and others) know what you’re looking for in a commission at a glance – they can be a little overwhelming (“Will I nail this pose and angle perfectly?”) at times but you are always ready to adapt and are understanding of individual production circumstances, welcoming artistic interpretations of your examples!

When it comes to sexting/roleplaying sessions we’ve had together, I love how diverse they get and that we are able to figure out what we will be doing before we start, letting me plan my time and be better equipped. Having discussed preferences, kinks and boundaries with you upfront and agreeing on practicing direct communication at all times, we rarely ever had any problems or misunderstandings. Anytime we did have any sort of disagreement or other hiccups in the process, you’ve always shown perfect maturity, respect and understanding and I did my best to offer you the same. In a world full of people who are unwilling to communicate directly, be humane or compromise, talking to and working with you is a breath of fresh air.

Persephone: If you feel comfortable talking about it, can you talk about being GNC (if it applies)? What does that mean to you?

Harmony: Being GNC has always been my default modus operandi. I have never felt any need to adhere to gender roles – was happy to make friends with any fun kid, jealously eyeing the boys’ section at the clothing store, showing zero interest in makeup until after graduating high school, developing an increasingly fervent hatred for the hetero-centric wedding industry, playing with cars and Legos alongside dolls… before I start to sound like a pick-me-girl – I fucking hate driving, love gorgeous lingerie and shoes, love cooking/baking and cry easily!

Now, this was a funny little bit but quite frankly, I personally don’t see anything at all as explicitly gender-coded, hence why I am agender. If you look at the origin/history of how certain things became attached to a specific gender, there’s often a nonsensical or highly toxic reason behind it, never mind the many ways in which corporations and fascists still aggressively enforce those so-called standards in society and gatekeep them. That said, I think that demystifying and getting in touch with opposite, thus “forbidden” traditional traits/activities/objects and those of any non-binary expression are very important steps to the common individual liberation.

My parents, schoolmates and former friends tried their best to get me to feel shame for my mixed preferences but I have never taken the bait. Honestly, showing complete indifference towards this sort of policing has always been the best method to get them to leave you alone. Those were better times…

Ultimately, I acknowledge my privilege in having never faced any worse consequences for my expression because I largely pass as a cis woman but I enjoy encouraging others to shed the oppressive ideas. Let’s make gender expression a choice and a fun self-discovery process as part of our emancipation from fear-based neoliberal/corporate cultural “norms”.

Persephone: What do you enjoy most about sex work? What got you started in it?

Harmony: Oh, there are many enjoyable aspects of sex work… my favorites being getting creative (through content, promotion and sexting) and discovering new kinks! I have picked up quite a few interesting niche fetishes through my clients and became much more actively sexually open-minded, more literate in the practice of BDSM (generally and in both dominant and submissive roles) and self-confident in my erotic expression. And well, what got me started was the promise of relative freedom in practicing it, my exhibitionism and a strong interest in erotic photography and videography.

Persephone: Do you have a favorite piece of sex work that you’ve done, in terms of custom material?

Harmony: Gosh, it’s really difficult to pick just one… I try to make every custom special and catered to the person’s individual tastes (but also learn something new for myself and be inventive in implementing their vision). There’s an extended anal play custom I’ve recorded that helped me push my limits in a very healthy and enjoyable way. A tape bondage custom that hurt damn good and which I got to make into a little movie. A switchy cinematic custom that had me magically switch roles twice! An extremely fun wedgie kink video that got me doing some insane, memorable acrobatics. And an extended dick rating that miraculously turned into a multi-orgasmic playtime with a huge cock, I got to use my new lights in that one and improve my quality massively!

By the way, quick plug—these and more are all available for purchase! —Harmony

Persephone: Do you friends and family know about the work that you do? How do you talk about it with other people who aren’t sex workers; i.e., how do you communicate sex worker rights to non sex workers?

Harmony: My family doesn’t know and never will. When it comes to friends, to be honest, I’m an introvert and don’t have many in general but they’ve all met me in the adult sphere in the first place.

Whenever I enter a discussion on sex work with someone that has no connection to the field, I try to be patient, informative and understanding with the well-meaning conversation partners, coming at them from a humanitarian and holistic perspective but… stubborn SWERFs, porn thieves/ reposters, misogynistic cis men, pimps, scammers and whorephobes can fuck off, I’m not willing to be in any more debates where my moral appeals, facts and logic get countered with “nuh-uh”. This has definitely worsened because of what the cult of Trump (perfectly aligned with neoliberalism and fascist tendencies, of course) has put into our culture and media.

Persephone: What are your thoughts on TERFs in sex work; i.e., those who devalue GNC minorities (and other marginalized groups) in the same profession?

Harmony: Uh… they can fuck right off? Depending on the situation, I call them out, work on exposing them and/or block them on sight. These kinds of attitudes should have no place in society and I hope their clear connections and resulting pipeline to Christofascism will be finally noted by the sex work sphere as toxic (and the general public), resulting in these parasitic bigots being shunned.

Unfortunately, a lot of sex workers are also just completely uninterested in politics and don’t realize how corporate power and fascists have been attempting to strangle us more and more (and eventually eliminate the entire field) through various legislation and the influence of neoliberal deference politics in the left-leaning sphere.

I witnessed this myself, many times, and it’s been very difficult getting those apolitical sex workers to care but nonetheless, we must try because every single person’s awareness matters and I’d love for those people to wake up and smell the coffee before the worst happens to all of us.

Persephone: How do you feel about billionaires? Israel and Palestine?

Harmony: Oh, I can go off on both of these topics at length but will try to stay concise.

To open with a salacious but factual statement: billionaires shouldn’t exist! Simply because accruing this much individual wealth shouldn’t even be possible within the framework of free market economy (in itself obviously a very flawed concept). In other words, sensible businesspeople will agree that Adam Smith’s bones must be rattling at the sight of his ideas being that grotesquely perverted and his stern warnings ignored.

Despite the lies we’ve all been told about trickle-down-economics and meritocracy, most current billionaires have artificially generated and inflated their wealth (I swear, I’m not even trying to go all “Zeitgeist” on you) through stock market manipulation, gradual increased monopolization of the global markets (achieved by means of neoliberal media propaganda and active restructuring of governments worldwide to favor corporate interests), widespread worldwide privatization of all goods and even free public resources (going hand-in-hand with modernized asymmetrical settler-colonialism and genocide) and disaster capitalism (all hail Naomi Klein!), aided by manufacturing the public’s consent through various entertainment and news media.

Regarding Israel’s genocide on Palestine… well, my choice of words reveals it already. I’m incredibly disgusted by Israel’s deep-seated islamophobia and settler colonialist project, the US government’s and Germany’s enthusiastic aiding in it and I applaud the brave worldwide activism aiming to put a stop to this horror. It appalls me just how much effort Israel is expending to generate infinite and instantaneous “hasbara” in every sphere of the internet and the sadly still quite common avoidance by many to acknowledge Israel’s actions as an active genocide for fear of being labeled as an antisemite.

For anyone that’s on the fence about this conflict – I encourage you to watch a documentary on the history of how Israel was initially established and internationally recognized as a state and the British empire’s role in it, followed by the process and human cost of how the stolen land was ethnically cleansed, settled and developed (first and second Nakba). And finally, watch something on the history of the “failed” two-state solution negotiations, the Palestinian liberation fight (Marwan Barghouti, the First and Second Intifadas, The Great March of Return) in opposition of Israel’s continuous aggression, conflation of Judaism with Zionism and strongly funded Zionist propaganda and lobbyism in the US (see AIPAC, ADL, Sheldon and Miriam Adelson who are also major Trump donors), especially targeting the Jewish community (see: Birthright Israel trips).

 

Persephone: To that, GNC people often find their families outside of their birth families; did you have to go elsewhere for that, or is your family relatively understanding of your queerness?

Harmony: My family didn’t know the full spectrum of reasons for my being GNC, so they largely tolerated it until I was able to move out and gradually go no-contact.

Lots of my friends were appearing understanding and progressive but turned out to be quite bigoted and mired in traditional gender dogma, which left me to recoil, stop trying to connect with them on it and just…wonder whether I had been lied to or they had changed as they entered adulthood and started falling for their parents’ conservative propaganda. I had only about 2-3 friends that were not fully indoctrinated by societal roles but sadly, we eventually lost touch.

However, as a massive loner, the internet, my partner and my own mind and art have usually sufficed. At some point, I accepted that my gender identity and views will bewilder certain people but I will never stop expressing myself in the way that I prefer to. My largely traditionally perceived as femme outward appearance (long hair, manicure, makeup) seems to fool a lot of people into a false sense of security (until I open my mouth, that is) and as much as I’d like to instantly repel them instead, I’m quite happy with my looks and wouldn’t change them (for now!).

 

Persephone: What about sex workers? Do you have anyone you look up to in particular?

Harmony: Well, before starting in sex work, I have never met or known any sex workers personally. Just the ones I’ve read about, saw in media or consumed the content of. I’m probably going to sound like a total uninformed dork again, but the ones that come to mind as initially inspirational are Dita von Teese, Bettie Page and Mia Khalifa. Whereas currently, I actively participate in the community, help others and receive help, taking friends in the field and other creators I see around as an anchor and inspiration to stay motivated and push my creative abilities further!

Persephone: There’s often a strong theatrical component to sex work and BDSM; i.e., costumes, gender roles, aesthetics of power and death, music, makeup. How do these things intersect for you, and do they cross over into real life for you? For example, do you find yourself wearing similar clothing and expressing yourself sex-positively when you’re not on the clock?

Harmony: Oh gosh, that takes me way back! While entering university and studying, something suddenly made me turn more dramatic (a good thing!) Previously, I mostly just wore jeans, boots/trainers and band merch. That obviously still continued to take place but I started learning makeup (especially the goth and glam styles), putting more time into dressing up and talking about BDSM with my friends.

As to my current habits – in winter, I barely ever go outside, mostly just for a walk or to run errands. I prefer to be comfortable, resulting in practical clothing choices and zero makeup. In summer, early fall and late spring, I’m tempted much more to dress sexy and show myself off. Most of my sex-positive self-expression comes through what I say though! I love flirting, cracking nasty sexual jokes and innuendos, openly bringing up porn and sexual topics… only when it really is ok and appropriate for whomever I’m talking to! I’ve always been like that.

However, I just rarely ever go to social events anymore, even when it’s nicer out.

Persephone: There’s often an animal component to sexuality and gender expression, helping workers establish close bonds with each other and nature; i.e., furries, but also therians and various kinks; e.g., puppy play. How do you feel about these things, be they for work, pleasure, or both?

Harmony: I’m completely in favor of furries and pet play! Many people don’t realize it but those communities practically brought fantasy toys into existence – now highly popularized and incorporated into sensual playtime by many people (not without controversy, but that was limited to specific predators only). I engage in pet play occasionally and have tried on various roles, like that of a rabbit, puppy and wolf but ultimately, I have to say that for the most part, I’m not really into it.

Unfortunately, nasty people love to misunderstand both and class it as some sort of zoophilia, however there is absolutely no connection because fursonas are anthropomorphic and pet play mostly only adopts animalistic qualities that already exist in human expression, in addition to using the “pet” role to facilitate either gentle submission or dehumanization and degradation.

Persephone: Sex workers are generally treated as monsters to harm and exploit under capital. Do you have a preferred way of expressing the humanity of sex workers, be that simply stating it or through the work that you do, art, or some combination, etc?

Harmony: Oppositional praxis concerns our creative success versus the states. Before we can consider that push-pull, we need to outline the dialectical-material nature of creative success, and creative success itself for or against the state inside liminal territories: I prefer to do it through directly standing up for myself and other SWers online, politely and, if needed, sternly reminding and educating people about our basic human rights and legitimacy as workers. Oodles of harmful news and entertainment media portrayals of us are tough to undo, especially since our trade is famously among the oldest existing ones, yet has simultaneously been continuously marginalized and over-glorified. I also try to educate my subscribers about the difficulties, advantages and truths vs myths regarding sex work (just because there is THAT MUCH misinformation out there!) whenever that comes up in conversation and occasionally contribute to the SWer Resources & Support group with infographics, articles and advice. Eventually, I would love to create some sex-positive or pro-SWer art, however I’ve been severely lacking the time to do that so far.

Persephone: Do you have a particular aspect of liberation you like to focus on; e.g., fat liberation or decriminalizing sex work? To that, what’s the difference between positive thinking and liberation in your eyes?

Harmony: I don’t have any certain focus at this point because I treat the liberation of sex workers as a holistic project that is part of the overall struggle for social liberties and our collective emancipation from the predatory grip of capitalism. I enjoy highlighting certain aspects of the fight as they come up either in public or in my mind.

As to “positive thinking,” it is a harmful way of escapism and a terrible lie which we must avoid falling prey to, attempting to work at a better world and be hopeful instead. I would love to cite the following quote by Eric Liu to illustrate this distinction: “To be optimistic is to assume things will work out. To be hopeful is to realize things can work out if you work at them. Hope requires responsibility and agency; optimism relieves us of both. In rooting for your sports team, choose optimism. In rooting for democracy, choose hope.”

Persephone: How do you feel about BDSM and using calculated risk to confront and heal from trauma? I.e., using collars or whips to experience pain or control as pleasurable, not harmful (I love collars, for instance).

Harmony: Oh, you’ll have a laughing fit over this! To be honest, I have always been fully supportive of erotic modeling (and wary of the exploitation, abuse and discrimination in that field), stripping, porn production (of course, with exceptions for illegal material, revenge porn, toxic porn categories like “barely legal” and the abusive treatment of actors by the industry, not to mention the very widespread bigotry) and decriminalizing FSSW. However, I temporarily fell for some SWERF-y talking points regarding online SW, based on my own misconceptions and insecurities – I was barely even familiar with OF at that point (2021), mostly hearing about it on YouTube, and this actually prompted me to properly look into that field in the first place and learn more about it, which of course resulted in those toxic SWERF myths being debunked in no time. From there on, my amazement and interest in porn and sex work just kept growing!

Persephone: Does expressing yourself in a dehumanized BDSM position (e.g., CNC or living latex, etc) or state of existence speak to your humanity as something to value?

Harmony: Most definitely. Not everyone will enjoy all the different flavors of BDSM but they are valid for the people that enjoy engaging in them. With extreme expressions of dehumanization/degradation/humiliation in kink comes great responsibility for all participants to guarantee safety, consent throughout and stellar aftercare. Simultaneously, through the extremes we can deconstruct our existence, confront the darkest corners of our mind and experience the ultimate surrender or attainment of power.

Persephone: What got you interested in BDSM? Do you have a preference in terms of what you give or receive?

Harmony: I remember having had sexual dreams of submission and domination, imagining scenes from my favorite anime and books, writing and reading fan-fiction (yep, I know, cringe). In my formative years, BDSM has definitely already entered the mainstream, being mentioned in many songs, movies, books and news articles, taking centerstage in the world of fashion and advertising by appropriating kink wear and harmfully intertwining it with the simultaneous appropriation of the goth/industrial subculture (they do have some natural overlap but this was different).

I have heard plenty of direct and tongue-in-cheek references to it in music (Depeche Mode, Soft Cell and other 80s synth pop, metal, rock, industrial…), read some of Anne Rice’s books, excerpts of “Venus in Furs”, Marquis de Sade’s work and the revolting fanfic rag “50 Shades of Grey” has by then besmirched paper and was somehow adapted for the screen in an even worse way… anyhow, amidst all of that, living in a city with a prominent queer and kinky scene, I started learning more about BDSM online, a lot of it via resources shared on Tumblr – memes, (great) infographics, primers, links… and naturally, the healthy and the toxic BDSM porn blogs.

Lastly, again through cultural references, I have encountered and immediately taken to Bettie Page and Dita von Teese’s art and style! I even had Dita’s Burlesque/Fetish and the Art of the Teese coffee table book… wish I still had it!

In terms of what I prefer to give or receive, I have always found bondage, sensation play, worship and impact play most fascinating!

Persephone: In your mind, is BDSM inherently sexual? If so or if not, can you explain why?

Harmony: It’s tough to define that if we start dissecting the definition of “sexual”. BDSM is clearly very closely connected to sexual/erotic experience but I think that shibari workshops, tantric massage (especially using candles), role play scenes that don’t involve sex or erotic arousal… also show us that elements of it can be more sensual, psychological or intimate rather than only inherently serving sexual pleasure. I think it is true due to how similar the different types of an aroused state can be: for example spiritual glee or anxiety-inducing flashbacks of trauma, healed (which deeply informs our sexual preferences), deep interpersonal intimacy, psychedelic drugs, also the experience of consuming amazing art or creating work that manages to achieve a high amount of innate truth and grace. All of these let us tap into and revel in the (non-religious, to me) divinity of the collective unconscious, an indescribable inner peace.

If I may deviate to organized religion, aka opium of the masses, and its manipulative exploits for a second, they stole, held hostage and appropriated knowledge, sexuality, the arts in a myriad of ways – and why do you think that is? I sure wonder! Not too different from how fascists also exploit the spiritual power of these aforementioned things to bend people to their will.

Persephone: Does BDSM inform the sex work that you do in an educational or therapeutic way?

Harmony: My goal is to try and become more informative eventually in a direct and public-facing way, providing resources, but I have always valued and employed the proper and healthy practice of BDSM in my work, trying to educate my clients on safety, consent and kink generally, where needed, alongside being empathetic, listening to their concerns and worries to a healthy degree and lastly, talking my new “patients” through their preferences, boundaries and etiquette, getting to know their kink persona and introducing them to mine!

It’s very easy to skip or gloss over healthy BDSM practice principles but I try to get everyone to adhere and understand their importance, avoiding clients that exude an exploitative, toxic or abusive air.

Persephone: In terms of calculated risk, how does it feel to surrender some degree of power in a scenario where you can’t actually be harmed? Or vice versa, if you have more power? Do you have a preference and if so, why?

Harmony: To start with your last question: I’m a switch and keep being affirmed in that preference more and more as I explore different kinky scenarios. A large variety of ideas and desires swarms my mind and I would never want to limit myself to just one role or dynamic. If anything, some of my favorite role play videos to shoot have been role reversal, corruption/mind control/manipulation or forced submission scenes. Knowing both sides of kink power dynamics and their crossover points well has definitely helped me become a better domme and submissive in turn.

Now, to get to the original question. When the contractual framework of consent and boundaries of all participating parties is settled, comfort and safety ensured – the feeling of both wielding and surrendering power is overwhelmingly potent and spiritual, not too different from meditation among other similar phenomena (yes, hate to say it but despite having been hijacked by wellness lunatics and grifters, there is some legitimacy to the practice).

Persephone: If you feel comfortable answering, can theatrical disempowerment feel healing or therapeutic to you in regards to real trauma?

Harmony: Absolutely! I must admit that I’ve never been to therapy and only have knowledge about my trauma as far as I’ve deduced it myself, however I think that going into subspace has helped me have deeply spiritual, cathartic experiences and realizations, resulting in breaking some deep-seated compulsions regarding controlling my environment and behavior, asserting myself to others and addressing my very stubborn nature. Those were formed as a coping mechanism for me to deal with being subjected to highly controlling, violent parents with wild mood swings.

Of course, I have extensively read about methods of entering and wielding subspace, trying them out in a safe setting with my partner.

Persephone: What’s the most stressful thing about sex work? The most liberating?

Harmony: Quite paradoxical actually – it’s the flexibility of full-time online SW that makes it stressful but also liberating. I pushed extremely long workdays, made my body ache, missed sleep and meals… but I can drop in and out of work whenever I want, set a schedule if I’d like to, take time off – basically be my own boss!

Other stressful factors include the instability of income (“feast or famine” nature of this work), the need to churn out fresh, daily, “viral” content at a high production level and with sufficient variety, the constant risk of being attacked, censored, doxxed/leaked by an aggravated fan or banned by our platforms, payment processors and political enemies, difficulties acquiring housing or loans due to the taboo nature of this work, terrible/pushy/ manipulative clients…

Okay! Before I scare off all the potential new sex workers reading this, let’s name some ways in which this work is liberating: possibility of true meritocracy (however, there is definitely still inequality) – the sky is the limit in terms of how much you can earn and hard, smart work is rewarded; there is no boss commandeering you around and no annoying coworkers; despite restrictions across platforms you can freely express yourself and find a place to post and monetize almost any content you want (that is legal); sex work inevitably makes you wear a lot of hats and thus teaches you lots of skills by doing it: audio and video production, photography, marketing, writing/expression, creativity, editing, legal literacy, soft skills, management and other aspects of business admin, the list goes on!

Persephone: What are the benefits to doing sex work in today’s day an age versus in the past? What do you think needs to improve; e.g., open reactionary bigots versus moderate SWERFs posturing as feminists speaking for all groups?

Harmony: Oof, that’s where I have a knowledge gap. I don’t know nearly enough about how sex work was practiced in the past. From my layman viewpoint, it DEFINITELY seems much easier nowadays, if we’re speaking of the Western world. Decriminalization of FSSW has been achieved in a lot of countries, most providers now working independently (ditching pimps and exploitative brothels), networking to protect themselves from law enforcement, scams and hostile clientele. Platforms like Onlyfans and Chaturbate have entered the mainstream discourse and keep rising in popularity, set to dethrone toxic and exploitative porn behemoths PornHub or XHamster (sprouting from stolen work and STILL scamming and exploiting actors!) – clearly a net positive!

Pole dancing has also been accepted into the mainstream as an art and sport (to a controversial effect, based on some professional dancers’ opinions). Not knowing the exact statistics, there is still an overwhelming amount of hostility and violence towards FSSW, especially providers of color and queer providers. In some cases, even online sex workers, while generally considered much safer, are subjected to stalking, doxxing and in extreme cases even murder.

Many areas still need improvement and we should take a holistic approach to tackling these issues… first of all, we have to continue promoting the validity of sexual liberty and the demarginalization of sex work (humanizing sex workers in popular media, breaking toxic stereotypes, reducing stigma). We also need to fight racism, ableism, discrimination against LGBTQ workers and harmful legislation like SESTA/FOSTA and the Nordic Model (championed and conceptualized by SWERFs), continue the international unionization effort while establishing, safeguarding and improving our workspaces, including autonomy from corporate (now, mostly fascist-controlled) social media and the existing oligopoly of fan-sites and clip sites, alongside improving TRUE inclusivity. Moreover, we have to devise better ways of protecting ourselves and our output against scammers, AI, theft and exploitation.

Persephone: What are your favorite monsters (i.e., undead, demons, and or anthromorphs) and why?

Harmony: Mythical creatures have always been my favorite kind of monsters! My knowledge of myth definitely needs a whole lot of brushing up on but as a kid, I was voraciously reading any sort of mythology – Greek, Roman, Slavic, Norse, Japanese, Egyptian, Mesopotamian, Hindu… out of this interest grew a strong passion for magical realism, the Gothic and (dark) romanticism, which revisited folklore and fairytales, then introduced its own contemporary monsters.

If I had to pick any favorites, I’m going to make a choice that’s a tad weird but close to my heart: I love Zaches from ETA Hoffmann’s Little Zaches called Cinnabar. The damn novel was published in 1819 but it literally describes Trump… or any grifter/quack and the minutiae of their rise and downfall.

 

Persephone: Media-wise, do you like to read, watch movies, and or play videogames just for fun, but also to gather ideas about gender-non-conformity expression, BDSM and other sex-positive devices?

Harmony: Oh, absolutely! I’m trying to make more time for that again but hell yeah, as a socially awkward, nerdy outsider, most of what I know now came from all sorts of media I’ve been devouring over the course of my lifetime! Movies, fiction, non-fiction, games, music, visual art – I love it all and it’s always exciting to delve into a great author’s lore, mindset and historical context.

However, media analysis has always been very important to me and I try to see every piece of media I consume critically …which makes hate-watching/ listening/reading all the more fun because you really start decoding the bullshit faster and faster the more you pay attention to what’s in between the lines.

Persephone: What are your thoughts on sex/porn and art, business and pleasure? I like to mix them to form healthier boundaries established between workers; how do you feel about this?

Harmony: I concur! I certainly wouldn’t do that with everyone, there needs to be a basis of trust and common goals/interests since as sex workers, we face many dangers coming from fans, collaborators or “colleagues” (human nature, eh?) but I wouldn’t just forbid that sort of fluidity.

Persephone: Per my arguments, Capitalism sexualizes and fetishizes all workers to serve profit, leading to genocide. Keeping that in mind, what is the best way to achieve intersectional solidarity using Gothic poetics?

Harmony: I see the best way of achieving solidarity run through a multi-pronged approach of uniting the arts, media and activism. Art has always been hugely influential in any social struggle and knowing that, nowadays, corporate forces have taken their own multi-pronged action to deny people free artistic expression by means of censorship, gatekeeping access to funding (thus severely limiting many poor and middle-class voices and letting the bourgeois, pro-corporate ones monopolize the arena) while forcing us into the rat race to subsist, robbing us of the most important resources – health, time and energy, and disseminating exclusionary, brazen anti-art propaganda, redefining the significance of expression, settling it deeply within the common mentality to attempt to render art meaningless and impotent.

I’m sure you know all their talking points – “artists are all broke losers”, “art is useless and frivolous”, “only conspiracy theorists care about symbolism”, “you are either born with talent or not”, “art is all about weirdness”…and finally, my biggest pet peeve and point of contention with other leftists – “art is only subjective”. The two latter ones are very widespread and serve to disincentivize people from analyzing art/any media (within the context of intentionally failing to teach us critical thinking).

All of above serves to maintain the Potemkin villages of capitalist “spectacle” that cloak the true revolting physiognomy of late-stage capitalism (just as allegorically represented by Jasmine, the “big bad” in Season 4 of the tv show Angel) whereas artists with integrity are the “Scooby Doo Gang”, unmasking to the public the actual villains, aka the architects of the neoliberal “Master Plan”.

Anyhow, as a humanity, we are overdue to reclaim artistic expression in its true original meaning and break out of the holding pattern of this static cultural warfare.

Persephone: Can you describe your own struggles with achieving liberation/humanization as a GNC sex worker?

Harmony: I have to be honest and say that although I see myself as GNC/ specifically agender, I don’t express it much in my erotic work as I tend to mostly present femme. This is not a byproduct of desperately wanting to appeal to the cis-het-male audience but a desire to find the femme in myself because I’ve been dressing mostly butch my entire life. There were many reasons for it: resisting gender stereotypes, my own exploration of gender through clothing, thinking that common femme fashion doesn’t suit me (bad tailoring being a factor)…

That said, I am not censoring myself when I have a GNC content idea and have some of that work displayed on my Fansly page. I have made a specific decision early on, not to promote and have a presence in toxic, bigoted spaces, so no one’s ever complained about my artistic direction!

Persephone: I view sex work as an important means of de facto (extracurricular) education; i.e., entertainment, but also a means of humanizing people within the practice at large. How do you feel about this? Can we learn from art and porn as a means of humanizing marginalized groups?

Harmony: To this – a resounding YES! Wondering why Project 2025 looks to outlaw porn/sex work? That’s because, as flawed as the adult industry still is within our capitalist model, online sex work, erotic entertainment/art and the increasing autonomy of FSSW clearly contributes to the widespread humanization of marginalized people and challenges the public’s prejudiced view of sex work! And on top of that, we come closer to the demystification of nude bodies and their diversity, getting comfortable with our sexuality AND bringing about a huge overhaul of the archaic structures of the porn industry. For decades, cis-het-male-controlled media had tried dictating to us what “acceptable” bodies and sexual orientations are… but the statistics are in and the oppressors’ obsolete views got completely MAULED by the truth once again!

Obviously, there is still plenty of work to be done on each of those fronts but we have definitely made the prudes and elites shake in their seats – that’s massive and we need to keep striking the iron while it’s hot!

Persephone: I value establishing mutual trust, healthy communication and boundary formation/negotiation and respect, seeing them to be the most vital qualities in any relationship. Do you agree, and if so, why?

Harmony: I agree completely! And I really like that you expand it to any relationship – in my experience, many people tend to see friendships as much less significant compared to other relations, thus requiring much less emotional labor. As a collective humanity, we need to instill and educate everyone about these values. Currently, we just throw young people into cold water and let corporate ideology take the wheel instead. Learning healthy communication and setting boundaries, along with listening to our intuition, helps individuals know themselves better, become assertive and get comfortable with the inevitability of uncertainty in life. Honestly… so many unnecessary conflicts would be rooted out if these simple qualities were at the heart of most people.

Of course, not to forget, trauma and other various mental health complications come into play and people should get fair access to addressing those with a professional or dealing with them independently as they can stand in the way of striving towards the aforementioned qualities.

Persephone: How do you orient and what are your thoughts on polyamory insofar as it affects your work? For the layperson/uninitiated, how would you describe the difference between a fuck buddy/FWB and other more casual relationships versus serious ones? Can people be friends and still have sex in a casual manner? What is the most valuable aspect of a friendship regardless if sex is a part of the equation or not?

Harmony: My partner and I are in an open relationship or, to cite a fitting term I saw, “monogamish”. I am also mostly a solo porn creator that is not interested in collaborations at this time, so polyamory doesn’t really factor into my work unless I’m working with poly clients.

It gets difficult to describe the difference between casual, FWB and “serious” relations because I am strongly against the rigid compartmentalization of social structures (for example through nuclear households) and in favor of seeing them and the idea of love as fluid. Of course, this stance also poses dangers (just like any liberty) and requires vigilant discretion and self-awareness – for example, people come to mind that manipulate/force their partners into polyamorous relations or, as often thematized in movies, people can commit usery by disingenuously stringing their casual partners (mainly those interested in monogamy) along, instrumentalizing the notion of “let’s stay open-minded and see where this goes.”

I would ultimately say that character compatibility is the key factor that distinguishes casual relations from “serious”, or exclusive ones. Exclusivity is mostly expressed in the strength of commitment, e.g. marriage and other legal obligations, cohabitation, prioritization of your partner. Say, I would probably have sex with someone that I’m not compatible with but wouldn’t want to cohabitate or enter any legal obligations with them. That said, living by rigid lines separating these different categories is ignoring human nature at best and creating perfect conditions for abuse at worst – just think of how stupid and reductive Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs sounds to us nowadays.

If your friends need you – help them! Make an effort to see them and don’t bottle yourself up in the indulgence of a new romance just because society/ your parents tell(s) you it’s higher in the hierarchy.

Whether people can have casual sex but stay friends is dependent on the individuals in question and their emotional makeup. It may be easier for someone who is already in a loving relationship and may not suffer getting emotionally attached to the point of wanting a more serious involvement and risking it being unrequited. It’s important to be honest with yourself and to recognize how the intimacy of sex may affect your attitude towards your friend, then make decisions based on that. Additionally, people mistakenly see sex as an immediate indication of a “serious, romantic” relation, which is, pardon my French, horseshit… requiring exclusivity or monogamy to allow sex is a largely antiquated social norm that needs to be broken and redefined as an individual preference.

As to the most valuable aspects of a friendship… to me, it’s the solidarity, trust/dependability, sharing in our human toil but also in creativity 🙂

Persephone: If you have a partner, do they know about the work that you do? How comfortable are they with it?

Harmony: Yes, my partner not only knows about me doing sex work, he’s the one that suggested it to me! I’ve always struggled to see myself as attractive or unique looking enough to be photographed, much less to get an entire audience intrigued! This is an insecurity that he fully helped me overcome through fun photoshoots (be it dressed and made up or au naturel) and recording us messing around together. He occasionally appears in my work but prefers to stay behind the scenes for the most part.

Persephone: How did you and your partner meet? What do you think makes an ideal partner?

Harmony: We’d met online via Tastebuds, a forum and dating site that helps people match based on music tastes – yes, we’re both huge music nerds 🙂 Of course, the notion of the “ideal partner” depends on an individual’s personal values. To me, brutal honesty, strong principles, intellectual curiosity paired with an open mind, great communication skills and inherent kindness are the key qualities. Of course, having shared interests and goals is the cherry on top!

I would like to offer up this great quote by Nietzsche that applies universally and has proven to be very true in my own relationship: “When marrying you should ask yourself this question: do you believe you are going to enjoy talking with this [woman] into your old age? Everything else in a marriage is transitory, but most of the time that you’re together will be devoted to conversation.”

Persephone: What advice would you give incels, nice guys and other cis-het men (or token groups; e.g., TERFs and cis-queer tokens, etc) displaying bigoted attitudes towards women and other marginalized groups?

Harmony: This one’s gonna be a tough one! I have a personal interest in studying what motivates these terrible attitudes and oftentimes, it’s difficult to find anything but swear words for them because quite clearly, they have fallen to hatred and bigotry in order to project their insecurities and fear of uncertainty, especially regarding their own identity and economic security… but I would like to make a final appeal.

Think about your definition of “normal” and how you came to form that opinion. What influenced it and what makes it valid to you? Try to recall times when you were unnecessarily judged, pigeonholed or put in a box by someone – it’s infuriating, isn’t it? Don’t condemn an entire group by anecdotal evidence and don’t presume things about others. Learn to communicate directly and figure people out on a case-by-case basis. Don’t rummage in strangers’ lives, work on yours first! As Tim Walz very correctly said: “Mind your own damn business!”

Regarding incels and “nice guys”, neoliberal/hypercapitalist and fascist cultural dogma, predominantly in Western countries like the US, contributes to their radicalization against women and minority groups. The Christofascism (or technofeudalism) of JD Vance, Peter Thiel and such clearly states their plans to orchestrate a gender, race and class divide, along with the return to archaic norms as informed by misled Christianity, ultimately benefitting the corporate elite. Incels will have to realize that they need to detach themselves from this hypercorporate ideology that only serves the 1% and understand that it takes building your own character (NOT follow archetypes prescribed by corporate overlords!) and seeing others as human to achieve real happiness.

Persephone: Likewise, what advice would you give to more privileged groups that need to understand the value of listening to those more oppressed than them in a larger struggle for liberation?

Harmony: I don’t trust the Trump faction to understand this, so I’ll be mainly addressing the privileged centrists, independents and liberals. This might sound painfully obvious but it absolutely needs to be reiterated… everyone knows the value of knowledge, right? Now, we need to teach the importance of solidarity. And not the kind that is flashed for social clout but the real deal. The left-leaning sphere is clearly very prone to splintering and this has been gradually worsened by the pandemic and various neoliberal attempts to control societal dynamics worldwide.

Fascist influences, groupthink and nihilism have brought us to where we are now with the rollback of social liberties (especially for the marginalized groups), climate catastrophe, global recession and cultural/ spiritual bankruptcy. My warning to the upper class and socially privileged people is that they are personally going to feel more and more of this societal decay, it’s just a matter of time. It feels crazy to have to repeat this over and over and fall on deaf ears but ensuring stability and safety for EVERYONE is key to all-round state welfare. Practice some real compassion and curiosity: read, directly listen to and believe the concerns of the oppressed, for fuck’s sake!

Little, yet significant side note: it’s important to draw the distinction between actual oppressed peoples and the ones masquerading as such, their methodology prescribed by corporate puppet masters. It has the dual purpose of not only harnessing and redirecting the existing outrage but even when it doesn’t function as such, bringing about the added, desired effect of creating disillusionment and callousness towards the idea of helping people in general.

Persephone: What are your thoughts on GNC people who are still in the closet but thinking about coming out? Where should they go and who should they talk to?

Harmony: In this administration… I wish I had a good answer. I have more or less always been a shut-in and currently only ever dwell in the online sphere. I have explored gender in solitude as it’s always been something very intimate to me. The importance of in-person connections and relating cannot be stressed enough but if seeking out other GNC people irl isn’t possible for a person, I definitely encourage online connections and resources, as they’ve massively helped me in my orientation. Of course, discretion and attention to your gut feeling when opening up is very important. Coming out is a very impactful, circumstance-based decision, so I’d like to recommend to go with your heart – if you want to come out to everyone, do it! Even if there will be negative consequences, you will be glad that you stayed true to yourself. If you’d rather wait or not come out to certain people at all – don’t!

Persephone: Similarly, for those thinking about doing sex work for the first time, where is a good place to start with that; i.e., what advice would you give to those starting out based on your own experiences?

Harmony: I can only speak to online sex work but here are some basic ideas. I recommend starting to build your social media as early as possible! It takes a while to grow your online presence and an existing audience will definitely give you a leg up when you’ll eventually launch your fan page, if that is the route you’d like to take. Nothing wrong with direct sales through socials but they do make you more vulnerable and are definitely more confusing and dangerous for a newcomer.

Try to acquire good lighting if you don’t have access to a bright, natural light source and practice your photography and videography skills! Read all the informative resources about the industry that are available on the internet! They will help you figure out what kind of content you would like to do and what your boundaries are, ideas on services you might offer, how you’d price them…

Personally, I recommend combing through and posting in the various creator communities on Reddit (my favorite ones are r/creatorsadvice and r/Fansly_Advice) and also connecting with SWer Resources & Support, present on Bsky and their own website: https://swresourcesandsupport.com Lastly, feel free to reach out to me anywhere for help, I will gladly assist and guide you but please, I beg you… don’t make me dog-walk you through every basic thing.

Persephone: What’s your idea of the perfect date? The ideal fuck? Do you have an ideal experience of either you’d like to share?

Harmony: Oof… honestly, there are so many ways to have a perfect date and an ideal fuck! I’m a simple gal – bottom line for me is absolute comfort for both of us, no pressure and a stellar, stimulating conversation! I do enjoy a good long walk, a homemade meal cooked together, watching something great and analyzing it afterwards, attending a show, getting creative (crafting, drawing, etc), cycling trips… As for the perfect fuck – make it steamy as hell, spontaneous, chaotic, maybe a little risky but simultaneously very loving, caring and passionate!

 

Persephone: What’s your wildest/most enjoyable sexual encounter (e.g., sex in public, in the kitchen while the roomies are home, etc)?

Harmony: The wildest things me and my partner have done are mostly definitely group fun …and having to fuck with family or roommates present at home. Having to whisper and keep as quiet as possible can be really fun!

 

Persephone: For you, what’s the cutest thing a partner can do, in bed or out? For example, my partner Bay loves it when new partners come really fast/are having their first time PIV with Bay. Consent, intimacy and affection are all really sexy and fun for Bay. How about you?

Harmony: I gotta agree with Bay on that one – it’s incredibly adorable! I also love watching cute squirming… just any little things a partner does that are unique to them and their expression of pleasure 🙂 Also… watching their eyes light up as they tell me something they are passionate about! Makes me think: “Hell yes! Go off and soapbox me! I can’t wait to learn more!” Passion, excitement and care are SO HOT!

 

Persephone: What are your thoughts on consensual voyeurism and exhibitionism as educational/entertaining acts? Does being able to be more open and communicative help us learn from each other to see each other as human and also what to watch out for/what to challenge at a systemic level?

Harmony: I’m definitely in favor of ethically demystifying sex and nudity among consenting adults and I am a big fan of entertainment that isn’t shy to thematize or include sexuality! Be it in a symbolic way or not. I think that due to the Christofascists’ beliefs and attempts at rigorous censorship, more of erotic art and nude activism would aid in our collective fight for liberation.

It would help combat the deep-seated shame around sex and our bodies, letting us develop an overall healthier view of sexual relations and a greater common understanding of (enthusiastic) consent, provided that the displayed sex or kinky activity is ethically sound. Many pieces of media (looking at you, 50 Shades..!) neglect to do it and cause irrevocable harm. Let’s try our best to screen our work for any vagueness and prevent the promotion of abuse, most often it happens in an unintended way!

Persephone: Does fucking to music, roleplay and other theatrical elements make sex better?

Harmony: Oh yeah, for me – most definitely! I’m a big proponent of anarchy and diversity in sex, so a multi-hour deep RP session sounds just as good to me as a sensual tantric exploration or a fiery quickie! Not to mention sex that includes a bunch of nerdy banter, jokes and interruptions! As for music – it holds a very special place in my heart and I have not only had sex but also masturbated to certain tracks or albums. For the curious cats: that included stuff like Gojira’s old albums, industrial music and prog rock 😉

 

Persephone: Connections between sex workers and clients are often discrete under capital. Can a degree of friendship and intimacy make for a better relationship between the two?

Harmony: In theory – hell yes! In praxis… not so much. Or, best managed ethically and on a case-by-case basis to maintain a healthy standard. I would say that I have definitely developed true, meaningful friendships with some clients of mine. I tend to be an open book and quite uncensored, preferring not to fake a personality, painstakingly watch the clock or monetize every word which probably puts me among the more permissive providers. However, I do not tolerate time wasters, pushy assholes and scammers …and have to watch out to make a living after all, it’s my full-time job and we all know the current state of the world economy! As a sex worker, it is important to learn to listen to your gut and be assertive when needed. We have to remember that many clients have no reservations in blatantly lying, plotting or financially manipulating us. Once I develop enough trust in a client and can ensure they are fully aware of the parasocial implications of our connection, I’m happy to call them a friend!

Persephone: For people struggling with gender expectations like being the right size or pleasing one’s partner and enjoying oneself, is there anything you might recommend?

Harmony: There isn’t really much to do aside from making a deliberate decision to prioritize your own happiness. I see it as a life’s work that we have to keep gnawing at, sometimes with enormous setbacks …or huge positive outcomes! Surrounding yourself with mature, morally attuned, principled people that wouldn’t be jealous or judgmental is key. Learn healthy, direct communication to the best of your ability and practice it with everyone! As for nonsensical gatekeeping expectations of being “a certain size or look to fit into a category in the view of a society/group” – fuck that noise and pursue your true identity on your own terms!

Persephone: How does it feel being your true self, despite the risks of Satanic/gay panic and similar moral panics in America and around the world?

Harmony: It feels truly odd and isolating because as a child/teenager, I was assured that we are going in a good direction in terms of social liberation and antifascist action. Having received my education in the country that defeated the nazis in WW2 and the country whose biggest concern has always been preventing fascism from gaining traction again… I had been radicalized through various trips to historical landmarks of antifascist activism. I feel bad for having been in the fog of delusion, lots of my former friends choosing to eventually align themselves with neoliberalism despite us having bonded through leftist art. I made a vow to myself to speak the truth, live my real identity unapologetically, not make excuses for my beliefs and protect my leftist/queer comrades at any cost. We shouldn’t let history repeat itself by getting too comfortable and slipping into becoming lackeys and enablers of neo-Nazis, which would allow fascism to snowball through groupthink.

 

Persephone: Thanks for taking the time to answer these questions, and also for working on Sex Positivity with me. If people want to follow you, where can they follow you and support what you do?

Harmony: It’s been a great pleasure and a privilege to work together and develop a friendship with you, Perse! If I seem interesting to your readership, they can find me on Fansly, Mastodon and Bsky, I use the same handle everywhere!


About the Author (reprise)

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). To learn more about Persephone’s academic/activist work and larger portfolio, go to her About the Author page. To purchase illustrated or written material from Persephone (thus support the work she does), please refer to her commissions page for more information. Any money Persephone earns through commissions goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. Likewise, Persephone accepts donations for the project, which you can send directly to her PayPal,  Ko-FiPatreon or CashApp. Every bit helps!