Book Sample: A War Hauntology Primer—”Nerdy Patriarchs, ‘Real Men’ and So-Called Male ‘Witches'” + “Kento’s Dream”

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A War Hauntology Primer—”What is a Witch?” part two: Nerdy Patriarchs, “Real Men” and So-Called Male “Witches,” including Liver King but also Shonen and Bishonen Pastiche (feat. Mega Man X, Liver King and Caleb Hart)

Where are these men? Asleep beneath their grounds:

And strangers, fond as they, their furrows plough.

Earth laughs in flowers, to see her boastful boys

Earth-proud, proud of the earth which is not theirs;

Who steer the plough, but cannot steer their feet

Clear of the grave (source).

—Ralph Waldo Emerson, “Hamatreya” (1904)

Picking up where “Praxis Volume Outline, part two + Chapter Four: Bad Faith (opening and “Ladies First; or, the Grift of False Rebellion”)” left off…

By getting this far, we’re already explored examples of good (proletarian) and bad (bourgeois) witches. Now I want to articulate what separates them more clearly so we can neatly distinguish the TERFs—both male and female—from the genuine, transformative revolutionaries they try to blend in with. TERFs are like terminators in that respect: They infiltrate in bad faith, then destroy in service of the state (often through war pastiche as mirrored, but also sublimated by the very media they consume as teaching them to act that way—dogma).

Note: I’ve written about mega Man a fair bit in this book series, but he only really appears in exhibits; e.g., exhibit 1a1a1a2 (re: “Thesis Body“), 1a1a1c4 (re: “Pieces of the Camp Map“) or exhibit 43e1 (re: “Seeing Dead People“). That tradition started here; i.e., with me killing my darling Mega Man: as a cop childhood hero, specifically a witch cop per Clarke’s Law and Isaac Asimov’s I, Robot. Incidentally Caleb Hart got his start in speedrunning with Mega Man, pushed around in-game and out by the Shadow of Pygmalion, Dr. Light; i.e., as much as the in-game robot boy was… until the Mega Man Leaderboards banned him for being bigoted (Alpha Gamer’s “Speedrun World Record REMOVED because of Political Opinions,” 2020). —Perse, 5/5/2025

We’ll start with the boys (re: Mega Man) and work towards the girls. After a summation of a few more ideas, this subchapter and the next, then, will focus on more male TERFs and centrists as they present in fantasy and science fiction, as well as in the flesh: the Liver King as a “war chief” being of the imaginary past literally on steroids, and the aforementioned Caleb Hart and his, Man Box ilk of weird canonical nerd as inspired by the shonen/bishonen pastiche exported by America’s neoliberal ally in the East, Japan (as inspired by Westerns; re: exhibit 27a2a, “War Culture“); i.e., war as a cultural export out of a formerly occupied nation that America “pacified” during WW2 and whose “real men” remain beholden to a particular kind of cultural export long afterward: nation pastiche (which we’ll examine more in Chapter Five) and war pastiche of various “magical,” neoliberal genre types that include women as badass, but generally “lesser” than male authorities; i.e., the Wicked Witch of the West sitting in Oz the Great and Terrible’s interminable shadow:

(exhibit 98a4: Artist: J. Scott Campbell. Witches and goblins are classic symbols of persecution, Elphaba the monstrous-feminine [witchcraft] merged with blood libel and sodomy tropes [the Maguire version, Wicked onwards, is trans; see: “Sexist Ire”]. The Wicked Witch of the West can be a symbol of proletarian revolt, but can just as easily be reduced to a neo-conservative sexpot who gets mired down in incremental, equality-through-convenience disputes—e.g., about nudism—instead of actually critiquing power. Just as power and resistance share the same space, the aesthetics of death and power as badass can be employed by bourgeois and proletarian forces in cryptonymic opposition; the context must be gleaned through dialectical-material scrutiny as a matter of “oppression disguise” to worn, in good faith and bad as Witch™ mid-Amazonomachia. Tokens look like the oppressed, green skin or not.

To that, “Who does our badass, war-boss queen [and her implements of power and resistance] serve?” and “What is the context of her doubling in relation to class, culture and race war?” become vital questions to ask. It’s fine to enjoy her “dark queen” schtick, but endorsing it unironically without understanding its class character leads to blind pastiche, thus genocide apologia and soldiers [winged monkeys hunting down our proverbial “friends of Dorothy”].)

To the summation: “Magic” and technology are practically synonymous in the fantasy and science fiction genres (which were born out of Gothic fiction with Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein); it is also a form of visual shorthand to communicate various ideas quickly—often by sight. We’ve already examined “forbidden sight” and black magic extensively in Volume Two, and female witches in this volume—i.e., in relation to sex work as distributors of forbidden knowledge that a frequently demonized and must be reclaimed, mid-struggle.

To broaden the term, witches are any feminist/genderqueer person (male, female or intersex) who “who sticks out,” challenging mythic structure of the monomyth as sacred, but also rape, conquest and war stuck on repeat (copaganda and the Military Industrial Complex churning out waves of terror and sexy implements of war-as-fetishized). From a dialectical-material standpoint, then, good/proletarian witches are against Capitalism and all it produces: “good” war, genocide, worker exploitation, menticide, etc. Bad/bourgeois witches support the system and its sex-coercive “undead” effects; they lie, rape and kill however they can, then beg for scraps when the bone thrown to them isn’t enough (empty or false power). They abhor collective solidarity and equal rights/equal material conditions, choosing to submit to positions of power great than themselves on different generic registers; e.g., J. K. Rowling as the billionaire Queen of the TERFs, followed by princesses, knights, stableboys, etc, as part of a larger chain of colonized war boss language with girl bosses and burly girl subordinates (not unlike the Gothic variation out of the medievalized, Neo-Gothic past: a Mother Superior and her dutiful sycophant underlings serving the Church).

This includes the carceral-hauntological language that hides the problem: the Gothic castle and its hoard of good and bad guys, kings, estates. Castles, monsters, phobias with oft-BDSM flavors—the disinterred language is already ambivalent, loaded with older historical deceptions that mutate as Capitalism struggles to defend itself. The canonical sublimations become dark, sexy and cool, but also present as legitimate or authentic in comparison to the reclaimed variants—with DARVO being a classic means of counteracting activist reclamations of monstrous slurs; overtly terrestrial slurs can be discounted as “actual” racism, whereas something like “orc” or “witch” can be more readily co-opted by the oppressor class “neutral.” It’s Meerloo’s “verbocracy” as a weaponizing conditioner of fearful behaviors told in popular media during oppositional praxis.

The same goes for the reclaimed undead and demons as a form of recuperated rebellion—either defanged, corrupted or demonized to delegitimizing extremes. This process of discounting activism while colonizing their language involves lobotomized or vampiric consumers and creators who crave for trash or make it themselves without a revolutionary thought it their brains, but also those who posture as oppressed: the “good” witches wearing masks of false “revolution” as they reinforce the current socio-material structure; re: Autumn Ivy as a non-binary example of that.

(artist: Wolfhead at Night)

Anyone can be a cop, the same applying to all TERFs (most being cis) but also any fascist playing the victim; i.e., to varying degrees of victimhood and leader principle out of the purported struggle by scapegoating minorities through a kind of military optimism at the domestic level (the false hope being doubled: one, that these targets can be converted, disciplined or expelled from society through violence, thus returning things “to normal”; and two, that once normality is achieve that their anxieties will vanish and they will be safe forevermore).

I say “false revolution” like Parenti does because TERFs are “activists” who do not alter the status in any meaningful way. They’re not just state versions of the zombie, vampire and witch preying upon the weak while hiding inside a false image; they function as robotic, knee-jerk slaves for the state, attacking those perceived as aliens under state hegemony. This persecution structure includes deceptive “renovations” that fuse masculine qualities to the feminine; i.e., a monstrous-feminine label formerly assigned to female enemies of the state. Once fascism is exposed, the state must try to hide it; it makes a new kind of infiltrator to hunt labor with, using the impostor device in fascist ways that support the state’s continued existence.

In short, that’s what TERFs are, Skynet defending itself through evolved class infiltrators. They look human; their camera-like eyes glow red like live, recording cameras that constantly survey state enemies and feed that information back to Skynet. Instead of making their own fate, they’ve surrendered it to their far-off, owner-class overlords. As such, every look they give is a concealed report that betrays their class, their comrades. Worse, the closer they get to the state, the more inhuman it makes them, until rape, lies and violence are all they know and understand. They become Lady Macbeth’s un-sexed phallic woman—go from sex pests to sex fiends that, seemingly shark-like and ravenous, prey on others less as predators and more like parasites: in hiding but also in plain sight; e.g., the real parasites from Parasite (re: exhibit 42b, “The World Is a Vampire“) are the rich family with the Gothic household, one where they feed on the servants and the servants feeding off each other in order to survive under Capitalism; i.e., just like vampires in a castle do, those at the top feed on those under them while considering them weaker and less well-fed and -bred than themselves—inferior (re: exhibit 41j, ibid.).

This happens partly out of self-preservation by the soldiers, who do not wish to be exposed as corporate-state lackeys. But they still take on tolerable notions of masculinity as “non-toxic” but also non-degenerate—not literal shapeshifters who transform their physical bodies benignly using carefully controlled HRT treatments with full disclosure to the public about what they’re doing and why in clear, open language, but various deceptive forms of masculinity that uphold the status quo:

  • linguo-material markers that stress the biological sex of the performers as appropriately male or female within the colonial binary.
  • the taking of drugs to enforce the body image in ways that maintain the creation of sexual difference

We’ve already explored how intersex people and various other gender-ambiguous peoples are framed as hauntologically criminal: incorrect. Likewise, under the liminal hauntology of war as invoked by neoliberals and fascists, various token “alternatives” are allowed exist if only to flesh out the masculine ranks of fascism until it achieves formal power. This includes trans people (which we’ve already explored) and cis women (which we’ll explore throughout the chapter). Their monstrous-femininity is allowed to exist up to a point; i.e., until it becomes unwelcome.

However, before we delve into female TERFS, a few more note about the boys (in this section, the next, and part of one after that). Let’s discuss the action hero as a kind of “male ally” that presents as welcoming towards women, but whose welcoming posture is inherently deceptive: the male variant of a witch cop, a TERF.

Witches and feminists also include men, with “bad” variants offering deceitful, “undead” ideas of strength and masculinity who—while they loudly claim to love men and women and everyone else—achieve their ghoulish success through the same ill-gotten means as Caleb Hart: Patriarchal Capitalism. For male “witches,” this generally happens with hauntological “warrior” personas—ravenous abusers that literally gobble up everything around them, then lie about it:

(exhibit 98b1: Liver King isn’t just a fibber or mild imposter but a tremendous fraud whose power is hollow. Yet while he intentionally embodies the war chief of imaginary Patriarchs like Zeus or Conan, his bad-faith attempts at inclusivity under the yolk are quite fragile. As James Hale writes in “Raw Eater ‘Liver King’ Facing Backlash for Alleged Steroid Use” [2022]: 

Liver King, a social media fitness guru and supplements hawker who preaches returning to an all-natural, raw meat-based “ancestral” diet, is facing backlash for alleged steroid use. For those who aren’t familiar, the Liver King (real name Brian Johnson) has gotten big on YouTube, Instagram, and TikTok over the past couple years. He uses that platform to urge his millions of followers to embrace a “primal” lifestyle, aka a keto diet with a lot of raw meat–and raw liver, and testicles, and bone marrow–thrown in. He claims to operate by nine core “ancestral tenets,” most of which involve rejecting the “tremendous friction between modern environments and our biology” that he says is exacerbated by stuff like canola oil [source].

As we shall unpack below, these marketing tactics are fascist dogwhistles tied to man box culture; i.e., being a “real,” authentic man that is better than women or people like women: anyone who isn’t white, cis-het and visibly powerful in as a traditionally masculine way. Unlike Mark Greene and A Call to Men, authenticity for Liver King isn’t defined by treating others as equals with basic human rights; it’s by “living up” to a ridiculous performative beauty standard/self-made image for cis-het men to emulate and enforce, which generally requires Liver King to lie about his own pre-existing wealth but also his intentions more broadly. He’s the Alt-Right on Instagram, a cave man’s con man cryptofascist treating everything as a business while playing the himbo; in truth, he’s a physically augmented bully and liar that operates as fascists do: through deception, mad science, scarcity and surveillance in defense of the realm as forever insecure from outsider threats and insider conspirators that lead to degeneracy.)

The Liver King, for example, is a bad “witch.” He’s bad because he’s an already-wealthy man greedily lying to his audience about his mythical physique—how he gained it, his motto “nose-to-nail” a gross metaphor for the way in which he devours everything in sight to cultivate his perfidious body image; he’s a witch because he also uses it to preach sacred, hauntological notions of truth that are essentially completely invented out of an imaginary past threatened by degeneracy (no different than race science in that respect): the “ancestral tenets” of a fortress-mentality paganism (the Nazis weren’t Christians, they were pagans).

Liver King’s dogma involve a number of fairly innocuous activities blended with strangely prescriptive ones: “Sleep” is fairly self-explanatory. However, “Shield” is more insidious:

The fourth Ancestral Tenet is Shield because we need to avoid dangers just like our early ancestors did, but instead of running from lions, nowadays we run from seed oils, excessive wifi, EMFs, and manmade poisons (source).

Combined with the eating of raw liver (and other organs) to serve as fuel, the actual fuel of the movement is deception to reshape society in fascist (therefor decaying and falling apart) ways. Consider the King’s pledge:

The human body has been perfectly conditioned for an environment that no longer exists. It’s our responsibility to recreate that environment, if we wish to thrive in the modern world. By living ancestrally, we overcome obstacles between ourselves and true health and happiness. We rewrite the mismatch between who we are and the environment in which we live (ibid.).

For him, the rewriting of history is framed as good, but also “witch-like” in an “authentic” way. A seemingly ancient double of Zeus, Liver King is the “real man” who offers “helpful” education to today’s troubled men—specifically impressionable, young men: real men are primal, ancestral and buy Liver King’s products, listen to his advice but also preach it like gospel; i.e., multi-level marketing. As is generally the case, his entire MLM operation is demonstrably false and rotten: ubiquitous advertisement tied to bodily strength as a masculine/male virtue, as delivered by a Frankenstein strongman celebrity—a composite body image fabricated with the hopes of making even more money through sexist, dishonest means that still leaves room for plausible deniability. Sound familiar? Caleb Hart does the same thing, hiding behind the centrist, “neutral” pastiche of the Mega Man franchise; there, the Western’s “weeb-ish” fascination with a hauntological Orientalism—the byproduct of the American occupation of Japan yielding exotic forms of warfare in shonen/bishonen (“boys comics” and “pretty-boy comics”) fantasy and science fiction.

(exhibit 98b2a: Artist, top-right: ZELKnotos; top-mid: Pas; bottom-left: Napo. In neoliberal media, war is something to commodify and sell to children and teenagers through Zombie-Vampire Capitalism. Although the gender roles are canonical dimorphic, the “pretty boy” flavor to Asian theatre and media is something has become assimilated by neoliberal canon. As such, the “pretty boy” robot is a kind of regular hero in these sorts of stories. Pretty can be powerful, in the canonical sense, if it “gets the old job done.”

Just as common, though, are the usual, sexist “motherly” positions for female characters, or hypermasculine personas in the Mega Man universe—so common, in fact, that these generals and “Spartan-esque” Boba-Fett-style “centurions” are, in fact, replicated assembly-line style; the only reliably way to quickly tell apart is their color code. To that, the red-white-and-blue scheme should be a big clue to the kind of role these heroes play in their futurist, “utopian” worlds: world police, on an increasingly automated planet replete with a stockpile of mass-produced weaponry and toy-like soldiers [whose variety exudes the illusion of difference; they all serve the same purpose: policing the world through media]. The existence of order is a negative freedom for the machinery of the state to run as smoothly as possible—i.e., with the police repeatedly fighting and defeating evil [often purple and skull-emblazoned] robots in displays of successful military operations over and over. Simply put, it’s a playground that teaches children monomythic war in a futurist-centrist “false Utopian”; i.e., a neoconservative dystopia whose internal concentric pattern, narrative of the crypt, chronotope, Cycle of Kings, and all they entail combined, stretch on until the end of time/of the world.)

Caleb Hart and Liver King aren’t identical. Caleb’s cryptonymic function is more generalized, while Liver King’s is more Gothic/superhuman (the “gym bro” rhetoric versus “eat liver like Zeus does!”). However, their respective messaging as content creators has the same complicit purpose: sell a product or service through a “heroic” body that implies either man must be “good at everything” (including war and “dominance/defense” as synonymous with sex, despite growth hormones tending to negatively impact your sex drive and gonads) therefore trust them! If the book so far has been any indication, blindly trusting figurative or literal strongmen to keep you safe from systemic abuse is a really bad idea (re: zombie tyrants, exhibit 39c1 from “Escaping Jadis“).

Furthermore, even if they don’t rape you, they’ll sure as hell fleece you (and give you body dysmorphia; i.e., bigorexia). Though fascism is a conman’s game, it’s still a losing one for them, too. For one, nothing they say is true—hard times do not create strong men and there isn’t a worldwide conspiracy of invincible barbarians at the gates (re: Bret Devereaux) or evil Jewish billionaires bankrolling the apocalypse; and two, they’re literally afraid of—and want to kill/rape—anything and everything that isn’t a white, cis-het men. It’s a pretty miserable fragility and paranoia, but one that comes about from turning off their brains and following the leader.

What’s more, as complicit, generalized cryptonyms, weird canonical nerds like Caleb Hart and Liver King tacitly promote a Patriarchal system that abuses everyone under it by keeping young men “weak, strong and surrounded by enemies,” thus Quixotically braindead, bloodthirsty and menticidally sex-starved (also bad-faith, as thoroughly encapsulated not just by Eren Yeager, the profoundly fragile and fascist protagonist from the 2013 anime, Attack on Titan, but his fans; source: F.D. Signifier’s community post, 2023).

Getting “swole” won’t automatically get you fame, let alone women and love; it exists inside a shrinking circle of manufactured scarcity and conflict. Liver King’s offer has nothing to do with those things; instead, he’s pointing to his own body as pure snake oil, then selling it to you as sacred wisdom. He conceals pre-existing wealth behind this façade, much like Caleb Hart would ask you to ignore his daddy’s wall of law books in the background. There’s no way to hide it, but you can condition people to ignore it or worship it—as pacified servants who think there’s nothing better to be imagined or created by themselves. They’ve turned it all over to giant, killer machines.

(artist: Homare Works)

In the historic tradition of bad-faith de facto male “educators” (aka recruiters/con men), both men are surprisingly loquacious. Caleb never shuts up on stream (an occupational hazard, to be fair) and Liver King repeats the same bullshit over and over (and over). Both are useful to capital because their pastiche is blind, their “prison sex” gossip co-dependent, their anger is possessive and vindictive, and their quoting canonical. Furthermore, their gamer mentalities remain utterly concerned with applying a Cartesian, quantifiable metric towards dominating the world around them through coerced luck/odds; i.e., the JRPG idea of progressively “leveling up” through a colonial metric that can be charted, but also bragged about as a feat of strength that evolved alongside neoliberal Capitalism as an expression of it in hauntological form: epic, phat “looting.”

All the while, both men (and their offshoots) have physical bodies that not only look the part, but insecure young men connect the sexist slogans to like tattoos (a kind of perverse “tabloid realism”). So while they might seem rather different, the likes of Caleb and Liver King serve as unique fractals splintering off from a larger undead whole: Capitalism as a necromantic, predatory gentleman’s club. Through its top-down lessons, said club values masculinity as something to posture and sell, hating on non-cartoon/autonomous women while praising anti-intellectualism through a cult of strength and machismo that punishes conspirators who threaten Capitalism with Communist ideas (what Hitler called “Cultural Bolshevism,” known today as “Cultural Marxism, a Red Scare/anti-Semitic[1] tactic common among fascists, neoliberals and other pro-Capitalists). Even if only part of Umberto Eco’s entire list of fascist points (re: “Umberto Eco’s 14 Points of Fascism“) these are still fascist ideas. Like swapping out a turret for a machinegun or giving a tank a new coat of paint (or a zombie a new limb or turret arm), the differences denote a different type of the same basic war machine personified: warrior undead.

Rotting and falling apart, fascism is merely an abortive offshoot of Capitalism. Both thrives on obscuring themselves and their connections. Like the myths it promotes, however, the bodies of Caleb and Liver King are largely artificial—not “fake” so much as achieved through massive material advantages neither likes to advertise. In particular, Liver King (whose goofy “I Am Ninja” voice belies the smaller pilot inside the bigger “suit,” on par with Mike Tyson or if Adolf Hitler had Schwarzenegger’s body and no longer needed to shout) acknowledges his pre-existing wealth but insists have nothing to do with his current success. No, if you believe him, then we have the tenets to thank for him reportedly approaching billionaire status in the next ten years (Before They Were Famous’ “Is He Really Making $100 MILLION a Year?” 2022). Seemingly overnight, massive scandals about Liver King’s “fake natty” lie have erupted online (More Plates More Dates’ “The Liver King Lie,” 2023), involving—and I wish I were kidding—thousands of people (at least) saying “it was just a joke” and everyone was “in on it.” Meanwhile, as those reporting on him are milking the endless drama farm, Liver King himself insists that he lied and didn’t lie, but only changed the narrative after damning concrete evidence about him came to light.

None of this is new. It’s just Capitalism working much as it always has, just with better drugs, fancier graphics, and more abundant, seemingly innocuous cryptonyms to sublimate trauma. Speaking of which, this concept of infinite growth mirrors one of the core tenets of Capitalism manifest in neoliberalism war pastiche: bigger, better, upgraded. War sequelitis. Eventually the market gets saturated, but the games keep coming. And if they don’t, someone’s gonna spend ten years making a Mega Man X fan game because they love the franchise so much.

To be fair, I’m excited for Mega Man X: Corrupted (JKB Games’ “Intro Stage Speed Run,” 2021)… even if I think X is basically a centrist superhero cop with zero ability to stop and self-reflect—just dumbly listening to his Hamlet-style, ghost dad simulacrum[2] over and over. In short, he’s robot Pinocchio with daddy issues trying to be not just a real boy but a real man. Meanwhile, as the videogame war never seems to stop onscreen, the tragic male hero sadly commenting on this but carries on anyways (a shambling zombie cop, vampirically stealing powers of marginalized workers criminalized by the state: political dissidents, rebel [Maverick] factions, iconoclasts, the homeless).

The problem is, this centrist tragedy doesn’t solve shit—a centrist canonical power trip of false hope that cryptonymically conceals not just the real wars and genocide happening in the world, but the things that cause them in relation to bourgeois canon: the videogames and those who make them, extending to the petit-bourgeois and their decade-long lover letters. Sure, the game’s music bops just like it did in the ’80s (AC Lonn’s “Mega Man X: Corrupted – Submarine Ocean (Force Starfish Stage) Extended,” 2020). Cool nostalgic music, check.

You know what doesn’t bop, though? Endless war and genocide, then lying about it to kids! Turning the next line of workers to future war criminals, sleeper agents, weird canonical nerds, and orphans is seriously fucked up (and over time, you can’t even put the labor into doing a well-made game out of it; the workers you exploit have to make what you make better than you do! Gotta love internalized efficient profit): Mega Man is a witch cop incessantly upgraded for war as never-ending; i.e., inside a future canceled by Capitalism, whose owner class pimps this nostalgia back to children who go on to view state-compelled martyrdom and self-pity as “totally rad.” It’s the Protestant ethic in action—reprobate and sacred, with a “pick/pity me” mentality driving endless war into the retro-future.

Under Patriarchal Capitalism, men like Liver King and Caleb promote ideas that keep people harmfully binarized, but also dependent on various “snake oils” that lead them to feel inadequate in the face of perceived supermen: Caleb sells videogames, conflating them with his gym bro antics while constantly “upping his game” through a brand image inextricably tied to famous war toys (that self-upgrade, no less); Liver King sells bullshit that not only doesn’t work, it leads to drug-seeking behavior tied to body dysmorphia as not just false, but self-destructive (in the Faustian vein; i.e., offered by someone, versus found/stolen “from the gods” in the Promethean sense).

We’ve already examined Caleb’s brand of weird canonical nerd. As for Liver King’s, his customers will try the tenets and offal naturally before turning to lying like he does (taking drugs and then selling drugs) when neither actually works—i.e., doesn’t get them the bodies they want, the sex partners they want. To try and acquire these things, they’ll imitate Liver King, whose continued rising success has nothing to do with his ethical statements and everything to do with prior material advantage and a willingness to keep exploiting people by lying to them (and calling his critics “degenerate sub-primals,” a dogwhistle[3] if ever there were).

Like Caleb, Liver King’s lie extends to other material factors, but especially personal property—toys, anime, and other media tied to war as a zombifying commodity that enforces sex and gender role under Capitalism through the “metal” expression of war (Mega man and his sister were called Rock and Roll in Japan, with Roll being relegated to the sidelines as a perpetual “Stepford” Housewife). Currently these various methods occur through fascism without too much[4] open violence (only violence in the world of videogames where commodified war is stupidly common).

However, these sublimating variables can easily become openly violent/actively undead under crisis, generally crises announced by hauntological artwork tied to war. We’ll examine these symptoms for the remainder of the chapter, including how Patriarchal Capitalism-in-crisis leads to a proliferation of bad-faith witches and composite undead defending the system through hauntological war. For a brief moment, though, I want to outline war hauntology as something routinely produced by neoliberal/fascist outlets on a geopolitical scale.

(exhibit 98c1: The liminal hauntology of war is commonly expressed between dimensions as interlinked, threatened by the rise of fascism as something to overcome; i.e., in The Ronin Warriors by noble, beautiful, witch-cop boys defeating their centrist opposites through a bishonen theatre of staged war disguised actual war—a curtain of comely boy flesh touting their own empowerment as sexy. It’s very similar to Sailor Moon [re: exhibits 51b3, “In Measured Praise“] except it has more of a yaoi flavor at the end, the titular warriors disrobing to fight Tulpa in the buff: warrior detectives getting to the bottom of the Radcliffean menace exorcized through naked force.)

(exhibit 98c2: Model and artist, middle-right: Blxxd Bunny and Persephone van der Waard.

Empowered by the spirit of evil, Emperor Tulpa lets Kayura do so much more than the male warlords. The results are undeniably entertaining—with Kayura absolutely mopping the floor with our heroes for most of the show [in fact, she never loses a fight]. The catch is enslavement: Kayura is clearly under the emperor’s thrall, wearing a necklace that controls her on Tulpa’s behalf. Eventually the charm is shattered in battle, forcing Tulpa to invade Kayura’s mind more directly. For a bishonen anime in the late ’80s, Samurai Troopers actually provides a rare look into power abuse from the female perspective: Tulpa supplies Kayura with an empowered, girl boss position by which to control every aspect of her life: how she talks, dresses, fights, and thinks. But somewhere inside is a buried voice, one operating independently from this fabricated persona that Tulpa must hide; i.e., from someone who is always presented as more powerful than she is, but also whose strength is greater than what he can control.)

It’s fine to enjoy but not endorse sexy monsters; i.e., like any problematic media with enjoyable elements (re: Sarkeesian). In the carceral sense, though, war hauntology is the constant, cryptonymic re-envisioning of the future; i.e., by using outdated, cryptonymic depictions of war that essentialize conflict as vital to the manufactured drama. This pastiche includes the disquieting arrival of “quiet” invasions—not the aforementioned “killing time” of the fascist harvest, but fascism as primed to happen through Capitalism; ensured by consumers pacified by ubiquitous neoliberal war pastiche, the harvest is already here—it’s only become more visible during an ongoing nightmare. Suddenly everywhere, the liminal-hauntological appearance of “benign” war commodities denote genocide and other displaced atrocities as already-here, but normalized through useful centrist myths: Teenagers can defeat them, often through force, often with color-coded uniforms and the flashy magic of special moves, allying with strange bedfellows and defeating an obviously-evil tyrant in defense of the status as it currently exists. This “banal” process happens cross-generationally until future generations become acclimated to war as a good position. They look on it and its past combatants as old friends.

The popular phrase, “Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic,” has yielded many different interpretations (e.g., five from CCCB Lab’s Cultural Research and Innovation, 2018). Arthur C. Clarke originally coined the phrase in his 1962 book, Profiles of the Future: An Inquiry into the Limits of the Possible, making Mega Man as witch-like as the Ronin Warriors/Samurai Troopers (exhibit 98c1); and their sequel enterprises even more magical and complicitly cryptonymic in centrist ways: good teams, bad teams, a playing field with two different sides, a boss, and a dainty, blue-haired girl who kicks everyone’s ass, Lady Kayura (exhibit 98c2).

Big battles, big explosions, big “false hope” mid-kayfabe with blind camp; i.e., to conceal the hidden atrocity of war behind a rescued, “good” fakery that’s wholesome enough for children to play with, while still preparing them for life’s inevitable “realities” (re: Capitalist Realism). A bigger and bigger lie that not only covers up the system, but adumbrates it, mimics it like a zombie plague or vampiric curse. Often, it contains with hints of it inside, like Kento’s temptations to the Dark Side (in true heel fashion) by Dais, Warlord of Illusion, through armor that Kento had inherited from past warriors—men pointedly described by Ghost Emperor Tulpa as “once having the will to conquer the universe!” aka Zombie Voltron.

As this example is ideally suited to exploring the entirety of our argumentation within itself, I want to dissect episode thirteen of The Ronin Warriors (a US syndication of the original 1988 show, redubbed for American audiences): “Fate of the Ronin Armor” (1995). I will summarize the episode, but more importantly break down the dream sequence contained inside in multiple exhibits that, explained by me in collage form, will highlight the broader liminal relationship experienced between audiences and war hauntology that the show expresses in complex audio-visual Gothic language—an older Gothic interrogation carried over to American like some relic and displayed to United States youngsters; i.e., whose minds have already been formed and shaped by the material world under Capitalism, acclimating them to future slaughter. Auto-genocide!

After this exhibit, we’ll move onto TERFs more generally before considering war pastiche (a kind of cryptonymy) as something to sublimate, thus disguise war’s systematic/propagandistic function as entirely disempowering.

Kento’s Dream: A Feast for Crows; or, Echoes of Fascism and Zombie Voltron within 1980s Neoliberal War Pastiche (feat. The Ronin Warriors)

Violence is a part of life. It should be remembered that violence and aggression is part of everyday life now. You see it over the TV. You can’t just pretend that it does not exist (source).

—Bruce Lee, Bruce Lee Striking Thoughts: Bruce Lee’s Wisdom for Daily Living (2002)

Thus, like the sad presaging raven, that tolls

The sick man’s passport in her hollow beak,

And in the shadow of the silent night

Doth shake contagion from her sable wings (source).

—Barbaras (on the raven’s ability to “predict” death), The Jew of Malta (c. 1589)

Note: Similar to Mega Man, The Ronin Warriors is a show I cite primarily in exhibits throughout the rest of the series; e.g., exhibit 39c1 (re: “Escaping Jadis“) and 51b3 (re: “In Measured Praise of the Great Enchantress“). Here, we actually have a close-read! —Perse, 5/5/2025

In episode thirteen of The Ronin Warriors, Kento learns the truth of his own armor’s bloodthirst. After a train wreck sends him hurling into a collapsed tunnel, he emerges as if from a deep to find himself alone on an ancient battlefield. There, two nameless warriors duel to the death while Kento looks on in horror (“horror” is the operative world, as the scene features spilled blood in an otherwise bloodless show meant for kids). Overseeing this forgotten, distant transaction is a lone raven, gazing into the funerary future with a single, all-seeing red eye: a harbinger of the proud warrior’s doom!

(exhibit 99a: As an eater of the dead with oft-anthropomorphized intelligence, corvids not only have special sight; they are known for eating the eyes of the ignominious dead: those fallen stupidly on the battlefield. They are assigned as de facto keepers of deathly knowledge and totems of extreme cruelty in ways that other animals sometimes aren’t: “The raven himself is hoarse / That croaks the fatal entrance of Duncan / Under my battlements…” [re: Macbeth]. For example, while cats, like ravens, are marked to be witches’ familiars by association, cats do not [to my knowledge] tend to be historically found on battlefields, thus are not known for eating decaying human corpses. They are known as guardians of the underworld, but this mythology comes from an ancient civilization: the Ancient Egyptians. Conversely, ravens have been immortalized by Marlowe, Shakespeare and Edgar Allan Poe, etc, in much more recent poetry—i.e., Western Europe’s fascination with the deathly past through various ghosts of the counterfeit.)

The horror for Kento—the big, strong himbo of the group—is the ghost of the counterfeit showing through him in a dream supplied to him by someone else as a means of military recruit: Join us; come over to the dark side. It is your fate, your doom. Kento’s rejection of, and continued resistance towards these machinations of equal force, denotes an incessant failure to learn from the past and his part within it, but also a neoliberal “as-good-as-it-gets” false hope: a cycle of war through false copies of the West, wherein people are saved and fallen and saved again across the forever-young bodies of an expendable soldier youth: through cool-looking acts of violence levied against zombie corruptions of formerly good militarized heroes (as we explored in Volume Two, “corruption” is a concept prevalent in virtually all of Western canon, spanning from Star Wars to Myth: the Fallen Lords to Mega Man X and The Ronin Warriors, etc; i.e., the fascist zombie and its corruption of a former good hero, or babyface, turning them heel). “See nightmare; smash nightmare. Nightmare gone… right?”

Wrong! If Dias is an openly zombie-like, drug-addled, vampire-esque, undead super soldier—who dresses like Shedder with antlers, wears an eye patch, laughs like a James Bond villain, and keeps a pet raven (whose benign nature but Cartesian demonization we discussed in Volume Two; re: exhibit 41c2, “Hell Hath No Fury“)—then Kento and company are his furtively carceral undead, cute-boy opponents. They think they’re good cops/white knights, because they’re on the “good” team. That’s it.

In truth, they’re laden in flowers like revived Roman conquerors come home to roost, their homecoming broadcast on rock ‘n roll loudspeaker (quite literally flower-power-meets-arena-rock, but curiously blended with city pop, experimental electronica and horror music common from Japan in the 1980s). It’s a necromantic centrist scheme of neoliberal war where one is pitted against the other through the process of abject as “toned down” for kids (neoliberal “joy division” of collective worker action). The authors of these Saturday-morning illusions—the neoliberal necromancers themselves—deliberately trap people in a material structure of endless wars playing with two kinds of undead soldiers who collectively drain, drug and lobotomize the emotional and Gothic intelligence of unsuspecting laborers, who go on to assimilate or annihilate those who have yet to be converted. It’s most unfresh, a dastardly scheme that sights workers and their territories entirely for profit. That’s the banality of evil in action. It behaves like a bad dream—hijacking the way the human mind normally works, including how historically-materially extends into the real world.

(exhibit 99b: Faced with the false copy of the Westernized past, Kento abjects it by embodying “might makes right”: “Iron Rock Crusher!” his variant of “Hulk, smash!” or “I am the teeth in the night!” These slides were designed at the start of when I began to pioneer my exhibit style; re: exhibit 44b2, “Making Demons.” I’ve left them unfinished for historical purposes.)

As Kento is confronted by a disembodied voice that smugly introduces itself as “the master of his fate,” the blowhard Kento isn’t fooled; he calls the hidden manipulator by its name: Tulpa, the evil emperor ghost. That’s one temporary deception. But the half-lies is part of a grander violent scheme, whose awful procession of “wax schedules” and lifelike zombies would make John Webster green with envy. “Silence, little man—look!” And behold, a pale horse: the endless battlefields of the many unburied dead.

Faced with them, Kento—a Scooby-Doo-esque scaredy-cat (intimating the Gothic “dog-like” servant trope common to loyal fool as faithful yet animal-esque towards a central hero)—literally trembles in fear (and is literally sloganized by the show’s antihero, Anubis: “Quake with fear!). Then, zombies—specifically the Dark Warlords—spring from the heap, reanimated fakeries of their real variants to fool Kento with. He falls for it, quick to anger and ready to fight them all (the puncher’s chance an empty one on a fool’s errand). But, oh-ho-ho, Tulpa did not bring Kento to this dream to do battle, but show him the way! Don’t waste your strength, you’re doomed (adumbrating the structure itself, that old fox). Merely look and see the origin of the Legendary Nine Armors: worn by past boys to conquer the world again under similar subterfuge.

But herein are another four lies (and probably more but I can’t go over them all in this section): “These armors were made for one purpose:

  • to destroy mankind
  • In this battlefield lie the bodies of those who have fallen in battle against these armors.
  • The armor when used makes the user more bloodthirsty.
  • To destroy it is to destroy a part of oneself—i.e., what man can destroy a piece of his own heart?”

The truth is, the armors can be reclaimed and reused by us Communists as teaching tools that hammer swords into ploughshares with Gothic exhibits that forbid the fascist “harvest” of the liminal-hauntology of war as an endless witch hunt, “destined for massacres and vengeance, sent across the earth post-recruitment to install” (the false revolution of fascism scrambling for power amid the cyclical power vacuums that Capitalism engenders). Nor do the bodies of the dead simply amount the blind and foolish, hoodwinked into making war for Capitalist purposes; they are the bodies of comrades fighting fascism in the proverbial killing fields.

Remembering Sarkisian’s adage, enjoyment isn’t automatically endorsement provided said enjoyment isn’t critically blind; i.e., consuming war pastiche won’t automatically turn you into a killer, nor are you destroying yourself if you critique it. Doing so only transforms you and war into something else—a friendly variant of Zombie Voltron as alluded to all the way back during Volume One (re: exhibit 15b1, “Healing from Rape“). And maybe, just maybe, old Tulpa speaks truth to power when he wishes to break “Mankind” the only way he knows how—through violence and war. Then again, maybe not; without warriors there’d be no one left to fight, no living to add to his ever-growing armies of the undead, in the Nether World where the shadows lie—his Dark Warlords a bit like Sauron’s unlucky ring wraiths, duped into the sorry company of Balrogs, winged beasts, and diegetically manmade orcs and goblins that ultimately came from Tolkien’s brain to try and describe the material world he himself fought in… but bishonen in their regression:

(source)

Poor Kento can’t help it, though; he wants to fight as boys currently fight—to fight and die “like a man.” In a way he’s closer to the truth and actual wisdom than his more righteous, seemingly smarter buddies. Meanwhile, Dais—an agent of darkness and goaded by his boss—attacks Kento wearing various disguises, hazing him as he stands liminally transfixed: to win him to his greater harm—their greater harm—mixing lies with bits of truth. The Gothic-liminal chaos of the scene is tremendously complex: It simultaneously evokes this exchange happening between texts in the diegetic present space of time as connected to our own material world and its lateral occupants both standard and revolutionary (re: parallel spaces and occupants)—between liminal occupants and liminal objects through liminal hauntology and liminal education that oscillates between dialectical-material forces dressed up in the undead language of war (whose doll-like warriors embody virtue and vice, mid-kayfabe). It’s a really messy affair that only compounds over space and time.

Hence why complex trauma requires continual good education to pierce and glean from everything beyond the veil while shrouded within inside. There is no “outside” of the larger “text,” homeboys; we’re born into the natural-material world and it shapes how we think, but also how we react. Furthermore, the scene invites us to look in ways that are conspicuously undead and doubled—with deliberate, diegetic acts of looking mirrored by opportunities for us to compare what Dais and Kento are doing that denote them as equally doomed as the first soldiers of the dream (which neither is aware of as they fight but which we can see, watching horrified and unable to stop the fated carnage as both men kill each other in a cycle of dynastic power exchange and hereditary rites; re: Bakhtin + Marx).

(exhibit 99c: The first half of this this collage is the phenomenology of our Kento exhibit, illustrated by meme hieroglyphics. The second half is another example of Juul’s “half-real” concept explored in Chapter One and how people playfully combine different things together for seemingly random, linguistically-ludically indiscrete fun—as something to talk about for education and enrichment as a liminal proposition through “conversational play” [the same kind of “sixth sense” memeing also used by STEM-type YouTube personalities like Chubby EmuZe Frank, or Casual Geographic: a collective appeal to a “universal” sense of humor by code-switching from jargon and dry humor to slang that aims to ironically humanize those oppressed under the status quo—animals, of course, but also patients]. Instead of The Ronin Warriors, the exhibit about them [exhibit 99a] is something I can talk about or meme about, or I can do both, swapping out frames or words to communicate a similar message quickly but also in a different form of exhibit about the same overall content.

In turn, this is discussed not just by me, but to a friend of mine about this same subject matter in metatextual ways—where we communicate as people generally do about popular media in the Internet Age: with memes by also telling stories about each other in real spaces and times about fictional things that exist in the material world: The photo of me in coffin is literally at the Edgar Allan Poe museum in Florida; the cat, Pluto, lives at the museum; the memes—of Poe and making a song that combines Dolly Parton, Poe and a meme about Poe and Jules Verne—is just how language tends to function under half-real circumstances. More to the point, it’s in this strange liminal space that praxis is being naturally performed: in discussions about canon and counterculture.)

“When will you fools learn that there are no wars fought by heroes?” (exhibit 99a). If, like Kento, we must stand and stare helplessly as ambiguous doubles of the excavated past return, what can we do? Lucky for us, love can bloom on a battlefield despite the banality of evil, and we can change into something less war-like while still being knowledgeable about war in all of its forms, heroes included. When I was a still a boy and not the trans woman I grew into, I got into fights; I reacted to violence in response to my own trauma and to echoes of trauma I could sense in the material world around me.

My mind never, ever stopped working (nor has it). I used to think it was a curse, but it was actually a gift that, once given the proper instruction, helped me transform and, in turn, write this book as a messy compilement of my path so that you might take it yourselves: to grow up into undead doubles that fight for Communism by disarming Capitalism’s war machinery—its language and its peoples—by hammering them and the structure that houses them into implements of peace and love, a reclaiming of the six Rs lost to Capitalism: to form “Zombie-Vampire-Ninja-Samurai-Knight-Frankenstein Voltron” as a composite-liminal Creature friendly to Communism and its legion of sex-positive socio-material outcomes, versus a sexist endorsement of the ’80s neoliberal status quo, like how Cyber Shadow (2021) does it (Rubhen925’s “Cyber Shadow – Full Game Gameplay Walkthrough,” 2021) with its heteronormative robot boy/girl ninjas.

In turn, development happens by working in tandem for a better world beyond Capitalism, revitalizing the Gothic imagination towards those aims by literally embodying it within ourselves, our bodies, our labor, our wicked, sexy art. You can even enjoy Cyber Shadow (I bought a copy of it and appreciate its zealous attention to detail); but transmute it in ways that critique Capitalism using the Gothic mode as something to synthesize. Make your gossip interdependent, your praxis iconoclastic, your pastiche perceptive, your quotes transformative, your own creations enriching to the world; wield your anger in sex-positive defense of your communes and your comrades.

(exhibit 99d: The world of videogames has, since its inception on the cusp of neoliberal expansion, been marketed to men. This includes the classic games, like Contra, Mega Man, or Ninja Gaiden, but also the games that were nostalgically revived through latter-day hauntologies like Cyber Shadow. In short, this reflects in the makeup of the game’s characters and narrative, but also the social-sexual behaviors and business behind the players’ metanarrative that the games’ heteronormative bias informs.

Speedrunning is—like combat sports and videogames, in general—a sexist, heavily segregated enterprise. For one, speedrunning pays very little and demands tremendous devotion and practice from its competitors (with WR-holders putting in tens of thousands of hours of “grinding”/practice to have a small handful of chances to win); two, nearly all speedrunners are cis-het men/male [and some trans women] thanks to competitive sports aforementioned bias and the male, often-white competitor’s own privilege—with the practice reliably described as “domination” and “self-improvement” from [all-male] speedrunner documentarians gushing about male-runner-to-male-runner obsessive chasing glory for themselves and themselves alone; i.e., Summoning Salt’s “The Quest to Beat Jimmypoopins” [2023] for Ninja Gaiden 2 [1990]. It’s a highly competitive and lauded history with little reward beyond glory and empheral recognition through a crisis of value; the record is theirs, as are the glory and the labels and naming. It’s self-aggrandizement verging on Quixotic deification and Captain Ahab levels of obsession, which isn’t interested in anything but male capability and unequal dimorphism as something that’s just taken for granted. It simply is; anything that falls short is simply failure, nothing more. In short, all of this is merely business-as-usual; i.e., bigoted and harmful and built around the status quo as something to protect [re: “Those Who Walk Away from Speedrunning“].

All the same, the ability to capitalize on the practice is highly difficult given its random nature. As I write in “Doom Eternal: Made for Speed… but Speedrunning?” [2022]:

Speedrunner-conscious developers isn’t wholly a bad thing. A byproduct of games being unintentionally speedrun is having to deal with things speedrunners hate. One such annoyance is Random Number Generation. Speedrunners hate RNG, in general; in Doom, they’ve had to work around RNG for decades. The original Doom games feature random weapon damage—a dice roll with every shot. Doom Eternal is less random, its variability provided by enemy placement and distance. That’s enough to keep things unpredictable, but also fun and challenging for the player. This theoretically owes itself to the game being designed with speedrunners in mind. But players themselves should be free to make their own categories. That’s part of the fun—the unpredictability in how a game is gradually played faster and faster. However, a company that pre-determines what categories players will make can reduce the experience to speedrun-by-numbers. Avoiding the temptation to tamper with a game to steer its speedrunners in a particular direction is advisable.

Purses are one alternative. Cash prizes could bolster competition; they would still fall outside the traditional professional sphere. Professional sports are generally watched live. In the same sense, speedrunning is watched live on Twitch. So much of it isn’t seen by most people, however. It’s not planned in that fashion. Professional gaming involves stages—for the players to game on, and crowds to watch them live. It has to be organized, and predictable to the extent that exciting things will occur. It’s one thing to have a race between speedrunners for fun; it’s quite another to expect runners to take a world record live. There’s no way to predict when this will occur, but as Cheese demonstrates, a big purse can inspire miracles.

A large purse can make players practice harder. Expecting them to do it predictably as a reliable draw is foolish. Most of the time, world records are a grind. Unless the game is relatively new or isn’t speedrun often, it will become optimized, allowing little room for error. The less room there is, the lower the odds that a record will occur. Easy records will occur quickly and get expensive; attempting difficult records is repetitive and will get boring. And if a record seems imminent, so is the possibility of failure. Reliable disappointment can turn all but the most dedicated away. This highlights another issue: Most records are not viewed “live” because they can’t be predicted to occur live. This means that unless you saw it when it actually transpired, it’s a pre-recorded video. This runs against the idea of professional sports, which need a “live draw” to reel in the crowd. If classic speedrunning can’t do it in its current state, then something needs to change. / And here, Doom Eternal presents a curious solution. Make a fast, brutal game that’s fun to watch, but can also be speedrun using classic movement strategies while also being a Doom game. Doom Eternal checks a lot of boxes, and it certainly will give players something to watch on Twitch. I just don’t think its biggest moneymakers will be speedrunners (source). 

Simply put, speedrunning isn’t made for business in the classic sense, but falls back on the aesthetics of war as something to draw out competitions between men that showcase male dominance of the game as product; in turn, the domination as a historical tour de force becomes the product—with reliably sexist, but also settler-colonial results, onstage and off [re: “Nature vs the State“]. Twitch is a white structure of power, as is YouTube and videogames as a business; i.e., including speedrunning as built within these territories advertising themselves as “manly” using cliché masks, costumes, weapons, and tableaux: not just Doomguy’s blood and guts, but Mega Man, Link, and Samus, etc, as monomythic/male-centric in ways that are heteronormatively violent state apologia. Versus them, the monstrous-feminine is always passive and assimilated, or a “corrupt” enemy to kill during virgin/whore and mirror syndrome having the pimp’s revenge against Medusa.)

Whoever you are, reader, just know that it’s entirely possible to “wake up”—to enjoy war pastiche as a guilty pleasure without endorsing its carceral, curse-like effects. But doing so will have to contend with those who see canon as sacred—something to consume and quote like a modern-day war bible that colonizes everything around it—the language, but also its users (quoting Ghostbusters [1984] blindly without transformational power—i.e., verbatim but failing to recognize Dr. Venkman as a fictional sex pest played by real-life sex pest, Bill Murray—Charles’ Trepany’s “Dying from Shame,” 2022).  Indeed, I’m living proof: In the past, I’ve written constantly about the centrist war pastiche from my own nostalgic past as something to reinvent, rethink, transmute into sex-positive forms (its own kind of magic indecipherable to the too-far converted undead—the zombie-vampire samurais, robots and other Capitalist legionnaires, but also those who make them on various registers of the Great Neoliberal Chain of Being—a carceral, coercive, complicit poiesis). Apart from Neoliberalism in Yesterday’s Heroes, I’ve specifically examined how Aliens and Doom  acclimate new people to war multiple times; re: for my videogame research on Metroidvania, and in my reviews of Doom Eternal (a fan favorite, 2020) and anti-fascist polemic on Ion Fury (2019). I’ve also faced lifelong pushback in the shadow of neoliberal forms, like my love for Ridley Scott’s Gothic, antiwar polemic (and frankly giant, beautiful mess) Prometheus (2020) versus Aliens having colonized the franchise away from its anti-neoliberal origins, Alien (a bit like Star Wars in that respect). It’s a messy, ongoing process.

However, centrism and war pastiche aren’t just American; as Kento and The Ronin Warriors demonstrate, they (and other sentai-style shows, from the 1960s[5] onwards) extend to other forms of media from other countries that “ally” with America under constant geopolitical threats of military and economic force. Parallel fantasies converge along the same material lines, manifesting hauntologically through instances of retro-future war pastiche, generally with sci-fi- and fantasy-flavored subgenres: samurai warriors, mobile-suit gundams, and metal “mega men” (a false-Utopian, dated futurism; re: Jameson’s argument from “Progress versus Utopia” modified:  “The future of one moment has now become our own undead past”), etc. Moreover, these ghostly arrivals—their sudden appearance and continued, nostalgic existence—are welcomed, ushered in by their victims like a canonical Trojan Horse. This isn’t just the obvious scapegoats, but the neoliberal/fascist soldiers inside the Horse who think they’re the good guys (or who think they’re safe from those in power).

Meanwhile, those who speak out aren’t just speaking to their critics, but the canonical forms they uphold as an extension of undead war as righteous: the disguises themselves. These multiple, surreptitious attempts to install war simultaneously deny its relationship as a counterfeit attached to real-world barbarities. Forget Tulpa’s tower of evil “finally” being brought into our world (exhibit 99e, below); the tower is already here, has been here since the beginning and only to evolve with the structure into something more and more nightmarish; re: invasion is a structure, Tulpa’s tower one of sin the Ronins must banish, Radcliffe-style!

(exhibit 99e: “Bring me the Earth, and join every dimension!” Emperor Tulpa demands, bringing the tower of evil into the human world. There, Tokyo’s population is ignominiously borne into the structure, forced to serve the evil Yokai forever [according to the Fu-Manchu ghost toadie].

Specifically this liminal hauntology of war—felt constantly during Capitalist Realism’s boom-and-bust [a return of the phantom tyrant]—is both neoliberal and [eco-]fascist. It elides fears of an imaginary barbaric past—specifically the romance of the Sengoku/warring states period—with various state deceptions and humiliations during and after WW2; e.g., the lies of the Imperial Japanese government and its rigid control of information, followed by the American bombings and subsequent occupation period. When the original show aired as Legendary Armor Samurai Troopers in 1988, the allegory concerned anxieties surrounding ongoing neoliberal boom: the late-1980s bubble economy in Japan.

To this, Samurai Troopers expressed displaced, dissociative fears of an imminent societal collapse, one that would have accompanied the guaranteed economic uncertainty hanging over Japan’s inflated, illusory successes. These lasted from 1986 until 1992; by the mid-’90s when the show was translated into English and being syndicated to American audiences, the market crash and historical-material record of vengeful warring spirits would rapidly have become a thing of the past; i.e., a product to export to youngsters concerned more with the centrist warrior’s romance than the deeper, historical-material context. In other words, they internalized the lie of false power while its deeper, troubling context reliably sailed over their heads.)

The great doom of Capitalism—which we will grapple with for the rest of this book—is how it destroys everything it touches, including those it professes to aid, through the protection of fascists by neoliberals. It does so by forgetting art-as history and trapping people inside fake histories where war and persecution mania aren’t simply everywhere; they teach bad sex education that clouds the brain, so that nothing beyond Capitalism can be imagined: the ghost of the counterfeit furthering the process of abjection, thus the monomyth and Cycle of Kings as a panoply of false power.

Furthermore, the engines that drive its continued genesis are Capitalism itself caught in a hauntological loop of self-defense that burns everyone to cinders, isolating men and women in ignominious ways that make them Gothically and emotionally unintelligent and monsters entirely sex-coercive. The greatest, loudest defenders, then, are centrists—those who posture as good “witches,” but align to everyone’s detriment with Zombie-Vampire Capitalism like a carceral, complicit, coercive (re: the Three Cs) undead Voltron: TERFS.

Now that we’ve examined an ideal example of what triple-C, Zombie-Vampire Voltron is, I’d like to pull back a bit and explore TERFs more broadly as the bad-faith witches and undead that try to disguise themselves as “friendlies” instead of “hostiles”; i.e., they aren’t working for the Man, they’re gender-critical[6] in ways that happen to triangulate against state enemies. They’re what we push back against using what we got, during ludo-Gothic BDSM, but per the cryptonymy process (as Chapter Five will explore) is always a calculated risk, mid-exposure.

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

Onto “Attack of the Bad-Faith, Pussyhat Feminist Undead/Demons“!


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Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] Anti-Semitic cryptonyms generally conceal Capitalism defending itself from alternate forms of wealth distribution. Seemingly linguistically unconnected to Nazi scapegoats, these dogwhistles nevertheless find themselves in the same conversational “company” as the usual scapegoating language: Nazis blame Jews and Communists; American Patriot Socialism, MAGA Communism and National Bolshevism (Non Compete’s “‘MAGA Communism’ is just Fascism,” 2022) blame “globalists”; and neoliberals blame Communists, socialists and anyone they feel like calling terrorists (code for revolutionaries and other states of exception).

Note: Refer to “On ‘Anti-Semitism’ versus ‘Antisemitism’” for further discussion on the term; i.e., as I use it in an intellectual sense. —Perse, 4/21/2025

[2] War simulation in all the usual hauntological monomyth ways; re: exhibit 43e1 (“Seeing Dead People“), exhibit 1a1a1a2 (“Thesis Body“) and exhibit 1a1a1c4 (“Pieces of the Camp Map“).

[3] A dogwhistle is still a dogwhistle even if Liver King doesn’t know it. Ignorantly parroting fascists makes you at the very least uninformed and apathetic, at worst openly complicit: dogwhistles conceal/reveal through cryptonymy.

[4] Make no mistake, stochastic terrorism and trans genocide are already happening. School and public shootings are normalized, including ones that target trans people. It’s just not state-sanctioned or industrialized yet (and god willing, never will be).

[5] When color televisions started to become more common.

[6] A TERF dogwhistle; i.e., TERFs are fascist, hence operate through DARVO and obscurantism (the decayed, false language of rebellion) to hide their cop-like function: during a complicit cryptonymy process.

Book Sample: Praxis Volume Outline, part two + Chapter Four: Bad Faith (opening and “Ladies First; or, the Grift of False Rebellion”)

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

Click here to see “All the World’s” Table of Contents and Full Disclaimer.

Permissions: Any publicly available images are exhibited for purposes of education, transformation and critique, thus fall under Fair Use; private nude material and collabs with models are specifically shared with permission from the original model(s). For more details about artist permissions, refer to the book disclaimer (linked above).

Concerning Buggy Images: Sometimes the images on my site don’t always load and you get a little white-and-green placeholder symbol, instead. Sometimes I use a plugin for loading multiple images in one spot, called Envira Gallery, and not all of the images will load (resulting in blank white squares you can still right-click on). I‘ve optimized most of the images on my site, so I think it’s a server issue? Not sure. You should still be able to access the unloaded image by clicking on the placeholder/right-clicking on the white square (sometimes you have to delete the “?ssl=1” bit at the end of the url). Barring that, completed volumes will always contain all of the images, whose PDFs you can always download on my 1-page promo.

(model and artist: Harmony Corrupted and Persephone van der Waard)

Volume Three: Praxis, part two: Sex Positivity versus Sex Coercion

They told him, “Don’t you ever come around here”
“Don’t wanna see your face, you better disappear”
The fire’s in their eyes and their words are really clear
So beat it, just beat it (source).

—Michael Jackson, “Beat It,” on Michael Jackson’s This Is It (1982)

(model and artist: Transguy Tyler and Persephone van der Waard)

Picking up where “Obliterating Phoebe: In the Shadow of Pygmalion” left off…

Volume Three covers praxis, specifically the informed, continuous application of successful proletarian praxis as we interpret the Gothic past moving forward. Whereas part one laid out sex positivity, sex coercion and the liminality between them, part two contains Chapters Four and Five plus the Conclusion, which concerns the creative successes of proletarian praxis versus state praxis. Time to fight!

Hard Dicking: Praxis Volume Outline, part two

The thing to remember is that acting, music, poetry and theatre are all powerful ways to communicate, but also a time-tested means of survival against bad-faith actors […] People act all the time for a variety of reasons; many more “lie” at particular places where lying is expected (e.g., the postpunk disco) as a means of getting at the truth in ways designed to help others (thus policed and infiltrated by undercover state agents) [source].

—Persephone van der Waard, “On Giving Birth” (2023)

(artist: Mu Hut)

Whereas part one laid out sex positivity, sex coercion and the liminality between them, part two contains Chapters Four and Five plus the Conclusion, which concerns the creative successes of proletarian praxis versus state praxis. That is, if the state frames it as us-versus-them, we “better the instruction” as a subversive, Gothic means of developing Gothic Communism through class/culture war.

  • Chapter Four (partially included in this post) explores sexism and other bigotries within a gradient of canonical moderacy and reactionary politics in popular, sexualized media—TERF hauntologies, sublimated war pastiche, girl/war bosses, and queer tokenism at large.
  • Chapter Five seeks to provide lasting solutions based on emotionally/Gothically intelligent activists who can detect, recognize and separate all of the above when creating their own cryptonymic material, all while enacting Gothic Communism, outing state proponents, and living in a brave new world of sexy “awakened” monsters: the liminally subversive/transgressive zombies, ghosts, vampires, witches, Amazons, etc.
  • “Pussy on the Chainwax!” and “Kicks After Six” close the book series out, giving the reader two basic choices: a) to serve the state and Capitalist Realism, bringing about the actual end of the world, or b) to face the perceived “end of the world” in order to stop of the Promethean cycle (and ultimate desolate conclusion) of Capitalism.

As I wrote in Volume Two (citing Volume Zero):

“All heroes are monsters, thus liminal expressions that are sexualized and gendered” (source). Challenging state monopolies by reversing the dialectical-material function of said labels (and their poetics) is exactly what we must do in order to succeed.

The state, in other words, will triangulate and send its killers after us wearing the same monstrous masks (and theatrics of unequal power) we humanize ourselves with:

(artist: Rino99)

Chapter Four: Bad Faith. “Rise, my pretties! Rise!”—TERFs and Other Flying Monkey “Witch Cops” and Girl War Bosses in Nerd Culture vis-à-vis Neoliberalism, Fascism and Genocide

“You weren’t kidding. They’re spinning out of control.”

“Spinning out of control?” 

“Yeah!”

“Oh, what is?”

“The power of the…monkey? Monkey. They can kill, you know? It’s just… it’s something they did for a long time.”

“The monkeys?”

“Mmm.”

—an actual conversation, where Jadis recorded me talking to them in my sleep (exact date unknown, 2021)

(model and artist: Harmony Corrupted and Persephone van der Waard)

Up to this point, we’ve examined throughout the book how state proponents are conditioned to see themselves as action heroes starring in their own tenebrous productions, whose unironic kayfabe becomes the language of pro-state espionage; i.e., aggregating in shows of state solidarity and lethal force to bravely fend off the forces of darkness within a script of never-ending violence against labor (the end of the world in their eyes, thus fight bitterly against). As such, they operate through their own strategies of misdirection to achieve Macbeth’s “walking shadow.” That is, they are the “poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage” within Pygmalion’s shadow.

The lack of significance, in their case, is the myopia of Capitalist Realism within, the desert of the real; like weird canonical (male) nerds, there’s nothing for them to imagine except unironic cataclysm inside the shadows of Plato’s cave, defending the state in righteous, infantilized anger (whereas queerness is acclimated to darkness and the shadows, initiated and molded by “darkness visible” as a poetic, transformative power that can revive the awesome voices of the Communist dead, thus develop a better world outside Plato’s cave—more on that in Chapter Five).

Within this regressive fury and creative void, TERF masks, uniforms and muscular bodies—but also kayfabe and weaponry—become sacrosanct, but also false bravado and kindness: a web of lies that subordinate people have agreed upon for a shared love of the canonical theatre of war itself. In short, they are not Galatea, but an offshoot of Pygmalion’s offshoots. From white, cis-het men, to white, cis-het women, to tokenized parties under the TERF umbrella, all are centrist at best, which is to say “fascist-in-disguise” (or otherwise hidden by self-deceptions that are bad-faith or legitimately Quixotic). Any way you slice it, they cannot create anything that doesn’t, in some shape or form, lead to genocide. The structure must be challenged, which means recognizing its proponents for what they are: billboards, and in many cases, outright soldiers.

We’ll explore these now with feminisms muddied history as fraught with betrayals and bad-faith impostors possessed by the spectres of fascism under neoliberal hegemony. Our focus is the Amazon as the quintessential war boss; the Medusa, her dark double, an openly queen bitch. Yet liminal expression leads to various forms of deception (disguise pastiche) within the threshold and on the surface of the monstrous-feminine image during oppositional praxis. As with Volume Two’s focus on the undead and demons, remember Weber’s maxim: the violence of the state is legitimate, this time through deputized female, queer and activist minorities that internalize the oppressor’s bigotries, then bastardize activist symbols of resisting oppression to bring these bigotries about through regressive subversions/unironic disguise pastiche (e.g., internalized misogyny and racism through self-guilt and shame, but also oppressor personas; i.e., Fanon’s Black Skin, White Masks applied to any axes of oppression or nexus of overlapping modules).

 

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

Ladies First; or, the Grift of False Rebellion: A Brief Summary of the Regressive Amazonomachia of Girls Trapped inside the Man Box (Girl Bosses and War Bosses)

“You have heart! I’ll take that too!”

—the Hunter, The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance (2019)

Note: Sex Positivity was begot from my past struggles with GNC abusers; re: Jadis; i.e., TERFs as fascist feminists to expose, mid-cryptonymy and during Amazonomachia as a poetic device. While Amazons are things I would obviously go on to explore at far greater length (re: “Amazons“), here is where I took the idea “witch cop” and began to conceptualize it in duality through the cryptonymy process. —Perse, 5/5/2025

(artist: Gregory Manchess)

All centrists “witches” (feminists their various monstrous personas: Amazons, Medusas, banshees, etc) are cops; all cops are bad, including those who see themselves as “shepherds” (good wolves/hunters) protecting the “sheep” (dumb and stupid workers) from “wolves” (scapegoats), but also the de facto deputies and fascist vigilantes posturing as the oppressed (and magnetic) Hippolyta or Medusa in babyface or heel language. Regressive Amazonomachia, then, is copaganda BDSM that emulates the unironic monomyth (re: Wonder Woman minus the performative irony and informed class character), including its gladiator-sports personas as hunters, wolves, fighters, protectors, providers, and mercenaries of either moral pole; good or bad, they’re all weird nerds Quixotically trapped inside the Man Box as something to advertise proudly or “resist” through false rebellion, thus contributing to the myopia of Capitalist Realism through Gothic tropes like the Great Destroyer and black knight, Archaic Mother (the Medusa) or phallic woman (the Amazon) as, again, regressive Amazonomachia.

As such, they emulate or submit to the active violence of men in service of the status quo, wielding canonical BDSM’s implements (and personas) of carceral violence, mental and physical torture, and straight-up murder against the state’s enemies. These killers-for-hire become unironic death fetishes, the fascist wearing a displaced fascist costume: a post-fascist Hugo Boss with a pulpy videogame or comic book flavor with which to get close and strike the vulnerable down at close quarters. Like a Gothic novel, the disguise becomes over-the-top, theatrically coded and trapped between good and bad faith portrayals. But the person wearing it in bad faith always wants to be in control, to keep someone under their power forever—to force them to submit, to love them, to see them as a god.

(exhibit 98a1a: Artist: Illustration and outfit by Lucid-01; background, outfit alterations and character design by Persephone van der Waard. Genuine abuse can be subverted, through a controlled “call of the void”/calculated risk.

Glenn the Goblin, for example, is a formerly anti-Semitic symbol that invades the pre-fascist Christian wardrobe to wickedly play around with the garments inside. In short, she’s taking them back. The source of play comes from symbolic, doubled tension; i.e., the metaplay of fan fiction’s paradox of pleasurable pain lying adjacent to perceived threats of harmful pain and its assorted legendarium. On the surface of the image, black is loaded in Western imagery with a variety of conflicting data: the threat of power as a destroying force, but also the color black as thoroughly dimorphized under Western thought—i.e., of presumed subservience [and misbehavior] for women under a perceived medievalized order of existence, the police state-of-affairs signified by black uniforms that hold punishment over those judged as good little girls and bad little girls who live under fear of rape as something to endure and avenge.

Just as canon is all according to design, so is my iconoclasm; i.e., Glenn—as a shapeshifter and Satanic atheist who isn’t much interested in being good, but nor being a scapegoat—wants to have fun through consent-non-consent by walking the tightrope. The idea is doll-like, undressing Glenn like a doll [implying a similar subversive element of control to the sub being undressed as such, instead of the heteronormative idea of intromission, coitus and creampie—i.e., “Wham, bam, thank you, ma’am!”] in ways that beg the disco refrain as disarming of unironic harm within a Gothic, BDSM threshold; re: New Order’s “How does it feel, to treat me like you do?” In this case, the question is asked under informed consent, from two parties who know exactly what they want and are reveling in the unique, delicious sensations as normally denied to us under Capitalism. Glenn didn’t pick her clothes in the sense that she’s a cartoon, but she is an extension of myself and I chose her to represent myself during the appreciative peril: Just as I designed Glenn to shapeshift themselves, and me to shapeshift into them by proxy, the “goblin transformation” fantasy is me being tied up and threatened with “death”/a palliative Numinous.

[artist: Lucid-01]

Latter-day uniforms, then, become similarly loaded with canonical connotations of torture, treachery and forbidden seduction as dimorphically gendered; the eliding of angelic patience with Radcliffe’s “black penitent” as a kind of xenophobic caricature of destruction that, under fascist/post-fascist conditions, takes on different meanings for beings perceived as “woman,” but also monstrous-feminine; the regressive in holy garbs, but also the queer BDSM subversive playing at the dark god for heretical reasons of Satanic apostacy and hellish delight. There is an undeniable link to trauma; the wearer could just as easily be a Christian missionary on the Oregan trail or 1800s China, but also a ninja, gun hand or some other operative training in bondage, torture and murder that is nevertheless fetishized in the [classically] white cis-het fantasies of women [or men playing the “heroes” in these narratives].

As Glenn demonstrates, the formerly problematic can be tipped away from its regressives aspects while keeping the medievalized, religious-tinged outer shell, but there will always be ontological tension within a broader dialogic interrogating what results. Further fun can be made by chaining her to the pillar but having her grip it with her fingers; at a glance she seems imprisoned, but on closer inspection is actually have the time of her life? There’s a loose sense of improvised chaos, too. Glenn takes what’s on hand—the nun’s habit, the convenient pair of manacles next to the bed, the hot candlewax on her bare, muscled skin, her anachronistic pussy tattoo: In Hoc Signo Vinces [“In this sign thou shalt conquer”]—and runs wild with it. She’s not the hopeless impostor-victim, stricken with dysphoria or dysmorphia; these are abusive conditions to redeem through emergent play.

As such, Glenn at home in her body and herself as in flux and at odds with the tyrannical past, carefully rewriting her own destiny by throwing caution to the wind: reclaiming the prescribed instruments of colonial abuse in thrilling paradoxically ways—i.e., the thrill of ritualized violence, minus actual harm [I’d say it’s a game where no one gets hurt, but what’s life without a little pain?].)

(exhibit 98a1b: Artist: Blxxd Bunny from a shoot their provided for one of my paintings of them.

Compulsion isn’t strictly authoritative; it can be the cathartic pursuit of what feels good, which is often a subconscious impulse. Yet, the adage, be careful what you wish applies to the sobering reality that harm is not historically-materially divided from pleasure, pain or power exchange; i.e., during social-sexual rituals where all of these things are distributed unevenly, dimorphically and abusively through fetish, kink and BDSM aesthetics. In short, the best things in life [in terms of stimulation and jouissance] come with a dialectical-material element of risk: is my lover a tool for the state, the status quo? But without pursuing catharsis, you run the risk of being a slave not just to society’s polite norms, but their hidden , brutalizing ones too: the snowy bridal gown and the black nun’s habit intimate the same systemic issues. If they wear a uniform, then it must mean something—with the uncanny possibility of their being a false option or replication that isn’t the intended function.

Again, this can be sex-positive or coercive; it all boils down to dialectical-material context: what is the point of the costume within the piece in relation not to Capitalism, but it’s core, systemic values, etiology and symptoms (e.g., the Virgin/Whore syndrome)? And more to our purposes, how can these be subverted within the paradox of cathartic, exquisite torture in ways that don’t endorse or promote actual harm or canonical iterations of something as seeming throwaway and performative as a nun’s outfit—a hauntological mask, costume or role to play that brings one joy and other denied pleasures in parallel societies: lost histories and possible new worlds within the half-real fictions of Gothic poetics as de facto education: Come and see, but also do; critique through experience as profound, intense, iconoclastic.

The ludic nature is, like a videogame, divorced from actual harm; the ritual is there, but not the dreaded result, allowing for instruction to occur through repeated, simulated experiences involving the same ingredients. While this can be for or against the state (with fascists embracing the heroic cult of death through the slaying of demons as a codified message), “slaying” in sex-positive language has a highly specific meaning and desired outcome: rape prevention and the disillusion of systemic harm. Within this broader network of opposition, denial becomes a power ironic device in relation to unironic doubles: the denial of polite restraint, of compunction, of pleasure; but also the denial of correct sex, of orgasms of prescriptive harmful norms and their forms of compelled restraint, abstinence, ignorance, protection.

In short, denial becomes a profound because of gender trouble and parody with desire outcomes for either side. Heteronormatively sees queerness as a death of the world [e.g., the 2022 Netflix miniseries for Neil Gaiman’s Sandman selling queerness to the straights as a kind of morbid death fantasy]. For us, the goal is crossing over from the right to the left by virtue of reclaiming subversive denial and indulgence as a positive vice at a societal level: a world without sin, but still has sexy nun’s and the Gothic pastiche as geared towards euphoric pleasure and pain.)

The raw sentiment of a moths drawn to the flame isn’t that hard to understand (above)—e.g., the bottom reaching behind themselves to grab the headboard, all while spreading their legs to take the fucking ever deeper and harder—if only because sex [or asexual rituals] happening during power exchange with a cool-looking badass can feel stupidly good. Yet, while cathartic gradients last and build trust and healthy relationships, coercive examples—if negotiated badly with someone presenting themselves as a sadist in bad-faith—can promptly fuck over the submissive by subjecting them to addictive, fleeting pleasure under an unscrupulous and/or unwell manipulator’s give-and-take cycle of rapacious power abuse. Caution is important, but it’s hard to be overly cautious when you feel vulnerable and enthralled with a “protector” archetype who has your number and doesn’t mean you well; i.e., they smell the trauma/madness on you and know how to exploit it. In some shape or form, the desire for cathartic fantasies grabs hold and never lets go, because trauma isn’t just something you “get over.” You can only transform it as part of you, once and forever.

Keeping that in mind, Chapter Four as a whole will examine, expose and push back against canonical disguise pastiche, aesthetics and rhetoric as state operatives; i.e., the myriad, bad-faith deceptions adopted by witch cops and (oft-female) war bosses and other expendable class traitors and token minorities in neoliberal/fascist nerd culture; Chapter Five considers the iconoclastic side of this same risky equation, including the various aesthetic deceptions and revolutionary subterfuges that writers, artists and sex workers can reclaim, mid-conflict, from those attempting to recuperate or sublimate revolution—i.e., by undermining Capitalism and toxic masculinity/the Man Box as the scapegoats of manufactured crisis disguised as its greatest champions. Queer Trojans. —Perse, back in 2023

(exhibit 98a2: Source: David Graver’s “Behind the Scenes of Netflix’s “The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance” [2019]. The Skeksis Skekmal, is the “primal” eco-fascist: the lone-wolf, “Batman” Great Destroyer dressed up in pagan icons, skulls and bones. His self-styled savagery searches for power as something to take culminates in a desire to conquer death. In thinking himself having done so, his other half sacrifices itself to restore balance; i.e., an exchange of the Leveler to prevent fascism’s emergence onto the medieval stage, which—in the Age of Capital—allows the fascist death lord to emerge, but at a terrible price. Of this ravenous, systemic appetite, I write in “The Dark Crystal: AoR – Appetites” [2019]:

Here, the Skeksis veer wildly away from Gelfling needs and wants. When a Gelfling dies, it returns to Thra; memories of the dead are preserved in icons, trinkets and rituals. These help them live on in non-destructive ways. The Skeksis lack these talents, hanging the Hunter from the rafters. As the Ritual-Master says, there is no service for a dead Skeksis. They have no idea how to bury their dead, nor how to confront death at all. For them, death is a great mystery—something to fear.

This fear is what drives them. Birds eat to live, but not for fear of death; Skeksis eat because they are afraid, and mortally so. This fear sends them into gross and indiscriminate splurges, hideously overwrought with vampiric comfort food. And since there is no amount of food to be consumed that staves off death forever, the Darkening spreads, weakening the world. The Skeksis do not care, their all-consuming need to live blinding them to the mayhem their murderous hunger wreaks [source].

For him, there is only strength and despite its mythic quality [there always someone stronger] only continues to be nowhere near enough to save him from himself or the Darkening [the so-called “puncher’s chance”]. The same goes for the Skeksis at large, they and their dark crystal’s torture castle of chains, mad science and general skullduggery doomed to crumble, but not before sacrificing everyone around them.)

Before we get into the meat of things—going through feminism as a checkered movement through different subchapters—we should go over what regressive Amazonomachia is. Simply put, regressive Amazonomachia is an aspect of culture war within feminism that peels back worker liberties due to concessions with the elite through tokenized culture and assimilation fantasies: witch cops. Witch cops aren’t just tall, imposing queens; it includes their underlings, their “flying monkeys” and purported allies of the oppressed working for a bought-and-paid-for queen bitch. In The Wizard of Oz (1939), flying monkeys were the airborne servants of the Wicked Witch of the West (quiet part: a displaced female scapegoat for Patriarchal Capitalism—attacking the gay “Friends of Dorothy” while demonizing female power); Theremin Trees likens them to narcissist worship (“Worshipping Narcissists,” 2018).

For us, it’s a combination: Capitalism is a liminal position of tremendous conflict that yields a variety of socio-material effects, including cryptonyms that can be used by actual revolutionaries to dethrone the man behind the curtain as being the real wicked “witch” (well, a wizard in Baum’s case, but it’s the same idea when dealing with TERFs ). Like the zombie or the vampire, the expanding state of exception invokes the witch as sublimated trauma for or against the state: proletarian witches or bourgeois witches.

In Chapter Two, we examined proletarian witches as victimized by the state, including more overtly fascist forms/undisguised moral panic: witch cops as babyface heroes and heel antiheroes in “their own” stories, including Shelly Bombshell as a fascist feminist providing equal opportunity genocide during Amazonomachia for anyone and everyone (exhibit 84a1). Chapter Three looked at the weird nerd as overtly belonging to the status quo: white, cis-het men as manipulated through their manufactured, heteronormative insecurities to do the elite’s bidding.

Apart from Ripley and Samus; Medusa, the xenomorph and Alien Queen; and again, Shelly Bombshell, we’ve yet to really scrutinize class traitors in-“disguise” (the disguise is generally a dogwhistle) during Amazonomachia: TERFs and their own “prison sex” behavior as violently fetishized, fascist monsters, but also more overtly centrist variants; i.e., the “Greater Good” Amazon or Medusa girl boss as unironic war bosses that punch up against fascists but punch down against the Left during their own Amazonomachia and aesthetics. Combined, these hegemons and other token, minority cops/vice characters project their coercive rape fantasies/wish fulfillment and survivor’s trauma onto their fellow workers (fascist recruitment feeds on trauma, targeting battered housewives and comparing their abusive husbands to trans people).

This includes the visiting of war and rape as canonically disguised (coercive sublimation) through unironic pastiche—a type of war propaganda whose cycle of various sublimated masks serve as “uniforms” through domestic material consumption: invaders, defenders, and fortress-minded “witches” that hauntologically promote sudden exchanges of violence pertaining to otherworldly dangers being seemingly everywhere. Moral panic becomes the norm, the masks of theatre employed to execute, not prevent it. In a similar bending of the knee to capital, the fascist crises of white, cis-het men are adopted by their female counterparts.

(exhibit 98a3: Marisa is a war boss TERF; she might seem like a pure “Dark Amazon,” but in Street Fighter 6’s centrist approach, actually employs “wheyfu” kayfabe to oscillate between the wrestler’s dialogic-pugilist position of babyface and heel: the American and the Nazi [often, in not dressed in leather and lace, at least black and white; i.e., a marriage of geopolitics, kayfabe, and 20th century BDSM rhetoric as hauntologically “backward”/regressive through the medievalized dichotomy as a rhetorical-theatrical dialogic]. Historically fascism is an American export, rooted in the United States and exported to Germany and elsewhere around the world [e.g., kaiju schlock, carried over into Godzilla as converted to “good, but also fighting a variety of evil-looking bio-mecha baddies—a trend imitated by Nintendo’s Mecha Ridley from Zero Mission, but also Metaquarium’s Super-Metroid-meets-Metroid Fusion romhack work-in-progress, X-Fusion]. To disguise themselves, fascists wear masks: the heel’s badass garb as false power they weight against the false power of centrist cops; to disguise their relationship to fascists, neoliberals/centrists will also wear masks over their fash-adjacency status: the babyface’s goody-little-two-shoes uniform as a false rebel in their own right, with the subjugated Amazon fighting during regressive, not subversive Amazonomachia. In defense of capital, both sides of a given performer sublimate genocide as bread-and-circus wrestler’s pastiche enacted between state bodies; to become sex-positive, they often have to be divorced from sports altogether—i.e., a meta “hard stance” that goes entirely against the monomythic grain and its Faustian promise of heroic power and material advancement, and sexual fulfillment; exhibit 111b.)

Neoliberalism extends the war boss “privilege” to women, performing in the interest of the state. Simply put, the TERF is a “bad bitch/witch” and a “bad bitch/witch” is a class traitor with or without the badge; i.e., a witch “cop” (vigilante) often LARPing who (often) dresses in black-and-red or -purple, and has non-white skin colors that denote a presence of otherworldly death and power tied to an older hauntological space and time: masks, uniforms, muscles, T&A and weapons.

During state decay, this liminal hauntology’s capacity for violence spills over through the TERF as a police agent inside a copaganda narrative that treats canonical, centrist rhetoric and media as sacred, but also increasingly under attack; the TERF-in-question delivers reactive abuse towards the state’s enemies, dividing and conquering them through marginalized in-fighting enacted by less marginalized or token parties against those more marginalized who refuse to betray their own class interests.

Unlike Milton’s Satan—or a vengeful, terrorist necromancer like David, from Alien: Covenant (re: “Dissecting Radcliffe“) or Carmilla from Castlevania, etc (re: “Castlevania, season 3 review“)—TERFs one and all bend the knee to power by taking in the neoliberal illusion and fascist dogma as a Faustian “deal with the devil”: the owner class as either granting them a brief reprieve, or a life of servitude where they kill and betray all of their comrades for thirty pieces of silver. The same fate that was true with Alice in Borderland or Squid Game, but also Wayne’s World’s made-up Desert Storm Commando Warrior (re: exhibit 34c2, “Fatal Homecomings“) and the many actual palimpsests present for the critique: the hero is a vigilante within the infernal concentric pattern, who suffers at the hands of the sole victor in the entire scheme: the Cus D’Amatos and Don Kings who run the show.

As a kind of unironic disguise pastiche/regressive double, the uniform becomes something to put on by writers, consumers, and other socio-political agents, making their own actions within capital a form of copaganda. It’s Michael Parenti’s notion of false revolution and victimization by class traitors buying into the assimilation fantasy while following the leader (or rather, a chain of leadership in vertical arrangements of power).

To it, the TERF as a war boss is a victim who is conditioned to attack the states enemies while wearing disguises, including ones meant to fool themselves: that a re-aiming of the Medusas legitimate anger at Patriarchal forces—her stone vision—at the state’s enemies during Amazonomachia, not unlike Zach Snyder’s Superman or Homelander’s eye lasers, is legitimate, but also just; she becomes lethal and blind, killing what she sees through her body as a destructively angry extension of her pro-state ideology whose vision is “set to kill” towards anyone who threatens her idea of home relative to herself and her trauma (fascists fear anyone different than themselves; so do centrists, but dress it up as Nazis or Communists): the redirection of worker grievances—their legitimate anger towards systemic abuses—aimed at other workers in a destructive (exploitative towards people) sense. Her insecurities become weaponized and she and those solidarizing with her punch down as hard as they can: “As one!” Maximus might scream right before charging headfirst into the barbarian horde.

(artist: Wolfhead at Night)

We’ll get to that and how to subvert it during proletarian Amazonomachia, in Chapter Five (our own disguise pastiche/subversive doubles and constructive anger—the destruction of exploitative hegemons, paradigms, systems, what-have-you through worker solidarity and subterfuge). For now, just remember that in American consumer culture, overt patriotism is sometimes swapped for seemingly more moderate forms that furtively join arms against labor as a whole: gamer/comic book culture and its own “junk food,” badly educated mentalities. Media indicative of an American global “presence” is often tied to war in duplicate forms, especially the shooter genre as a common form of canonical propaganda (“Military Optimism“).

By extension, the pastiche of war sublimated through videogames and their palimpsests often becomes something to ideologically defend from various, poorly defined enemies: dangerous “outsiders” who can suddenly appear and “compromise” you without warning: orcs, Drow and other states of exception that feel increasingly undead, but similar to you, parasitoid. The irony is, the regressive “activist” becomes self-deceptive but also self-destructive: the killer vortex that vacuums everything up, including themselves and their loved ones. In short, they colonizes themselves in the process, happening through an Imperial Boomerang that is always in motion, always hungry and always afraid.

(artist: Alex Andreyev)

The same basic idea applies to other modes of self-consumption, whereupon moderacy is generally advanced by political groups identified by the media they associate with or identify around. This includes TERFs and other cryptofascists, who often attempt to posture as more left-leaning than they actually are. This proceeds up to a point, course; i.e., apart from token examples, TERFs are cis, but also presenting as centered and reasonable when they tone police, condescend, or otherwise deny queer people their basic human rights (I don’t have a lot of cis friends for this reason, precisely because it’s far easier to explain my oppressed position to other trans, intersex or non-binary persons than it is someone who doesn’t experience that oppression, themselves; but also because cis people, including cis queer people, are prone to either get confused, or decide to condescend towards me or otherwise lash out in a variety of ways. I don’t need that shit). Their LGBA moderate/reactionary polemics work on par with MLK’s “white moderate” foil in his “Letter from Birmingham Jail” (source tweet: hachx0, 2023).

Moderates, then, are generally super lame and disingenuous, so they wrap themselves in badass things to seem cooler than they really are—i.e., by liking “cool” things like Aliens, Doom or similar retro-future stories tied to war as a “pick me” appeal to the status quo (and a “weird flex” to gender-non-conforming persons). The hauntology’s liminality is twofold: from a cosmetic standpoint, and because the hosting media becomes a mask with multiple functions that extend Capitalist Realism forward:

  • to hide the consumer’s true intentions behind.
  • to wear proudly like a badge or uniform, weaponizing the wearer during fascist times of crisis.
  • to build the walls of the myopic crypt higher and higher, discouraging emancipatory variants through a gradient of Capitalist Realist myopia: transphobia, racism, misogyny and anti-Semitism, etc.

Before we proceed, a note about moderacy in general: Over the next six sections, we’ll examine moderacy as it to canonical iterations of the Four Gs and social-sexual activism’s emancipatory forms. We’ll start with TERFs, outlining their deceptive/fascist nature before examining how it, along with their endless consumption—of war pastiche and neoliberal dogma—continuously informs TERF centrism as something that hauntologically weaponizes in crisis; from there, we’ll move onto enbyphobia in binary trans women, NERFs; and lastly we’ll explore the role of the girl/queer boss in selling war and how to respond to it differently than TERFs do: in a sex-positive way (re: with Nyx’ help, below).

(artist: Nyx)

Note: Out of these four sections, the next two cover deception, war pastiche and stonewalling as it connects to TERF behavior. Like neoliberalism and fascism, though, these are not discrete categories; they intersect and must be discussed interdependently as part of a larger issue. Each subsection will try to illustrate this reality while focusing on a primary topic. —Perse, back in 2023

Onto “Nerdy Patriarchs, ‘Real Men’ and So-Called Male ‘Witches'” + “Kento’s Dream”!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

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Inside the Man Box, part four: Obliterating Phoebe: In the Shadow of Pygmalion, or the Weird Nerds’ Canonical Praxis at Large (feat. Sepultura, Steven King, Eren Yeager, Harley Quinn, and Kefka Palazzo, etc)

I too awaited the expected guest.

He, the young man carbuncular, arrives,

A small house agent’s clerk, with one bold stare,

One of the low on whom assurance sits

As a silk hat on a Bradford millionaire.

The time is now propitious, as he guesses,

The meal is ended, she is bored and tired,

Endeavours to engage her in caresses

Which still are unreproved, if undesired.

Flushed and decided, he assaults at once;

Exploring hands encounter no defence;

His vanity requires no response,

And makes a welcome of indifference (source).

 

—T.S. Eliot, “The Waste Land” (1922)

Picking up where “Poison was the Cure: On Goblins, Being a Weird Nerd and Trans Cryptonymy” left off…

(exhibit 94c2a: Trapped between titanic forces, the weird canonical nerd desires to fight the forces of evil and prove his manhood. Centrism, like fascism, equates manhood with the state, the status quo. As such, centrist nerds tell themselves considerable lies in order to justify that a] their violence is good, thus legitimate; and b] that their enemies are always bad, thus illegitimate. The idea is very popular in neoliberal war pastiche like The Ronin Warriors, which we will examine more in Chapter Four during the “Kento’s Dream” subchapter.)

Note: The Shadow of Pygmalion/Galatea and Pygmalion/Galatea effect are concepts that crystalized in Volume Zero (re: “Thesis Body: Gothic (gay-anarcho) Communism vs the State; or, Galatea inside the Shadow of Pygmalion“). It’s a tremendously important idea—one that relates to Amazons and the Medusa, femboys, the Rusalki from Axiom Verge (and frankly almost anything in Metroidvania; re: “She Fucks Back“), and witch cops, etc. Here is where it got its start; i.e., Caleb Hart was the model for Pygmalion in Sex Positivity but one which we’ll examine similar or at least later characters. —Perse, 5/5/2025

As a bad educator of transphobia and adjacent bigotries, Caleb is a vigilante that polices canon from degenerate influences. Simply put, he’s a vigilante within a larger pecking order. As we discussed in Volume Two, vigilantes defend capital for the state in neoliberal and fascist narratives. Coded by these monomyths through videogames and other popular media as “under attack,” weird canonical nerds become de facto policers of their own imperiled masculinity as exported to them—i.e., by “defending” the temples of this holy instruction from outside, degenerate forces: we fags as weird nerds that camp canon as Galatea did, come alive.

So before we delve into TERFs and fascist, monstrous-feminine “witch cops” committing queer genocide in Chapter Four, I want to conclude Chapter Three by discussing the shadow of Capitalism that hides and extends the usual suspects; re: white, cis-het men and their vanguard leading into bolder deceptions and attacks against different targets they often overlap with; e.g., Harley Quinn, Eren Yeager and Kefka Palazzo, Sepultura, etc; i.e., fascist feminism’s Dark Mother vs centrist Amazons “good version” of the same “sex, drugs, and rock ‘n roll” hegemon that operate in the state’s interest, abusing Gothic: in the Shadow of Pygmalion as exemplified not just by Caleb Hart, but Steven King (videogames vs books).

First, a brief summation of what Pygmalion’s shadow even is: The shadow of Pygmalion is the monomyth/Cycle of Kings. From skeleton to noble, it travels around and around in a Patriarchal loop perpetually afraid of the monstrous-feminine: the “Pygmalion effect” (re: exhibit 12 and Steven King, “Challenging the State“) as afraid of the monstrous-feminine as thinking for itself, a great statue of Galatea that doesn’t just come alive but whose very existence challenges the status quo passively and actively. Our shadow of Galatea, then, is challenged by the usual handling of power through the mechanisms of the state; i.e., not as a democratic progress that doesn’t exploit workers, but the go-to mode of exploitation. As such, it become the mise-en-abyme of great men that—whether fascist or neoliberal—perpetuate the status quo through an inability to take hard stances against the state. The state is always right and war is always good because without it, the state would not exist; to keep existing, the state must police bodies to rape nature on schedule: virgin/whores, nature as monstrous-feminine through bad demon BDSM (which our ludo-Gothic BDSM camps through the cryptonymy process to reverse abjection with all the usual aesthetics, below).

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

This leads to a variety of offshoots imitating the larger structure as perpetuated by older forms of media that are adapted into new forms of media, and new generations of given media types that romanticize the barbaric, monomythic quest through the ghost of the counterfeit in a grand narrative of the crypt. Horace Walpole writes a novel two-hundred-plus years ago; Steven King puts his own spin on things, which then is adapted into a videogame, streamed, consumed by the streamer’s chatroom, endorsed through a variety of material goods that codify and ferry the overarching xenophobia inside popular culture as thoroughly bigoted.

The shadow is the Patriarch reviewed and revived through what is now being called Man Box culture. It’s the shadow of the skeleton king refusing to die, but also his “good” counterpart apologizing for the tyrant’s overtures and desolation; ghost-like, never alive nor dead, both are constantly revived and transmitted during cryptomimesis in favor of centrist dead—what, in Volume Two, we called the Cycle of Kings in relation to centrist kayfabe (re: “Perceptive Zombie Eyeballs“); i.e., the return of the tyrant and his undead, fascist host, followed by the return the noble king and all that king’s men in response, or emulations of either force in assimilated minorities (e.g., Amazons): paladins versus death knights in the performance of normal skirmishes inside the orderly conflict inside historical materialism’s good-versus-evil, both sides united staunchly against anti-capitalist forces as the End of All Things (often scapegoated as female or at least monstrous-feminine; i.e., the Archaic Mother [re: exhibit 1a1c, “Symposium: Aftercare“]—a paradox given Communism was envisioned as a critique of Capitalism and its token cops piloted by straight boys-to-men, Caleb Hart onwards).

Capitalism, then, is something to defend from the spectres of Marx through false reconciliation; i.e., centrism is merely a perpetuation of the same destructive cycle through counterfeit paladins, death knights and the foreign idea of chaos-as-female/monstrous-feminine sitting squarely outside their orderly duels of good-versus-evil. To this, powerful men like Steven King become replicated as profitable foils to the obvious skull-and-crossbones baddies. They reap the rewards of things staying the same, but enjoy the label of being “liberal” or “progressive” as a badge of honor differentiating them from Caleb Hart and even worse grifters. They’re not different in function, though, but by degree according to the purpose: exploitation through stereotypes that become endorsed through a collective societal inability to challenge the Cycle of Kings and its twin male shadows keeping Gothic-Communism’s queer poetics anathema, damned.

We’ll get to Steven King in just a moment. First, let’s consider the larger sex, drugs and heavy metal/rock ‘n roll machinery that he and Pygmalions like him lord over (themselves millionaires pinned between the billionaires of the world at the top and everyone else at the bottom).

(exhibit 94c2b: Artist: Michael Whelan. Sepultura come from Brazil, their older music [that is, before their fame gave them a means of escape] reflecting the sense of unreality to their living conditions; i.e., their individual homesteads placed within the nation as home, but thoroughly sickened by a greater plight that effects everything inside of it: a sepulture, or burial. The live-burial, in this case, is being born dead inside an undead nation on a continent so thoroughly and infamously exploited by the United States. Under this shadowy influence of mass exploitation is a complex web of lies and covert paramilitary maneuvers that evoke a distant, brutal time out of the West’s own backlog: the medieval collapse after a former greatness. It could be said that things were “better” before the conquistadors came, but the Aztec, Mayan and Inca empires weren’t perfect; however, they also weren’t Rome. The cycle of antiquity butting up against modernity is a Capitalist illusion engendered by global capitalist venues feeding money into the mother country stolen from its neighbors in the Global South. “Fed through the tube that sticks in me, just like a wartime novelty”—places like Brazil are recursively visited by nightmarish scenarios whose abject realities are completely unimaginable and, indeed, medieval to the Global North. Our worst nightmare is literally Tuesday for these people and their immiserated lives, all of which could be entirely prevented if the shadow of Pygmalion were dismantled. It’s not just a threat that “could happen,” but intimates behind a barrier hiding the living hell required for the elite to glut themselves with piles of stolen generated wealth in the global economic system. Contrary to the return of a nightmarish past, this is a doomsday that has never existed before ushered in behind evocations of former hells through inherited survival’s guilt: Sepultura’s breakout album features the cover art of sci-fi/horror artist, Michael Whelan:

“I discovered Michael Whelan from a series of paperback H.P. Lovecraft books that I found in Brazil,” Cavalera says. “I suggested to Monte that we should try and get in touch with this guy for the cover. Then when Monte got a hold of Michael, Michael sent him a bunch of different paintings, including Beneath the Remains.” While the Whelan artwork Cavalera initially wanted to use was nixed by Roadrunner (and eventually used for labelmates Obituary’s 1990 album Cause of Death), the singer ultimately agreed that the label’s pick — a surreal red-and-black skull painting titled “Nightmare in Red” — “fit the record better” [source: Brad Angle’s “The Story behind the Cover Art,” 2020].

The album was also the band’s desperate, last-ditch effort to break away from their home country and establish a larger audience:

“You only get so many shots in this life — and you gotta make it count.”

Sepultura‘s shot came in 1988. And founding singer-guitarist Max Cavalera was dead set on hitting his target. Back then, the Brazilian band was a rising extreme-metal force with two albums under their bullet belts — but little recognition outside of their home country. Thanks to Cavalera’s boundless ambition to break out, he marshaled all his resources, called in favors and worked his tape-trading connections to score him a plane ticket to New York City and face time with industry tastemakers and label reps. His hustle paid off when Roadrunner Records’ Monte Connor offered his band a record contract. The new deal meant that Sepultura’s music would reach a lot more people. For the then-broke act from Belo Horizonte, the stakes couldn’t have been higher.

“We knew in our heart it was our shot — a make-it-or-break-it album,” Cavalera continues. “If we would have released something shitty and nobody cared that would be the end of it. Done deal. We needed to step up on the music side, and we did” [ibid.]. 

 This, I would argue, wasn’t simply Sepultura pandering to metalheads across the border but an earnest attempt to convey their own frustrations living in a place so obviously exploited compared to customers abroad who were better cared for [and who could afford to pay for their music and merchandise]. Behind the story of their collaboration with Whelan and his artwork, the struggle against capital is told—rather fittingly—beneath the remains not just of their material, but across a revival of dead kings, of kings, of kings; not just of the hidden kings of the present under Capitalism, but the spectral monarch of H. P. Lovecraft revived the 1980s [whose work until this point was somewhat obscure]:

Del Rey Books asked Michael to do 2 paintings of horrific images they could use on 7 volumes of H.P. LOVECRAFT stories. He didn’t have to illustrate the stories, just create images that conveyed the mood. This and LOVECRAFT’S NIGHTMARE A form his only real diptych—1 artistic image created on 2 panels and the paintings can meet side by side either way with one flowing into the other. They are featured in MICHAEL WHELAN’S WORKS OF WONDER, his second art book, and they are hugely popular with heavy metal bands and fans [source: “Lovecraft’s Nightmare, B”—MichaelWhelan.com].

Concerning Lovecraft and the American metal scene, Pygmalion’s shadow yields some curiously broken clocks, or those that “wind down” [fear being a lucrative scheme; people pay a great deal amid waves of terror to feel in control; i.e., by telling themselves through the Gothic fiction that it’s “just” a nightmare, thus could never happen to them]. For Sepultura, they—like Lovecraft’s contemporary, Louis Borges—came from somewhere else where the nightmares were actually real. While they eventually “grew up,” their music mellowing out somewhat as they acclimated to fame and success, the band always retained a knack for critiquing power begot from their origins—origins being outside of the charmed life that metal giants like Metallica, Iced Earth or Judas Priest lived, each band eventually selling out to a comic book spoof of their former selves, pandering to a comic book narrative/audience that dubiously trademarked “Fucking Metal!” that echoed Lovecraft’s pulpy, Weird-Tales magazine vibes dreaming fitfully about the collapse of the West while failing to realize such devastation was happening elsewhere already [and indeed capitalizing on that fear]. However misplaced, such conspiracies often come from a place of truth as obscured, which the so-called “good guys” of Pax Americana cannot explain away [Bad Empanada’s “Why Liberals Can’t Counter Conspiracy Theories,” 2023]. They’re basically the dad from The Ice Storm [1997] angrily telling his daughter [the magnificent Christina Ricci] to be quiet when she not-so-subtly mentions genocide during Thanksgiving: “Dear Lord, thank you for this Thanksgiving holiday. And for all the material possessions we have and enjoy. And for letting us white people kill all the Indians and steal their tribal lands. And stuff ourselves like pigs, even though children in Asia are being napalmed.”

The reality of death is that it walks in our footsteps, haunting patrilineal descent until the fatherly household crumbles to dust; in the interim, the first-born son is coddled—in my family’s case by the pants-wearing matriarch—until she herself was confronted by the riddle of the Sphinx as a kind death-bringer: the madness of the monarch slowly approaching death as a womb-like state of non-existence, the decay of memory something to experience towards one’s own demise but also inherit from the family line as doomed. In my grandmother’s case, I could see her haunted by the proverbial spectre of death just as she herself once saw death in other things.

For example, when my mother was younger she had a golden retriever named Prince; when she broke up with a lover who had erectile dysfunction, the man poisoned Prince; when my grandmother got home from work, she saw Prince in his doghouse and thought, “I saw him and he was dead; he wasn’t at that moment but he was dead,” to which he died the next day seemingly out of the blue; when I saw my grandmother five years ago I could sense a change her that I likened to an inversion to Wordsworth’s “Intimations of Mortality” [1807]—intimations of death; and as that feeling has worsened in a very tangible degree, she has become more like that frightened little girl who used to read Sir Arthur Conan Doyle’s “The Hound of the Baskervilles“: the black dog is coming ever nearer and she, ever more child-like, fears her own death until she can no longer describe it in words. Such is the fate of all the West and its monarchs, their futile desire to conquer death only leading to tremendous suffering, confusion and desolation: “Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player who struts [their] hour upon the stage and then is heard no more.”)

We have already considered how kayfabe is the language of espionage for or against the state inside the Gothic mode (often by using the language of war as an athletic competition that fetishizes war, death, lies and rape); i.e., fascism as the conclusion of one revolution of the infernal concentric pattern, which is whitewashed by lovers of “good war” using the language of American Liberalism (centrists) and the future as a dead mall, but also a war zone. But obviously it’s more complicated than two basic sides.

There’s also paramilitarism and guerrilla warfare. Employed within either facet of this ongoing power exchange, the functional difference between a cop and vigilante becomes rather vague and largely non-existent under fascism, whose police state operates on enforced surveillance and rogue cops policing a wider and wider group of people during persecution mania as enabled by centrists (who protect property, not people). Denial is always part of the equation and generally performed by the “better” side against a perceived menace (the theatrical “shadow enemy” attacked by the state’s own terror agents—the CIA, of course, but also class traitors of various kinds: the paramilitary and its witch-cop vigilantes and token subsets).

Regardless, the state is always perfect/can never be wrong yet is always under attack, thus forced to compromise with calls to ancient destroyers: mercenaries from another barbaric time used to putting in the kind of hard work to keep Capitalism intact. Alarm fatigue and waves of terror indoctrinate children, arming them with a live-or-die mindset against an insurmountable, unknowable foe; it’s the process of abjection taken to regressive extremes, breaking the state apart under its own axiom as deputized by self-colonizers hunting their own population with vigilantism tacitly/temporarily legitimized by the state (whose own, direct violence is always legitimate). These lynch mobs rise out of xenophobic moral panic and various manufactured crises, including masculinity as threatened, but also something that can never live up to its own hype; the imposter is the performer knowing they aren’t Conan or Red Sonya. The result is a culture of callow, bigoted, superstitious, and thoroughly conspiratorial bullies who—reared on dogma inside thoroughly broken homes—think they’re rebels, pirates, Vikings and the like, but also feel profoundly insecure amid their own cis-het gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia (these conditions aren’t exclusive to queer people).

(artist: Madame Tussaud)

In truth, fascists are delusional, armed thugs who defend capital, which takes advantage of their own exploitation and monomythic bad education under Capitalism. In following a violent, stupid leader whose ideology they refuse to question in relation to themselves, they become smaller versions thereof: ostensibly perfect and invincible, but in all actuality are flawed beyond repair and wholly undercover inside their own lies; the deceit becomes self-consuming/Quixotic.

This being said, While all cops defend property instead of people, centrist veneers offer the myth of “good cop, bad cop” in war-boss language minus any semblance of sex-positive irony. All Cops Are Bad, but centrists officially refuse to take hard stances on their political platforms—i.e., compromising with and debating fascists, while actually aggregating with them to hate leftists for their hard stances against the state (which includes sex-positive irony during BDSM, kink and demonic/undead, Gothic counterculture art). Fascists, meanwhile, take aesthetically hard stances for the state and capitalists, invoking the police state as badass/radicalized under Foucault’s Boomerang to invoke the state of exception; i.e., against the Left as targeted for zombie-apocalypse levels of violence (which again, tacitly positions “badass” and “cool” solely within false activism.

To reactionaries or moderates, then, Leftism is merely a terrorist gesture in centrist eyes, hence not actually badass like fascist death knights are). Fascists commit genocide during the infernal concentric pattern and centrists apologize for it (while committing genocide themselves, raping the mind with Fisher’s hauntology—i.e., carceral hauntologies such as the cyberpunk or medieval regression); the point isn’t accountability but coercion and enforcement in fetishizing language while repressing proletarian sentiment and praxis. According to the state and its allies, we’re the imposters, the devils-in-disguise, the Archaic Mother threatening Patriarchal hegemony (to be fair, we are, but many of them believe we mean them harm in the process, when our aim isn’t harm but transformation towards a post-scarcity world devoid of state abuses).

Weird canonical nerds, as we’ll continue to explore, are cops-in-spirit if not actual, formal authority under Pygmalion’s shadow. Indeed, they become de facto deputies, whose xenophobic, incel-level Man Box vigilantism during gender trouble is largely ignored but tolerated by the “real” boys in blue. The same likeness is seen reflected across the surface of various mercenaries defending capital: cops, war bosses (male or female) and other paramilitaries who LARP, or LARPers who consumer what they want to function as—to rape and kill the alien, the radical, the enemy as something that looks like them and their fetish gear (with Batman dressed all in black in cahoots with the commissioner by waging a forever war against the “degenerate” scum of Gotham, instead of giving away his vast fortune/family money to end poverty thus crime).

(artist: Blxxd Bunny)

This is no accident. From the historical-material dreams of various Pygmalions come the historical-material monsters of men toward their own, manmade insecurities: Gay Medusa—the Big Whore let out of their box—is coming for them and theirs by threatening the cycle of war as good, thus being the perfect scapegoats for the infernal concentric pattern. Whatever form the scapegoat takes, the praxis is canonical, but can be resisted and escaped the same way it came in: through the images themselves and the eclipsed revolutionaries making them (women, queer people/persons of color and religious minorities, etc).

Already touched upon with Volume One when we looked at Stieglitz’ Pygmalion-esque patronage of O’Keefe (re: exhibit 24c1, “The Basics“), we’ll look at some of these sexist shadows now—of the powerful men behind the curtain in horror media—then apply our findings to the sexist, usually male proponents of capital/the state during the Internet Age: weird canonical nerds and how they suffer from the canonical praxis/comparison of their own bad education as internalized: the more visible, hypermasculine action heroes in monomythic media (of which these students crafting their own masks in imitation can never measure up to; becoming insure, killer babies in the bargain, they’re always gagging at/dumbly chasing the abject or crapping their pants at labor activists before running in guns blazing like a dumbass.

The basic cryptonymy idea is to let slip the mask; i.e., in ways that expose and disarm the fascist as false, but also the centrist—covering for them and the state through action-hero, TERF kayfabe—as hollow, two-faced, and impotent behind their own concentric veneers).

(exhibit 95a1a: Artist, top-left: unknown, source; bottom-left: Katy DeCobray; top-middle and middle: unknown; bottom-middle: unknown; right: Frank Miller. Batman is the posterchild of vigilantism. Coded as noir and medieval, his antics promote both the myth of the useful billionaire and the false rebel tied to child soldiers coded through the monomyth to serve the dark knight [Robin and his or her many iterations working under the same ol’ Bruce Wayne]. He is awash in Gothic splendor tied to old family wealth, white privilege, entitlement, and bad life choices. Not only does he get police protection, but he’s lauded for being “hunted” by the cops while living a double life: the aristocrat and the thug who’s owed sex and yet whose horrible plurality explodes into pathetic blubbering and psychotic, Don-Quixote-level violence against the poor who he blames for killing his mega-wealthy parents [the cause for these criminogenic conditions to start with]. By extension, his enemies are generally queer-coded and his imitators are basically fascists in practice—i.e., the schtick minus the capital, but the same level of emotional health and broken childhood homes.

To this, similar characters generally reflect a fascist tendency within their makers, with Hajime Isayama being an unapologetic genocide denier/Japanese fascist. Seldomusings writes in “The Possible Disturbing Dissonance Between Hajime Isayama’s Beliefs and Attack on Titan’s Themes” [2013]:

Hajime Isayama, the 27 year old author of Attack on Titan, supposedly expressed these beliefs in June on his private Twitter account @migiteorerno, but this rumor has only recently been circulating the Internet. June was also when South Koreans (some fans of the manga and anime, some not?) discovered a post on Isayama’s official blog from 2010 where he said the character Dot Pixis was based on historical figure Yoshifuru Akiyama, who Isayama called frugal and respectable. Because Akiyama was a general of the Imperial Japanese Army who contributed to the colonization of Korea and the commander of the army stationed in Korea under Japanese occupation, Koreans commented on the post in disgust and anger that Isayama would admire someone considered a war criminal, going as far as death threats.

The @migiteorerno account is private, but some tweets are visible on the site Favstar that organizes tweets by number of times favorited and retweeted. One that has been spread across South Korean news articles to various blog posts apparently reads “I believe that categorizing the Japanese soldiers who were in Korea before Korea was a country(??) as ‘Nazis’ is quite crude. Also, I do not believe that the people whose populations were increased twofold by Japan’s unification(??) of the country can be compared to people who experienced the Holocaust. This type of miscategorization is the source of misunderstanding and discrimination.” @migiteorerno dismisses how Japan’s imperialist war atrocities are often considered the East Asia equivalent to the Holocaust, instead giving credit for Korean’s modernization to Japan’s colonization. The blogger behind Ask a Korean acknowledges the complications of Holocaust comparisons in this post and Korea’s resulting modernization in this post, in both explaining better than I could how it does not excuse Japan’s past actions and present avoidance.

Attack on Titan fans have found connections between @migiteorerno and Hajime Isayama that point to it being his private Twitter account, such as @migiteorerno mentioning seeing movies right before Isayama’s official blog didJapanese fans on 2ch treating @migiteorerno’s tweet about the official Attack on Titan video game as Isayama’s words, and @migiteorerno communicating with and following Isayama’s professional associates. In addition, how @migiteorerno’s tweet ignores Japan’s war atrocities to instead focus on South Korea’s modernization parallels how Isayama ignored Akiyama’s war crimes to instead focus on his life as a countryside school principal after the army. The latest Attack on Titan official guidebook Outside Kou has also confirmed that heroine Mikasa Ackerman was named after the Japanese battleship Mikasa, a flagship of the Russo-Japanese War over control of Korea [source].

The secret identity of the tweets aside, the especially telling part is—like Killing Stalking—there exists a blank refusal by either author to take a hard stance against canonically fetishizing crime, war and various groups. In Isayama‘s case, this includes straight-up fascists. Since 2013, the show’s conclusions and central hero are undoubtedly fascist-coded, and more than a little like the alt-right weebs/weird canonical nerds who worship him for basically being an incel god-king/edgelord who unironically destroys the whole world through his de facto avatar, Eren Yeager.)

(exhibit 95a1b: Eren Yeager is like a sad, fascist clown; i.e., full of cis-het pathos towards the marginalized while posturing as one himself. Unlike the Joker’s ironic variant, his canonical criminality arguably lacks any queer subtext at all and instead stems from a self-victimhood that is imposed at all times. Clowns are hella queer but especially the villainous kind in popular stories. As Zina Hutton writes in her 2018 master’s thesis, “Queering the Clown Prince of Crime: A Look at Queer Stereotypes as Signifiers in DC Comics’ The Joker,” the Joker isn’t just queer-coded, but a threat to the hero and his extensions:

[historically] encoded with stereotypes about queer masculinity that are then used to create a pervasive perception of the Joker as a villain whose queerness serves as a subtextual threat to Batman – and his fans. 

The Joker is one in a long line of pop culture villains whose queer-coding appears to come from a place of unquestioned and casual homophobia and that requires serious assessment as the Joker has set the mold for multiple other villains. As superhero comics increase their impact on other forms of media (such as young adult novels, video games, and films), it is important to analyze the way that media creators working in these industries construct narratives around characters like the Joker whose identity comes with loaded messages about what queerness looks like for their audiences. Messages that serve as signifiers – signals about something intended to reach the audience. The most relevant example is that of the queer signifier as it is supposed to denote queerness and/or a queer identity in a character. These signifiers may take the form of literal signs such as the handkerchief code of the seventies or the use of certain kinds of slang (i.e., ballroom and queen slang as seen in the documentary Paris Is Burning). In this context, a queer signifier is supposed to signal the character’s queerness. Signifiers need not be stereotypes, but may take the form of stereotypes in media that are homophobic and/or anti-queer. 

Queer readings of the Joker come about because he pays Batman a little too much attention, because he wears makeup, and because he’s seen as incapable of and uninterested in having relationships with women. Additionally, the Joker is read as queer because he chases after Batman – when in the same vein, queer readings of the Batman usually don’t center on his relationship with the Joker or their unending game of cat and mouse. This distinction matters because this relationship, while having a mirror reflection of each characters’ focus represented, only acknowledges the Joker’s interest as one that could be read as queer. Batman’s fixed following of the Joker is seen as pure, just, and absolutely heterosexual while the Joker’s fixation on Batman is presented as deviant [source]. 

The irony of the incel as an edgelord is the person who could never establish meaningful social-sexual relationships with other people, yet who constantly insists that they aren’t gay. In other words, they aren’t closeted queer people or even criminally queer people like Jeffrey Dahmer was; they’re straight people acting out against the things they want but hate: anything perceived as weaker than their idea of strength, including women

[Artist, bottom-left: Harlisleys; top-right: Fabian Monk; bottom-right: TomatoSoup13. Our fag-hag Harley Quinn is a canonical bisexual according to Gayety. She’s the comics’ go-to unicorn, except Batman prefers Catwoman and her femdom catsuit. For us, she’s Galatea potential, a campy queen clown to delight in and emulate in our own odes to Galatea.]

but also monstrous-feminine male groups that they chase through self-hatred [Robin, obviously]. They fetishize Batman as the unironic the billionaire cop and Joker as the super-straight edgelord, either lacking the vamp-camp of older versions that subverted the cultural homophobia surrounding the Joker or making Batman the object of ridicule and fun. And while camp is [at least according to Sontag] “seriousness that fails,” there’s nothing funny about the real-life violence that unironic Jokers and Batman imitators perpetuate. They suck all the joy out of everything. “Camp” is less queer people “making it gay” and more making it our own by reclamation our stigmas and trauma.

The same effect applies to shonen anime as locking horns with its Western counterparts—with Frieza’s space-alien, clown-like persona evoking an unironic fascist desire for dominance when he’s on top [Frieza’s name and behavior rhyme a little too closely with Caesar’s] and causing a great deal of chaos when he’s reduced to the sideshow act. Similar to Dio from JoJo, Frieza can be a great deal of fun in ironic forms, but like that character is incredibly mean-spirited, the queer persona kettled into godlike, narcissistic, patriarchal extremes [see: Kefka Palazzo, below] instead of speaking for the oppressed through camp; i.e., the jester in the king’s court, the Loki to Goku’s Thor that desires to be Zeus, Caesar or Odin, but then—being queer-coded—can never reconcile with the system he has acquired top position inside. Simply put, there’s nowhere for him to go, no one for him to share it with or identify with, inside [even more so than straight men, but even straight men would grow restless—itching for yet-another-fight].

This is why the Saiyans don’t kill Frieza at the end; like Batman or any other “good” guy” you could think of inside superhero canon, they need him to justify their own position within Dragon Ball‘s centrist kayfabe. He’s the trickster in a straight scheme, and their debates and disputes are—in the shonen style—highly destructive; i.e., settled through force, but also heteronormative displays of strength with no quantifiable metric, just the recursive, straw-dog logic of “here comes a new challenger”: the statuesque body as swollen with traditional masculine power and Ragnarok-level glory in the face of possible defeat. The self-aggrandizing conflicts are manufactured, never-ending and doomed, with zero room for anything but raw physical violence and its incessant deification. These displays become the games of the gods, while around them the lives of ordinary people under ordinary material conditions, are blasted apart [Frieza destroyed the Saiyan planet for laughs, killing more than just the warriors on there, but all life].)

Before we proceed, then, here are some things about weird canonical nerds I want you to keep in mind as we move into Chapters Four and Five (which will discuss fascism/centrism as performed not just by white, cis-het men, but by male/female feminists, cis women and cis-queer/token trans, intersex and non-binary people; and how to challenge these Man Box assimilations and ideas of “correct” rebellion [bourgeois, “waifu” Amazonomachia, exhibit 98a3] during proletarian subterfuge [thus subverted, proletarian Amazonomachia, exhibit 111b] and extracurricular de facto education).

First, their class-dormant/class-traitorous hostility towards sex workers manifests in our four basic ways (re: “Scouting the Field“)

  • open aggression, expressing gender trouble as a means of open, aggressive attack (disguised as “self-defense” reactive abuse): “We’re upset and punching down is free speech” (“free speech” being code for “negative freedom for bigots who want to say bigoted things” to defend the elite’s profit motive).
  • condescension, expressing a moderate, centrist position that smarmily perpetuates the current status quo as immutable, but also optimal: “This is as good as it gets” but also which can never decay.
  • reactionary indignation, using sex-coercive symbols (argumentation) to defend their unethical positions: “They’re out to destroy your heroes, your fun, all you hold dear (code for ‘the current power structure’).”
  • DARVO (“Deny, Accuse, Reverse, Victim, Offender”), defending the status quo by defending the people who enslave them (the elite) by going after the elite’s enemies, thereby defending Capitalism during decay. When it decays, these “gamers” see “their” games in decay and will defend those, seeing human rights as an affordable compromise in the bargain. They see themselves (and the elite) as “victims,” and class warriors as monsters “ruining everything” (like Satan).

according to their canonical synthetic groupings (re: “The Basics“)

  • destructive anger—i.e., possessive or bad-faith, “destructive” anger and defense of the state.
  • destabilizing gossip—i.e., co-dependent, “prison sex” mentalities and rape culture as abuse-forming patterns through worsened (coercive)/missing social-sexual education and material conditions.
  • “blind” pastiche/quoting (dogma)—i.e., the remediated praxis of unironic pastiche and quoting.
  • unironic gender trouble/parody (camp)—i.e., a performative means of cryptofascism whose gagging or crapping their pants amounts to reactionary violence against out-groups during moral panics/the state of exception.
  • bad-faith egregores that personify/disguise the bourgeois proponents’ frustration and pre-emptive aggression during said struggles.

I won’t have time to address each of these in turn; they’re more basic concepts I expect you to approach intuitively as we move forward.

Second, there are some underlying comorbidities that affect fascists/centrists to different degrees as weird canonical nerds (again, things to keep in mind as we proceed through the rest of the book):

  • As we approached in Volume Two’s zombie section, fascism and vigilantism leads to mass alienation, disembowelment and ignominious death; i.e., the siding of vigilante and cop as similarly dehumanized in protection of the status quo. When defending property before people, the conscript’s sense of belonging is overwritten by a conditioned desire to attack and kill that which is different: the other. As we shall see, this Promethean outcome applies to male and female proponents, including weird canonical nerds, TERFs (girl-boss Amazons, Medusas, etc) and witch cops, etc, as stuck in the Man Box, acting like men. As power aggregates, the call to assimilate deepens. Former activists of convenience become afraid of change, of self-critique, of difference, which leads to their own destruction, but also the destruction of other people: the Promethean pursuit of traditional, masculine power through the monomyth.
  • False power and insecurity. In fascist terms, power is false, self-destructive, Faustian. The hero, despite appearing strong, becomes fragile, ignorant, callow and doomed; their loneliness compounds, seeking a sense of community and belonging from a xenophobic con that ultimately drives them apart—i.e., the power trip becomes a death omen, fantasy and cult, fiddling while Rome burns. The only solution they have/acquire is to become stronger within this metric, which only disassociates them from the trauma they inflict on themselves and others. Death, rape and exploitation through toxic masculinity becomes cool, cherished for its Ragnarok-level endgame. The genocidal outcome/call to war is endlessly glorified. In wrestler parlance, the kayfabe becomes meta, embodied inside the text as imitated by life and vice versa. Back and forth, the Gothic villain—a tremendously flawed, emotionally stupid archetype—is supplied with the mantle of absolute power, to which he cannot imagine a world beyond Capitalism, thus being conditioned to “solve” its problems through mandatory holocaust. Only the mission matters, ending with the practitioner committing suicide; until then, they’re the ultimate slave—a heartless, unthinking drone utterly devoid of humanity and empathy. They bury their trauma, then bury and burn the world on an altar of perceived strength and defeatist, meaningless glory.

(artist: Jed Henry)

  • Damnation and impotency. Again, and as we shall see, the same prescribed lack of choice can be said of Achilles or Darth Vader but also their real-life equivalents: incels, dude bros, TERFs, etc. Moody stoics like Eren Yeager are closer to Andrew Tate (or Sneako: D. Signifier’s “Anime Fans Deserve better than Eren Yeager,” 2023; timestamp: 1:38:18) than his own self-inflated sense of importance, while Conan was written by a weird, dorky loner who feared pretty much everything (and eventually shot himself for fear that Conan would eventually murder him). These lost boys never change or use their brains; frozen in time, they follow their chicken hawk leaders like zombies, shuffling to their doom. Indoctrination generally targets youthful trauma and desperation for acceptance for this reason, but some accountability needs to be had or fascists become blameless. They are not, desperately needing to recognize their own privilege as spoiling their satisfaction while alive, too busy chasing glory in death and the afterlife through a “there can only be one” mindset (a casualty of the mind through war/nation pastiche). Yet there is always someone stronger than them—or rather, something. Capitalism always wins, sacrificing its strongest heroes and personas for the state, first and foremost, forever.

For now, our focus is on canonical men’s arrested development and fragile ego (specifically their inability to take criticism) as something to manipulate by the chicken hawks poaching them; i.e., ringleaders with a far-reaching shadow that treats those inside like child soldiers longer after they grow up. Darkness abounds as persecution mania within the broader dark is exacerbated by the smaller shades lurking inside. Marginalized workers—even when reduced to white, cis-het women in a colonial binary—are eclipsed by men. In 1929, Virginia Woolf likened this eclipse to a shadow in A Room of One’s Own:

But after reading a chapter or two a shadow seemed to lie across the page. It was a straight dark bar, a shadow shaped something like the letter ‘I’. One began dodging this way and that to catch a glimpse of the landscape behind it. Whether that was indeed a tree or a woman walking I was not quite sure. Back one was always hailed to the letter ‘I’. One began to be tired of ‘I’. Not but what this ‘I’ was a most respectable ‘I’; honest and logical; as hard as a nut, and polished for centuries by good teaching and good feeding. I respect and admire that ‘I’ from the bottom of my heart. But—here I turned a page or two, looking for something or other—the worst of it is that in the shadow of the letter ‘I’ all is shapeless as mist. Is that a tree? No, it is a woman. But…she has not a bone in her body, I thought, watching Phoebe, for that was her name, coming across the beach. Then Alan got up and the shadow of Alan at once obliterated Phoebe. For Alan had views and Phoebe was quenched in the flood of his views (source).

As Woolf notes, this took centuries of “good teaching” and “feeding”—a kind of creative husbandry shepherded by dudes. I would argue it’s a curse, one drunk on its own terror and splendor and grappling with its interminable bugbears. The weight of their deeper heteronormative, capitalist implications is felt on the surface, where it breeds weird nerds through recursive canonical pastiche; i.e., bourgeois nerds.

Furthermore, the sum of this canonical praxis is designed to exploit workers inside a punitive system for the elite’s benefit: Patriarchal Capitalism and its accommodated “kings for a day.” For capital to work, it must—to a degree, anyways—surrender power in frontier territories it can police on loop. This goes for James Cameron’s liminally praxial nightmare vision of the retro-future and recuperated military scapegoats, which we’ve already discussed (re: Metroidvania, “The Quest for Power“). However, it also applies to other kings of the mode and their name-branded visions; re: Steven King (for once, pun not intended, but I’ll welcome it).

(artist: Justin Hillgrove)

Yes, Steven King is a weird canonical nerd—profoundly “weird,” but generally playing it safe and not very Marxist-Leninist (let alone anarcho-Communist). Hollywood just loves his monsters, but he profits off them far too much and says far too little in Marxist language to be considered a useful ally. The same goes for James Cameron. As I cite from this manuscript during Volume Zero (re: “Interrogating Power“),

Even at his most critical (when he was poor) he still pushed the girls around and called the shots; now he’s just a billionaire Marxist franchising “war” as activism but having no shortage of racism against Indigenous Peoples following the 2009 original and its 2022 sequel, The Shape of Water. Much of this has to do with Cameron’s blue-washed, white savior/Indian mentality for his own endless “war,” which ultimately lacks critical bite but makes white-owned companies billions of dollars:

In 2010 Cameron said something that did not exactly help his cause. He had been protesting against the building of the giant Belo Monte hydroelectric dam in the Amazon. The dam’s construction threatened the way of life of the Brazilian Xingu people. While speaking to The Guardian, he said, “A real-life Avatar confrontation is in progress. I felt like I was 130 years back in time watching what the Lakota Sioux might have been saying at a point when they were being pushed and they were being killed and they were being asked to displace and they were being given some form of compensation. This was a driving force for me in the writing of Avatar – I couldn’t help but think that if they [the Lakota Sioux] had had a time-window and they could see the future… and they could see their kids committing suicide at the highest suicide rates in the nation… because they were hopeless and they were a dead-end society – which is what is happening now – they would have fought a lot harder.” Many took that to mean that he was suggesting that the Lakota should have fought their colonizers harder (source: “Native Americans boycott James Cameron,” 2022).

All that money and Cameron can’t say the quiet part out loud—just lots of fancy effects and big explosions (“full of sound and fury. Signifying nothing!”). It’s what Communists say about their works that leads to iconoclastic praxis. So while King and Cameron are garden-variety centrists, their own canon is still productive when transformed. We can stand on their educated, giant, artistically-savvy shoulders to clamber out of the manmade well (that as a Ringu pun).

Unlike King and Cameron, I’m a profoundly weird, highly educated and artistic nerd (if this book is any clue) but deliberately choose to use my horny weirdness and classical education in actively iconoclastic ways (my definition, not King’s): in defense of the marginalized, specifically their basic human rights as things to fight for in demonstrably revolution—not the false revolution and empty hope of “popcorn monsters” and movie magic (sanctioned violence against women, black people and other marginalized groups) that historically puts white butts in seats (expanding the audience only intensifies the sacrifices that remain).

To quote Akim from Conan the Destroyer (1984): “There’s a better way to handle a wizard!” With a sexy-gay-Communist wizard of course! We’re not cops at all, bitches; we’re gossipers with perceptive pastiche and constructive anger that deescalates genocide by dismantling the state apparatus through transmuted propaganda! Our “trap cards” (that was a femboy pun) totally make you gay as fuck!

(exhibit 95a2: Artist: Virus-G. The anti-vigilante is someone who doesn’t work for the state or the status quo, but rather subverts it through iconoclast media that pokes fun of the monomyth; i.e., the wizard doesn’t tell the cis-het hero what to do, they steal the spotlight. That’s what Galatea does, overpowering Pygmalion as a mighty queen of camp.)

I’m not selling you a ticket, just asking you to think about the ones you buy yourself. Watching Steven King movie adaptations or reading his books is not revolutionary praxis; you have to say or do something with it, making monsters that challenge what is frankly cheap, bigoted slop (to varying degrees of moderate and reactive abuse) thus make food or other products taste better for everyone (though tummy aches and so-called “refeeding syndrome” often socio-politically manifest in those conditioned to subsist on brainless, uncritical/”apolitical” garbage; Zizek’s self-disparaging jab, “I already am eating from the trashcan” except it applies to outright enemies of workers; e.g., Jadis loved fast food and centrist media/interpretations equally). While the compelled guilt of neoliberal Capitalism is feeling bad about eating food that actually tastes better than anything the elite provide—i.e., AAA dreck, fast food and storebought brands-it is possible to make products taste good without committing genocide: living under Capitalism isn’t a zero sum game. This includes ourselves, our bodies and our reclaimed culture and Gothic poetics as the product. We make things taste better because profit above all else isn’t our endgame. Everything is more colorful, pleasurable and hard-hitting (the sweet, sweet demon-wizard-unicorn sex by gay space Communists and Satanic rebels).

By comparison, weird canonical nerds unironically use their weirdness to defend heteronormative canon as a sacred extension of Capitalism—i.e., something to wolf down, ask for seconds, then emulate. Men like Steven King and uncritical consumers of King’s work keep the market “free” in neoliberal terms, but also for its sexist symptoms to flourish (implying efficient profit and infinite growth, but repressing the violence of either of those things). Their behavior amounts to neoliberal hero worship at the billionaire level, but also among various “working class heroes” like King. He may have been relatively poor (for a white dude) once; striking oil, he’s just another accommodated “intellectual” trying to emulate the owner class and spread their harmful ideas amongst their own fans. Even when he’s sexist, the guy can do no wrong in their eyes precisely he makes money having formerly come “from nothing. Aja Ramano’s praise is nigh endless:

It’s nearly impossible to overstate how influential Stephen King is. For the past four decades, no single writer has dominated the landscape of genre writing like him. To date, he is the only author in history to have had more than 30 books become No. 1 best-sellers. He now has more than 70 published books, many of which have become cultural icons, and his achievements extend so far beyond a single genre at this point that it’s impossible to limit him to one — even though, as the world was reminded last year when the feature film adaptation of It became the highest-grossing horror movie on record, horror is still King’s calling card. […]

Born in 1947, King grew up poor in Durham, Maine, the younger son of a single working mother whose husband, a merchant mariner, abandoned his family when King was still a toddler. A lifelong fan of speculative fiction, King began writing seriously while attending the University of Maine Orono. It was there, in 1969, that he met his wife, Tabitha. By 1973, King was a high school English teacher drawing a meager $6,400 a year. He had married Tabitha in 1971, and the pair lived in a trailer in Hampden, Maine, and each worked additional jobs to make ends meet. King wrote numerous short stories, some of which were published by Playboy and other men’s magazines, but significant writerly success eluded him.

Tabitha, who’d been one of the first to read Stephen’s short stories in colleges, had loaned Stephen her own typewriter and refused to let him take a higher-paying job that would mean less time to write. Tabitha was also the one who discovered draft pages of what would become Carrie tossed in Stephen’s trash can. She retrieved them and ordered him to keep working on the idea. Ever since, King has continued to pay Tabitha’s encouragement forward. He frequently and effusively blurbs books from established as well as new authors, citing a clear wish to leave publishing better than he found it. Meanwhile, Tabitha is a respected author in her own right, as are both of their sons, Joe Hill and Owen King. Carrie, which King sold for a $2,500 advance, would go on to earn $400,000 for the rights to its paperback run (source: “His Legacy Is So Much More Than Horror,” 2018).

(exhibit 95b: Source: A Call to Men: “Healthy, respectful manhood means valuing and respecting women, girls, and LGBQ, Trans, and nonbinary people — and respecting and valuing oneself by striving to live authentically.” Keep “authenticity” in mind when we examine Liver King in Chapter Four, exhibit 98b1; his marketing of an authentic life as something that only non-degenerate persons can perform; anyone else is sub-human, but especially critics.)

Assimilation fantasy and class character aside, consuming Steven King’s false hope of neoliberalism alongside neoliberal/fascist personas of strength like Caleb Hart gradually makes consumer culture uninformed, passive and bigoted. Beyond cis-het men, even, Man Box culture affects seemingly rebellious, but actually subservient groups and their regressive cultural markers: the Amazon, Medusa or dominatrix as subjugated, their replicated aesthetics turned away from their proletarian critical function in service of the elite behind the mask. Another “brain crypt” myopia, Mark Greene (a leading proponent of Man Box theory and cis-het allyship) rightly points out how man box culture leads to any bigotry you could list, including misogynistic, “rape culture” subtypes: incels, nice guys, neckbeards and gamers (the identity having colonized the profession it comes from) but also TERFs and feminist bigots. Trapped inside a sexist mode of thought, these persons fall victim to older inhabitants who, incredibly bad in bed, have already fallen under its hypnotic spell:

  • reactionary grifters like Andrew Tate, who—conflating sex and penetration with war and rape (the penis is a knife or a bullet)—casually hawk toxic masculinity as a poor, dip-your-toes-in-the-water “disguise” for real-world sex crimes and pyramid-schemes-for-dummies. In either case, Tate is a “bad lover,” using the lover boy” to dominate and compel women to make money for him by deceiving, isolating and pimping them out, then selling this technique to other men disguised as self-help advice (Hasan’s “Lawyer DESTROYS Andrew Tate,” 2023).
  • Moderate shills like Caleb “I’m not a rapist” Hart, who preach their own sacred education tied to personalized sexist brands that worship the sexist past, while sweeping systemic abuse of working women, people of color and queer persons under the table.

Either facilitates fresh bricks for the mind prison, a monster factory whose reassembled Confidence(tm) turns men into weird, unfuckable nerds with zero “game,” girl talk, social awareness, or critical-thinking. Yet, they “trigger” when they feel threatened—”threatening” for them meaning an end to the Matrix jar of illusion goo that their little, fragile brains float inside. The bind is quixotic and Promethean; the nerds don’t think themselves monsters, working for the cause until it inevitably destroys them.

To prevent rehabilitation, fascism discourages self-reflection despite the feelings of doubt. However, so does Capitalism, the hypermasculine sophistry extending to a gradient of neoliberal moderates like Steven King or Caleb Hart, who don’t realize (or care) how much their bad instruction contributes to the rise of fascism within societies already decaying towards that outcome; i.e., through Man Box culture, Pygmalion-esque doubles and neoliberal war/nation pastiche. More likely they hide their true intentions behind various masks and personas. That’s literally the whole point of bad faith—to blend in, then attack with bad intent, often as “lobotomized” creatures of habit. Bad habits, bad education, bad play; low emotional/Gothic intelligence, canonical praxis. It’s something that survives not just in the men we’ve examined so far, but those who LARP as being more progressive and outspoken than they actually are—e.g., Ian Kochinski (a real piece of work; more on him in Chapter Four).

(exhibit 95c: Top-far-left: Cus D’amato and Mike; middle-far-left: Ryunosuke Tsukue; top-middle: Gozer from Ghostbusters: Afterlife, 2021; middle: concept art for that film; bottom-far-left: Kairo; bottom-middle: Vladimir Tytla, Disney’s animator for Chernabog [Fun Fact Film’s “The Origin of the Chernabog,” 2020]; top-right: Betsy Brantley, the human stand-in for cartoon Jessica Rabbit; button-right: Heidi Klum as Jessica Rabbit.)

Women’s role—if the Woolf quote was any clue—are left disembodied, without any subject of themselves. Either they are outright victims the likes of which King rehashes for a quick paycheck, or they are the scapegoated workers of their own death warrants—forced to reify “kick me signs” with their bodies, their voices, their labor as stolen from and commissioned by powerful men with a canonical worldview in mind. This Symbolic Order takes time, effort, and work to maintain. Heidi Klum’s costume, for example, took nine hours, rubber eyelids and a fake plastic butt (similar to Quigley’s “Barbie doll crotch” from Chapter One). For any of these she-devils, this special-effect, “plastic reality” (re: Julie A. Turnock) is deeply heteronormative—with limited wiggle room for anyone but cis-het white men to say anything. The woman, then, is destroyed, along with the past she represents (re: Picasso). This includes white, cis-het women, who are more privileged than any other AFAB group. Even they become “ghosts” that men fear in truly bizarre and sad ways; i.e., Matthew Lewis’ Bloody Nun behind which an awful crime has been committed, over and over and over.

Many more, as we’ll see, become furious monsters: killer ghosts, but also Amazons, Medusas, succubae working for the state by leveling the gaze at the easiest to blame: those they can punch down against—each other. That’s the transgenerational curse, in Marxist terms: labor theft as demonized, bricked over by gruesome, “whitewash” cryptonyms—the living burial of rape culture tied to power structures dotted with hauntologized, Gothic threats of systemic violence: gargoyles. Not only was the albatross vision of Gozer thoroughly colonized by female bodies and workers made to do a male patrons bidding—re: O’Keefe and Stieglitz—but in true chimeric fashion, 2021 Gozer was the byproduct of three different women to produce a fetishized female bogeyman that generates whatever “arbiter” moral panic men want to evoke: a “hag in disguise” to protect the women and children from [and venerate the image of childhood heroes like Bill Murray and his creepy onscreen counterpart, Dr. Venkman]. All the same, the face, body and voice of Gozer are made with real women—Olivia Wilde, Emma Portner and Shohreh Aghdashloo—who, in this Commie Mommy’s opinion, worked hard to make Gozer something other than a punching bag.

Like Margaret Hamilton’s Wicked Witch of the West, the most intriguing thing about the film (from a Gothic-Communist/gender studies perspective) is the witch herself. It’s same ghostly creative tradition that enchanted Chernobog from Fantasia, 1940; Jessica Rabbit from Who Framed Roger Rabbit?, 1988; or Kairo‘s creepy-as-fuck, dancer-performed ghost walk (Spikima Movies’ “Anatomy of the Scariest Scene Ever”)—not just the ghost of the counterfeit, but in the counterfeit and on its surface, its chronotopes and hauntology through famous proverbs and oral traditions. From a Western perspective, the past becomes a bad copy of itself, one whose fabled atrocities hold Cartesian proponents in thrall. It becomes like a bad dream, one that never seems to end.

Somewhere inside, though, there’s lurks the potential for a revolutionary Trojan to emerge, to wake up: a feisty Galatea. This awaited return is not like Lovecraft’s dead Cthulhu—who the author prophesized through Islamophobia; i.e., the “mad Arab” scribbling about the Great Old one dreaming at R’lyeh—but a counter Numinous whose banshee scream terrifies the death knight, paladin and pope, as well as Lovecraft and similar scholarly Cartesians like Dr. Goody (whose ruins of Ca’n Dar evoke a similar inherited genocidal/survivor’s guilt) to death: “That is not dead which can eternal lie, / And with strange aeons even death may die” as a reclaimed old wives’ tale, assisting labor rebellion and class consciousness as a continued negotiation through undead/demonic poetics.

In short, as monstrous-feminine having our revenge, we faggot whores are Galatea, hence the thing they fear most; i.e., for having wronged in the past, present and future through capital’s rapacious profit motive. Armed with the knowledge that the state cannot be trusted, then, parallel societies may hijack the shared boogeyman’s mantra/zombie tyrant’s refrain: “In his house at R’lyeh, dead Cthulhu waits dreaming.” In turn, it can be used to revive a hauntological Dark Mother that challenges the Cycle of Kings’ inexorable march towards total genocide. No more Pygmalion kings, good or bad; no more elite or state; something whispered about but resurrected afresh can revive out of a Gothic imagination once camped by Mathew Lewis, James Whale, Ann Rice and Cassandra Peterson. Now it shall be camped by us as taking up Galatea’s mantle—to kill capital’s darlings on the Aegis:

(exhibit 96: Artist, right: Jean-Léon Gérôme.

Left: The “false deference” and female rage of Sadako Yamamura, the ghost of the counterfeit from Ringu. While she can be parodied into friendlier forms that are still sex-positive [re: exhibit 41g2, “Understanding Vampires“], here she emerges from the viral VHS tape [which is a poor medium for copying as VHS tapes decay when copied, but whatever] and kneels threateningly before the hero detective. Her fingernails are missing [a sign of torture, but also live burial—of trying to claw one’s way out]. She pursuits him into the other room and parts her black veil [eat your heart out, Ann Radcliffe], striking him dead with her baleful gaze. Her MO is the petrifying gaze of female revenge, shaming the accommodate male detective to death. It’s a Gothic trope, but an iconoclastic one if we consider the source of the shame: him confronting that she was raped by men just like him. Brain reverse-raped! His death is symbolic of the death of the patriarch in its unwitting servants: dude bros.

Right: Jean-Léon Gérôme’s “Truth Coming Out of Her Well to Shame Mankind” [1896]. As Ariela Gittlen writes in “A Brief History of Female Rage in Art”: 

Academic French painter Jean-Léon Gérôme’s take on the allegorical figure of Truth (specifically, the philosopher Democritus’s aphorism: “Of truth we know nothing, for truth is in a well”) differs from contemporary interpretations in a number of ways. A beautiful nude woman emerges from a well, an open-mouthed shout of anger on her face and a whip in her hand, rather than the usual mirror. Although she is nude (a blunt reference to “the naked truth”), she looks ready to charge straight for the viewer in a full-throated battle cry [source].

Both Sadako the ghost and Gérôme’s Truth are cryptomimetic, echoing hidden atrocities buried within art during oppositional praxis.)

We’ll continue exploring female monsters as recuperated and subverted entities in Chapter Four. To close out Chapter Three, let’s apply the bad education of Pygmalion’s shadow to our weird canonical nerds, da boys, as a symptom of the Pygmalion effect (re: exhibit 12, “Challenging the State“). Right off the bat, you can practically hear it in the defenders of canon: “Láthspell I name him! Ill news is an ill guest!” For example, Rob Ager aka Collative Learning smugly declares, “Most people in the world, or about half of them by my count, don’t want to live in so-called ‘reality'” (source: “12 Delusions About the Future of Humanity,” 2020). But he really has a hard-on for Capitalism—all at once unable to define it, but confidently asserting it reductively as “trade.” It’s the “all rectangles are squares” conflation, with the “end of Capitalism ‘delusion,'” as he calls it, being a cheap “Gotcha!” moment: “Exchange of labor will exist “after” Capitalism, therefore Capitalism hasn’t ended!”

Wrong. Provided we don’t all die first, Capitalism and its histories will end by Capitalism evolving into structures of labor exchange that abolish privatization: Communism and its stated goal, according to Marx. It’s not mystical, but I suspect Ager doesn’t know enough about Marx to comment. Instead, he sounds like a calmer version of John Cleese gnashing his teeth at international Communism (“Bicycle Repairman,” 1969)—with Ager offering his own smug psychoanalysis in the bargain; i.e., a kind of armchair critic “talking down” to that “half of the world” he was referring to. Care to guess who he’s talking about (hint: not men)? “Even if you do nationalize an industry, that doesn’t end the monopoly. Sometimes, a state-run monopoly can be worse than a market-based monopoly.” While I am an anarcho-Communist and think that Marxist-Leninism is historically imperfect, it’s still light years ahead of neoliberal Capitalism. Ager’s gambit is Red-Scare jargon and neoliberal apologetics; i.e., keep the market “free!”

However, it’s also profoundly sexist, with Ager worshiping his own education and canonical praxis through his endless reviews; he thinks that films were better when “men were men,” but also Capitalist. He’s a gold-star standard for Mark Fisher’s Capitalist Realism; he can count the number of pubes around Stallone’s asshole, but can’t imagine a world beyond Capitalism. In other words, not so different from Oliver Harper’s In Search of the Last Action Heroes (2019). Search all you want; their disappearance is only expanding to evolve beyond men as the universal client/distributer of state sanctioned, dimorphic violence. Forget “This city is headed for a disaster of biblical proportions” (with poor Gozer from our sample essay being hectored and boxed up like Pandora by an old sexist dinosaur like Bill Murray and his den of grandpa pussy thieves); this is a learned behavior that has already been learned and canonized at the cultural level by smug cis-het white dudes just like Ager closing ranks on various registers (see: Todd Grande defending Jordan Peterson; source: Shark3ozero’s “The Most Cucked Jordan Peterson Fan Ever,” 2023). Power aggregates, embodying MLK’s infamous condemnation from the Birmingham jail of the white moderate as a class enemy for all exploited workers. Worse, it becomes something to emulate by various assimilated token actors.

(exhibit 97a1: We’ve already discussed action heroes as vigilantes in Volume Two; this fucking poster celebrates vigilantes of a neoconservative, fascist sort under neoliberal dogma. It’s so sexist, so jingoistically lobotomized, vampiric and in love with itself—just look at those phallic rockets, blasting off orgasmically to the thought of neoliberal war and its sweet, sweet profits [the kind defended by Joe Takagi, the neoliberal from Die Hard, 1988, and which Hans Gruber, the movie’s recuperated fascist leader, tries to steal by threatening profits through false revolution, hypocritically lecturing the corporation’s “legacy of greed” while pilfering their pockets for himself and throwing his conspicuously expendable crew of warrior-mercenaries under the bus]! The ’80s hero worship, revenge fantasy and worker exploitation dressed up in retro, war/rape apologia—may they never come back. Note: As a filthy Commie, I certainly enjoy many of these movies, but I don’t endorse their neoliberal worldview. It’s poison for the brain. Also, where’s my boy toy from the future at, Kyle Reese? Why are there four fonts for the title? So many questions!)

You know the back-handed compliment, “Behind every great man is a woman?” Well, behind every “great” man is a bad-faith master—a structure and its dogma that teach the next in line like dogs to bite. To cite Jonathan Banks, this isn’t a master/slave dynamic where consent happens in negotiated[1] good faith, though; it’s the false father of gladiatorial sports and corporate sharks swimming in the treacherous waters of Capitalism. Think of it as Ryunosuke Tsukue from Sword of Doom (exhibit 95), a serial killer samurai who’s unorthodox style “lures” would-be challengers into a false sense of security before he murders them quickly and mercilessly. Then combine that with Cus D’amato’s toxic advice to Mr. Dream himself, Mike Tyson (also exhibit 95): “Throw punches with bad intent.” Neither Tsukue nor Tyson was a brutish, sluggish “ham and egger”; they were coached and classically trained by older men within their own times and places to deceive their opponents and show them no mercy in competitions of warlike strength. In Tyson’s own words, he tearfully announces:

I’m a fucking student of war; I know all the warriors, from Charlemagne, Achilles the number one warrior of all warriors. From there Alexander and Napoleon; I know them all, I read them all, I studied them all. I know the art of fighting, I know the art of war, that’s all I ever studied. That’s why I was feared. That’s why they feared me when I was in the ring, because I was an annihilator that’s all I was born for. And now those days are gone, it’s empty, I’m nothing. That’s the reason why I’m crying, because I’m not that person no more, and I miss him. Because sometimes I feel like a bitch, because I don’t want that person to come out, because if he comes out; hell is coming with him (source: Mike Tyson’s “Sugar Ray Leonard | Hotboxin’ with Mike Tyson,” 2020).

Cus wasn’t a sweet old man, you see; he was a powerful old man who famously coached poor, starving athletes that he recognized for their “talent”—useful to him as something he could turn into a money-making champion. In the 1950s Cus coached Floyd Patterson, who Sonny Liston (a meaner Jack Johnson and hardened to fight in the US penitentiary system) promptly ate alive (Rainy Day Boxing’s “Boxing’s Most Intimidating and Unwanted Champion,” 2021). In the 1980s, Cus scooped a teenage Mike up off the streets, then worked him like a dog until Cus up and died, leaving Mike to fall into the hands of Don King. Eventually Mike was manipulated by those around him into exposing his heel’s aura of invincibility (that sports fans love and which Mike played the “black knight” of sports to a tee: the centrist language of the “indestructible” heel personifying fascist warriors of older, medieval times), fucking up on his own accord when he went to jail for rape and aggravated assault. Cus is to blame. He didn’t teach Mike how to be a good person; he taught him how to fight and more to the point, to fear Cus. Cus used Mike and prepared him for failure later in life: a warrior Jesus “patsy” on part with Link from Blood Father.

Note: Refer to “Back to Necropolis” for further discussions of Afronormativity; i.e., that include Mike Tyson’s replicas in videogames, but also black Nazis in stories like Castlevania and Star Wars. —Perse, 4/21/2025

As discussed in Volume One, Mel Gibson’s Link illustrates the perpetual victim of men like Cus (re: exhibit 25, “War Culture“): the titular Preacher as a smaller chicken hawk in a circle of progressively bigger ones—a patriarchal pecking order that leads up to men like Caleb Hart, Steven King and upwards higher to heads of state, church oligarchs, billionaires and other ghouls of capital. Link’s myth of the redeemed gunslinger is useful if only to showcase the flaws on Capitalism in ways that hit hard. War takes our sons and fathers, no matter how streetwise; its war and rape culture takes our daughters, love, labor and brains and uses them up, burns through them like fuel. If Link was the dad I never had, I wept for his death onscreen using tears I have inside for my own lost father. Dad never listened and society wouldn’t help him; his blood and kin wouldn’t listen to me decades ago, and I have no desire to beat a beat a dead horse that refuses to drink (a double horse pun). But I see so many badly trained people fighting like dogs in defense of the very structure that makes all workers its bitch (a double-dog pun, with a third pun tacked on).

This concept—of fascist/neoliberal, Pavlovian “dog training”—is a facet of Pygmalion’s shadow, which menticides male workers, fucking over in many different ways, and breeds generations of weird canonical nerds, who breed weird canonical nerds, on and on. Sisyphus 55 notes a lack of intersectional safe spaces for white men (the most privileged group exploited by the bourgeoisie) to discuss social issues (“Journey Into The MANOSPHERE,” 2022; timestamp: 20:25). Deprived of conservative guarantees amid declining Capitalism, they instead turn to perceived strongmen for answers, garnering a sophomore, “wise fool” status through the acquisition of cheap, easy knowledge that confirms their birthright worldview—i.e., stupid nerds who think they know a lot, when their behavior is really more about enforcement of neoliberal canon, treating videogames as a colonized pedagogic sphere under Patriarchal Capitalism. In turn, the dated views they uphold extend to their own bodies and personal property as instructional to everyone around them. Overcompensation aside, they project their insecurities onto a dated worldview they must defend at all costs; their strength is a complete lie and they’re nothing without it.

Capitalism’s hauntologies aren’t just mind prisons that closet people; they’re fortress mentalities that make soldiers. Not only will employees and their fanbase close ranks to defend heroes of neoliberal Capitalism (including their employers and owners) through what I’ll call “parasocial “docking”: where two men “dock” by having one wrap his foreskin around the exposed head of the other’s penis. Why a queer metaphor? Simply put, I’m using it for comedic effect; i.e., to shame the super straight “tech bros” who are not only up on Elon Musk’s hog 24/7 but frankly—as mentioned during the manifesto—do some pretty awful things to normal working people, including artists (re: drawslaves and paint pigs). As a whole, neoliberal Capitalism tends to defend bigoted consumers and content creators/grifters in order to preserve itself as a system. Bans do happen to notable figures/sizeable channels like Kanye West, Andrew Tate, Low Tier God (Joon the King’s ” My Cyberstalker NEEDS to be stopped,” 2021) or Sneako (J Aubrey’s “The Decay of Sneako,” 2022). However, their corporate de-platformers tend to be conspicuously lenient, only dropping the hammer after these men go “mask-off,” offering the usual “red pill” grift to “escape the Matrix” (the usual fascist snake oil, in other words). Growing comfortable with open acts of fascism, all were banned for refusing to dogwhistle, promoting various criminal behaviors denounced by mainstream media—anti-Semitism; sex trafficking and domestic abuse; and child porn—or copying someone who promotes these activities. And even when it’s obvious that someone is a predator, like Ian Kochinski or Low Tier God[2] are, it’s very rare that anything is done to address these matters at a system level (which would interfere with the profit motive).

Again, money is the point and takes priority as it did and continues to do with Steven King or Caleb Hart. It doesn’t matter if they ruffle some feathers; they just have to be “mask on” about it. But even the more radical are privileged by virtue of the situation, poor businessmen who can continuously fail, even when the bad grift radicalizes them to the point of jailtime, temporary exile or constant ridicule (re: Low Tier God, Sneako, and Andrew Tate; to Donald Trump; to Adolf Hilter’s  Nazi party to Radcliffe’s Count Montoni; etc). They can always return and be welcomed a sizeable portion of the room because Capitalism is geared towards such behaviors; i.e., profit through unethical controversy and cheap, unscrupulous destruction masquerading as “speaking truth to power” and other forms of false rebellion. False rebellions fail until they don’t and then fascism drops the mask.

(exhibit 97a1: Source, bottom: MoistCr1TiKaL; right: Turkey Tom’s Instagram [tombutdark] in 2023 [nice shirt, dumbass]. They have all the smug, shonen-esque confident of someone who’s never actually been oppressed by consumes a million stories about it; i.e., Zuko from The Last Airbender [2005] except terminally obtuse [closer to Eren Yeager in that respect]. When their backs are against the wall, then, people like penguinz0 and Turkey Tom are bad allies/fair weather friends. In short, they’re white cis-het boys with Instagram accounts who use their platforms to move merchandise and treat social activist and reactionary regression as the same thing: content to farm. They’re not activists, but centrist profiteers who, in appearance, are a category removed from being like Andrew Tate Logan Paul. In truth, they’re functionally the same except Logan’s a bigger asshole in public about it and Tate says the quiet part out loud. It won’t take much for them to turn heel, but even if they stayed babyface they’d still be centrist, thus oppressive to actual minorities.)

The problem is, this “mask on” (or at least partially on) abuse has existed for years, corporate tolerance allowing the shared Man Box message to germinate far wider than it would otherwise. Centrists finger wag at reactionaries and leftists alike, but continued to waste their platform making a great deal of money that isn’t geared towards changing the system in any meaningful way—i.e., doesn’t change material conditions or take hard stances that would lead into the changing of material conditions.

For example, penguinz0 telling iDubbz not to apologize for being a bigot (D’Angello Wallace’s “Charlie and the Hot Take Factory: Wrong About iDubbbz,” 2023); Turkey Tom defending Low Tier God[3] by not calling out his bigotry for what it is, choosing instead to “roast” him for content, instead (“Low Tier God Roasted Me (my response),” 2023); and NBC’s refusal to hold its abusive men accountable despite a veneer of elevated propriety (Georg Rockall-Schmidt’s “The Allegations That Could Destroy NBC,” 2022) or using the loudness of weird, toxic incels/fascist men like Andrew Tate to profit off controversy instead of challenging their views in ways that would actually scare off future weird canonical nerds just like him (Georg Rockall-Schmidt’s “Andrew Tate and the Lost Boys,” 2023). Such apologist refrains are frequently made by those who, short of total war and/or nuclear disaster, will never be immediately affected on a systemic level by the dialog they’re tone-policing: white, cis-het men.

As a whole, Capitalism is designed to function like this. By shielding its chosen foils from criticism and punishment—but also financially incentivizing their toxic, duplicitous behavior by allowing them platforms—the structure and its proponents helps bigots make money and spread fascist ideas under its banner. On par with normalizing Nazis within centrist theatre, the elite’s tolerating of fascism in the “free” marketplace of ideas belies an elaborate, multimedia distraction: ubiquitous, orderly battles of good-vs-evil that drain the public’s ability to use their imaginary potential to critique structures of power through their socio-material extensions that lead to genuine material suffering (a ghost of the counterfeit that Steven King is only too happy to exploit). While centrism commonly manifests in popular media (more on this in Chapter Four), it parallels real-world establishment politics—i.e., American Democrats funding alt-right groups whose socio-political authoring pens yet another “greater evil” to grapple with the “greater good” (Second Thought’s “Why Are Democrats Funding The Far Right?” 2022). All to fortify the status quo, this only leads to fascism in the long run.

Sex-positive individuals, then, are faced with a colossal problem: Canonical bodies belong to an institution that colonizes everything around it, discouraging iconoclasm in favor of so-called “perfect” bodies representative of perfect masculine ideals inside a perfect top-down structure that promotes a perfect “past.” This means that whatever utopian paradigm shift we want to impose has to occur within the disguise-like means and materials of society as it exists presently (we’ll examine this concept briefly for the moment, then examine it more fully in Chapter Five): We must confront the monsters of Capitalism that artists, producers and consumers invoke, reeducating these individuals through sex-positive variants to reimagine/restructure the world. Only then can these old, tired tropes vanish be laid to rest and the narrative of the crypt finally end:

(artist: Elena Berezina)

The canon of the present uses ambivalent hauntological imagery that I, as an iconoclast, seek to alter. I don’t want to ban the use of monster sex, for example; I want to change how it’s perceived through the Superstructure by making not just shaping-shifting “good” goblins, but revolutionary Amazons, Medusas and other monstrous-feminine Galatea that challenge the scores of false rebels that Pygmalion centrists like Steven King either produce themselves, or refuse to challenge in any hard sense when a straight-up TERF like J.K. Rowling writes Troubled Blood under the penname of a gender conversion therapist. No, the unironic kayfabe is good for business, and King would rather wag his finger than say the quiet part out loud. Despite being old as dirt and a multi-millionaire, he’s an operative framed as a king with a mighty persona, pulling all manner of things from his forehead. As this book has so far illustrated, the historio-material function of these complicated symbols—specifically when utilized by state agents and capitalists forging American propaganda—is regularly transphobic. However, it doesn’t need to be. Even so, we’ve yet to explore in greater detail how moderacy treats iconoclastic alternatives. This judgment includes those who corporations historically pander to: cis-het men who, if they’re really lucky, get to grow up and be just like Steven King or Caleb Hart (which is more likely for cis-het men, but still not a given; Capitalism only lets so many people have wealth).

Even among the lucky few, there’s a tremendous amount of regressive sentiment. Sexist men are the obvious, traditional example. While male gamers function as entitled clients targeted, shaped, and groomed by the system, weird canonical nerds become defined entirely by what they consume and personally own, not how they think. For them, “knowledge” isn’t tied to intellectual analysis; it’s linked to a reactionary consumer model whose worship of naked financial success and proud apolitical indifference scapegoats social-sexual activism: “Go woke, go broke.” In believing that videogames are made exclusively for them, Gamergate types become accommodated, bred through pure consumption to think that videogames should be made just for them. Whenever they aren’t the center of attention, they act slighted or betrayed by companies who dare to cater to other demographics in search of profit. This includes corporate appropriation through Rainbow Capitalism. Whether male or female, fascists literally can’t tell the difference between moderate feminism and genuine sex-positivity (with many more trying to confuse the two, as we shall see).

The reason for this conflict between fascism and capital is that neoliberals have capital, thus care about profits, first and foremost. History is a living document they rewrite to suit their needs as capitalists; i.e., the conquerors, having won and assumed control, using the means of production to make AAA, big-budget illusions: “The state fashions its propaganda not about what is happening in the present and what will happen in the future; it also fashions propaganda by re-writing the past” (Renegade Cut’s “Who Won the Space Race?” 2021; timestamp: 12:59).

In keeping with capital, this requires the creation of enemies by those in power to distract and divide from the fact that workers are being sucked dry by a system controlled by a small number of incredibly influential and ruthless people with their hands on the levers of power and human-looking masks over their shriveled ghoul faces: State power aggregates against opposing aggregate forces within the working class, but it also dehumanizes the elite and their smaller vampire servants through an endless pursuit of profit and disguising of genocide as an integral part of this process, to which deception is also integral. Any vampire fears exposure—the gay man because he will be staked during moral panic; the bourgeoisie because they will be outed as liars, but also weird, pathetic liars who literally only care about money and nothing else—mega vampires who hide in plain sight, wearing expensive, Wall Street suits and Chanel makeup that can’t quite reach their souless, doll-like eyes:

(artist: The Meme Industrial Complex)

Our exposé on neoliberalism and strategy to recultivate a bourgeois Superstructure through Gothic poetics obviously effects the elite, but they are sheltered by a massive class divide. You won’t bump into the elite, who are too busy bombing a foreign country by satellite, marshalling the CIA against them, or embargoing them into oblivion (“all displays of soft power”) while getting their nails done to frankly be bothered with the local riff-raff. However, they are terrified of organized labor, thus will orchestrate pollical movements that serve as a convenience counter mechanism: to control labor solidarity as outside of their material influence (re: “Why Are Democrats Funding The Far Right?“)—i.e., outside of the written word. To this, they become distanced, thus alienated from the fascist/centrist police who invoke total/good war and street-level crackdowns to do their bidding (“displays of hard power”). Class traitors are closer to home for the everyday worker so the everyday worker must worry about them more (and their stochastic terrorism-for-the-state-as-controlled-opposition to labor movements)—i.e., at the level of word-of-mouth while face-to-face in the streets. Simply put, the fascist and the centrist are the ones who gets their hands dirty and keeps the money flowing up.

Fascists desire power but do not have it; they view profit as secondary to the means of population control by currently rewriting history through violence acts of revenge committed by vigilantes and state paramilitaries moving towards control as something to consolidating around a strongman and his strange den of goons (who centrists challenge in righteous, babyface violence): rigid social hierarchies that control sex and gender as promises of power by working in concert with the elite. As such, weird canonical nerds aren’t Nazi “punks” counter-protesting labor movements like Kyle Rittenhouse. Many of them are grifters acting as mini-leaders or centuries through the misinformation pipeline feeding these moral panics. As such, they not only vote with their wallets through canonical indignation; they perform the conservative online grift of acting besieged, fostering attitudes surrounding canonical media and who should be making it. This goes beyond Hilter and Goebbel’s state propaganda, or Germany and America’s Hollywood as a means of coercive, anti-labor public relations nearly a century ago, and includes a vast network of (mostly white, middle-class) grifter reactionaries leading into the present state-of-affairs.

For example, Jeremy Hambly’s proud, ephebophilic overcorrection of Rainbow Capitalism and corporate appropriation with She-Ra (exhibit 97b) coercively fetishize the girl boss by turning her into a hypersexualized return-to-tradition: a teenage sex worker that pleases male clients in the most cartoonishly way possible (Thought Slime’s “A Video About One, Weird, Horny Tweet,” 2021). Far from unusual, Hambly’s gross entitlement mirrors the pedophilic tendencies of ’90s cartoonist like John Kricfalusi (re: blameitonjorge’s “John Kricfalusi: An Open Secret,” 2019), himself part of a larger “open-secret” policy towards industry men like Kevin Spacey, Bryan Singer, Roman Polanski—defended unironically by creepy “foot guy” Quentin Tarantino in 2003 (“He didn’t rape a 13-year-old. It was statutory rape… he had sex with a minor. That’s not rape”; source: “When Quentin Tarantino defended Roman Polanski in an interview with Howard Stern,” 2022)—and many, many others supported by Patriarchal Capitalism as the status quo:

(exhibit 97b: Artist: Linkartoon. The point of She-Ra: Princess of Power was to be LGBTQ-inclusive with a “herbo”—i.e., a female “himbo,” meaning a big, strong, meaty girl who’s probably queer to some extent; drawings like Linkartoon’s pointedly regress these mentalities, but especially when defended unironically and blindly by fervent, sexist reactionaries like Hambly as nice guy/incel material. Linkartoon’s She-Ra is not physically strong at all; she’s doll-like in a very Barbie-like way specifically to appeal to white, cis-het men [with the removing of actual bones in a cartoon pastiche evoking an invisible corset whose vice-like grip crushes the victim’s ribcage and pelvis into oblivion].)

Another tragedy of Capitalism, then, is that even “Golden Age” porn (from the 1970s/’80s) can be carceral-hauntological, leaving weird canonical nerds like Hambly completely unable to imagine anything beyond how female characters in any medium were historically sexualized just like this. For them, this is a return to the glory of the past, which is both gross and sad (this being said, sex-positive pornographic expression is totally fine, and I’d happily celebrate more artistic treasures like Andrew Blake’s Night Trips[4] [1989] being hauntologically invoked in emancipatory fashion).

However, fascist men aren’t the only source of reactionary angst. Neoliberalism allows feminists nerds to be sexist, too—moderate, “mask on” TERFS, but also a variety of centrist artistic slogans and symbols of “equality” to channel bigotry-in-disguise: appropriated feminism as a kind of mask/beard, wellspring and stonewall that yields a variety of capitalist bastardization. This Amazonian lineage of moderate deception, proliferation and inertia can be reviewed across older generations of feminism, which were (and are) regressively more racist, homophobic and transphobic. Transphobia is prejudice plus power through relative institutional gains; moderate transphobe victories are also fraught with “minority police” compromise—lukewarm concessions that ideologically reject positions more radical than themselves, worshiping their own past as something to marry to the status quo and fetishize into pro-state doubles: the minority cop as an Amazon gatekeeper that furiously polices, thus punishes those under her.

While neoliberalism is already genocidal on the world stage, its moderate concessions with fascists groups reliably lead to overt genocide in domestic areas. Generally this happens through liminal hauntology as something to invoke and weaponize in a variety of ways—less about righting genuine ethical wrongs and more about donning masks to “cull the herd” during times of perceived identity crisis, scarcity of materials and all-around hardship.

We’ve already examined fascism’s evolution into itself in Volume Two (e.g., “Police States“), followed by Chapter Two of this volume’s discussing a notably general-approach aestheticism existing in a post-fascist world; i.e., one that’s quickly regressing under neoliberal Capitalism towards overt and expanded genocide around the planet (as opposed to the lived, cloaked reality of the genocides in the Global South committed by the Global North). So now that we’ve examined primarily the male side of nerds and fascism—re: through a bad-faith adoption of the witch as a conservative, DARVO, Pygmalion stratagem in Chapter Three—we’ll explore fascist nerd culture as it appears under token feminism (male or not): as something to camp, using revolutionary cryptonymy to separate the “good” witches from the “bad” TERF-y ones (again, male or not) during oppositional praxis as cryptonymy! For every mask the enemy wears, we meet them in duality with our own. We’ll show ’em how it’s done, but also how they challenge us with their own bad mirrors!

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

Onto “Praxis Volume Outline, part two + Chapter Four: Bad Faith (opening and ‘Ladies First; or, the Grift of False Rebellion’)“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] In his 2020 writeup, “Consent and Master/Slave Relationships,” Jonathan Taylor’s supplied definition of consent is:

Consent is the explicit indication, by written or oral statement, by one person that he/she is willing to have something done to him/her by one or more other persons, or to perform some sort of act at the request or order of one or more other persons.  In terms of sexual consent, consent may be withdrawn at any point, regardless of what has been previously negotiated orally or in writing (source).

Per my own work on ludo-Gothic BDSM, consent is something people consciously agree to that historically-materially reduces risk of rape at a system level.

[2] Low Tier God’s grooming of minors has been an open secret for years, as has Kochinski’s pedophilia. Even with Shang Tsung’s excellent exposé investigating Low Tier God’s grooming tactics (“Low Tier Groomer – the TRUTH behind LTG’s lies EXPOSED,” 2024), and Kochinski accidentally revealing his private lolicon (and horse) porn collection to his streaming audience (Bad Empanada Live’s “Vaush is a P*dophile (CONFIRMED),” 2024), it is unlikely that anything will be done about either person unless the backlash forces corporate to respond. Until then, these incidents—for the men involved—merely serve as dogwhistles for other community predators and grooming mechanisms for the young adults (often men) in their audience bases to attack critiques; or as Shang Tsung warned when I praised his video and wanted to mention it here: “I appreciate that but I’d caution you that he (LTG) usually goes on the offensive against anyone that criticizes him, so just be aware he may try harassing you” (source).

Furthermore, such persons are generally awarded some degree of exposure as, despite Tsung’s scathing exposé and years of foreknowledge regarding Low Tier God’s abuse, Low Tier God was allowed to present at the 2024 Stream Awards (Maximusls2400’s “Low Tier God Gets Booed at Streamer Awards,” 2024). As I commented myself in that video, “A groomer and bigot still has a place at the table, it seems. Basically like Hollywood; i.e., it’s an ‘open secret’ what kind of man LTG is and yet they still have him present the awards.”

[3] Turkey Tom says, “I don’t want to cause a big moral issue over this, because I think he’s really funny.” I think Turkey Tom means, “I don’t want to take a hard stance.” Seriously my dude, we can laugh at Dale’s bigotry and still point it out; the fact that Turkey Tom won’t preface his response to Dale with this simple truth constitutes apologia regarding Dale’s abuses, but also Turkey Tom’s hand in things (his “degenerate” YouTube series feels rather vindictive in a white savior way—i.e., it lacks a lot of nuance, failing to point out how the abuses that occur within certain communities like the furry fandom don’t apply to furries at large).

Note: I wrote this before I understood how shitty Turkey Tom was; i.e., his racism, furryphobia, and white supremacy, which “Furry Panic” explores at length. Turkey Tom sucks ass. —Perse, 4/21/2025

[4] Fun fact: Blake’s film won a silver medal at the 1989 WorldFest-Houston International Film Festival, specifically in the “Non-Theatrical Release” category. This makes it the first porn movie to win a medal at a major international film festival. Refer to exhibit 1a1a1i1 from “The Finale; or “Sex, Drugs and Rock ‘n Roll” to see me analyze this wonderful film.

Book Sample: Poison was the Cure: On Goblins, Being a Weird Nerd and Trans Cryptonymy

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

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Inside the Man Box, part three: Poison was the Cure: On Goblins, Being a Weird Nerd and Trans Cryptonymy as a Monstrous Antidote to Bigots (feat. Glenn the Goblin, Ms. Chalice from Cuphead, Tolkien’s Orcs and Goblins, and more)

He must be killed,

For in Sicily the black, black snakes are innocent, the gold

            are venomous (source).

—D. H. Lawrence, “Snake” (1923)

Picking up where “Canonical Discrimination in Videogames, Including Fan Art and Speedrunner/Streamer Culture” left off…

Note: Goblins are a monster I’ve written about since this piece (re: “Goblins, Anti-Semitism, and Monster-Fucking“), my partner Bay identifies as a little goblin shortstack, and I’ve drawn other friends as orcs and goblins, too. Here, though, I originally explored goblins in a poetic-praxial sense for the first time, making “On Goblins” one of my first monster-themed pieces in the entire series. It’s also another place where I’m flirt with cryptonymy early on, specifically goblin cryptonymy as pointedly trans. —Perse, 5/5/2025

(model and artist: Jackie and Persephone van der Waard)

This subchapter section will get a little trippy. Whereas in Volume Two, we examined trans, enby and intersex poetics as a drug-like means of expanding one’s imagination to include oppressed groups, thereby challenging Capitalism in the process, I now want to further illustrate my own weird-nerd approach to these iconoclastic, drug-like poetics; i.e., in relation to the goblin as a transformative tool to deal with weird canonical nerds: with Glenn the Goblin (we’ll go devote an entire chapter to the concept as it applies to standard/token proponents in Chapter Five, but here I just want to introduce the idea in relation to what parts one and two talked about: Man Box culture in connection to male nerds being the largest group of queerphobic bigots to contend with). To be holistic), we’ll also look at Miss Chalice from Cuphead, Tolkien’s orcs and goblins, and a couple other quick examples that—while not technically goblins—still occupy the same half-real poetic zones playing such things out.

As such, consider the sex-positive goblin as a kind of cryptonym that addresses canonical persecution through queer modes of xenophilic Gothic expression that proudly declare, in some shape or form, “We are the gods now!” We aren’t controlled opposition, but a goblin-esque chaotic force that can tip the scales beyond the state desires, playfully changing the odds for ourselves and other players by formulating the paradigm shift inside our own magic circles of embellishment (the same idea can apply to any ironic monster type you desire). These half-real territories reach well beyond the canvas and into the broader world, yet remain grounded within media as something to inform these creative transitions moving forward.

Before we give into goblins, full-bore, I want to supply a note about cryptonymy as a genderqueer lever practiced by non-assimilated queer people as being weird nerds themselves (sprinkled within a couple additional points about canon’s biggest defenders: our aforementioned weird canonical nerds):

(exhibit 94a2: Artist, left: Elliot Bouriot; middle: Sabs; right: Quruiqing. As explored in the “Call of the Wild” chapter from Volume Two, drug-use as an ontological, demonic-poetic metaphor is something that lends itself well to queer expression: the fawn, fairy or tequila-esque caterpillar infused with mescaline-like properties. “Taken,” these variables symbolize transformation as something with an acutely pre-Capitalist/-Cartesian style to imbibe, then hauntologically revive in the present space and time [usually in highly colorful ways]: a new Dionysus, Psyche or Persephone.)

If heteronormative people lack imaginations—are ignominiously buried alive in Man Box “tombs” that keep them trapped within Patriarchal Capitalism, but also its myopic hauntologies’ coercive social-sexual roles that worship heteronormative supermen as superior to everything else—then trans, non-binary and intersex persons/drag practitioners are kettled by these monomythic wackjobs. As such, the cryptonymic incentive is there for them to either assimilate or become a proletarian form of weird nerd; i.e., the “shapeshifter” Kryptonite of weird canonical nerds and their blind enjoyment, thus endorsement of “apolitical,” uncritical consumerism and subsequent incel-level/weeb-grade fascism.

As we shall see for the rest of Chapter Three and in Chapters Four and Five, defense of canon becomes the canonical site for hostility against marginalized groups for attacking the “owner’s” sacred media. Often, the Man Box reaction is assisted by class traitors of an assimilated, “token” personality type; e.g., TERFs and other sell-outs using DARVO against genderqueer persons for using Gothic poetics for revolutionary purposes; i.e., as Satanic rebels whose beautiful lies must be countered with the usual lies pedaled by fascists and neoliberals. As I shall now demonstrate, We must reclaim weirdness and nerd culture much in the same way as undead and demonic monsters: by making our own.

Not to make a multi-layered pun out of things, but in Gothic theory this Kryptonite’s pedagogy of the oppressed is called a cryptonym—cryptonomy being the creation of “words that hide,” generally in regards to a secret inheritance whose transgenerational curse is gleaned through a surviving narrative: of the crypt, itself. We’ve already covered the term “narrative of the crypt” multiple times throughout the book (as it is one of Gothic Communism’s four central theories), but I want to go over its full definition again (from the companion glossary/”Paratextual Documents“); re:

According to Cynthia Sugars’ entry for David Punter’s the Encyclopedia of the Gothic (2012), this narrative is described by Jerrold Hogle as the only thing that survives—a narrative of a narrative to a hidden curse announced by things displaced from the former cause. Sugars determines, the closer one gets to the problem, the more the space itself abruptly announces a vanishing point, a procession of fragmented illusions tied to a transgenerational curse: “a place of concealment that stands on mere ashes of something not fully present,” Hogle writes of Otranto (the first “gothic” castle, reassembled for Horace Walpole’s 1764 “archaeology”).

The same basic concept applies in the meta-paratextual sense to those “buried” under Capitalism, unable to imagine escaping the larger crypt because its contents have conditioned them to see and combine everything inside in a particular archaeo-hauntological way (solving old puzzles with determined outcomes).

The transgenerational curse adumbrated by so many incarcerated minds, then, is Capitalism itself. Announced by the inhabitant’s procession of dumb, sundered, standardized illusions, the curse is hidden and hides itself into the future by trapping that future inside a cryptonymic, imaginary past. Killer zombie-vampires are everywhere, patrolling the ruin while leashed to it like dogs. Their minds are poisoned by canonical propaganda.

Like Superman’s Kryptonite, this poison isn’t universal. What matters is how it’s applied. To break the hauntological spell of Capitalist Realism, queer people can change or deviate away from normative markers and canonical worship—often through composite, “archaeological” forms that reinvent how language is assembled, but also viewed afterward; i.e., the queer princess wandering through the Gothic castle to escape the tyrant by repurposing the fakery of the structure against its current owner (the latter a person having stolen or inherited the place from someone else within the system and doing their to restore its canonical hauntological medieval function—e.g., the hidden crypt or vault as a stowaway for fleeing kings becoming an underground railroad in rebel hands, a smuggler’s route for rebellious cargo). Once dug up and reassembled in new imaginative ways, these weird, nerdy “archaeologies” challenge the established material order of regular, canonical “junk food”: a trans antidote to a transgenerational curse (I promise I didn’t intend these puns; they practically write themselves); re: Bay being trans and goblin-y.

(model and artist: Bay and Persephone van der Waard)

I’d like to use the rest of part three to explore this in relation to myself as certified weirdo/trans person, including how transitioning through monstrous poetics—specifically the goblin—has shaped the way I think about media through my own secret identify (one I wasn’t fully aware of until quite recently); I’ll then use part four focus on how this improved perspective not only evolved out of older schools of thought, but can identify and address the regression of weird nerds towards canonical traditions/rigged games (and their imaginary pastness)—i.e., as things that teach said nerds to view trans, intersex, and non-binary people as non-existent, thus worthy of compelled discipline and punishment: the colonial binary as an ultimatum within the shadow of Pygmalion (whose praxial double is always monstrous-feminine; i.e., the Galatea as self-aware and making her own art).

Onto my trans cryptonym: Glenn the Goblin.

(exhibit 94a3: Artist, right: Reiq. As we’ve established, the green skin of the goblin [or other colors, like purple Drow or ashen orcs] contains a racialized “blackface” component, but also a degree of assimilation fantasy in canonical narratives; re: Black Skin, White Masks [re: exhibit 10b1/41b, “Prey as Liberators“/”A Lesson in Humility“]. Iconoclastic narratives can move away from this entirely by making non-human colors sex-positive; e.g., Elphaba from Gregory Maguire’s Wicked as a partially humanized vice character or Ester from the Orphan franchise [re: exhibit 13d, “Monster Modes“] but also my own take on the goblin as a strictly “good,” reverse-abject proposition, exhibit 94c1. In this sense, green can represent the color of stigma, bias or oppression as something to live with and survive, but also subvert and reclaim.

It’s tricky because, while there is a racialized component, it isn’t strictly associated with American stereotypes following the Trans-Atlantic slave trade. Indeed, the origins of the goblin date back to Christian-Judaic sectarianism, but nevertheless lend themselves well to Enlightenment-era, settler-colonial tropes and post-Cold-War islamophobia: the person of color as wily and undisciplined, similar to how a goblin might be. This makes the reclamation of colors a bit more intersectional and choosy depending on what you wish to focus on, but there’s plenty of room for different pedagogies of the oppressed in the larger Gothic-Communist scheme.)

Something to keep in mind, then, is what weird canonical nerds are: sycophants, to be sure, but also faithful emulations of Man Box culture as sacred. Persons like Caleb Hart evolved out of alt-right videogame culture and Gamergate into the election of Donald Trump two years later. In other words, fascism and reactionary nerds go hand-in-hand, supporting the de facto, bad play education of rape culture by literally policing videogame consumption as an in-group to defend from “degenerate” influences. As Cheyenne Lin points out in her 2023 video, “Why Nerds Joined the Alt-Right“,” not only is white, cis-het nerd culture linked to fascism (which has more moderate forms; e.g., NSP’s “Danny Don’t You Know,” 2018); weird canonical nerds are resistant to change, cannot imagine it and will not tolerate it in any shape or form that threatens the world as it already exists. Changing the odds is “cheating” and cannot be allowed—not by women, queer people, or other minorities; in short, not by any activist period. They must play “by the rules” in ways that please men or keep men on top.

As such, weird canonical nerds police whatever invokes the void in themselves, created by the myopic “crypt” of Capitalism’s bourgeois Superstructure; they project onto the enemies of the state, invoked and identified through weird canonical nerds as “badly educated.” Trans people, for example are alien to them, an ideological other the state teaches them to automatically fear, but also kill and rape relative to what trans people attempt to reclaim for themselves through their own de facto educators: reclaimed monstrous language as already-colonized by canonical media, but especially videogames nowadays as representing games in a symbolic and literal sense (and whose playing of games with those who operate in bad faith, thus requiring revolutionary code/disguise pastiche in order to survive; we’ll examine this idea much more in Chapter Five). “Death to wokeness” is preceded by standard-issue saber-rattling by—you guessed it—white, cis-het men. To that, Benny Johnson’s “Go woke, get smoked!” argument (Hasan’s “Benny Johnson Gives Bud Light Free Advertisement,” 2023) might sound dumb as hell, but the sentiment reminds cagey and real; i.e., a gun-toting false revolutionary associating death-by-bullet with trans people in the abstract: the “woke mind virus” of Bud Light beer cans.

Despite what people like Benny Johnson or Pat Robertson might argue, trans people are always trans, but like butterflies, transform into their genuine selves, shedding the liminal shell before leaving it behind (for a neat textual example of this, watch Alice in Borderland, with Caterpillar). This can involve “help” within art as an altered state whose means of altering oneself to achieve their natural “ground state.” Signs that I was trans, then, can be found in my juvenilia as thoroughly weird, which combined together my many different interests into what I ultimately wanted to be: what I wanted to fuck according to what I consumed through material consumerism; e.g., videogames, horror movies, metal, and erotica, etc; but also what I created by playing god in an iconoclastic-Promethean sense (exhibit 94a1).

(artist: Persephone van der Waard)

In short, to become what I truly am, I had to use the Promethean Quest to destroy that which was heteronormatively assigned to me at birth. I had to, in a poetic sense, become a god to self-determine and self-express beyond what heteronormative society allowed: Satan, Galatea, Lilith, etc, as giving birth to class warriors. It’s not hubris to want to exist and be myself without harming others—to refuse to be shoved back into the closet even if the status quo resents me for it, calling for my head; i.e., not being weird in a poetically heteronormative sense. Proletarian weirdness is liminal, subverting canon; this makes it likely that reactionaries will brand iconoclasts as heretical in popular fantasy stories that, while they lack overtly religious language, still boast the same dogmatic, heteronormative function that organized religion does: the monomyth as holy even when it strays into fascist territories. That is literally to be expected at this point.

(exhibit 94a4: Artist: Naughty Azima. As Cheyenne Lin’s video essay demonstrates, standard-issue fantasy often revolves around weirdness as something to posture by people who want to be seen as outsiders, except they’re very much privileged in-group members. Fascism is built on appeals to white cis-het men colonizing fantasy as their realm; i.e., replete with “weird” stories whose wish fulfillment has a pulpy vibe on par with the original Conan stories published in Weird Magazine, in the 1930s: European-bodied women of different skin colors offered up as rewards in cliché sites of “high adventure” like the saloon, sauna, or whorehouse. And while this can seem all-inclusive, it just as often worships the black knight in post-medieval mercenary groups that threaten a regression into the imaginary past during Capitalism-in-crisis.)

As stated during the introduction, “all deities reside in the human breast.” That includes the teenage trans breast as something that lives under Capitalism and fantastical consumerism, but struggles away from oppression without being fully aware of the broader struggle. That’s what being closeted means; if your closeted, you’re still queer—i.e., if the material world outside of yourself doesn’t match who you are, your art will represent this discrepancy by showing the external world who you are in reclaimed language/Gothic reinvention. As we shall see with my corpus/portfolio, this is true even if you’re not fully aware of it.

For example, while I am a thoroughly weird nerd and have been for all of my life, my weirdness as a teenager took a Byronic, suitably horny form: the goblin as a twist on older models of mischief and prurience. In my case, I wrote ambitious fantasy stories about a shapeshifter goblin named Glenn (exhibit 94c1) that could turn into anything. Just as Ursula Le Guin started with LotR pastiche and evolved into a genderqueer body of work, my works were initially inspired by Tolkien’s fantastical, heteronormatively centrist theatre of war. But my queerness, despite being closeted, still felt precocious (similar to Mary Shelley’s own fictions at 19, mine were equally inventive).

Note: For further discussion about this time in my life, read “Concerning Rings” from Volume One. —Perse, 5/5/2025

In short, I was sex-positive and “out” about my erotica since I was a teenager and used it to humanize the very monsters canonical stories were teaching me to fear and kill. By extension, I was humanizing the animals and chattelized minorities associated with these monsters: Jewish people, in particular, but also non-Christians more broadly and gender-non-conforming men, women [witches and homosexuals, historically] and enbies.

Before we look at my subversion of the goblin myth, below are two exhibits of the goblin in fantasy media less as a wholly positive thing and more as a liminal territory that has developed an iconoclastic branch in recent years:

(exhibit 94b1: Artist, top-left: Avital Dayanim; top-right: xxNikichenxx; bottom-left: JMG Party Bean; bottom-right: Huffslove. In sex-positive media, the goblin—like the orc [re: exhibit 37e2, “Meeting Jadis“] or Drow [re: exhibit 41b, “A Lesson in Humility“]—tends to be humanized through sex as liminal, pornographic expression. The history and continuation of this mode is imperfect, at times reducing the green-skinned monster to that of a reward. While historically the goblin hasn’t always been diminutive, their delineation from orcs has led them to be seen as smaller and more cunning than their retroactively bigger and brawnier cousins [which sex-positive stories often present as cute and petit]. Goblin alliances often have them presenting as uneasy rivals or undisciplined trickster-inventors who love money and gizmos like dwarves do, but aren’t explicitly enemies with humans—with they and the hero able to overcome their mutual differences through shared struggles. To this, the adventure’s undertaking and conclusion are narratively arranged to supply sex as a kind of relief in tension—either partway through, or at the end when the current quest is finished; e.g., Midna from Twilight Princess.

Curiously, some Zelda fans prefer Midna’s short “imp” form precisely because it deviates from the heteronormative standard further than simply “being taller than Link is and having dark skin.” Indeed, Midna’s cursed form is cherished for its morphological variety [short and “dummy thicc”] but also her sardonic personality and curious ability to “ride” Link in his wolf form, taming him the way a rider does its mount. The dark skin adds an element of impurity to a historically racialized dynamic, letting people consciously choose to love others who are visibly different from themselves and treated differently for it within the gameworld’s lore; i.e., as pariahs shunned for being creatures of vice by the status quo.)

(exhibit 94b2: Artist, top-left/-mid and bottom-left: Huffslove. The goblin as a form of liminal expression, ties to medievalized concepts of wealth acquisition—mainly the adventure as a deviation away from polite society—that play on the goblin as a sex-positive, humanized explorer that isn’t killed for its gold, but kills others for their gold. Indeed, the ownership of gold in medieval thought is open to debate, an idea famously enshrined by Tolkien’s Kings Under the Mountain, Smaug the Stupendous and Thorin Oakenshield. In the real world, the Jewish people are endlessly persecuted as the go-to medieval scapegoats of the Christian/fascist West, which Tolkien’s dwarves and cunning dragon emblematize respectively. Tolkien released The Hobbit on the eve of WW2, when Capitalism was in decay on the global stage. As such, his ravenous dragons rarefy greed in medieval language that curiously shirks the idea of Christendom’s culture of generosity or Crusaders, downplaying real-world allegories in favor of a wily vice character. Meanwhile, his dwarves skirt the line between men and goblins, living in darkness and loving gold, but still dealing with elves and men.

Except, Tolkien’s dwarves in particular are on a special quest: one of wealth reclamation tied to a stolen homeland, occupied by a fash-coded dragon. Intimations of “dragon sickness” infected them with a spirit of revenge to land they have no logical claim to, just a feudalistic one; i.e., like the Jews of Israel seeking revenge in defense of their land, the dragon is a fabrication but their greed and the genocide of their invented enemies is soberingly real. In Tolkien’s Middle-earth, the Jewish-coded dwarves corrupt and backstab, the curse of their greed haunting the land in the same shadow space the fascist dragon occupies as the spirit of rarefied greed. It’s victim-blaming and DARVO, but also a broken clock that—per Great Britain’s role in Israel’s formation—would be ushered in by Tolkien and his homeland as profoundly anti-Semitic; i.e., breeding dissent through a vengeful minority policing the land around them: “bettering the instruction” by cutting down those perceived as worse than them by them. It’s blood quantum and libel, the assimilation fantasy forcing Tolkien’s token Jews (displaced to Erebor as “dwarves,” an anti-Semitic trope) to act according to the very biases they normally would try to escape: it’s “their fault” because they’re greedy but also spiteful, subterranean, mean-spirited; i.e., “These are dwarf lands, this is dwarf gold; and we will have our revenge!”

Just as Jackson’s films have highlighted the racial tensions by coding the orcs as savagely black and disrespectful of nature [versus Tolkien’s “good natured” elves conducting Goldilocks Imperialism], his works also play off the original author’s anti-Semitism. To that, each dwarf has sworn revenge in search of their pale enchanted gold, which they intend to steal back from Smaug as being “more greedy” than them, more violent. The moral, though, is no race is exempt from “dragon sickness”—with the goblins, wargs, men, elves, and eagles warring on the same battlefield over the same material things. Indeed, the irony of current geopolitics shows Israel becoming an ethnostate on par with the Nazis—whose dark culture of Paganistic thievery and death is mostly closely mimicked by Tolkien’s goblins and wargs of the Misty Mountains: the wolf is loose. Israel’s fascist regression kind of echoes the dragon sickness of Tolkien’s Lonely Mountain—except, of course, in Tolkien’s world/imagination, that kind of “second player” wasn’t really established. The goblins are vaguely brutal and subterranean; Smaug and Thorin are simply greedy as they take turns sitting on a pile of gold that can’t really regenerate, can only be stolen.

In the current state of things, wealth doesn’t tend to exist as a pile of gold to begin with, but a network of capitalist positions spread all over the planet through global US hegemony to assist in the generation of profit [denying wealth and material conditions to billions of people]. All the same, the metaphor of gold and greed festering inside a besieged “Holy Land” fortress is still quite vivid and apt. Yes, Thorin’s dwarves are superstitious, thinking their number is unlucky enough to merit them hiring Bilbo [a lucky, short person living Under the Hill, whose “Tookish” nature and knack for disappearing evokes the leprechauns of Celtic myth].

Yet, their own contract is hilariously frank and complete. Just as Tolkien was emblematizing medieval practices and stereotypes of usury in fantastical forms that humanized the usual recipients of anti-Semitic ire, these same medieval tropes and money-lending jokes continue to exist well into the present; e.g., the RPG-savvy art of fantasy artist, Huffslove. Their subversive humor and raw sexuality humanize goblins far further than Tolkien bothered, having racially appreciative and sexually descriptive adventures the likes of which Bilbo Baggins and the thirteen dwarves never dared: a threat to the nuclear-familial order through handling money as a medieval slave’s task, combined with a short, class-envious sexual deviator and eater of babies/drinker of blood, etc.)

(artist: Avital Dayanim)

Famous monsters teach those part of the status quo to attack out-groups, a practice that has carried over into videogames and cinema. As we previously discussed, vampires and witches have anti-Semitic history to them. So do goblins, which are often treated as untrustworthy fodder in modern canon. On goblins, Evelyn Frick writes, “I haven’t come across historical evidence which directly states that goblin folklore was influenced by medieval anti-Semitism or perceptions of Jews, or vice versa. Except, of course, in the case of knockers. […] But whether goblins in contemporary culture are anti-Semitic, in my opinion, depends on context” (source: “The Anti-Semitic History of Goblins”).

Note: Frick’s work would inspire me to investigate medieval persecution language in a modern light; re: “Idle Hands.” —Perse, 5/6/2025

To that, the context of my own work was meant to fight against modern bigotries built on older myths. In effect, Glenn was that rare and elusive “good goblin” that was lacking in the materialized imaginations of industry giants like Tolkien or Rowling (with Tolkien’s being more vague and bloodthirsty vs his Semitic dwarves, whereas Rowling’s goblins were painfully obvious in their anti-Semitic regression). Indeed, goblins embody my juvenilia as growing into what I would ultimately become: a shapeshifting slut that reclaims stigmatic myths for sex-positive reasons, while treating my weirdness—specifically my poetic sense of being different—as a source of queer pride. The worship for Galatea remained, a queen made by a queen (and not Pygmalion).

Queer people are punished for being different than heteronormative proponents who chase, embody or otherwise abuse the same basic monster types; i.e., the goblin as the giver or receiver of state abuse (similar to the zombie, from Volume Two). Beware bourgeois goblins who use DARVO to call themselves victims while simultaneously doing the state’s dirty work; it’s fascist victim culture, through and through.

The evolution of my own nerdy weirdness features the goblin as a queer proletarian symbol forged from multiple ingredients. Catalyzed partly by Frog from Chrono Trigger, Glenn had the natal body of a short, ugly (by human standards) male goblin, but chose to turn into a green-skinned human maid girl that the hero (my avatar, of course) got to have sex with. Meanwhile, she retained her goblin strength and raspy voice. The design wasn’t just composite, but hauntologically chimeric, combining She-Hulk’s curvy bulk with Elphaba Thropp’s trademark vocal fry and the deflated troll bodies from Dungeon Keeper (1997); i.e., into a singular, shape-shifting entity out of an assemblage of reimagined pasts. Making it sexy was just a way of achieving my new state through sexual enrichment/expression as alternate pathways.

All in all, Capitalism canonically treats work as “liberating” (which, under fascist scenarios, definitely doesn’t set you free). In truth, we have only to lose our chains, including those supplied by a lack of an emancipatory dialog. Lacking the words and supplying people with canonical images of coercive sex forces them into colonizing boxes with sexually dimorphic gender roles.

I used to think people became trans. Only when I recently thought about Glenn again did I realize that I was and always would be trans; teenage me just didn’t have the language to describe how she felt! In my own “Ode to Psyche” (the goddess of the soul, often portrayed as a butterfly and who Keats chose to worship as an ancient, forgotten deity) I’ve since traced my own evolution backward, recognizing the various terms I’ve used over the years: heteroflexible, bi-curious, gender-fluid, femboy and switch…

While each felt appropriate at the time, “trans woman” seems to describe me best back then and now. This wouldn’t be possible without adequate and flexible, reclaimed language, which I’ve slowly acquired through life-long friendships and romances. Without their valuable lessons, I’d still be in the crypt, lost and confused: Capitalist, heteronormative myopia isn’t just a box; it’s a closet that keeps people straight by shaping how they think in carceral-hauntological ways. Escaping that “prison sex” mentality has taken a lifetime of work, including constant reflection on myself and the world around me. But it’s allowed me to transform through good play as an extension of myself that I feel comfortable with. People are defined by their actions, right? The same applies to whatever lessons they leave behind after they are gone; i.e., good play demonstrated by reclaimed monsters that don’t condone or disseminate rape culture and worker exploitation: dark gods.

(exhibit 94c1: Artist, left: Persephone van der Waard; model, right: Persephone van der Waard. Glenn in their female form; me in mine. Playfulness and reinvention don’t have to represent us perfectly as a concrete statement, but rather as a state of change that, from moment-to-moment, has a mood that might entertain different forms, metaphors or attitudes; i.e., a “devil for a day” approach extending to different kinds of devils.)

I’d like to explore some further ambiguities to gender-non-conformity in relation to Man Box culture, before moving onto part four’s sobering discussion that this step of transformation is weighed against a great “shadow of Pygmalion.” It’s not that Caleb is mighty unto himself, but that Capitalism is Patriarchal, thus heteronormative, thus geared towards business models in sports, porn and videogames that, through the Gothic mode instigate xenophobic biases as structured to award a select number of gatekeepers. Everyone else adopts the enforcer role by proxy of those special few trickling down the dregs of capital: Twitch sponsors Caleb, Caleb promotes his fans, the fans buy the game, and everyone sits in a circle talking shit and hatching plans. Simply put, it’s “locker room talk,” gossip geared towards sexist behaviors and dogma; even if the vast majority of these never come to light, the nature of stochastic terrorism is that it becomes normalized to a degree that people sit around in saloons, coffee houses or their own living rooms, gossiping until someone picks up a gun or knuckleduster and goes to work.

In other words, the same concrete discretion and information scarcity that alienates trans people also deprives heteronormative consumers of their critical-thinking skills. This faulty analysis occurs due to underlying biases encouraged by those in power—in part because mainstream canon is designed to inaccurately represent the everyday struggles, and actual identities of, trans people and other genderqueer groups. Not only are consumers not trained to think critically about canonical media; they’re hauntologically conditioned to react violently towards individuals already demonized within these stories as being a threat towards corporate profit, hence the livelihood of their favorite sexist broadcasters.

This interpretive failure happens on various levels. The author of the image can be sexist, or the gaze of the beholder can be sexist. And generally the author is someone who learned their trade by looking not just at bodies, but transphobic body imagery (a kind of fetish in its own right) repeatedly sold to them through canon: Caleb Hart vis-à-vis Final Fantasy or Mega Man as proponents of Max Box culture. Watching these interactions, viewers of Caleb learn to legitimize themselves by defending Caleb as an extension of canon, seeing trans people either as gender-confused in the process, or as monsters deserving of punishment. This includes fetishizing them as a means of social-sexual dominance similar to how Caleb does, castigating trans people publicly through fetishistic means; i.e., the bad play of “prison sex.” However, Caleb’s moderate transphobia doesn’t stop overt fascists from consuming trans/intersex people and drag queens in private (re: Nick Fuentes and catboys).

(artist: Dærick Gröss Sr.)

The discrepancy shows that the policing of nerd culture/the Gothic mode isn’t homogenous, but it is hegemonic—applied unevenly across various marginalized groups according to the same base concept: enforce the status quo. Under this status quo, trans people are the perpetual victims, the state of exception for which anything goes. They do not exist—becoming either fully invisible or demonized—and anything can happen to them. Like zombies, how they are abjected depends on who’s abjecting them: cis-het white men or women, cis-het people of color, various religious communities with built-in, dated stigmas towards queer people, cis-queer people, out-and-out TERFs; but also professional gamers like Caleb Hart, his fans and co-workers, and their mutual employers as stuck in the same Man Box, bred on its monomyth paratexts.

Nevertheless, trans, intersex and non-binary people are not space aliens; Capitalism just treats us as such, forcing our voices into the void beyond Capitalism Realism. Meanwhile, we share the same physiological and gendered ambiguous components as those attacking us  (conservatives sometimes forget they have pronouns), often in popular stories that represent people who could be trans, intersex or crossdressers, but are historically denied this opportunity by defenders of the human body and its colonized genitals and gender roles as affiliated with an idealized past. Consider vaginas. AFABs own vaginas because vaginas belong to their bodies, which are their own (according to natural human rights, anyways). Those in power and seeking to exploit the bodies/sexual labor of others will train society to interpret the human body (which can be naturally ambiguous) and their imagery (which can also be ambiguous) in highly concrete, but ultimately nostalgic ways that lean into a heteronormative bias against trans interpretations and procedures.

Take Ms. Chalice from Cuphead: Though hauntological par excellence, neither the game nor its hauntology can distinguish if Ms. Chalice actually owns a vagina, let alone how they identify (despite being called “Miss,” a title is not explicitly one’s gender, the possible exception being Mug Man—a reference to Mega Man, a highly sexist series whose sexism, beyond just Caleb Hart, tends to survive in paratextual media and its “blind,” Man-Box-tinged parodies, like Jaboody Dubs’ 2022 parody[1] of the Blue Bomber). Then again, short of looking under that skirt and checking for ourselves (which would be rude), neither can we. Rather than allow for crossdressing and intersex persons, the characters are heteronormatively coded as male/man and female/woman according to their performative aspects (their clothes, body language and makeup) as connected to an idealized past coded to assume.

This is less by the game, however, and more by audiences who would abject sexually descriptive alternatives that threaten their particular view of the past. If we wanted to be sexually descriptive in regards to Cuphead, we would need to allow all possibilities to occur, not just prescriptive ones. What if Ms. Chalice was an AMAB trans person, and Cuphead and Mug Man were AFAB trans persons? Intersex? Drag queens? This might seem minor if we change nothing visual about the characters, but it remains inherently deconstructive, thus iconoclastic. To merely change the heroes’ presumed genitals or gender identity in a paratextual sense without changing anything about them in-game would generate a considerable amount of gender trouble all by itself. Sexist norms would be threatened because sexist systems leave no room for nuance, erasing trans people in the process, but also intersex people and drag queens. Reclaiming their right to exist won’t erase Cuphead from existence; it will only expose those who try to colonize it as transphobic.

(artists: Chad Moldenhauer and Marija Moldenhauer)

As we’ve already established, heteronormative thought defines people by presumed genitals within a colonial binary. If Ms. Chalice wears a dress, they must have a vagina; if they have a vagina, they must do their duty (to have babies); if they refuse or don’t have a vagina, they must be a traitor, an impostor. The problem is, impostors can depicted in a plethora of ways: the transphobic trope of the rapacious man-in-disguise, the homophobic trope of the gay pedophile, the misogynistic trope of the man-hating lesbian, the catch all queerphobic label of “trap (“The Aesthetics and Connotations of Traps,” 2019). Often criminal-hauntological, these slurs are legion, but all serve the same, underlying goal: Defend the status quo, generally by putting its (often) male defenders of the idealized past into a mental “Man Box.” This brain prison then transforms them into unfeeling monsters with a limited emotional palate: anger, lust, and tears for the (gender-conforming) dead that results in a broader Capitalist-Realist myopia.

Proponents of capital defend sports and industry as heteronormative, thus trapped inside the Man Box as an extension of Capitalist Realism. As previously stated, we’ll specifically explore female defenders (and TERFs of different genders and sexes) more in the next chapter. Before we proceed into that dark zone, there’s another shadow we need to consider—Pygmalion’s. I want to outline the result of Caleb Hart’s de facto bad education as it links to a bourgeois etiology of male-centric transphobia: weaponized male consumers (the next several subchapters will examine men, in particular). While plenty of markets are dedicated to cis-het women, many more retain a historically male-dominated flavor. We’ve already explored the product as a deliberate nemesis to trans representation that Caleb Hart internalized then disseminated only too well.

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

However, the socio-material arrangement between product, producer and consumer also generates a particular breed of weaponized (often-male) web of weird canonical nerd that badly imitates the success enjoyed by lucky (and unscrupulous) men like Caleb Hart: the Shadow of Pygmalion obliterating Galatea as the whore to pimp in perpetuity—a peach to harvest out of revenge. From Medusa to Pandora to the Sphinx, then, nature’s monstrous-feminine “box” is one to cage through Man Box proponents for all time. That’s what capital is, having evolved out of older state models into newer ones stuck in a rut.

We’ll unpack this awful concentrism, next.

Onto “Book Sample: Obliterating Phoebe: In the Shadow of Pygmalion“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] For a bit of extra context, Jaboody Dubs parodies tend to hauntologically “blind,” the sexism/racism in their comedy tied to nostalgic media where both bigotries already exist. In their latest video, their homophobic punchline—”Before I swore myself to the badge, I was the butt-clapping ‘captain’ of the bussy patrol!”—is “funny” precisely because it doesn’t fit in ’80s nostalgic worldview on display. Regardless of specific stated intent, however, the context remains homophobic in relation to the ’80s as something to celebrate as a means of telling old, tired jokes: “Cops having butt sex is funny.” I mean, I laughed, but largely because the whole thing felt absurd—especially when delivered by the straight man (excuse the expression) deadpanning his lines! As a trans woman, I could laugh at the attempt if I want; in hindsight, it still felt like I was being laughed at—the same way my high school chums might have said “homo suspicion” in my company decades ago or my brothers telling dick or butt sex jokes until I very recently asked them to stop.

Book Sample: Canonical Discrimination in Videogames, Including Fan Art and Speedrunner/Streamer Culture

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

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Inside the Man Box, part two: Canonical Discrimination in Videogames, Including Fan Art and Speedrunner/Streamer Culture (feat. Caleb Hart, She-Hulk and goblins)

“I don’t have an issue with GDQ putting on this type of event, but I have issues with the ‘attendance.’ If truly all the people attending were indeed females, great. But that won’t be the case” (source tweet: Dagnel RGT, 2019).

—Caleb Hart, attacking the trans community in 2019

Picking up where “‘Inside the Man Box; or, Patriarchal, Nerdy Hatred’ (opening and part one, ‘Ontological Ambiguities’)” left off…

As explored in Volume Zero, canonical videogames are—at least through their intended design—a neoliberal false-power fantasy that lures players inside. Ostensibly to escape, it’s actually a training simulator teaching them how to be violent towards those coded as “different.” The instruction happens while exploring the monomyth as replicated, thus extending the Cycle of Kings another generation between the fiction, rules and real world (re: exhibit 1a1a1a1_a, “Thesis Body“): inside the minds of young men. The lie of Western superiority (the ghost of the counterfeit) furthers the process of abjection by chasing down the corrupt and monstrous-feminine before quite literally putting them to the sword—the hero’s sword, according to its intended use within a follow-the-leader scheme: “Do what I say and I’ll make you rich, famous, powerful. Now find the enemy and dominate them, break them down, make them a trophy and a joke.”

As we shall see, this isn’t a joke at all, but an eerily accurate description of how weird canonical nerds actually behave when taught through videogames in the Internet Age; i.e., by watching sexist pigs like Caleb Hart play them (or Ian Kochinski, but we’ll talk about him in Chapter Four, as well as other forms of war pastiche that sublimate war through false power). He’s a gym bro leaning into the Ozymandias refrain:

(artist: Caleb Hart)

As usual, we want to camp canon, so here are several ways to do so as I have done them, which in turn are become the very false flags that weird canonical nerds will raise to attack us; we can’t be ourselves and avoid a fight, and segregation is no protection, so we might as well out them by having them shit their pants while we enjoy ourselves (for camping the canon, although their humiliation factors into our delight):

(exhibit 93a: Artist, left: Persephone van der Waard; bottom-right: Doctor-G. The emphatic twink subverts videogame canon in ways that weird nerds like myself live for. Weird canonical nerds, on the other hand, will do their best to stamp us out without getting caught. All the same, Link is still coded classically as the wood elf child, less of a “good goblin” and more of a fairy boy/lost boy of the Peter Pan variety [or Oberon the fairy prince, Bay points out]. Ganon, then, is very much a goblin or orc king with his green skin, hulking muscles, dark steed/gear and big nose; i.e., the black goblin knight/regent who—like Dracula or Sauron—returns out of the past like a fascist spectre that must be laid low by a new Hero of Time; and Link—in order to grow up and become a man in the monomyth tradition/rite of passage—must embark on a quest to rescue the damsel from Ganon’s BBC. It’s the same basic idea with Mario, always saving Peach ostensibly from Bowser’s big dragon dong [and Mario’s princess always being in yet another castle]. Pretty girl = reward; ugly girl = hag.

[artist, all: Kukumomo]

There’s plenty of room for gender parody. However, as a neoliberal enterprise, videogames emulate the courtly love of older mediums where male entitlement is ubiquitous amid rape as the ultimatum. Indeed, extramarital sex and female agency is always “unthinkable” within the traditional heroic model [wherein gender trouble is the ruffling of feathers during non-binarization and sex-positive consent-non-consent, etc]. The damsel in distress is always at risk of being raped by a fascist rogue or black male rapist, thus must be rescued by the white knight [with the lady’s rape being far easier to sensationalize than her adult personhood, general autonomy and non-standardized sexual preferences; i.e., a non-maiden purposefully having sex with people other than white men and teenage boys, or not having sex with anyone].

And lastly, the Japanese iteration of the monomyth offers up the ultimate reward in a canonical sense: The closeted sissy chasing female giants to mother them after the quest is complete; i.e., Samus or Tifa as tomboys who prompt, chide or goad the player, but also literally giants like Nabooru, Urbosa or Midna as the tall Japanese mommy archetype [there’s nothing wrong with mommy doms in general, but the enforcement of this towards an entitled group of infantilized boys and men is highly problematic] or Ganon as a Big Daddy archetype, etc.)

Now that we’ve outlined the various ambiguities of trans/non-binary people, as well as intersex and drag royalty and where they hail from/find themselves in videogames, let’s examine those discriminating against them who play these same games. The simple fact is that discrimination is taught and videogames are excellent teachers; or rather, the players of videogames internalize the message as a bigoted worldview they must defend from outside forces attacking from within. All this being said, it can be difficult pinning things down. We’ll give an example, resupply the companion glossary definitions of “weird canonical nerd” and “Man Box,” then examine our man of the hour, Caleb Hart (we’ll also unpack further nuance for addressing and inhabiting these cultural biases at the end of the subchapter when we look the monomyth—e.g., from the Star Wars and Harry Potter franchises, but also She-Hulk as a complex, thus liminal category caught between assimilation and rebellion inside this kind of nerd culture that men like Caleb would endorse).

Part of the problem is how videogame companies appropriate queerness, but even this isn’t constant. Nintendo’s Hyrule has evolved over time to allow for increasingly sex-positive arrangements of unequal power exchange (albeit in an admittedly centrist gaming model of good-vs-evil). Squaresoft/Square-Enix is another matter. The mid-90s weren’t exactly a time of glowing sexual acceptance for gay men, leading to a scene in Final Fantasy 7′s (1997) retro-future city that treated Cloud’s “day in a dress” as comical. While I consistently enjoy seeing Cloud (and the player) willingly forgo the hypermasculine posturing of a twink super soldier, the roleplay is nevertheless temporary. However, the game’s 2019 reinvention reframes Cloud’s crossdress as ignominious punishment: It’s humiliating for him to surrender his agency (and the player’s), made clear by how ashamed Cloud appears afterward, visibly rejecting the entire exercise:

The best qualities of the new Honeybee Inn sequence are embodied by a character that didn’t exist in the original game, Andrea Rhodea. Andrea is the fierce proprietor of the Honeybee Inn, a dancer who oozes equal parts warmth and charisma. He’s an instantly magnetic screen presence, and the scene’s joyous abandon is largely owed to his charm. As he takes Cloud through a thrilling dance number, our stuffy hero seems to open up. It’s a performance so convincing one can practically smell the spilled nail polish, and at the end, Andrea waxes poetic. “True beauty is an expression of the heart,” he says. “A thing without shame, to which notions of gender don’t apply.” It’s a touching sentiment, and a profoundly queer one.

Yet Cloud doesn’t take it to heart. As soon as they leave the Inn, Cloud turns his back on Aerith, facing away from the street. She tries to talk to him. “Please don’t,” he replies, hiding himself. So much for “a thing without shame.” And therein lies the main issue with this whole sequence: Andrea’s message of self-exploration outside the bounds of gender is bookended by Cloud’s total failure to appreciate or internalize that message (source: Caleb Wysor’s “Final Fantasy VII Remake Complicates Its Queer Legacy,” 2020).

In the same hauntological framework, the views on queerness are endlessly dated within the city’s temporally frozen cyberpunk tableau. In other words, the franchised pastiche of Final Fantasy has begun to reject queerness in relation to its own complicated fanbase, a “bury your gays” revival in videogame culture tied to a nostalgic videogame past (“Make Midgar Great Again!”) that weird canonical nerds blindly endorse: the pursuit of strength during a manufactured state of emergency.

My personal definition from the companion glossary (and “Paratextual Documents“) describes weird canonical nerds as

A term I coined while borrowing from and expanding on Cheyenne Lin’s “weird nerds” phrase from “Why Nerds Joined the Alt-Right” (2023), and one I present through my usual dialectical-material approach despite the obvious social components I’m weaving into things: weird canonical nerds vs weird iconoclastic nerds, or otherwise proponents of canon vs camp in popular culture; i.e., anything that weird canonical nerds posit, their iconoclastic brethren challenge in duality.

To it, weird canonical nerds work within a toxic subset of nerd culture. Whereas nerd culture more broadly is for those who present an increased intellectual interest in a given topic—often in literature, but also popular media more broadly as something to consume, critique, or create (with iconoclastic varieties extending such matters into a spectrum of modular activism and counterculture)—weird canonical nerds are those who undermine genuine, active intellectualism; i.e., by exchanging it for dumb, hostile and even bad-faith consumerism and negative freedom for the elite. As something to blindly enjoy/endorse through zealously faithful, uncritical consumption, they celebrate the monomyth and Cycle of Kings as “good war”; e.g., Gamergate, 2014, but also TERFs and their territorial emergence in the late 2010s. Not only are TERFs, and by extension weird canonical nerds, very wide—as a practicing group of stochastic terrorists that encompasses white cis-het male consumers and women, as well as token traitors (of class, culture and race)—but they unironically lead to fascism per the infernal concentric pattern as a holistic enterprise (with Gamergate endorsed by weird canonical nerds into the 2016 election of Donald Trump, and whose neoliberal sentiments’ fascist outcomes were felt throughout the consumption of media and mentality alike as things to practice).

Weird canonical nerds are systemically bigoted, pertaining to Man Box culture as something to openly endorse, or “resist” in ways that do nothing to change the status quo/avoid the infernal concentric pattern/Cycle of Kings; e.g., TERF Amazons, but also proudly “apolitical” non-feminist nerds who embody a particular status within the nerd pantheon of canonical heroes: Mega Man as a go-to centrist male hero, for instance, but also Eren Yeager as the “incel fascist” with mommy issues, or Samus Aran as the Galactic Federation’s singular girl boss/white Indian, etc. All become something to endorse within critically blind portions of nerd culture that ape their prescriptive, colonial heroes within culture war dressed up as “apolitical” (the fascist ideology being secondary to the pursuit and claiming of personal power by changing one’s shape and language to fit those aims; e.g., Reinhardt Heydrich as a fascist war pig [to combine Umberto Eco with Black Sabbath] who would say whatever he could to justify his own iron grip on the minds of the populace: the foreign plot inside the house, once and forever).

To this, the Gothic and its various intersections, contradictions and conflicts are embroiled within oppositional praxis for or against weird canonical nerds, hence depictions/endorsements of different monster types; i.e., that, in the white, cis-het male tradition of privilege, such persons routinely “fail up,” and as success—like a whore/wife or nice house—is something they are taught to believe is owed to them (the promise of shelter and sex). Such betrayals and entitlement extend to token minorities allowed a slice of the pie, post-betrayal, but also must surrender their pie when the time comes (for which the real “Indian givers” are the settler colonist bearing false gifts: the Trojan Horse, aka the Faustian bargain, in Gothic circles).

Capital is a funnel whose wholly mechanical and cartographic approach to the world expresses across all its registers while policing them: a privileged center and sexist, racist, and otherwise bigoted hierarchy of values.

Furthermore, this fortress mentality isn’t exclusive to one game or sport; the same problematic revival has bled into the competitive realm of online e-sports, including speedrunning as a male-dominated enterprise with a small subset of token minorities from formerly or potential activist territories: the nation’s youth becoming toxic, vis-à-vis capital decaying into its usual replacement antics; i.e., capital is a structure of continuous invasion and replacement, which is why tokenism occurs. Under fascism, these tolerances are exhausted, reducing to “pick me” behavior from those with more privilege, mid-toxification increasing state abjection (thus cryptonymy) on all registers!

Exposed to bad educators as financially incentivized under neoliberalism (which profits off division, bigotry and manufactured competition within the manufacture, subterfuge and coercion trifectas), Man Box culture is endorsed through the vast circuitry of professional sports, porn/sexualized media and videogames within nerd culture as “making it weird” in a coercive sense. They root for the hero against the villain, which is always an extension of who they’re supposed to be; i.e., the one to love or endorse as working against those the state wants dead. In this case, the fascist nature of masculinity-in-crisis leads to obnoxiously toxic and terminal death cults feeling entitled to sex with an oft-nationalized flavor as exported through taboo materiel—incels, of course, but also “weeb” culture and its more radical forms of sexual coercion: moe, ahegao and incest culture. These are all symptoms of the unironic monomyth as a kind of Faustian bargain enacted through bad de facto parentage/education; i.e., “boys will be boys”; e.g., like Caleb’s own awful “I’m not a rapist” brand thereof, passed onto other young men across streamer culture.

We’ll specifically touch upon incels, weeb culture and its pedophilic incestuous offshoots more in Chapter Five. For now, I want to examine Man Box as the broader umbrella term that applies to weird canonical nerds as ostensibly not-yet-radicalized to that extent (though when I discuss weird canonical nerds, the synonymous potential is always there and my points about either aren’t mutually exclusive). Our definition of Man Box culture from the companion glossary is from Mark Greene, who writes, re:

For generations, men have been conditioned to compete for status, forever struggling to rise to the top of a vast Darwinian pyramid framed by a simple but ruthless set of rules. But the men who compete to win in our dominant culture of manhood are collectively doomed to fail, because the game itself is rigged against us. We’re wasting our lives chasing a fake rabbit around a track, all the while convinced there’s meat to be had. There is no meat. We are the meat. Our dominant culture of manhood is often referred to as the man box, a phrase coined by Tony Porter of A Call to Men based on Paul Kivel’s work, The Act Like a Man Box, which Kivel and others at the Oakland Men’s Project first conceptualized over forty years ago.

The man box refers to the brutal enforcement of a narrowly defined set of traditional rules for being a man. These rules are enforced through shaming and bullying, as well as promises of rewards, the purpose of which is to force conformity to our dominant culture of masculinity. The number one rule of the man box? Don’t show your emotions. Accordingly, boys three and four years old begin suppressing their own naturally occurring capacities for emotional acuity and relational connection, thus setting them on the path to a lifetime of social isolation (Chu, 2014). The damage is done before we are even old enough to understand what is happening.

Man box culture also suppresses empathy. The suppression of boys’ and men’s empathy is no accident. It is the suppression of empathy that makes a culture of ruthless competition, bullying and codified inequality possible. It is in the absence of empathy that men fail to see women’s equality and many other social issues for what they are: simple and easily enacted moral imperatives. Instead, our sons buy into bullying and abuse as central mechanisms for forming and expressing male status and identity (source: “How the Man Box Poisons Our Sons,” 2019).

To this, weird canonical nerds extends the broader myopia of Capitalist Realism through Man Box culture as a comorbid pair festering within the domestic side of class warfare that can lead to more radicalized right-leaning variants. It bleeds onto feminist groups, converting them within popular Gothicized aesthetics. I’d like to explore how this starts within the echo chamber of cis-het male culture for the remainder of part two; then proceed onto part three’s provision of addressing and subverting it; followed by part four’s concession that the shadow of Pygmalion is something queer culture not only must subsist in, but deal with TERF bigotries that spring out of these broader material concessions (whose “witch cops” we’ll scrutinize in the next chapter).

Onto Caleb Hart.

(source: Big Jeffery’s “Speedrunner CalebHart42 Banned from Twitch for Racism,” 2019)

We’re now going to examine the way famous proponents enact bad de facto education through ludic metaphors and game identity-as-performance; i.e., by connecting both movement and tutelage to stochastic abuse against trans and other gender-non-conforming representation under Capitalism. The “name” we’ll be looking at is Caleb Hart, a weird canonical nerd par excellence because he uses his “dude bro” Twitch streaming platform to materialize, endorse, and teach bad lessons/play through videogame culture as something to be “the best” at in a very hypermasculine, patriarchal sense. The play becomes fearful and dogmatic, therefore isn’t emotionally/Gothically intelligent; its Man Box culture is presented as hip, cool and more importantly, “neutral” thus apolitical. Weird canonical nerds hate politics because they’re bigoted; for them, politics is lame thus has no room anywhere in their media. In truth, they’re just bigoted, but want to act like outlaws outside of politics.

Note: I don’t wish to discourage the enjoyment of videogames or speedrunning. Playing videogames and enjoying speedrunning is perfectly fine, but I still agree with Anita Sarkeesian and marry her idea to Jesper Juul’s own theories in my own Gothic-Communist approach to proletarian praxis [re-play, from the manifesto’s Six Rs]:

“It’s both possible, and even necessary, to simultaneously enjoy media while also being critical of its more problematic or pernicious aspects.” The idea in doing so to understand, mid-enjoyment and critique, that development is not a zero-sum game, “a half-real zone between the fiction and the rules” that allows for emergent forms of transformative play.

To that, the following critique of videogame culture and speedrunning isn’t a total discounting of their potential value. Indeed, to repeat an argument from my manifesto, “I think the grassroots culture and non-profit approach to speedrunning allows larger groups of people to solve immensely difficult problems collectively outside of established business practices”; i.e., speedruns and “ironman/kaizo” challenges that go beyond the prescribed, intended way of playing a game [thus having Communist potential]. And the practice at large doesn’t preclude activism [e.g., Heckin’ Steve’s “DKOldies: Interview with Former Employee Jigsore (Full Interview Uncut),” 2023; or Karl Jobst routinely taking Billy Mitchel—the pinnacle of Capitalism teaching people to lie and cheat others to get ahead—to task: “Billy Mitchell And The Red Joystick Of Destiny,” 2023].

Even so, bigotry and ignorance need to be confronted whenever and wherever they occur (and to allow for gender-non-conforming behaviors outside of “victories first, cry later” mentalities for boys; e.g., Oatsngoats crying like an absolute girl for a [well-deserved] Super Metroid Any% world record, 2023; it’s ok to show emotions, my dude). The “bad luck” of Capitalism is, in truth, endorsed and enforced through white, cis-het male bias [and relative privilege for assimilated groups who play along under their watch]. The only way to lower the odds of abuse is to change the teaching mechanisms that “master” players to “play along” to a particular set of rules tailored to the real world and its linguo-material extensions (artwork, games, porn, etc) as interacting back and forth over time: material conditions. —Perse, back in 2023

P.S. (5/6/2025), Oddly enough, Karl would redeem Billy a fair degree by being the one to try and lie and cheat his way through a lawsuit defense case he couldn’t win (Persephone van der Waard’s “Bell TOLLS for ‪@karljobst‬: Redeems Billy Mitchell by Lying about Apollo Legends!“) and, as already mentioned, being a massive bigot and Nazi collaborator (Persephone van der Waard’s “Karl Jobst Is RACIST in 2025 + Full Evidence!“). Both videos were made in 2025 based on evidence I had written about previously in mid-2024 (re: “Modularity and Class“) and later, mentioned alongside Caleb Hart (re: “Those Who…“).

Historically the videogame business has sexist roots, being made by Japanese companies for American customers: white cis-het boys and men who punch down against those they historically abject, animalize and abuse (with most speedrunners belonging to this demographic). Combined with the transphobic business model of competitive sports (Essence of Thought’s “Refuting The Anti-Trans Pseudoscience On Trans Athletes,” 2019), conservative ludic circles treat transgender, enby and intersex people, but also crossdressers as a particular joke: a source of sexual shame that must be hidden or made fun of.

While Fuentes loves his aforementioned catboys, Caleb—a famous Twitch streamer and Mega Man/FF7 speedrunner known for his transphobic behavior and toxic fanbase (Andrea Rovenski’s “Calebhart42 BANNED From Twitch for Racism & EXPOSED As an Anti-Trans Bigot,” 2019) brings his weeaboo-style bigotry into the world of competitive e-sports, albeit with a traditionally masculine physique implying he’s simply “the best,” therefore an agent meant to police and mistreat others in the Cartesian sense: of cataloging and owning everything through male-assigned labels and theatrics. All of these things belong to men, whether they deserve them or not; in turn, they decide what “women” wear in games—i.e., representations of women and their history as designed/written by men for men. As I write in “Borrowed Robes”; re:

When it comes to wearing clothes in videogames, women cannot consent. Consent requires choice, and female depiction in videogames historically demonstrates a lack of choice regarding character clothing. For women, clothing doesn’t represent actual female players and their wants; it represents desires prescribed to them by men. These serve as a form of control—specifically to female players through their characters. […] Traditional female characters have little to do with female desires in this regard. Instead, these characters are “visual treats” for a male player-audience to enjoy. This logic applies to female game events more generally. The more substantial an event or [heroic a female] character is, the more sexualized they tend to be (source).

(artist: Liang Xing)

This selection—for what women should wear and how their bodies should appear—is not only a decision historically-materially made by men; it’s reinforced by sexist straight men in drag (and TERFs). Drag queens are historically cis, though most aren’t bigoted (some, like Ru Paul, are; source: Marleina Robson’s “The Head Drag Queen is Transphobic?” 2019). Instead, their identity is defined through struggle as an outlier group targeted by the status quo. In relation to dimorphic images of the past—one when boys played videogames and girls played with dolls—Caleb is very much not a drag queen in good faith. Instead, he has routinely teased his mostly-male audience with the prospect of “dressing up” as Cloud does, but also as Tifa Lockhart; i.e., prescribing how a woman should dress to other (mostly white) cis-het men and boys.

To it—and pointedly through competition towards videogames—Caleb treats queerness as something to reject, but also colonize in his own dated gender performances: bad play crossdressing as didactic. Like Fuentes, the point isn’t to celebrate femboys at all, but rather venerate his own hypermasculinity in relation to hauntological notions of the future that leave no room to imagine genderqueer attitudes beyond yoking them. Caleb does this by outwardly rejecting femboys while simultaneously fetishizing them through deliberately bad-faith performances—i.e., the Steven Crowder approach, in other words (which emulates institutionally powerful men like Rudy Giuliani, who’s crossdressed in bad faith for decades: “Rudy Giuliani in a Dress: Will Voters Care?” 2007).

The “strongman” approach to crossdress has different flavors. As a weird canonical nerd, Caleb offers bad education to an entire generation of young men who—often from broken homes and surrounded by Gothic dogma—see themselves as gamers, but also people who think that their education and their teachers are superior to the gender-non-conforming persons; i.e., those whose de facto education the Max Box demonizes as “groomers,” to which Ashley Gavin, channeling her inner Pazuzu, apes her mockeries; re:

What’d they think I was gonna do? Right, like how gay do you think I am? That I’m just gonna bust out, on stage, at the PG show? And be like, “Alright, listen up, kids!” [drags on imaginary cigarette] “How old are you guys, eight? Nine? Alright, so some of you little boys, yer gonna wanna ram a cock down yer fockin’ throat! And some of you girls, yer gonna wanna bury yer face in pussayyyyyyyyy!” [does best Gene Simmons impression] “And some of you sick fucks, yer gonna wanna do both! Now you go run and tell Mommy and Daddy that you heard it from the dyke first!” (re: ” Live in Chicago”; timestamp: 12:00).

Despite being a comedian, Gavin’s background is actually in computer science; she wrote “Girls Who Code,” taught at MIT and fought STEM discrimination:

One of the more basic challenges was that people don’t even know what computer science is. It’s hard when a client really has no idea that computer science is a liberal arts field, and that it’s actually taught in the same way you would teach physics or English and that it’s not a technical field. I mean, it’s technical in that you make technology, but the skills you would learn – you could use them forever, and they are transferrable. For example, the things that make someone a really great computer scientist also make them a really great writer (source: Anulekha Venkatram’s ” A Peek Inside Her Agenda: Ashley Gavin,” 2014).

Gavin’s breakout role as a comedian happened in 2023 (similar to Hannah Gadsby, she had been doing comedy for years). And while Caleb has been streaming for a very long time, he’s also been racist, sexist and transphobic for a long time, promoting this concept as a part of his brand’s double standard by welcoming “healthy conversation” about iconoclasts just like Gavin (who, in their eyes are no different than a trans person: a faggot). They cannot self-reflect; they see enemies everywhere; their singular and heteronormative interpretations are always right, everyone else’s are always wrong—with dude bros collectively fearing the dialogic chorus of anyone who takes up the queer mantle in their own pedagogy of oppressed/cryptomimesis.

In other words, Caleb specifically promotes his emphasis on fitness and physical strength as things to perform and present through his profession as a bigoted, entitled gamer with ties to Japanese ludic exports. “Gamer” is an artistic extension of what defines him and what he endorses: his accomplishments, brand, and body as informed by videogame tropes and stigmas, but nevertheless elevated by his appearance as a successful-looking, white, cis-het male who is utterly jacked (and whose purported “domination” of his field extends the bias to his crusader’s pedagogy—to his body image, to his students, back and forth, on and on—as inherited from the shadow of older skeleton kings).

To this, the human body in canonical art more generally personifies gendered ideas of masculine/feminine strength through “appropriate” bodies; heteronormative personalities in mainstream politics, popular thought, and mass entertainment consistently try their best to personify these monomyth ideals through “correct” performances, including Caleb’s, as carceral-hauntological: cis-het “mega” men with strong-looking bodies who continuously overperform in their lines of work, presumably have PIV sex, “dominate” their sexual partners, and definitely don’t thirst for femboys.

(source)

Tokens aside (we’ll get to them), rape culture is classically white and male; Caleb and other top-performers of toxic masculinity defend Capitalism as forever in crisis; there is nothing beyond it for them and they police their vision of the Free World as the only one that is correct. Anything else is a threat, isn’t the best: girls are dumb and suck at videogames (and science, driving and sports, etc); people of color are “accommodated”; trans, intersex and non-binary people either don’t exist or shouldn’t be allowed to compete—i.e., denied from playing games as a teaching device and as a means to have fun. Indeed, the two are not mutually exclusive, save inside the playpen of Caleb and his school of dumb boys. All of them learned this from somewhere; i.e., the echo of Japanese war trauma and subjugation to a Western power that Japan was trying its best to emulate by reviving the Shogunate in a method not unlike Mussolini or Hilter’s “Roman” palingenesis.

(source)

In other words—and returning to the idea of coercive undead educators from Volume Two—Caleb embodies the Frankensteinian “zombie hulk” who vampirically drains the brains and life force of those around him, turning them into complicit vampire-zombie warriors, but also himself as they collectively soldier for Capitalism in a viral sense. He embodies this in e-sports, quite literally wearing the Mega Man franchise on his sleeve and plastering its zombifying paraphernalia all over his stream, an online all-boys club with posters of Tifa on the walls and nary a trans person, person of color or real girl in sight (save those who align with Caleb and his cronies through trauma or bad education). Everything Caleb says or does through his own metanarrative reinforces the homosocial, incel-level sexism and latent homoeroticism of the primary text, generally through reinvented slogans or insignias associated with Caleb’s brand (on par with Key & Peele’s “Put the pussy on the chainwax!” [2020] but far less funny in an ironic way). In ludic terms, though, dominance often occurs in contests of strength—mostly notably sports as a male-dominated sphere, a kind of “homosocial frottage” where sexist dudes literally and figuratively cross swords through contests of strength that push women (and those perceived as monstrous-feminine) away or force them to assimilate. This extends into e-sports, where fans conflate the breaking of personal/community records with cartoonishly swollen displays of manly virtue.

To use an example other than Caleb, the compliments that Weegee receives from fans during his WR Mario 64 run (“Super Mario 64 120 Star WORLD RECORD Speedrun in 1:37:35″) largely concern his masculinity and genitals (timestamp: 1:33:19) conflating virtuous masculine gameplay to laying pipe. However, speedrunner historian (and bigot; “Still Racist (and Fash), in 2025) Karl Jobst also describes Weegee as verging on becoming the greatest runner on the greatest speedgame in speedrunning history (“The Greatest Achievement In Speedrunning History Might Happen Soon,” 2023)—all tied to its scope, scale and lucrative nature in the broader speedrunning world as becoming increasingly sport-like, thus gatekept.

By presenting individuals “doing well” in various fields, e-sports—like sports in general—have expanded neoliberally under Patriarchal Capitalism, selling the profitable (for the elite) idea that traditional sports have for over a century: vicarious excellence, specifically and classically white male greatness as a symbol of upward class mobility for the lucky champ (the king-for-a-day promoted by the Don King kingmakers of Capitalism). This enshrines the toxically undead gendered attitudes of the performance and performer as something to platform by the owner class towards a wider working-class audience. In turn, this audience views performative excellence in videogames as “jacked,” an already-dated post-Renaissance notion that assumes anyone who’s buff must be good at literally everything (whereas women and tokens who are muscular or otherwise “built” are good at pleasing/working for men in ways useful to Capitalism; e.g., the pornstar or the black male slave). More false knowledge piled onto war and rape culture dressed up as “strength.”

Conversely this treats visibly non-buff dudes who perform well at sports as “the Man,” usually manifesting in linguo-material, slang-heavy ways like “‘swole giga-Chads” (or something equally cringe) but also muscular, white-washed statues hauntologically associated with neo-classical views of classical art. Think Zeus pulling Metis from his forehead, the Patriarchal “Seat of Reason” that Renaissance thinkers supposedly channeled when rebirthing Civilization, except that concept doesn’t really spring from nowhere and, in fact, was codified during the Enlightenment: Plato wasn’t just the tutor of Aristotle and “a founding father” of Western philosophy. He was a conspicuously muscular man whose immortal name harkens to his halcyon days as a young, strapping wrestler!

Plato was a fighter. This is not a metaphor. The historian Diogenes Laërtius tells us that Platon, meaning “broad-shouldered,” was the philosopher’s wrestling nickname. As a prominent aristocrat, Plato was known for his pedigree and youthful poetry but also for his physique: the muscles of a gifted grappler, who reportedly competed at the Isthmian Games. And for all his wariness of the body and its wayward desires, Plato also recommended wrestling for the youth. In his dialogue Laws, he celebrated the benefits of stand-up grappling. This had a straightforward military use, developing “strength and health” for the battlefield. But it also cultivated character if “practiced with a gallant spirit” [Bay: “Boys will be boys, so let’s put them to use” as an ancient placation/apologia of men’s spirits as indominable, uncontainable, thus unaccountable]. The overall impression is that physical virtues encourage psychological excellence: perseverance, courage, and perhaps a greater sense of autonomy (source: Damon Young’s “Plato Said Knock You Out,” 2015).

While easily parodied, this kind of male privilege socially-sexually translates to “braindead, pushy” masculine personas in the here-and-now that vampirically demand sex from those they deem inferior to themselves—women; or in the case of femboys, “women” (the top being stronger than the bottom, practitioners of these rapacious deeds lying to themselves in increasingly bizarre ways: “It’s not gay if we close our eyes and pretend”—i.e., a sort of “don’t ask, don’t tell” approach).

Furthermore, the havers-of-the-muscles become false preachers with false bodies and powers—king-like Pygmalions to worship and follow as leaders; i.e., regardless of their authenticity or merit (the tissue is “dead,” slathered on like clay to disguise who they were/are) and entirely because of what they represent: ghoulish patriarchal dominance under Capitalism. When they flex, lightning rains from the heavens! Women around them miraculously turn into Barbie dolls with giant, plastic boobs! And when they don’t get what they want, they break down sobbing before destroying everything in a fit of infantile rage. Like Don Quixote, they tilt at windmills, lost in the monomyth’s endless promise of plentiful reward but also savior status.

(source: Fandom)

Indeed, where are all the real women (cis or trans)? In a strange way, these homoerotic warriors become coercively queer—about as gay as Dahmer was, in practice, or Nick Fuentes. These men’s use of women is binarized through the colonial assignment of power relative to each—the master and the slave, one criminalizing the other, but also alienizing and stigmatizing them. Such an arrangement is literally canonized, enshrined within canonical praxis.

As consumers, creators and patrons, the ability of men like Caleb Hart to love others is tremendously flawed by their Man Box mindset, so much so that they disguise they inability to relate to women (or other people besides white cis-het men) with coercive sublimation: fake war brides. This can be Fuentes’ catboys, but also real-life AFAB persons bullied inside canonical works. Radicalized mentalities towards the Call to Adventure stem from trauma, including TERFs with neoliberal/fascist superiority complexes. They must fit in and compete for the war bride whose appearance is advertised through the Japanese waifu. Like Caleb, female TERFs have their own “canonical beards mindset”: marrying warrior husbands that tradwives “settle” for to fit in; or the canonical, “death by Snu-Snu” depiction of an “alpha” Amazon she-wolf taking her own emasculated, “war bride/bussy” husband/wife inside the Man Box in order to feel in control (which Jadis elected to abuse my bussy with minus my consent); i.e., by force (which she will immediately have to surrender when the state enters decay).

We’ve already explored how beards—to roll with the facial hair theme we’re using—constitute a kind of social “grooming” tied to particular body images; i.e., as conflated with intelligence: monomythic “good looks” that broadcast virility in a heteronormative sense (or its token allies), which Communists like Marx then tried to camp:

Previous to the late 19th century, beards were common among the upper classes, the wealthy and powerful men who ran the country. They were a symbol of strength and individuality – a bold statement of one’s masculinity and prowess. / However, as the Victorian era drew to its ebb, the beard once again – as it was liable to do – went out of fashion, at least among some quarters of society. Inspired by their communist leaders, the so-called “bearded radical” became commonplace, marked by their thick, long beard. / No self-respecting communist or anarchist agitator would be seen without such voluminous facial hair. Throughout the 1830s and 1840s and into later decades, the beard became the icon of labor racialism, socialism, communism – and a dozen other “isms” (source: Beard Sorcery’s “Why Did So Many Famous Communists Have Beards?”).

To build on that relative to moderates, a “good, manly figurative/literal beard” means a man/token person is not only intelligent, but “emotionally intelligent,” which is really just a bad disguise for canonical dominance within the Symbolic Order. Already emasculated by the state, nerdy men police nerdy women (or those they code as women) to sublimate their own trauma as “being not manly enough”; they gatekeep them, becoming some faction of the sex pest-fiend gradient that contributes to the state’s reactive abuse cycle in oft-corporatized forms. Propaganda’s propaganda, the monomyth as the narrative of the crypt, the only thing that survives.

A common defense is, “it’s obviously a joke,” except the sexist abuse, brain death and deceptions are quite real. For example, Caleb coerced a former sex partner—Barbie Edge—into having unprotected sex with him (after saying “I’m not a rapist” to her), vampirically gaslit her, then had his parents coerce her into terminating her pregnancy (source: Barbie Edge’s 2020 tweet sharing the link to her story about Caleb on Google Docs). Afterward, he said his judgement had waned, while also treating her like a sex machine, someone to please him when he whined and didn’t get what he wanted, subsequently crying like a baby about his ex (never a good move, my dudes; no one likes being compared to the abusive ex you’re carrying a torch for). More to the point, he lied back then and now about it to fans who absorb this DARVO bullshit like a sponge—younger fans whose brains are still forming (as evidenced by the truly awful fan art, see: above). Called out, some might repeat the same defense: “It’s just a joke.” He’s just playing around, not to be taken any more seriously than Wooderson from Dazed and Confused (exhibit 63b).

Well, joke or not, it’s still sexist, just drawn badly and shown to children. More to the point, Caleb isn’t a teenager and neither are (some) of his fans. Defending their behavior in any shape or form only excuses it. Meanwhile, their material presence lingers toxically in the larger world, emboldening those they teach with bad “parenting” lessons about “better times”: how to treat women as Mega Man does—badly (which radicalizes to more openly toxic forms, like Eren Yeager). Negotiation-wise, these mini-zombies and -vampires don’t take no for an answer, but they do absorb the ability to disguise themselves as not doing anything wrong—i.e, exactly like Mega Man[1] himself, in that respect: a little neoliberal, vampire-zombie robot “boy” working tirelessly for the state.

On the surface, Mega Man’s not just a cop, but “a good guy.” Beneath the skin, he’s a functional gun-for-hire “throwing lemons” (the inside joke, here: Mega Man is throwing “lemons” at Wily. In truth, he’s shooting bullets at Wily’s robots—Wily’s slaves [the word itself derives from re: the Czech word robota, or forced labor, as done by serfs]. This Commie twist leaves us with two aging grandpas in a centrist narrative that reduces rebellion to “foxy” [wily like a fox] fascism as something to put down by Dr. Light as his good boy robo-cop, Rock).

In this sense, canonical “monster pastiche” isn’t just cosmetic (the “poster pastiche” idea from Volume Two); it’s pastiche that yields sex-coercive, zombie-like and vampire-like effects within content creators and their fans (especially war pastiche, whose “warrior undead” and sublimated trauma we’ll examine more in Chapter Four) crying for “free speech”: a desire not to be canceled in “culture war” as a manufactured conflict the elite condone to protect their own material interests; i.e., “Let them fight.”

These coercively necromantic attitudes rest in the sexist hauntology of professional sports. In the increasingly franchised world of e-sports, performers have begun to be viewed as traditional athletes, assimilating pre-existing notions of masculine strength tied to a glorious past: when women were subservient and didn’t do sports (a recent overcorrection of the 20th century that, in the 21st century can be still seen in transphobic sports gatekeepers). These also project onto body images the audience didactically consume through subscriber/tipping models.

Furthermore, these models often come into conflict with the sexual division of labor—Caleb and those like him bitterly deriding female streamers for “cheating” at the game of capitalizing the streaming of videogames: getting high stream counts/tip amounts by showing as much skin as the status quo allows women versus what it allows men (e.g., Caitlin Wright’s “The Favouritism of Male Streamers: Why Are Women Left in the Dust?” 2021). Meanwhile, parallel mantras like “more plates, more dates” become something to dick-measure amid parasocial exchanges—with sexist gamers using their spot on corporate-owned platforms to teach their business customers to internalize the same undead rituals under Zombie Capitalism (with Vampire Capitalism stressing the draining quality that Capitalism teaches its workers to do).

In the spirit of de facto educators, Caleb embodies the heteronormative persona as a sexist hauntological role model for his community to push to sinister extreme. A currently moderate brand whose toxic fanbase belies a conservative core and past, Caleb Hart the person embodies physical strength; Caleb Hart the brand attaches to artistic extensions of itself that personify the strongman: as a ludic, fatherly portrayal of strength coming from the nostalgic Man Box past. The “barbarian” gym bro embodies false power, false preacher and false father who dominates his enemies (anyone different than, or resistance to, the status quo); i.e., through the “prison sex” mentality as something to pass onto future students: cis-het boys (and token persons) that Caleb instructs like a surrogate parent or big brother. He’s literally their daddy/the man to beat for being bigoted.

True to form, Caleb also has a long history with racism and transphobia, but also domestic abuse. According to Barbie Edge, the events between her and Caleb happened in 2016, and by 2019 during their last encounter Caleb still hadn’t changed. For him and his fans, “correctness” only amounts to however heteronormative power and coercion can be adequately disguised—i.e., to whatever degree he requires to become normalized, thus “harmless” at any given moment. Not only are these “innocent” displays bad-faith attempts to hide privilege and predation (a gym bro will “close ranks,” defending the abuses of a fellow gym bro, much like cops and other fascist/neoliberal soldiers do, but also their fans, friends and families; source: Hasan’s “SHOULD YOU APPROACH GIRLS AT THE GYM?” 2023); signs of their use materialize through the wearing of various famous “masks.” Caleb literally “wears” the reinvented Cloud like a skin (exhibit 93b; eat your heart out, Hannibal Lecter) to conceal his toxic politics and former body image behind a moderate guise. He’s the “good guy” because Cloud is good and “everyone” likes Cloud (correction: I like the delicate twink variant of Cloud; I want to dress him up and have tea and peg his “little boy pussy” with my girl-cock).

(exhibit 93b1a: Source: a 2019 tweet by Caleb Hart. Caleb posing both as “swole” and twink-ish, while actually being incredibly sexist and abusive towards women online and in the flesh. Much of this behavior is instructed to young men who look up to him during his streams; i.e., a male authority “preaching to the choir” of submissive boys raised on the monomyth. He’s not just saying “I’m not a rapist” to Barbie Edge, but also these young boys who will become convinced his behavior isn’t wrong despite how duplicitous it comes across; i.e., absolute chudwads dressing up “as women” to mollify women and other minorities coded as other in a monstrous-feminine sense. During a manufactured “battle of the sexes,” they will emulate his inherently bad-faith tactics anyways because “women, amirite?” For them, “twink” also serves a double function: for bigots to wear incognito while resisting sex-positive versions of twink as a grand conspiracy to defraud “real men” by emasculating them/turning them into silly sex slaves; e.g., catboys. Unlike the queer reclaiming of words like twink and faggot [artist: Maewing], weird canonical nerds’ ideas of such positions are inherently sexual and coercively so, framing such individuals as weaker than them, deserving of scorn and punishment, but also mockery within a punitive “prison sex” hierarchy that frames activists [not white cis-het men] as delusional, degenerate groomers [with black men, even cis ones, being accused by white men of sleeping with white women, infantilized both groups]. They are a legitimate threat, thus to be chased after and killed, but also fetishized by chasers living in the closet [Caleb and company see twinks as degenerate, but also work as open “chasers” themselves].

For example, Sabs’ depiction of scary boy flesh, below, illustrates a friendlier version of feminized male sex work that subverts the classical symbols of exploitation and queer identification historically used by heteronormative forces: the vampire, the witch, and the robot as existing under Capitalism and subjected to the power of men—i.e., the male hunter, Satan-as-male, or aged homosexual gentry perusing the flesh market’s “wares.” Sabs‘ work, while still liminal, nevertheless views the past as imagined in a sex-positive way. It doesn’t try to eliminate sex work; it celebrates the twink-in-peril as resourceful and capable, able to navigate the world using the monstrous-feminine powers of cuteness and raw sexual energy in ways that subjugate their would-be killers’ rape culture: topping from the bottom to teach men that sex doesn’t need a violent top “acting like the man” with a knife dick [or some similar device].)

(artist: Sabs)

For the queer people that Caleb attacks, “correctness” amounts to gauche misrepresentations of what is incorrect—with corporations (and by extension fans and content creators) comparing trans, intersex and non-binary people to demonically violent, criminally insane sex pests/fiends, not Caleb. However, fascist and neoliberal discrimination against queer groups also includes inaccurate representation through “correct” bodies and “incorrect” bodies: Normal people have normal bodies, normal sex, and normal genders; queer people do not, are instead fetishized as sexual deviants, criminals and feminine-yet-manly monsters (Buffalo Bill, Norman Bates, Ray Finkle, etc). Disseminated through mainstream media and enforced on a societal level, this binary is ontologically prescriptive and bears hauntological elements; audiences see what they are meant to be—the self as defined by objects the viewer is meant to identify with through a nostalgic view of the sexist past, while also reacting negatively towards objects they’re meant to abject: anything that challenges these carceral-hauntological views.

Another way to look at weird canonical nerds, then, is how they become class traitors through the wider societal emulation of heroic media, whose tremendous complexities I’d like to examine for a moment more before we press on to part three as a means of addressing them, ourselves.

Canonical heroes are designed on crises that emulate class, thus culture warfare; this means that their internalized bigotry affects weird nerds of all types who see themselves in the heroes vicariously. Whether white, black, male, female, or cis/trans, the accommodated and the assimilated identify with the hero who either visually resembles them or who they want to visually resemble, thus emulating their prescribed behaviors and plights. Harry Potter, for example, is a white savior on the good team, the plain-and-tall, Boy-Who-Lived “chosen one” who becomes a cop because someone older than him recruited him to the cause (often an old sage) inside an essentialist scheme. His and similar Vader-esque temptations to darkness is the monomyth in action, its propaganda playing out inside these characters’ fans, who—internalizing the scheme as a bigoted model—is merely the customer turning heel inside the meta-narrative.

To this, even if Harry never fully becomes the zombie tyrant, or Luke Skywalker never joins the Dark Side, etc, they’re still white knights in a centrist, genocidal scheme that downplays the existence of such a side as fundamental to the monomyth as canonical, thus fearful and dogmatic; it is to be bought and worshipped, not dissected and questioned—especially in relation to its effect on how we think, thus see the world.

In turn, this internalized dogma is predicated on anger towards the self as incorrect or flawed; i.e., not manly enough, not white (knight) enough. They become desperate to prove themselves by being the hero, which for fascists is predicated on scapegoats and blind/petty revenge, the shadow of the tyrant looming overhead and threatening to invade. Contrary to what they think, the invasion is already underway and, at times, further along than many would care to admit: Luke or Superman are just one angry moment and bad choice away from murdering “the enemy” in a fit of rage; the same goes for the conquered and their offspring born under the established, monomythic order of things—e.g., She-Hulk, the Jedi, and similar comic-book-type characters and media the Gothic swims in:

(exhibit 93b1b: Source, top-left: Reddit, 2018; artist, mid-left: Claire Leighton; bottom-left: ; top-middle: Takeshi Miyazawa and Rico Renzi.

Heroic self-deception is anisotropic and multifaceted during intersectional bias, as is the fetishization of outsiders. Whereas white cis-het men think they are more disadvantaged than they really are, tokenized minorities think they are more exceptional; and both are overburdened with tremendous insecurity.

Much has been said about Heathcliff’s toxic relationship to Kathy and the criminal-hauntological perpetuation of “Black Irish stereotypes” that Charlotte Brontë demonized behind her own masculinized pen name, Currer Bell:

Whether it is right or advisable to create beings like Heathcliff, I do not know: I scarcely think it is. But this I know: the writer who possesses the creative gift owns something of which he is not always master — something that, at times, strangely wills and works for itself. If the result be attractive, the World will praise you, who little deserve praise; if it be repulsive, the same World will blame you, who almost as little deserve blame. […]

Wuthering Heights was hewn in a wild workshop, with simple tools, out of homely materials. The statuary found a granite block on a solitary moor; gazing thereon, he saw how from the crag might be elicited a head, savage, swart, sinister; a form moulded with at least one element of grandeur — power. He wrought with a rude chisel, and from no model but the vision of his meditations. With time and labour, the crag took human shape; and there it stands colossal, dark, and frowning, half statue, half rock: in the former sense, terrible and goblin-like; in the latter, almost beautiful, for its colouring is of mellow grey, and moorland moss clothes it; and heath, with its blooming bells and balmy fragrance, grows faithfully close to the giant’s foot [source: Nava Atlas’ “Charlotte Brontë is Preface to Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë,” 2014].

While Charlotte’s compliment is left-handed/racist in an appropriative sense—i.e., “the man who was almost one of us” versus appreciating him unto himself—the reality is that she did not make Heathcliff; Emily did [who Charlotte infantilizes]. The fetishization of the male “other” is, then, a regular tactic of white women and has been for as long as they have held the pen. “I will not allow books to prove anything!” indeed, Anne Elliot.

While anger is vital to revolutionary praxis, it is also a powerful manipulator fascists and centrists exploit to equal measure. Consider how disconcerting it is that Luke is not only pinned between the state and rebellion in black-and-red as utilized by fascists and Communists alike; but also how he and the Jedi—as the good cop power trip being marketed through the white hero’s kayfabe—are stuck within a capitalist ringleader’s game as arbitrarily going either way:

The documentary Empire of Dreams states that George Lucas initially intended to call the film Return of the Jedi, but then changed it to Revenge of the Jedi when he was told by Lawrence Kasdan that “Return” was a weak title. Only a few weeks before the film’s release did Lucas change the title back to Return of the Jedi. In interviews, Lucas said that the reason for the change is that a Jedi wouldn’t seek revenge. There are many though, who speculate that George Lucas had planned to call the film Return of the Jedi all along, and only used “Revenge” as a means to throw off merchandise counterfeiters. It has also been claimed that the reason for the change was because the working title of Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan was The Vengeance of Khan, and that the title was changed because of its similarity to Revenge of the Jedi. In William Shatner’s autobiography Star Trek Movie Memories, director Nicholas Meyer confirmed that he didn’t believe that 20th Century Fox would allow Paramount to change his film’s title from The Undiscovered Country to The Vengeance of Khan because of the making of Revenge of the Jedi. Nevertheless, all of this potential controversy was erased when Star Trek II was retitled The Wrath of Khan and Revenge of the Jedi finally became Return of the Jedi [i.e., return of the noble king versus revenge of the tyrant]. In any event, the working title was partially reused for Episode III: Revenge of the Sith [source: Wookipedia].

In short, the cultural anxieties inherent in and inherited by white cis-het men and those under them within the monomyth have been proliferated by the Billionaire Marxism of men just like Lucas, a moderate Pygmalion similar to James Cameron and other imitators imitating Lucas as imitative of various older role models including Alex Raymond and Akira Kurosawa.

The same goes for Stan Lee. She-Hulk emulates whiteness by appearing small and meek, to which the other lawyers regard her with equal parts fascination, suspicion and anticipation. For insecure, bigoted men, she is a kind of threat that “white women could never be” even before she transforms; for white women, she’s a threat by “being stronger than they are,” more physically imposing and sexually voracious according to the stereotypes. These mechanisms only amplify holistically when She-Hulk transforms, becoming the kind of “real lady” that white-knight fanboys suddenly pay attention to because she’s “like them”: manly and strong thus must like the same things. This is a form of gatekeeping that serves to further distance She-Hulk from them, but also fetishize her in their eyes.

As for She-Hulk herself, she is torn between wanting to fit in and stand out, her true self the reality of not really being one or the other and both being a threat response/survival mechanism versus her acting as she might if no threat were present. She’s forced to transform in a state of crisis, fitting in to avoid punishment then resenting the system for it. While valid, her “acting out” can be weaponized by those seeking to capitalize on it [reactive abuse] and She-Hulk certainly isn’t exempt from the perils of social-climbing becoming its own Vanity-Fair-level ladder of chaos, leaving her heritage and history behind rung after rung [the perils of the diaspora being that black culture is erased, but also associated with crushing poverty, neighborhood crime, drug abuse and domestic horrors. In the face of that abject criminogenesis, not everyone choses to be a class warrior. Some assimilate out of necessity to become class traitors to varying degrees].

[artist, top-left: Kael Ngu; top-right: Reiq; bottom-left: Jeff Easley; bottom-middle: ; bottom-right: ; middle: source]

The fetishizing of She-Hulk is, itself, tied to inner myths and complex double standards. Insecure white men will feel threatened and turned-on by her as “more manly” than them in a dark, savage way. But her power will be checked by “actual” black men in the same racist pecking order as “stronger” than her [to which she is both the dominator of weaker male/female subordinates who are her “war brides,” while being herself promised to, or otherwise under the power of, a stronger male leader or someone owed sex who sees her a sexual tithe. There is always a stronger man that she cannot second guess or resist]. In the interim, she will be quasi-likened to a black man, thus beholden to the same myths that inform the public imagination; e.g., John Henry of American slave folklore as the “exceptional” freedman whose value was tied up in his ability to outwork machines of industry to prove his value in the Jim Crow era. While Josef Bastian writes in “Tall Tales — An American Tradition” [2022]: 

It’s a tall order to establish a folklore and mythology for an entire country, especially when you’re a melting pot of immigrant belief systems, native cultures, and tribal societies who have been brought here against their own will. In this type of environment, the mythological waters can muddy all too quickly. Most folklore stems from ancient, oral traditions, where stories are shared down from generation to generation. The mediocre ones fade over time, but the better ones get carried forward, morphing and modifying themselves along the way at the discretion of the storyteller.

The American Folklore Society points out that:

“Folklore is our cultural DNA. It includes the art, stories, knowledge, and practices of a people. While folklore can be bound up in memory and histories, folklore is also tied to vibrant living traditions and creative expression today… It is one of the many ways we communicate who we are. Often–but certainly not always–rooted in the past, folklore is one of the ways we share with each other the things we see as vital and important. It is a central, every-day part of life and how we make sense of the world today, and it is at the heart of all cultures–including whatever culture we call our own–throughout the world. Folklore is a fundamental part of what it means to be human.” 

The idea of “better” is subjective relative to settler-colonial bias that effects different bodies in different ways; i.e., the struggle of rememory—to be seen as human amid discrimination—is partly dehumanizing through the hauntology of the superhero as a throwback that arguably simplifies the struggle as a desire to be strong in zombifying ways. It may very well reflect the sentiments of the time, but these need to be recognized as boxed within a colonial model that forces the now-larger-than-life memory of the former slave into a kind of mighty shadow they can never step out of: a big zombie to their little zombie.

[artist, top-and-bottom-left: MARCIOABREU7; top-middle: Giuliana Cabrazia; bottom-middle and top-and-bottom-right: July Bubbles] 

In that shadow herself, She-Hulk is equal parts sexualized as a monstrous-feminine “black man” who tries to assimilate as meek, but the differences between her and Clark Kent or Peter Parker are complicated by a variety of factors. One, her strength is sexualized [the waifu as curvy and soft] or like a man’s [the wheyfu’s brawn]. Two, racial intersection of a slave woman’s physique eliding with slave men and slave food and the white bodies she seeks to emulate. Three, green being the color of stigma [exhibit 94a3] that effects people called “goblins” other than just black people.

All three intersections converge on the same surface image: her large, watermelon-like breasts and buttocks, her chicken-like thighs; or a more muscled or pin-up-style, white-coded Amazon lacking these “non-white,” thicc-bodied traits [excluding the PAWG marketing device in sex work [re: exhibit 32b, “Knife Dicks“]; or videogames like Overwatch that market sex work in ludic narratives, exhibit 73b] while sporting trademark green skin having a kind of fantastical blackface-meets-assimilation fantasy/scapegoat vibe common in centrist narratives [e.g., the Drow and their own complex body politics; re: exhibit 41b, “A Lesson in Humility“]. Yet, more than just skin color, body type, sexuality and gender, She-Hulk and characters like her are also commodified in ways that become simply standard; i.e., the class struggle becomes perennial, thus stuck in a feedback loop that values She-Hulk for the exact reasons that alienate her. Any attempt to liberate her is a liminal struggle, then, one that must reclaim these symbols in ways that don’t feed into the same ever-expanding scheme. It becomes a disguise within a disguise where the surface-level language—like a Gothic novel, metal anthem or comic book— remains largely unchanged and sexual.)

Star Wars is practically synonymous with the monomyth, hence why I dub it “the Star Wars problem.” It’s not the only one to franchise (and pimp) such things; e.g., Harry Potter was poor and made into a prince, but otherwise fits into relative privilege pursuant to monomyth models. The same internalization of white heroism is emulated by token outliers, who become “white” saviors on the inside to try and fit in while lacking said privilege and over-relying on what they do have. All the while, they privately hate themselves even more than those with more privilege do on account of their incongruous, thus monstrous skin color, genitals, religion, ethnicity, and/or perceived femininity not being the white, cis-het Christian male standard—with fascist bigotry generally reducing these margin recruits to black, non-Christian and female/weak or monstrous-feminine/strong.

In other words, the enemy is always both weak and strong and token weird canonical nerds are always of the enemy on account of what the status quo will never let them forget (the classic method being according to what they cannot take off: Even if She-Hulk bleached her skin like Michael Jackson, she would always be black in the eyes of her assumed conquerors). Persons like this don’t fit in by capitalist design and try harder than everyone else to appease their own internalized impostor/conqueror, but in the end will be replaced first the moment they “fuck up.” It’s what happens to white women like Kim Wexler working under white men like Howard Hamlin in Better Saul (2015) or intersectionally She-Hulk as a black version of the same scheme as even more outside than Kim is; the struggles of both are important and valid, but despite their degree and flavor of segregation and abuse are used by the status quo to turn workers against each other—i.e., divide and conquer.

Whoever the mark, it isn’t a chosen failure on their part. Through no fault of their own, they are borne into material conditions that not only assign their physical qualities differently from the colonial standard; it proffers a kind of Heathcliff/Black Knight syndrome, one encouraged by these person’s in-group “peers.” It’s schoolyard-bully tactics, wherein the oppressed are the expendable exceptions that prove the rule; i.e., the first to be affected by blood libel/quantum, rapid onset gender dysphoria, global Jewish conspiracy, and similar fascist conspiracy theories. They will internalize those, too, and use them to abject their fellow oppressed by acting the minority-cop class traitor amid this network of confirmation bias: “See! They’re acting like the poor degenerate [slur]! But I’m not like that!” They become blind to the class, race or gendered character by thinking themselves not just the exception, but exempt. In turn, those with more privilege (which is modular in nature; e.g., white cis-het women versus black queer trans men) do not see the world through these inherited insecurities. They simply have less of them, thus greater blind spots (to which Harry needs and upgrade to his prescription).

We obviously won’t have time to delve into all of these different modularities. We’ll be focusing on reactionary white nerds for the rest of this chapter and regressive Amazonomachia in Chapter Four. But the base mechanisms of assimilation inform genocide as a group effort perpetrated as much by the many kinds of suffering conquered themselves as bought-and-paid for. “Vae victus!” (meaning “suffering to the conquered”) is their Judas refrain (whose context is different than when Legacy-of-Kain-type white boys say it), selling out their fellow comrades for a cheap comic book, monomyth persona; i.e., not something they made themselves, but an extension of the socio-material arrangement of settler-colonialism sold back to them, over and over again. While this assimilation gamut does yield material benefits for some under capital, for the vast majority the concept is simply an illusory consolation prize to retreat into: something to buy. —Perse, back in 2023

Men like Caleb Hart are the blindest of all. Even without tokenized elements, hate groups and corporations encourage heteronormativity by abjecting queer people in front of their target audiences. The resultant biases are lucrative—meaning they’re easy for the elite to produce and for workers to enact, maintaining the status quo for as long as possible through people like Caleb, but also Caleb’s fans/collaborators, including tokens. Capitalism is patriarchal, therefore hierarchical, incumbent on a bigoted language system. While neoliberals deliberately use this system to turn a profit (whether through colonies, corporations, or slave labor) anywhere and everywhere, fascists use the system to colonize itself, inadvertently entering a state of decay (or rather, decaying under crisis). Like a vat of toxic waste, this condition can last for years (the Third Reich lasted for twelve), but remains highly charged and dangerous throughout; centrism is merely the burying of this radiation behind an American flag (to which Lloyd Kaufman gloriously and grossly lampooned).

We’ll examine fascism and nerd culture even more in Chapter Four. For now, remember that audiences who look at bad de facto educators like Caleb Hart will see what Caleb shows them: a fixed, myopic gender binary that rejects alternatives of the already-great past by framing them as less-profitable than what is “superior.” Man Box not only becomes the meta, but looks the meta because it is hypermasculine/white (or otherwise supports the status quo in similar ways; e.g., Marisa or Zarya in their centrist forms).

Furthermore, doing so leads to increased radical bigotry as Capitalism decays and people’s limited imaginations become threatened by a proposed lack: of the very system they hopelessly depend on to give them dated images of dominance that make up who they are; i.e., the naturalization of heteronormativity as virtuous through market-induced profitability (thus naturalizing neoliberalism as the straight state of affairs). Already inflexible, there’s simply nothing for them to fill the void with. The same myopic fragility goes for Caleb’s fans. Though many are young, they grow up to be weird canonical nerds with playful imaginations stunted by their carceral surroundings. They police the wasteland with fear and dogma as canonized, decreasing their own odds at happiness through the empty “success” that comes from exploiting others like chattel.

Before we move onto Chapter Four and the plethora of weird canonical female/feminist nerds that Capitalism engenders beyond just Caleb Hart and his own Man Box behaviors in other men, we have two more subchapter parts to go. I want to propose a jailbreak—i.e., queer people “breaking the spell” by reclaiming the linguo-materialistic components of the prison itself, thus fabricate new “archaeologies” that slowly liberate the mind and end the curse. While this can happen playing with many different monster types within Gothic poetics, the goblin will be our focus in part three of this subchapter.

Note: For even more research specifically on goblins, refer to “Goblins, Anti-Semitism and Monster-Fucking” from the Demon Module. —Perse, 4/21/2025

(exhibit 94a1a: Model and artist, top middle: Lil Miss Puff and Persephone van der Waard. The reference material was taken in three parts: a collab ref shoot, a sexting session between Puff and I where they played the mommy dom, and sex between Puff and their partner—all part of an agreement reached between the three of us before starting.

As for the monster I used in this example, I went with the goblin, as Puff and I are both LotR fans and—reading about Tolkien and goblins—I wanted to subvert the goblin with Puff’s help. The goblin, then, isn’t merely an anti-Semitic symbol, but more a source of romantic/erotic pursuit precisely because it is morphologically different from the Vitruvian, European standard. Those who cherish the goblin in a sex-positive sense do so for the goblin’s trademark plump, diminutive figure that nevertheless can deliver “big mommy energy” in the bedroom; i.e., built for giving [and receiving] enormous pleasure in the same adorable form, using it to nurture their partner/client, while simultaneously giving off quirky ’90s-Goth vibes [or some other monstrous aesthetic/color scheme]. In my case, I decided to place Puff inside an attic, in front of a witch’s window. There, they lay as a kind of discarded toy that evokes a sense of lost childhood, but also dark secrets and forbidden fun.

The location of the attic is deliberate. Lil Miss Puff waits inside a private, secluded space, one classically reserved for hiding or storing things tied to the “memories” of a home: the toy box as a Neo-Gothic metaphor for the brain, revived in hauntological forms—i.e., for the “toy” wanting to escape, but also to play inside by confronting trauma as nostalgic in cathartic ways. The goblin as toy-like can invite people inside to partake, basking in special, hidden delights; e.g., the madwoman in the attic as historically “kept” but also someone to reacquire her agency through Gothic poetics. I specifically use these terms and their queer context when drawing Puff to subvert Charlotte Brontë’s sexist/xenophobic usage of what a goblin in the attic would signify to heteronormative viewers like Jane Eyre: something to fear and want dead.

In doing so, I recognize classical abuses [and their trappings] as things to escape through the same Gothic language during oppositional praxis. The goblin, then, is a liminal expression of trauma by which power and material goods are reclaimed by workers resisting state hegemony during sex-positive BDSM. Sometimes this requires playing into queer stereotypes in magical, cutesy ways that ultimately hoodwink our usual exploiters in dialogs where resistance and power are not simply in the same place, but use the same language [and carnal expression] operating at cross purposes:

Huffslove‘s “goblin” is actually an elf playing into goblin [anti-Semitic and rapacious, below] stereotypes to steal from the rich through the fantasy mode of high adventure. She’s not entirely divorced from the idea that goblins love money [much how Jews were forced into positions of usury in medieval stories] but uses this idea to benefit someone other than the elite. Similar to Deep Space Nine‘s [1993] updated, progressive take on Roddenberry’s Ferengi, there’s room to appreciate and critique what is ultimately an imperfect-but-vital step towards developing society away from Capitalism and its abuses.)

(exhibit 94a1b: Artist: The Sabu. Goblins are commonly seen as tricksy and cruel—dark little monsters that “break and steal,” famously kidnapping[2] elves, humans and other races before taking them underground, where they torture, rape and eat them; i.e., cannibals [which elides the Jew with the person of color and the Irish]. A primary function of their classic depiction is captivity and rape fantasies for white women, a racist “pigmy” slant to the oft-undead/demonic bigotry that incorporates goblin thievery into the “demon lover” archetype of the black male rapist [and the Medusa as “undead” for female goblins] and pirating of the victim’s physical “goods” after taking everything else from them; re: “You have heart; I’ll take that, too.” Subverting this xenophobic composite of the goblin—i.e., as a guilty pleasure of canonical wish fulfillment, rape fantasy and appropriative peril—is important, both for the people associated with them, but also to help the women xenophobically fetishizing them to become more emotionally/Gothically intelligent and have societally healthy rape fantasies that subvert the mechanisms of torture at a monomythically copagandistic level.)

Onto “Poison was the Cure: On Goblins, Being a Weird Nerd and Trans Cryptonymy“!


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Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] Mega Man is very much the antithesis of Astro Boy (1952)—i.e., a boy, not a man, who is made by a scientist whose government bosses want to use him as a weapon (the show is actively concerned with injustice and antiwar/-American sentiment). Creating Astro involved giving him a sense of self. This selfhood conflicts with his position as a manmade weapon. Conversely, Mega Man is taught by Doctor Light to have no self by serving the state; i.e., by fighting “evil” as color coded purple and decked in skulls. That series emerged in 1987, thirty-five years after Astro Boy and eight years into neoliberalism’s expansion on the world stage (videogames, as we know them, have almost always—apart from Atari in the mid-1970s—existed commercially under neoliberalism).

[2] This capture vaudeville is often set to music meant to terrify/entertain children [or infantilized women], starting [for our purposes] with Tolkien, a white British man writing The Hobbit for his white British son (re: “Goblins, Anti-Semitism and Monster-Fucking“). Refer to my page on Tolkien research to see more on Tolkien; i.e., than I can realistically cover here.

Book Sample: “Inside the Man Box; or, Patriarchal, Nerdy Hatred” (opening and part one, “Ontological Ambiguities”)

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

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Inside the Man Box; or, Patriarchal, Nerdy Hatred Against Transgender/Non-binary People, Intersexuality and Drag (feat. Caleb Hart, She-Hulk, twinks/femboys, goblins, and more)

Caleb coerced a former sex partner—Barbie Edge—into having unprotected sex with him (after saying “I’m not a rapist” to her), vampirically gaslit her, then had his parents coerce her into terminating her pregnancy (source: Barbie Edge’s 2020 tweet sharing the link to her story about Caleb on Google Docs). This behavior is public record and Caleb has never addressed it at all, let alone in any meaningful sense (source).

—Persephone van der Waard, “Those Who Walk Away from Speedrunning” (2025).

Picking up where “Artistic Nudity and Asexual Bodies/Relationships in Art; Gay Artists” left off…

From rape to grievous bodily harm, the Gothic “slums Nadir” as a means of canon or critique, vis-à-vis the troubled Western estate plunged into civil strife, constant shadowy surveillance/paranoia/suspicion/moral panic, wounded trust, and ambiguous unrest; i.e., nadir and revolution as not black and white, but again, “grey” per the cryptonymy process exploring various taboos in praxial opposition; e.g., rape, serial murder and demonized mental illness, etc, in neo-medieval forms that fascism enjoys (through state protection) and which Communism rebels against.

(artist, left: Barbie Edge; right: Caleb Hart)

Here, our continual of this iconoclast trend extends to Greene’s Man Box; i.e.,  Patriarchal Capitalism and its broad coalition of unholy defenders funnel humans into rigidly prescriptive gender roles—roles that fascists will increasingly police through hate, emboldened by opportunistic billionaires making online spaces less safe for queer people (Little Hoots’ “Elon Musk Personally Banned Me from Twitter!” 2023). We’ll explore the symptoms of trans genocide in Chapter Four. For now, we’ll examine some of the causes in four parts, per popular media and, in particular streamer culture vis-à-vis Caleb Hart, goblins, and more:

  • “Ontological Ambiguities” (included in this post): Examines some of the ontological, monstrous-feminine ambiguities that prompt stochastic terrorists to attack the queer community and their representations in popular media (commenting on hauntological, Gothic variants wherever applicable).
  • Canonical Discrimination in Videogames“: Considers the attackers’ problematic, Faustian education that leads to an attacker’s mindset: through traditional modes of male education learned by weird canonical nerds like Caleb Hart through sexist (monomythic) videogames and gamer “Man Box” culture, which didactically appropriates twinks, catboys/femboys, etc.
  • Poison was the Cure“: Takes a breather from canonical praxis and consider a defense that weird queer nerds can adopt when challenging the status quo, specifically my approach to goblins (and videogames) within iconoclastic media as something to synthesize ourselves.
  • Obliterating Phoebe: In the Shadow of Pygmalion“: Explores how the world of canonical media—but especially e-sports—has informed bigoted attitudes in videogame culture, including how the elite are currently enabling these attacks in the predominantly male world of competitive e-sports; i.e., as “dominated” by sexist men similar to Caleb Hart obsessed with making their mark as he has: being “the best” in ways that overwrite the history of everyone else (we’ll focus on feminist moderacy and female/queer bigotries in Chapter Four).

There’s a lot to cover. I’ll try and sign-post as we proceed, if only because we’ll jump back and forth between topics (owing to their intersectional nature).

Keeping that in mind onto part one: some of the ambiguities of queer existence that bigots attack (we’ll bring up some other factors in parts two through four)!

Note: Similar to William Goldings’ Lord of the Flies (1954[1]), Omelas is policed by children, We’ll talk about videogames as the neoliberal medium for fascist argumentation; i.e., as the vector for state dogma, under the Shadow of Pygmalion (an idea I coined for this series). Refer to “Those Who Walk Away from Speedrunning” for a comprehensive look at such dogma; i.e., per my research on it (and which features Caleb Hart—the dubious “star” of this subchapter—in its own pages).

(artist: palson)

Inside the Man Box, part one: Ontological Ambiguities (feat. twinks, femboys and shunga)

“Nobody owns a world record […] Be proud to be a part of your game’s history even after your times have been beaten. Because unlike a world record, your legacy could last forever” (source).

—Summoning Salt, “The Quest to Beat abney317” (2023)

Note: While I openly identify as trans, now (re: “Coming Out as Trans“), I used to identify as a femboy—meaning for my partner-at-the-time, Jadis (re: exhibit 43d, “Seeing Dead People“). Furthermore, my art website originally was dedicated to femboys and tomboys, originally reading “he enjoys depicting strong women and androgynous men” (source: “My Art Website Is Live!” 2020); i.e., before I changed the website title, thus brand, to vanderWaardart, in 2021. —Perse, 5/5/2025

When the state and its nerd cop pushes against us, we also must push back as nerds; re: weird canonical nerds vs weird canonical nerds, per state vs worker rights; e.g., Caleb Hart (and similar Pygmalions) pimping trans people like myself, which we’ll get to.

Seeing as Gothic Communism explores discrimination in the Internet Age, I want to focus on transgender/non-binary people in videogames—with additional emphasis placed on intersex people and several drag queen sub-classes: femboys and catboys (formerly endangered in Gregg Araki and Dennis Cooper’s queer exploitation work)—glancing at the catgirl drag king subclass (exhibit 91a1) and shunga (exhibit 92a) as well, to be holistic.

Please note: Terms like “femboy” exist organically in marginalized spheres, which host a plethora of specific and generalized definitions. Unlike reactionaries and moderates, gender-non-conforming individuals generally allow for a gradient of different usages to co-exist (satenmadpun’s “The Philosophy of Femboys,” 2022): binary trans, intersex and non-binary femboys, for example (exhibit 91c). This includes paratextual media like videogame fan art, whose own fans go so far as to encourage “femboy” as a unique gender identity while simultaneously discouraging “trap” and various other catch-all slurs that bigots use to exploit femboys (Professor Lando’s “Femboys Explained,” 2022; timestamp: 10:14), often condemning them openly and “chasing” them privately as monstrous-feminine sin to indulge in, mid-gay-panic.

However, this can be dramatized in reality TV shows that explore the open chasing of femboys, such as Ladyboys: Inside Thailand’s Third Gender (2014). The show presents the smiling montage of white, cis-het expat men chasing AMAB femboys and bringing them up out of poverty. It seems negotiated equally and fairly but the reality is, the chasers have a material advantage whose unequal material conditions tip the scales in their favor. They are the prince and the ladyboy is the pauper. Under these “sex tourist” conditions, they are pursuing something akin to sodomy through prostitution of AMAB sex workers.

To that, while sodomy with all sex workers functions through the monstrous-feminine desire not to have children (and to delegitimize accidental children as bastards), the so-called “trap” is historically an AMAB sex worker who “baits” cis-het men into having sex with an outwardly female/femme appearance but doesn’t have any reproductive sex organs. Unlike AFAB laborers, who traditionally are forced to bargain with their ability to have PIV sex and bear children, AMAB sex workers who present as women can make no such offer. So while neither AFAB nor AMAB sex workers actually want children, AMAB examples are often discriminated against by AFAB workers for not having to bear the “same” risks (which ignores the fact that both are doing sex work—a cruel and dangerous profession under Capitalism—just to try and survive). In short, the male faggot is incorrect within a larger punitive hierarchy.

(exhibit 91a1: Model and artist: Bubi and Persephone van der Waard. Catgirls are an identity unto themselves, but one that is canonically supplied to cis women in online streaming circles not so much as drag at all [as the outfit/descriptor “cat” is still quite femme from a hetero standpoint] but meant to cater to heteronormative men in fairly standardized ways; e.g., gamer/e-girls, which come with their own pejorative labels, like e-thots. Catboys, on the other hand, are visibly queer relative to an open sense of non-gender-conformity tied to the coercive emasculation of certain AMAB persons by chaser reactionaries who see “cat” as femme, thus weak [neko/twink being a Japanese word for a gay male bottom—generally someone femme to be dominated by sexist parties, which extends to catboys as neko and cis catgirls across the board; and similar “pet” treatments of fertility animals or servile creatures: bunnies and dogs, too]. In trans, intersex, and non-binary circles, the terms catboy/girl and drag queen/king are obviously fluid depending on how one identifies/performs.)

All sex workers face risk, but these risks vary on traditional notions of sex and gender. AMAB sex workers who present as femme or identity as women face tremendous risks by their customers. If a reactionary cis-het man is expecting a pussy but finds a penis when he and the sex worker go back to the hotel room, he may simply kill the sex worker for having ironic/”incorrect” genitals and invoke the gay panic defense afterward; i.e., he felt “threatened” by the other person’s penis, and “coerced” by an outwardly femme appearance having “baited” the customer into a “dangerous” position: a DARVO grooming accusation that aligns with other recuperated terms like “woke” as a kind of oft-“Satanic” degeneracy or corruption that must be cleansed from society to restore balance (while paradoxically praying on the scapegoat as a compelled fetish, of course; “boundaries for me, not for thee”).

Furthermore, sex with prostitutes is not safe for any worker regardless of sex or gender for several reasons. One, it’s historically criminalized and the victim has no rights (cops will blame them for doing sex work to try and survive despite their material conditions giving them no choice). Two, sexist/transphobic men aren’t interested in a fair exchange; they want to dominate a femme-appearing submissive through violence. PIV sex isn’t even the point; performing toxic masculinity is. To that, look no further than Andrew Tate, a known transphobe who makes a common chaser argument; i.e., that it’s preferable to bang Megan Fox with a dick instead of Hulk Hogan with a pussy because the latter will physically fuck you up if you try to get violent with them (in sex-positive circles, the theatrical “violence” isn’t harmful, displaying power exchange as a mutually consensual and subversive concept that allows anyone to perform whatever role they want; i.e., what they identify as/with, exhibit 91b/91c).

There’s also the stereotype of the affluent homosexual man engaging in pedophilia domestically by “dating from the slums” as the actual, unironic groomers of the cute boys they were predatorily chasing: Brian Singer, Kevin Spacey, Foucault, etc (most predominantly those marginalized with relative privilege: cis-queer white men). Their uneven material conditions parallel men who practice sex tourism to take advantage of an immiserated local population, or slaves who slept with their slaves, etc. It’s precisely this material imbalance of conditions and the uneasy negotiations that occur under duress that we have to be mindful of when considering the iconoclastic depictions of ourselves that are chased after or framed as bait—often by cis-het men, but other transphobic groups comprised of TERFs, cis female sex workers or even trans men/women pitted against one another (myself having been the victim of trans-on-trans violence committed by trans men against me; re: “Setting the Record Straight, Transmisia Experience: 5/26/2023“).

Femboys, ladyboys, catboys, twinks, etc, aren’t “false women” nor groomers. Nor are they automatically AMAB, as proven by binary trans men and trans masc enbys or genderfluid persons subverting roles normally assigned to cis-het men, homosexuals and trans women (exhibit 91c). Regardless of the sex or gender of someone who identifies or performs as a femboy or twink, not everyone approaches these roles sex-positively and their usage remains immediately ambiguous in a visual sense. Iconoclastic depictions of femboys (and the trans, intersex or non-binary people using these labels; exhibit 91b/c) amount to appreciative representation during the context of liminal expression—i.e., a right for these groups to call themselves “traps” as an oppressed class in a systemic sense should they choose to (similar to identifying as a witch in relation to an ongoing struggle against heteronormative oppression and persecution).

Under canonical praxis, artists—or those who distribute or consume their work—will project onto femboys as disposable, presumed-male commodities that “bait” cis-het men with the temptation of a “forbidden fruit”: the “trap” of entirely unreproductive (or gender-confused sex, regarding trans men) as a slur assigned by the oppressor towards the oppressed. This is a kind of desperate or coercive queerness whose internalized homophobia bears reactive, heteronormative roots, and its “chasers” should not use the word “trap” to “joke” about femboys, any more than white metal musicians should “joke” about racism by

  • putting the Confederate flag on their guitars (with Dimebag Darrell being a privileged, middle-class white boy whose band swapped images over and over until their found their biggest fans: middle-class white boys):

One of the acts most prominently connected to the Confederate flag is Lynyrd Skynyrd, who were known for using the flag as a stage backdrop, on their merchandise and even featured it on the cover of their 1988 live album Southern by the Grace of God. It was legitimately a huge part of the band’s image.

In 2012, Skynryd decided to stop using the Confederate flag. The last surviving original member, guitarist Gary Rossington, explained why during a CNN appearance.

“Through the years, people like the KKK and skinheads kinda kidnapped the Dixie or Southern flag from its tradition and the heritage of the soldiers, that’s what it was about,” Rossington said at the time. “We didn’t want that to go to our fans or show the image like we agreed with any of the race stuff or any of the bad things.”

Essentially, they acknowledged what the flag represented and they didn’t want to be associated with those things. Though I would argue it was never hijacked in the name of white supremacy — it has always been about white supremacy — it’s commendable that Skynyrd took a stand even though it meant they’d lose some supporters.

Plenty of other artists have used the imagery including Tom Petty, Ted Nugent and Kid Rock. Pantera’s late Dimebag Darrell, Ozzy Osbourne’s Zakk Wylde and Poison’s Bret Michaels all had Confederate flag guitars. If you’re interested in reading more about these artists’ use of the flag (most of which have abandoned the use of it) you can check out this piece diving into the genre’s history with the flag by our sister site Ultimate Classic Rock (source: Rabab Al Sharif’s “The Confederate Flag Isn’t a Symbol of Rebellion — It’s a Symbol of Racism,” 2020).

  • using the Nazi salute (Metal Sludge’s “Rock Stars who saluted Nazi Sieg Heil; Sixx, Hetfield, Ulrich & Bowie,” 2016).

And even musicians of color should be careful using oppressor dogwhistles to code-switch with, lest they become colonizer token puppets/useful fools, canonizing racism on par with Candice Owens, Kayne West or Blair White as “minority police” class traitors; e.g., Kayne’s praising of Adolf Hitler—but also encouraging white people to say the n-word; Donald Glover’s 2012 recollection of it in “Donald Glover Reveals The One Thing Charlie Sheen Did Right” (2021, timestamp: 3:33).

With all of these, nature is—as always—as monstrous-feminine thing to pimp, including male examples like femboys; i.e., in games like Zelda‘s famous Amazon fantasies putting Link on the disempowered end of these exchanges, which we can camp in our own media, on and offstage, as much as people like Caleb Hart colonize. In either case, exploitation and liberation exist in duality inside the same contested half-real sphere:

(exhibit 91b1: Source, left; artist, right: Belka-dog. Some people identify with their birth sex, but play with gender. For example, some femboys relate to Link from The Legend of Zelda series as AMABs [for proof, consider this Twitter clip of Link having jiggly balls in Tears of the Kingdom, 2023] who feel femme but still have “boy” in their gender label. But they subvert gender expectations by having Link play with the role of the damsel-in-distress in an ironic way: the twink-in-peril rescued and defended by Amazon women “enslaving” him [war brides/collaborators]. This example isn’t of cis men playing “dress up” in order to be humiliated by virtue of temporarily surrendering power to female “waifus”; it’s an AMAB femboy being shared between female warriors or otherwise those who identify women with power as something to cherish and enjoy—i.e., a unique form of power exchange and non-binary gender expression between non-heteronormative roles and identities. Non-binarized, AFAB persons could also play the role of the femboy and AMABs could play the role of the drag king in trans/enby circles.)

(exhibit 91b2: Femboys demonstrate androdiversity with tremendous irony. For example, although undoubtedly there are plenty of femboys with smaller schlongs, plenty on the market advertise the slenderest of elfin bodies and the girthiest of members [contrary to heteronormative belief, big bodies—especially ones on inordinate amounts of synthetic testosterone—have shrinking genitals]; e.g., the vacillating throbbers of cuties like Catboi Aoi, Rayray Sugarbutt, Olivia the Robin, Zay Zay, illiteracy4me, Hanyuu, Jaybaesun, etc.

The giant cock, then, becomes something to subvert as a “universal” symbol of rape, becoming a highly colorful exhibit, instead; e.g., Paladin Pleasure Sculptors. Similarly JadeNeedsHugs subverts the fucking Predator as cutesy but also physically imposing. This intersection of the hunter fantasy with cuteness represents the role of the submissive often surrendering different forms/amounts of power relative to their actual bodies and genitals, but also their imagined bodies and performances in fantasy realms.)

(exhibit 91b3: Artist: Two drawings by Persephone van der Waard, touched up for the book: a demon femboy [2021, originally from the ASMR channel, Dark and Twisted Whisperand a snow elf prince [2021]. The drawings were originally created for Jadis, who was encouraging me to delve into niche categories [that they just so happened to like; i.e., a TERF genderfluid person abusing me, a femboy at the time, to take them femboy porn; re: “Escaping Jadis“]. I also wanted to be morphologically flexible, allowing for different sexualities/intersex and non-binary modes of experience regularly associated with demonic poetics. Also, I wanted to—with these particular demons—illustrate the idea of a “grower-type” penis: one that looks small, but grows considerably between total flaccidity and tumescence.)

(exhibit 91c: Model and artist: Cedar and Persephone van der Waard; artist, far-top-right and far-bottom-left: Sabs. As introduced by exhibit 91a1, the idea of the gender swap isn’t just crossdress from cis men dressing as cis woman or vice versa; it involves gender trouble, parody and play as divorced from the colonial binary altogether. Under these non-binary conditions, then, the word “boy” doesn’t imply a set gender at all, but merely operates inside a flexible performance whose labeled gender roles announce/identify the power exchange on display however people want to present it: a smaller “(fem)boy” protected by a stronger “manly” master. While Batman and Robin are a classic cis-gendered example, the basic operation and its visual markers can utterly thrive in gender-non-confirming circles; e.g., Sabs’ take on Robin the boy wonder as thoroughly androgynous. In non-binary terms, “boymoding” and “girlmoding” refer to dressing like a boy/girl relative to one’s chosen gender—e.g., a trans femme person boymoding when they dress “like a boy” in public. However, this can be as much dressing the way you want to present versus conforming in self-defense to a given idea of gender performance; i.e., within a mode of unequal power exchange whose set role types yield flexible gender components, such as “topping from the bottom” while still doing conventionally girly activities framed as “boyish.”

For example, a trans man can—as a pet-like catboy or servile femboy—be protected by a formidable, armored protector of any sex/gender yet still present an ancient, medieval flavor that feels subversive of the usual depictions within crossdress. By toying with the gender roles in a genderqueer, xenophilic fashion, iconoclasts can subvert the historical-material flavor of fixed gender roles, allowing any gender to enjoy the titles and roles of power exchange dressed up in sex-positive nostalgia as pointedly hauntological, thus intentionally different/at odds with the standards that bigots enforce. In other words, the reinvention is not of the language itself or chronotope, but how it’s used: who can do what within hauntological BDSM regardless of gender. Under these conditions, words like “cave,” “stable,” and “lance” take on very different, playfully sexual meanings that aren’t entirely divorced from their medieval history. Undoubtedly there would have been some form of love between people forced to identify as male in the historical past: knights and their squires as more genderfluid than would have been recorded in official histories.)

As a larger social-sexual system, heteronormativity is multi-registered, favoring a superior group over an inferior group on various levels. For example, while cis women are coded as inferior to men (and have been for centuries), trans people are coded as inferior to cis-people, which intersects with white women’s liminal status as “privileged, valuable” sex objects compared to people of color (F.D. Signifier’s “Conservatives Are Bad at S*x,” 2022). This compound bias (and its subsequent discrimination) is cumulative, compounding if the trans person also happens to be non-Christian and non-white; but also intersex or non-gender-conforming in terms of their identity or dress code. These groups fall into the xenophobic category of fear-fascination through monstrous-feminine xenophobia as a pursuit of coercive sex by the status quo towards scapegoated, objectified parties. “Woman is other” becomes something practiced by cis-conforming groups against trans, intersex, and non-binary persons who refuse to gender conform.

Neoliberals and fascists handle this xenophobic treatment differently. Fascists reject trans person legitimacy outright by aggressively denying them their chosen gender identities. To the fascist, a trans person is “false,” a woman or man pretending to be something they are not, which sadly doesn’t automatically preclude coercive fetishization/”xenophilia” from fascists—again, chasers as a kind of vigilante fascist class. The same goes for intersex and non-binary peoples or drag queens, with known fascist Nick Fuentes chasing catboys in particular (Mo Black’s “The Cat Boy Harem of Nicholas J. Fuentes,” 2020) and femboys being targeted by equally dubious groups (Turkey Tom’s “4chan’s Femboy Blackmail Cult,” 2023).

Meanwhile, neoliberals have historically profited off transphobia (Lindsay Ellis’ “Tracing the Roots of Pop Culture Transphobia,” 2021) by using the “free” market to decide “correct” ideas through “neutral” consumption (“free” meaning privately owned by the elite, whose canon they encourage the middle class to consume and endorsement): serial killer pastiche as a form of criminalized hauntology. So many people can’t imagine queerness as anything other than criminal because the nostalgic, idealized past under Capitalism essentializes queerness as depraved, degenerate, and demonic; but is also something sold to conservatives as a fetishized ghost of the counterfeit, a thing that never quite was until canon forced it into existence:

For example, having never had a relationship with an “actual” woman (The Damage Report, “Proud Incel Nick Fuentes Goes Full Weirdo On Dating Women,” 2022), Fuentes is something of a fantasy “fetish cop,” resorting to a common misogynistic/transphobic tactic: abandoning any attempts to coerce educated cis-feminists and “settling” on crossdressers/trans people as “false/easy” women that he can chase down and dominate in private.

Often previously abused, young AMABs can be further mistreated and discarded with impunity through “necromantic frottage”: sublimated rape; i.e, the predation of/on weird sex zombies-vampires whose own radical beliefs cockblock them in regards to the people they want to sleep with, similar to Catholic priest’s abusing choir boys, Ambrosio stabbing and raping his own sister, or male shunga samurai raping their pages [who can’t consent, exhibit 92b]. It’s master/slave “prison sex” within the system, which leads to a shortage of empowered workers through a perceived shortage of resources, of sex, of jobs and labor alongside actual worker disempowerment and emotional/Gothic intelligence as canonically synthesized, advocating for gender trouble as a weaponizing force against worker agency and representation.

In keeping with Man Box, only “the strong” can get the prize, the sex, the wealth, the glory and material conditions. It becomes a means of exposing the state’s go-to targets of exploitation, permission for fascists to board, rape and mutiny against themselves and for neoliberals to look the other way or encourage genocide in faraway lands. In either case, canon becomes cheap “monster food” that turns workers into killer monster babies, not responsible organizers of effective revolt. A soldier is no good if it can think and feel, so canon infantilizes workers (menticide) or batters them by proxy (waves of terror) until they snap at perceived dangers taught to them by appropriative peril. In the end, everything is euthanized; it’s only a matter of how and by whom.

Fuentes’ “revolution,” power and relationships are all treacherous and false, but also self-defeating under Capitalism as exploitative towards all workers, including its bad-faith, LARPer (witch-cop), bourgeois “rebels”: the centrists, TERFs, Feminazis, et al. It’s merely segregation and menticide for the “privileged” and preferentially mistreated workers: cis-het white men looking for love, but also a scapegoat—someone to make their bitch (a projection for their own unhappy arrangements). They want “maidens” but will settle for “false women,” even children and literal animals[2] to prove/validate their own crisis of masculinity/faith within Capitalism in decay.

In the end, they’re just false “friends of Dorothy”—fake “allies” already lobotomized to genocidal extremes, wound up like toys and aimed at the nearest scapegoat while they enact their forbidden desires through prison-sex wish fulfillment. Cowardly lions (fraidy-cats) who kill mice for the Wizard, they have daggers for dicks and bullets for brains, wouldn’t know mutual consent if it came up and bit them right on the ass. However, this accretion from the same Superstructure parallels canonical serial killer pastiche: the free market’s confirmation and endorsement of fascist fears inside a workforce already scared stupid. It’s “the wages of sin” begot from a cycle of false preaching that starts at the top and trickles down into terminally empty heads.

(exhibit 92a: Incest, bestiality and other forms of chattel rape and canonical pastiche are symptoms of the state defending itself. This oppositional praxis and liminal conflict can be seen in the time, place and media of a given historical period. Consider the abject shunga erotica, “The Dream of the Fisherman’s Wife” by Hokusai. Its “ancient” hauntology is fairly recent—1814, four years before Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein—but conveys abject realities tied to ghosts of the counterfeit we see in the here-and-now. Just consider Japanese hentai or “perversion,” whose bourgeois rape apologia leads to hauntological bad play as something to not only consume, but defend while attacking sex-positive people conflated with the very rape that fascists obscure and use themselves: groomers. Fascists are the savages—dissociative, duplicitous brutalizers unable to imagine anything beyond their psychosexual urges coded into them by state-corporate propaganda. As such, they abject what is alien in defense of the state, making themselves bourgeois monsters that exploit other workers within the same prison-like structure. If that seems like a stretch, consider the period in which Hokusai did their print—outlined in our partner exhibit below.)

(exhibit 92b: An excerpt from the conversation between my friend Angel [from exhibit 54; re: “Furry Panic“] and myself, shared with permission [the full conversation can be found, here]. Sex workers communicate about abject topics to become more aware about present-day dangers, usually by talking about and consuming monster media. They can then reverse-abject and subvert them while living inside the police state. But they have to learn about and study them during informed, outlawed, extracurricular exhibits. As Angel explains [above] to me about their own research into shunga erotica, “It was a police state until the fall of the Shogunate. Until the late 1800s[ish] Japan was a closed country for over a century. Nobody got in or out.” On one hand, erotica like Hokusai’s “got past political porn censors and would be hung as decoration in homes,” but it was still dangerous. The state could, at any time, kill those creating it, throwing bourgeois stooges under the proverbial bus. To look at and discuss this material at all is anathema, with sex-positive de facto educators and proletarian witches “outed” as pedophiles by the very persons most likely to commit these atrocities unironically in defense of the state; e.g., the revived Shogunate flag of the Japanese Imperium leading into WW2. Marx’s historical-material nightmare can still be challenged, but doing so is always dangerous to revolutionaries. So grotesque modern artists like Junji Ito take their own misdirection pathways to pass off their tyrannical intimations as harmless to the state’s continued hegemony.)

Before we move onto the “prison sex” phenomenon conducted by a gradient of sex pests/fiends, a few final words about those they animalize: femboys, catboys, and intersex people. Historically exploited in pornographic media, intersex people—as stated in the companion glossary—”exist on a biological gradient between male and female, amounting to a variable ‘third’ sex that presents mixed features of either sex to varying degrees; the term doesn’t represent one particular manifestation, but all of them together on a vast, complicated spectrum of genotypical and phenotypical elements”; as explored in Volume Two, they are often depicted as angels or demons in the classically androgynous sense. Femboy, meanwhile, emerged historically as a pejorative label against homosexual men (as did many forms of gay slang such as “twink”). Over time, this label has slowly been reclaimed, going from negative to neutral to positive—an effect largely aided by crossdressing male protagonists popularized by famous videogame franchises like The Legend of Zelda and Final Fantasy.

Just as catboys use tell-tale outfits to denote a particular mode of male queerness associated with homosexual slang (with “neko,” again, being Japanese homosexual slang for “bottom” or “twink,” amongst other things), femboys denote a linguistically similar arrangement of atypical social-sexual roles/power reversal tied to performative crossdressing. Japanese crossdressing actually predates Western assimilation by centuries (despite crossdressing also happening in Western theatre, especially during the Early Modern periods of Elizabethan/Jacobean theatre) and can be seen in creative resistance efforts to Western occupation through queer Japanese cinema like Parade of Funeral Roses (1969; re: “Room for Both“). This tradition has only continued through the queer, non-Western heritage of Japanese videogames, with Link and Cloud being forced to crossdress to progress through their respective games. One must don a male Gerudo outfit, which the game codes as feminine (a nod to Amazonian myth, which treats men exclusively as conquered sex objects); the other must rock pigtails and a dress to infiltrate a brothel (a drag treatment of the pigtailed female detective).

In either case, we have more than a “cute-boy-in-disguise” situation; we have a “cutie-in-peril” who must improvise to escape a sexualized predicament. Often, these scenarios aren’t overtly sexualized, but still contain sexual overtones tied to excitement, adventure and danger. In particular, fan fiction loves to balloon the implied sexual elements explored through canonical dilemmas, manifesting in fan orthography and art (see exhibit 93a: my Zelda/FF7 fan art from 2019, when my website focused more on twinks and femboys). In response, this ongoing heritage is something laterally endorsed by giant corporations like Square-Enix and Nintendo, who attempt to encapsulate queerness in their own commodified stories, generally as part of a grander, nostalgia-marketing scheme: the ludic past as reimagined, bringing its dated interpretations along with it.

We’ll examine these dated mentalities next; i.e., by focusing on Caleb Hart as someone who internalized the bigoted elements and chose to pass them along to the next generation: by seeing queer culture as “not human,” thus worthy of attack in pursuit of false power in streaming culture. In keeping with cryptonymy and chronotopes during the liminal hauntology of war reverse or furthering abjection, all occupy the same bodies and spaces/surfaces:

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

Onto “Canonical Discrimination in Videogames, Including Fan Art and Speedrunner/Streamer Culture“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] The same year as Richard Matteson’s I Am Legend, oddly enough; re: the precursor for the modern zombie narrative made famous by George Romero, and one speaking to the woke qualities of rebellion as undead, thus sleepwalking in commonly zombie-like ways (“Police States“). The state makes us braindead—including through games and their Shadow of Pygmalion—then pits us against each other!

[2] Bestiality and fascism go-hand-in-hand. Chattel rape is something foisted onto women and other, less-fortunate groups, including totemic demons, but also literal animals. The mystery of the Nazi furry (the singing Nazi werewolf; re: exhibit 68, “Toxic Schlock Syndrome“) or Nazi Bronies (Twitter thread: Woot Master) sublimates/adumbrates the uncomfortable reality that (some) fascists literally lie down with dogs; not all furries are zoophiles, comrades, but all fascist furries are zoophiles or know/defend something who is. Consider these YouTube exposés if you don’t believe me:

  • by Archive the Wolf‘s “Tim Win, the Ouroboros of Abuse” (2021)
  • Toad McKinley‘s “Uniquely Degenerate Part II: Doug Spink and The Zooier Than Thou Podcast” (2021)
  • Cecil Mcfly‘s “Don’t Mess With Dogs: A Zoosadist Story Part 1” (2020)

If you do, please be careful tumbling down this “rabbit” hole: What you hear about will haunt you. Refer to “Call of the Wild” for a continuation of this research; i.e., in a less haunting manner).

Book Sample: Artistic Nudity and Asexual Bodies/Relationships in Art; Gay Artists

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

Click here to see “All the World’s” Table of Contents and Full Disclaimer.

Permissions: Any publicly available images are exhibited for purposes of education, transformation and critique, thus fall under Fair Use; private nude material and collabs with models are specifically shared with permission from the original model(s). For more details about artist permissions, refer to the book disclaimer (linked above).

Concerning Buggy Images: Sometimes the images on my site don’t always load and you get a little white-and-green placeholder symbol, instead. Sometimes I use a plugin for loading multiple images in one spot, called Envira Gallery, and not all of the images will load (resulting in blank white squares you can still right-click on). I‘ve optimized most of the images on my site, so I think it’s a server issue? Not sure. You should still be able to access the unloaded image by clicking on the placeholder/right-clicking on the white square (sometimes you have to delete the “?ssl=1” bit at the end of the url). Barring that, completed volumes will always contain all of the images, whose PDFs you can always download on my 1-page promo.

Artistic Nudity and Asexual Bodies/Relationships in Art; Gay Artists (feat. It’s Perfectly Normal, As Good as It Gets, and Tilda Swinton)

“So many drawings and paintings and sculptures of the human body! Artists must love to draw the human body!”

“Artists love to draw the bee’s body.”

“I haven’t run across a painting of an insect.”

“Hold on. We haven’t seen everything yet.”

—the Bird and the Bee, It’s Perfectly Normal

Picking up where “Pigtail Power and Crossdressing: Sex Repulsion in Gothic/Queer Narratives” left off…

Asexuality’s neurodivergence from heteronormativity is touched on through Barbarian‘s behind-the-scenes meta-narrative, from last section. Now I wanted to highlight asexuality in textual/metatextual expression using overtly ace/grey ace examples: the idea that nudity isn’t inherently or automatically sexual and how this revelation weaves into famous narratives that often leave sexualized nudity out entirely—i.e., artistic/pornographic nudism, but also education materials aimed at children to teach acceptance and love, as much as biology’s nuts and bolts; e.g., Michael Emberley’s work from various books over the years, though we’ll look specifically at his 1994 book, It’s Perfectly Normal, with sex educator Robie Harris.

(artist: Michael Emberley[1])

We’ll also examine a common trope in heteronormative stories that uses asexuality in art to further sexual agendas: the homonormative trope of the gay artist, usually a gay man painting a female model to help her find sexual love (with a cis-het man). We’ll introduce the basic idea—e.g., with the artist/model pairing in As Good as It Gets (1997) and Derek Jarman/Tilda Swinton over the years—as well as some broader social concepts tied to these, such as shadism (racism) and sexism, which the above ace relationships to nudity can either endorse or interrogate to varying degrees.

Note: Here is a 2025 extension on It’s Perfectly Normal—one defending its continued publication in light of ongoing censorship by fascist forces. —Perse, 5/6/2025

(exhibit 90a: Artist: Michael Emberley, whose art style remains largely unchanged since 1994, but has expanded to be more racially and culturally diverse; re: with its 2021 re-release, twenty-five years later!

On that, Katie Hintz-Zambrano writes: 

There’s no question about it, sex education in the U.S. needs an update. And while sex-ed in schools isn’t always under a parent’s control, what one teaches at home is. Which is why stocking your personal library with age-appropriate sex-ed titles is important.

Enter the best-selling book It’s Perfectly Normal: Changing Bodies, Growing Up, Sex, and Sexual Health, which has sold over 1.5 million copies since its debut over 25 years ago. Now the classic family resource, written by Robie H. Harris and illustrated by Michael Emberley, is getting an important update, starting with its cover and title.

The newly named It’s Perfectly Normal: Changing Bodies, Growing Up, Sex, Gender, and Sexual Health (note the addition of “Gender”) features a vibrant purple cover with non-binary characters, a subject who uses a wheelchair, and another holding a cellphone, bringing it more firmly into circa 2021.

Of course, the more up-to-date and inclusive aspects don’t stop there. The brand-new edition includes such updates as gender-inclusive information and language throughout; an expansion on LGBTQIA topics, gender identity, sex, and sexuality; the latest on sexual safety and contraception; a sensitive and detailed expansion on the topics of sexual abuse, the importance of consent, and destigmatizing HIV/AIDS; a revised section on abortion, including developments in shifting politics and legislation; and resources on how to safely use social media [source: “Best-Selling Sex-Ed Book It’s Perfectly Normal Gets An Inclusive Update,” 2021].

The point of such works, then, is iconoclastic—to demystify the human body as something the state normally controls; i.e., as canon through ignorance in service to profit [re: the Protestant ethic].)

First, a point about nudity in asexual works. Should it appear, ace persons tend to treat nudity in the “artistic” sense; i.e., not inherently sexual. The art in It’s Perfectly Normal, for example (which we’ve already examined in Volume Two [re: exhibit 55a, “Furry Panic“] and earlier in this volume; re: exhibit 87h), artistically celebrates the human body as sexually and morphologically diverse. Nevertheless, the book, despite frequently depicting the human body as a site of sexual reproduction, also illustrates it as something to appreciate unto itself—enjoyed artistically by artists/non-artists alike, regardless of how they orient.

Nothing is more controlled than sex, which the state regulates through force in alienizing language (re: “Reclaiming Anal Rape“; i.e., the human body—as something to canonize and control by the Church into capital—has been controlled out of Antiquity’s ancient canonical laws into a Protestant ethic that polices sexuality and nature-as-whore into the present space and time. Sex back is labor and land back, which the state cannot permit; i.e., faced with the possibility of children being educated about sex, moral panics erupted by fascist families punching down in defense of the nuclear model. And though not immediately comparable to Hirschfeld’s Institute of Sexology being burned to the ground, in 1933, the basic idea is very much the same: controlling workers bodies, gender and sexuality through dogma. History doesn’t predicate entirely on class struggle, then (re: Marx), but the control of sex through force to police nature; re: as alien monstrous-feminine whore (re: “Nature as Food“). Through that control, a messy convergence of class, culture and race war results; i.e., one regarding the endless clash of state-corporate rights versus worker/natural rights, warring back and forth until the end of time. ACAB, ASAB, APAB, etc. Push back against them as soon as they start to push, trying to control us (re: “Survive, Solidarize, and Speak Out“)!

A huge factor regarding said control is education through art—meaning about and with nudity as an asexual vector for education; i.e., regarding the human body (and its various biological and poetic functions) as asexual versus explicitly sexual (the two are not mutually exclusive, but there’s generally a tendency to divide them when teaching children about sex). To that, Emberley’s work with Harris was banned—less for the written information inside, all on its own, and more for the visual diagrams presented to children tied to various moral panics; re: which fascists like Matt Walsh propagated by treating Emberley’s illustrations as anathema, thereby meriting nothing but extreme censorship—book bans.

To it, reactionaries reacted predictably to It’s Perfectly Normal, banning the book publicly around the United States from 1994 onwards (re: exhibit 55a, “Furry Panic“). Nazis and white/token moderates—thus the capitalists for whom they serve—want you stupid and scared, but also complicit when book bans overlap with genocide during the liminal hauntology of war policing nature, gender and sex. When books burn, the library is the world—the ones who suffer the very animals and children such stories attempt to express vis-à-vis the Gothic mode (re: “Follow the White-to-Black Rabbit“):

Furthermore, fascism is when society grows toxic through the nation-state model merged with corporate bodies to further genocide; genocides—and their extermination rhetoric per Cartesian thought, heteronormativity and settler colonialism—rely on ignorance to function in defense of profit: by hiding said toxicity in plain sight, doing so through the perceived righteousness of the moral panic(s) at play and their subsequent arbitration by crusaders against knowledge as a “corrupting” force. Corruption is the data they want to quell: Capitalism sucks (whose Realism menticides workers to kill themselves for the state; re: “The Nation-State“).

In Gothic, the imperial home and its anxious, faulty inheritance are both false and doomed, hellbent on surviving by eating the resident(s) and their neighbors. Education-wise, this nigh-Biblical regression and its monopolies include attacking the book(s) in question

Children’s book author Robie H Harris’ and artist Michael Emberley’s million+ copy bestselling book, It’s Perfectly Normal, A Book About Changing Bodies, Growing Up, Sex, Gender, and Sexual Health, has been continuously challenged and/or banned since it was first published in 1994 and continues to be challenged even in recent days. In November of 1994, NCAC supported the book and fought efforts to ban the book from schools, libraries, and bookstores as well as other books on sexual education by those who object to sex education books even for older kids, pre-teens, and teens, who are entering and going through puberty. Harris, a member of the National Coalition Against Censorship (NCAC) board, was pleased when a recent Book Riot cartoon story about It’s Perfectly Normal ignited an outpouring of continuing support on social media (source: NCAC’s “Supporters Rally Around It’s Perfectly Normal,” 2023).

but also the authors of such things, themselves—with Harris falling under fire for writing the books to begin with:

Harris and Emberley believe that writing the “truth” with accurate, responsible information and facts can help protect kids, their friends, and families.

Harris went on to say, “I will continue to speak out on the freedom to read and write for kids of all ages, no matter what the perils have been for the creators of children’s books and the perils that are continuing to occur at an alarming and even faster pace than in the past few years. Even though my own safety and so many others’ safety have been threatened over the years, and pages of my books and others’ books have been ripped up and thrown in the trash and/or burned in bonfires with adults and children watching those pages being ‘disappeared,’ I will not be silenced. Many of you have taken the same stance. We need even more of you to join us. And what about our nation’s children? Most children of all ages know about the tragic deaths of their peers, or family members, or friends they have known and those they have not known but know that they have died. And yet, I have hope. Our kids and teens are our hope for the future of our democracy because so many of them have not been silent and are continuing to speak out and protest and petition for the principles of the First Amendment. Even with the threat of being jailed for writing the books I write and for speaking out in defense of free expression, I still will not be silenced. A giant and heartfelt thanks to all those who also will not be silenced and continue to defend free expression and the principles of our nation’s First Amendment (ibid.)

Liberation starts with being better stewards of nature; i.e., ourselves and our bodies as represented in asexual ways regarding sexuality and gender as things to teach through nudity of all kinds. “Wokeness” isn’t a virus, but is something the state will police as such (re: “Bad Dreams“). Silence is genocide, so make some fucking noise; i.e., through porn/art as visually “noisy” regardless if it’s seen as ace or not!

“Opinion is the wilderness between knowledge and ignorance,” Plato once argued. The fact remains, if sex and monsters weren’t powerful, the state wouldn’t police them, and sexuality—as something to depict and educate with nudity—is historically brutalized; i.e., as whores have been since Ancient Athens. The policing isn’t censored; only the information itself as anything remotely positive—becoming something of a forbidden fruit whose “food for thought” is highly discouraged, but also sold back as cheap junk food workers must demonically subvert in their own work (re: “Of Darkness and the Forbidden“). The whore’s revenge is existing to educate as the iconoclast do!

In Emberley’s opinion, then, his world with Harris is among his best despite the Puritan censorship occurring towards it—indeed, because of it demonizing what amounts to ourselves, but especially women and children sexualized coercively by state forces (who project said abuse onto their abject victims). Specifically regarding his work with Harris, Emberley replies in a 2017 interview with Kathy Temean (to the question, “What do you think is your biggest success?”):

Well, overall I’d have to say my collaboration with author Robie Harris on the series for various age kids on sexuality and puberty. They have been a game-changer for me and for the field of comprehensive sexuality education. The two of us worked at times like one mind, designing and composing the books with the only mantra being, “What’s in the best interest of the child?” I must have spent an entire year out of the ten we worked on those books as well as others, in Robie’s kitchen, crafting, tinkering, writing, pushing for the best we could do. It was all for a higher cause I guess you could say. The lives of children, their health and well-being, were all that mattered. People say they like one of my books, but these books people have thanked us for producing. I’ll never be thanked like that again, I’m certain. We contributed to a genre of children’s non-fiction that is being copied to this day. 20 years and over 30 languages later, they’re still going strong (source).

Divorced from sexual activity, Emberley’s figures demonstrate how artistic creations—when viewed independently from erotic displays, or at least erotic mindsets—can separate the human body from an artist’s personal orientation or published work’s stated goal. In his case, this happens even while communicating the human body with various stereotypical looks, minus the dogmatic messaging (and allergy to gender and sex) that frequently goes along with them:

  • Skinny female bodies are less “charged,” libidinous or fertile—unable to visually convey sexuality through nubility (which historically has racialized characteristics: the trope of the sexually voracious woman of color—the colonial shaming of such explored by Jean Rys’ Wide Sargasso Sea [re: exhibit 21c1, “The Basics“] still being felt by women of color today: “It’s almost taboo to talk about sex in the African-American community, especially for women. In the United States, unless we are belting out the lyrics to ‘Let’s Talk About Sex,’ black women discussing sexual liberation are often immediately judged,” source: Sharelle Burt’s “This Traveling Seminar Promotes Black Sexual Liberation Across The Country,” 2018).
  • “Thicc,” busty, female bodies are likened to fruit, ripe for plunder and fertilization.
  • Skinny male bodies “lack” virility, while muscular male bodies are more sexually potent.
  • Disabled persons in general lack the desire or the means to have sex.

The fact remains, many stereotypically “sexy” bodies can be owned or drawn by persons who orient asexually to varying degrees (e.g., Cuwu was demi-pan and Blxxd Bunny is ace, below). The inverse can also be true, as well as a great many liminal gradients that serve as conscious ways of thinking about nudity and the human form more broadly.

(artists: Cuwu and Blxxd Bunny)

For example, Jadis, despite knowing I was an erotic artist, would get incredibly jealous if I looked at physically attractive joggers. What Jadis constantly failed to realize was how I could recognize the body as something to artistically appreciate in the asexual sense—i.e., divorced from immediate sexual attraction despite my pansexual orientation and hypersexual disposition allowing for sexual attraction. The primary difference lay in how I chose to interpret the bodies I was looking at. Usually, I would absent-mindedly swap sexual attraction in favor of an asexual appreciation towards physically attractive bodies, on par with a life study.

Simply put, the joggers interested me in an asexual way because I thought about their bodies asexually—as an artist actively appreciating the human form in motion or at rest, which comes with a certain bias according to what I find interesting or fun to draw. For instance, I love to draw boobs a lot more than I like to fuck them, actually preferring butts insofar as those stimulate me: “Anyways, this cake is great; it’s so delicious and moist!” Still alive, bitches; workers suffer but the Medusa cannot be killed! So we pass forbidden information along upon itself, my own Sex Positivity books a logical-and-happy continuation of the same trend that Harris and Emberley demonstrated (and censored from the start of my website to present circumstances by Google, Facebook and other giant corporations): leaning is fun, as is developing Gothic Communism through all manner of social-sexual displays! Survival is victory and victory is success of education to aid in our survival; re: when the Man comes around, show him your Aegis!

(artists: Persephone van der Waard and Cuwu; source: “Goblins, Anti-Semitism, and Monster-Fucking”)

In turn, many life-drawing artists like to draw older or heavier bodies without necessarily having a mature/fat fetish. But there is arguably a gradient that oscillates. Reubens arguably did erotically enjoy larger women, but not always. According to Ian Walker in “Sex, Violence and Big Bums: Rubens and the Birth of Modern Europe” (2017); re (cited in Volume Zero’s “On Giving Birth“):

Rubens was obsessed by flesh; young flesh, old flesh, men’s flesh, woman’s flesh, dead flesh, damaged flesh, the flesh of children and angels and saints. His paintings are packed with the stuff. […] This was Rubens’s genius. He got in among our basic desires and our raw physicality and he gave them form. In this specific case it is flesh and sexual desire, but this preponderance of flesh in Ruben’s art wasn’t always erotic. More often than not the flesh was just there, distended and bloated or stripped or lean. We can see the blood coursing through it, we can see its folds and its scars. The painting of the “The Last Judgement in the Alte Pinakothek” is surrounded by other paintings by Rubens full of jowly fat men with distended paunches, muscular naked warriors, fat babies suckling on bloated breasts, sinewy saints, twisted martyrs and dozens and dozens of plump woman with big bums (source).

The fact remains, had I thought about those lovely joggers erotically then it would have had an erotic effect, but it didn’t because I didn’t. To be transparent, voyeurism is a kink of mine, but generally remains a separate activity from those I’m drawing. While I have gotten involved sexually with models before, it’s hardly the default. I do tend to draw people I find attractive, but drawing someone you deem attractive isn’t automatically a courtship ritual, either. It can be, but such things must be determined on an individual basis.

For instance, models indicate a profession, whereas someone modeling for you may or may not be a full-time model. Many sex workers aren’t even full-time; they moonlight, and there’s room to appreciate them as people with attractive bodies and wonderful personalities. Nuance allows us to appreciate someone’s “hotness” without making them a sexual participant, or bonding within the limited purview of online friendships guided by monetary transactions tied to erotic sex as nudist. Ultimately the relationship between artists and models isn’t cut and dry (despite transphobic sex workers trying to tell me—a trans woman artist, writer and sex worker—otherwise; this is an adventure I’ll unpack more in Chapter Four).

(model and artist: Itzel Sparrow and Persephone van der Waard)

While I neither forbid the sexual enjoyment of the human body/art nor separate pornography from art, the feelings I have about my own art remain largely asexual: I have never felt especially aroused in a sexual manner by my own creations; rather, I have always desired through my creations to represent different kinds of bodies whose nudity may be appreciated in a variety of ways. By that same token, Emberley’s work in It’s Perfectly Normal predominantly portrays human bodies in relation to sexual education and health. Even so, his art invites the viewer to consider the human body as an artistic symbol that conveys nudity whose artistic displays can be appreciated in sexual and asexual ways.

In either case, popular media isn’t simply a vacuum in which sexual nudity dominates; nudity is something for the audience to relate to in different ways according to what the model and the artist create metatextually. For the remainder of the section, I’d like to explore the complexities of this ongoing relationship as it pertains to various sexual and asexual forms of nudity.

Note: I wrote this piece back in early 2023. Since then, October 7th happened and Loner Box has gone “mask off”; i.e., he’s since been thoroughly exposed as a Zionist, therefore genocide apologist who largely uses his leftist aesthetic in bad faith (e.g., Bad Empanada Live’s “Ending Loner Box’s Career,” 2024). Also, his once-friend Destiny was exposed as a sex pest (Bad Empanada Live’s “Destiny is a Sex Criminal,” 2025), the two going to Israel in the middle of the Gaza genocide (Bad Empanada Live’s “Destiny & Loner Box’s Deadbeat Dad Journey to Israel,” 2024) and only parting ways because Destiny allegedly slept with Loner Box’ partner without his permission (alas, poor Yorick, I cucked him, Horatio; Bad Empanada Live’s “Loner Box Sexts With Viewer LEAKED,” 2025).

All this being said, I want to keep the link to his video here for two reasons: to have a reason to expose Loner Box, here, but also because the because info in the video about black fetishization seems basically fine (a broken clock). That being said, always defer to artists of color speaking to their own oppression; i.e., the pedagogy of the oppressed; e.g., Anansi Library’s “What The Student Resistance NEEDS to Learn From Ethiopians” (2025). Let past-and-present struggles fuel and reinforce your own! —Perse, 5/5/2025

First, sexual nudity. A common theme of canonical artistic nudity is sexual appetite. For example, white supremacy ties non-white bodies to “gross” (excessive) sexual appetites through racialized Enlightenment tropes, leading to fat-shaming and black fetishization (source: Loner Box’s “Jordan Peterson and Beauty,” 2022; timestamp: 6:40). Reverting these tropes requires returning to pre-Enlightenment ways of appreciating nudity in art, but also reinventing carceral hauntology under Capitalism. Avoiding these pitfalls in the artistic expression, and interpretation of, sexual nudity can help non-white/non-skinny bodies become sites of non-sexual enjoyment and (a)sexual pride in their owners’ eyes, not sources of taboo sexuality viewed lustily by powerful white men who want to exploit them.

Canonical exploitation leads to intraracial in-fighting through a shameful desire to embody “correctness” in one’s own form. By recognizing the ways in which white supremacy shapes our self-image in relation to others through art, we as viewers, artists, and patrons can help combat symptoms of compelled assimilation as a desire to escape genocide (shadism, tokenism, manufactured sexual difference, etc) through nudity as something to portray appreciatively in sexual and asexual ways. For example, despite black bodies being portrayed as rooted in and indicative of prehistory and pre-civilization, they are no more or less “ancient” than white bodies are, no less savage or brutal. Escaping these dated clichés can help the public imagination see beyond Capitalism, but it has to start where these trammeling attitudes originate: from the Superstructure.

(exhibit 90b: Source, top-left; Reubens, top-right; Harmonia Rosales, bottom.)

However, while asexual nudity is entirely valid as part of this process, the sexual portrayal of nudity remains an incredibly common practice—so much so that asexual stories don’t exclude the possibility outright. In fact, few stories are exclusively about ace characters, only increasing the odds that sexual attraction and nudity will be explored in some shape or form. But from a phenomenological perspective, the enjoyment (or repulsion) of sexual activity/nudity occurs differently per individual. Sometimes, this overlaps, leading to outright conflict or commensal arrangements (where only one party benefits, but neither comes to harm).

(artist: Blxxd Bunny)

Grey ace persons, for example, can have sex with someone for whom sex is profoundly erotic, while they themselves view it more indifferently—like playing cards or watching TV (re: Bunny finds it fun, but definitely has a more ace approach to it, enjoying the public nudism as something to exhibit for other people’s pleasure, above). Conversely, asexual stories might omit sexualized nudity altogether. A hilarious, dialogue-heavy drama like Stein’s Gate (2011) invokes rich and engaging performances, all without the heavy-handed, heteronormative nostalgia of something as marriage-focused as Back to the Future (1985) or It’s a Wonderful Life (1946). There’s still sexual tension between certain characters, and Mayuri Shiina herself works as a busty catgirl hostess at an otaku bar (also, the show was based on a dating phone game). However, whereas the male clientele fawn over Shiina in sexual ways, she herself views the job as simply being cute, divorced from eroticization. Likewise she and Rintaro Okabe have a largely chaste relationship, one that feels incredibly touching despite a total lack of sexual activity or nudity.

Meanwhile, The Last Unicorn tells a surprisingly mature and somber tale that includes love, but remains primarily engaged with characters unconcerned with romance, sexual nudity or erotic love: Schmendrick cares about magic; Molly, about Robin Hood; the Unicorn, about reunion; Haggard, about unicorns. Only Prince Lear, Haggard’s son, cares about romantic love, which he innocently[2] discovers with Amalthea in her human form (with flashes of asexual nudity thrown in). Their combined tragedy involves the swift finding and sudden death of romance—an intense experience, to be sure, but one that ultimately merges inside a potluck of persons relating back and forth about a great number of things.

(artist, left: Genzoman)

Disparate stories like Stein’s Gate[3] and The Last Unicorn demonstrate how easily ace and non-ace people co-exist in situations that promise or promote some form of affection. The struggle lies not in potential, but in reminding audiences that ace experiences are just as valid and worthy of communicating inside popular stories. Forget making love, whatever happened to fucking? What about holding hands? Having one’s heart race at feeling seen and understood by someone to whom they feel attracted, including non-sexual examples? Laughing at each other’s misfortunes, triumphs, struggles? None of these things are mutually exclusive, but they are unique per person when relating to other people. Artistic expression should allow for all of them to exist side-by-side, not in opposition; i.e., just having access to them at all at a young age will allow us to change—specifically for workers to wake up and become more emotionally/Gothically intelligent and aware; re: during class, culture and race war as, at their most basic, battling for flow of information.

Take it from me: Being shown these devices—be they fantastical or ordinary (as The Last Unicorn or It’s Perfectly Normal respectively are)—allowed me to change and write/illustrate this book series; re: while working with a variety of models interested in similar means of sex/gender education as a sex-positive liberatory force; e.g., Delilah Gallo being a sex educator and coach equally passionate about these topics in poetic forms tied to bodies; i.e., whores are monsters possessing great power the state will hunt them for, and we cannot defeat the state by keeping quiet and hiding forever! The Aegis is our greatest weapon, and one that must be seen to work its magic: “Magic, do as you will!” Believe in its power because its power speaks for itself; i.e., as an attractive means of reifying trauma to play with, during ludo-Gothic BDSM’s calculated risk!

(model and artist: Delilah Gallo and Persephone van der Waard)

Friendship is magic, and so are sex and education’s unicorns punching up against fascism; i.e., at the sex police raping nature by pimping it (thus sex workers and by extension all workers), mid-DARVO: lying through bad-faith disguise to steal power for the state, in effect being afraid of the state’s enemies, which is anything and everything not the bourgeoisie; re: fascism is false rebellion. As we’ll see with Caleb Hart, next—but also TERFs and other token traitors, in Chapter Four—serving the state will turn you into a weird horny coward; i.e., one who harms everyone around you cryptonymically while alienating yourself through dogma from any chance at meaningful connection. You’ll become a cop, a sex pest, a rapist, an unironic vampire. The Aegis, in our hands, exposes what fascism turns workers into, but also what they pimp us as; i.e., which we reclaim on the Aegis through the same cryptonymy process as revolutionary (a topic for Chapter Five). Such education is organic and dynamic, not static and dead; i.e., it compounds through spectres of Marx gayer than the man himself was; re: all the dead whores of past generations speaking out through us, having Medusa’s sweet revenge!

Furthermore, stories with ace potential invite examination of characters historically examined in a particular way—sexually. However, if Tolkien’s hobbits (for example) can be viewed as gay in modern times (re: Molly Ostertag), it’s hardly a stretch to see them as ace, including their nudity. The same potential extends to pigtailed girls-in-black solving mysteries; the Archaic Mother trope and various hag personas; the sexually indifferent or sex-repulsed; or even artists drawing people viewed as “women” purely for their nude beauty as something (for us) to appreciate and show/view asexually! Such things don’t “cancel out”; they tend to overlap, if anything.

While artists and models needn’t be sexually attracted to cooperate, popular media tends to emphasize the heterosexuality of nudity between them. While Picasso can be blamed for this, a common homonormative example is the trope of the gay artist. In the 1997 film As Good as It Gets, we see an asexual scene between artist and model, performed through the gay servant/artist trope: Helen knowing her watcher is an artist who won’t have sex with her. There’s safety and consent amongst a “harmless” observer, the gay man helping her “loosen up” to become more sexual around her future partner, played by notorious real-life womanizer (and rape enabler), Jack Nicholson (re: “Dark Xenophilia“).

Though not conducted through immediate sexual attraction, the scene still feels homonormative whenever the artist—ecstatically sketching Helen’s shyly exposed body—effusively pays her cliché compliments like “You’re the reason [straight] cavemen painted on cave walls!” The implication is that she—a straight, cis-woman—is where his latent homosexual inspiration erupts from. While it’s certainly possible from an asexual standpoint, defaulting to a female muse without explanation remains problematic: It expects straight audiences to intuit the gay artist’s asexual point of view, when in reality they’ll more than likely project a heteronormative male stance on the woman’s body according to the gay artist’s bombastic praise. He’s a gay proxy for straight eyes.

Furthermore, by making the artist homosexual to start with, the writers don’t even broach asexuality as its own unique thing. Plenty of sexually-orientating artists can appreciate the male and female body without wanting to have sex with it; and while the trope of the female muse is already incredibly overused in artistic circles, just as many don’t orient sexually towards the women they feature in their works. For every Pablo Picasso declaring “sex and art are the same thing,” you have Derek Jarman celebrating the androgynous wonder of Tilda Swinton (exhibit 90c), and elsewhere though even less known, ace artists telling their own stories. Doing so isn’t always easy but it is important. As James Wenley writes in “Essay on Sunday: Asexuality and the Artist” (2022; emphasis, theirs):

Deeply divided for years between his lack of sexual desire and his longing to connect, James Wenley ultimately used theatre as a means to understand himself as an artist, a sometimes-romantic, a human being, and an ace.

[…]

I don’t find asexuality easy to talk about – how do you articulate an experience of absence? What makes me push past my personal discomfort is the importance of ace awareness. Decker argues that “asexuality needs to be in the common consciousness so asexual people… know their feelings have a name – and can stop thinking they’re broken if they don’t conform.” I’m also motivated by the vital need for ace people to stand in solidarity with the wider rainbow community against bigotry, for acespec awareness to play a part in continuing to open people’s hearts and minds to the multispectrum of ways of being and expressing that are open to us as humans.

In Asexual Erotics: Intimate Readings of Compulsory Sexuality, Ela Przybylo utilises the work of Audre Lorde to argue for an asexual erotics that centres forms of intimacy beyond the sexual, challenging the lingering Freudian notion that sexual attraction is the “benchmark for desire and wanting” and prime motivator of our actions. Western amatonormativity privileges a restrictive and imaginatively-bound form of love and relationships. No matter where you fall on the blurry ace/allo or romantic spectrums, all of us can benefit from more expansive narratives about love, desire, and social connection. As Angela Chen, author of Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex, explains, “when sex loses its dominance as the most important and intimate thing… more ways of relating and connecting become clear” (source).

Regardless of where, ace revelations occur through novel interpretation operating as a mode of experience. Be that experience personal or vicarious, opting in or out of sexuality occurs depending on subjective epiphanies: what someone learns about themselves over time. “I’m ace!” is as valid as “I’m gay!” or “I love Steve!” or “Boobs don’t turn me on, but they sure look nice!” The journey and discovery therein are entirely the point. Along the way, plenty of opportunities manifest through ambiguous ontological factors—factors that sadly lead to violence from hate groups targeting members of the queer community as gay alien to canonically pimp to Hell and back.

We’ll explore some of these complicated ambiguities next, namely among transgender persons, intersexuality and drag as targeted by bigots within nerd culture; i.e., as part of the same fascist groups targeting Robie Harris, Emberley and myself, but also any element of social-sexual education (GNC or not); e.g., Tilda Swinton, a person who, while far from perfect themselves, remains an ace icon unto themselves: Derek Jarman’s androgyne muse!

(exhibit 90c: Photographer, top-left, -right and -bottom: Tim Walker. Tilda Swinton originally debuted in Derek Jarman’s 1986 Caravaggio, but has since made an entire career around androgynous gender performance. Despite her excellent work with Jarman—and the blatant gender-non-conformity present throughout her decades-long work as an actor, artist and model—Tilda defended convicted rapist and Hollywood royalty, Roman Polanski, in 2009. When interviewed by Variety in 2021, Swinton upheld her decision, saying it was “just” for Polanski’s extradition from a “neutral country.” In other words, she refused to take a hard stance and reject the industry giant for his notorious and long-known crimes of rape [re: Dreading’s “The Case of Roman Polanski”] illustrating the deep connection that exists not simply between abusers and their victims, but also models and artists that goes into a perpetual whitewash of Hollywood sex crimes.)

Onto “‘Inside the Man Box; or, Patriarchal, Nerdy Hatred’ (opening and part one, ‘Ontological Ambiguities’)“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] Arrived from The New York Times, in 2005: “An illustration by Michael Emberley from It’s Not the Stork, by Robie H. Harris, a sex education book for children age[d] 4 and up, to be published in 2006″ (source).

[2] Historically unicorns are viewed as phallic creatures “tamed” by female virgins (re: “Follow the White-to-Black Rabbit“). The movie turns this on its head by having an initially passive unicorn “awakened” by a male virgin.

[3] Which Cuwu enjoyed; i.e., when they would regress, the show giving them an ace relationship to look at from the outside, in (and which we would watch together as their ex and they have once watched, in the past). This being said, while the show was ace, it was actually based off a dating-sim game (a history reflected in the show, whose female character works at a neko bar dressed as a catgirl for predominantly male clients).

Book Sample: Pigtail Power and Crossdressing: Sex Repulsion in Gothic/Queer Narratives

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

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Pigtail Power and Crossdressing: Sex Repulsion in Gothic/Queer Narratives

They say, “Well, she hardly knew the man. Isn’t she a cranky old maid?” It is true, I have not married. I never had time to fool with it.

—Mattie Ross, True Grit (2010)

Picking up where “‘Crash Course: Asexuality and Demisexuality’ + ‘Queernormativity’ + ‘Sexualized Queerness’ + ‘Sex Normativity’” left off…

Note:  This section considers camping the Radcliffean detective/Gothic heroine investigating a queer-coded crossdressing killer/alien imposter to eventually and triumphantly demask them, mid-correspondence. We would unpack this much more thoroughly in “Exploring the Derelict Past,” but especially “Dissecting Radcliffe.” “Pigtail Power” just flirts with the idea, but especially the “ace” notion of interrogating social-psychosexual abuse through Gothic stories that are, at the very least, adjacent to rape; i.e., as a structure to push into from an ace maiden detective interrogating such things. It was inspired by my friendship with Sam Hirst, an ace person who taught me—a highly sexual trans woman—about asexuality through our mutual interest in Gothic. —Perse, 4/24/2025

Though often sexualized, Gothic stories commonly divorce viewers from sexual enjoyment, forcing them to see the world through a sex-repulsed, asexual lens: Sex is stressful, traumatic, and dangerous, and must be weighed accordingly in how it survives in the material world through xenophobic subversion. In therapeutic terms, this can be likened to “clinical detachment”—not a flaw, but a unique perspective about commonplace things (sex and gender) that remains tremendously useful in any social-sexual scenario. I want to examine this phenomenon in Gothic and queer narratives, namely by expanding on the tropes of the sex-repulsed female detective and crossdresser from Volume Two (we’ll examine the gay artist in the next section of this chapter): someone alien, thus different, in ways that stand out—not green skin, this time, but pigtails and naughty-yet-nun-like, woman-in-black aceness!

Before I delve into these ideas in more recent texts or suggest how you might foster them yourself, I want to highlight a classic case of the asexual detective, specifically using the nature of asexuality within amatonormativity—i.e., narratives and relationships that socially and legally prioritize and valorize central, exclusive, amorous relationships; e.g., Jane Austen.

Despite being a novelist renowned for her amatonormative focus, Austen prioritized sense (reason) and sensibility (emotions) in her titular novel-of-manners, where one could divorce both elements from a story of erotic love-making and still have a profound, impactful narrative. Indeed, Austen’s own stories—even her Gothic ones—do this, pointedly revolving around heteroasexual romantic courtship and emotional bonds that push physical sex to the purely imagined. Imagining sex becomes a choice, should the reader want to. If the reader doesn’t, her novels remain utterly flush with other goodies: sarcastic italics, silly pranks, quaint gambling rituals and free indirect discourse. So while she’s a lady-of-letters detective similar to Radcliffe or the Brontë sisters, she’s also a liminal domestic detective like those women were. Is she somewhat canonical? Bitch, please, she’s hypercanonical (a symptom of others taking and colonizing her work, then disseminating those versions instead of the original works. But all the same, much of what Austen did in her own life was novel—that was a pun).

Despite seemingly writing in her own lane, Austen wrote her stories, not her daddy’s like Milton’s daughters did. In doing so, she gamely critiqued her material world in a very Marxist way (as much as an unmarried spinster could writing on two inches of narrow ivory in the dark. Maybe Edward Said famously disagreed, but as our sample essay points out (re: “Cornholing the Corn Lady“), many others famously disagreed with him). Extend the same liberties to pointedly ace or demi persons being “game” in their own works. In a highly sexual world with legions of symbols interpreted in typically sexual ways, how might an ace person detach from these norms and still have something human and profound to say—even if they are sometimes writing “from their own lanes”? Indeed, ace people have relationships; theirs are simply social-sexually divergent from the prescribed behaviors present within heteronormative canon—chiefly marriage, childbirth, and a social-sexual division of labor inside the colonial binary.

Diverging from this arrangement frequently calls for more than the Nancy Drew archetype (white, materially privileged female heroines reaching back to the Neo-Gothic revival); it “Gothicizes” them in frequently ace ways: pigtailed female detectives dressed in black—intensely nun-like, thoroughly profane, and bored to death/repulsed by prescribed love (a cross between the detective nun as virgin, scholar and monstrous-feminine, de-aged by her child-coded pigtails). Whether ace or grey ace (usually walking the line, mid-liminal expression), the female detective ostensibly rejects compulsory sexuality (the societal endorsement of sexual desire as natural, normal and rewarded) on every register, though especially physical appearance: a “dark” spoof of the American Puritanical WASP (re: John the Duncan’s “A Funhouse Mirror? The Addams Family and the Failure of Netflix’s Wednesday,” 2023), haunted by death and rape, serial murder and so on.

I say “ostensibly” because Wednesday Adams from Wednesday exemplifies the Gothic female detective as semi-xenophilic: a non-white[1] and ace, vocalizing her disdain for sexual love: “I’m not like you, Mother,” she says. “I will never fall in love, get married, have children.” And yet, despite her solemn vow and funeral, pigtailed appearance, she’s comfortably herself, repulsed socially and sexually by others. Meanwhile, her colorful, blonde-roomie (the kitten variant of a lycanthrope, but also the extraverted golden retriever to Wednesdays’ purrless black cat/killer rabbit: two animals that symbolize a prey status, but also a facially blank quality “at home” to neurodivergent people) is utterly distressed at the prospect of never meeting anyone: “I don’t want to die alone!” the girl whines. “We all die alone!” Wednesday drones in reply. For our protagonist, tears are useless, compunction a far worse ally than deft sword hands, scrappy rejoinders or a well-placed scorpion kick.

Wednesday is autistically-coded, rejecting love as a prescriptive device, but still exudes an uncanny ability to bond with others, especially those who feel out of place. She doesn’t cry or hug (though eventually learns to); she plays the cello, writes novels, and chews the fat—the perpetual rebel utterly enamored with xenophobic Gothic Romance (of the Radcliffean sort) and dressing in black. A lesser story might consummate a conventional relationship down the road, but Wednesday couldn’t care less. Indeed, the whole story revolves around her behaviors while single, marching clearly and confidently to the beat of her own asexual drum. Despite being functionally white (lacking the original series’ parody of WASP culture; re: John the Duncan) and aloof, she remains surprisingly moral behind the amoral veneer, citing chivalry as “a tool for the Patriarchy” and calling the pilgrims “religious fanatics bent on genocide.” And while she can’t initially comfort her unhappy roommate the way she wants her to, she opts for her own brand of comfort: the brutal honesty of a well-to-do, sex-repulsed ace person.

To be clear, Wednesday’s entirely capable of performing sex. She just doesn’t except when it suits her—i.e., helps advance her asexual goals, namely the veneration of outcasts’ basic human rights (again, the “boarding school problem”: those who present as outcasts under upper-middle-class conditions, a status that Tim Burton has shamelessly commodified over the years; source: Broey Deschanel’s “The Decline of Tim Burton,” 2022). And if she did make love in pursuit of these humanitarian goals, she would be totally in control, divorced from erotic euphoria (not entirely unlike Elphaba Thropp, Gregory Maguire’s queer-sexualized variation of an arguably trans character, which we’ll explore more in Chapter Five).

In other words, Wednesday’s the sort to keep her eyes peeled, even during sex: against the false “queer” love of the mask-wearing lothario/seducer incubus as ordinary-looking (an inversion of the Scooby Doo schtick, which Wednesday as ace surveilles through her own alien forms of affection/social engagement). These “play it cool” elements of disguise during oppositional cryptonymy demand Wednesday get down and dirty despite arguably being sex repulsed, or at least “grey ace.” All the same, she explores his castle-in-small to hoist him on his own predatory petard (the villain actually a werewolf—a kind of disarmingly sweet and attractive impostor-monster synonymous with vampires; re: “Call of the Wild“). A girl must keep her wits to survive, mid-sampling!

From an ace point of view, Wednesday is a social-activist sleuth who uses sex to get at the truth. Initially frigid, she ostensibly warms to a local cutie named Tyler. Unbeknownst to us, she’s always on the case, and treats the school like a perpetual crime scene. This makes her potential “suitors” suspects to be ruled out, including Tyler. Sweet and innocent, but with a violent past, he’s a tough nut to crack. To get close to him, Wednesday accepts his advances, eventually kissing him(!). She wields an excellent poker face, though, being subtly and brutally honest inside a dangerous game-inside-a-game: “You’re making a mistake,” she tells him, before they smooch.

Wednesday appears to be warning Tyler—to back off, thus avoid getting attached to someone who undoubtedly will break his sweet innocent heart. Only later do we learn the deeper meaning of Wednesday’s words: “You’re making a mistake, my enemy.” Tyler isn’t innocent, you see; he’s the killer. By presenting himself as outwardly banal and romantically distracted, Tyler aims to woo the detective investigating his own crimes. This makes his disguise two-fold and premeditated. He knows Wednesday is trying to find the killer and is using sex to intentionally throw her off the scent! Jinkies! Eventually his hesitation to kill her outright leads to his downfall: Wednesday’s onto him, using the same deceptions to deceive the deceiver, but also an older audience arguably accustomed to canonical hauntology and a younger audience perhaps discovering it for the first time. Hopelessly cliché for some, others might regard the assemblage more innocently. They might internalize it as something to seek out in other forms.

More to the point, Wednesday—an ace person who physically fights back (unlike Velma)—is using sex to solve the mystery in Gothic masculine panache: fatal attraction amid a lovers’ duel, where cooler heads prevail against a perfidious caller. By staying detached from carnal pleasure, she remains a better detective than her sentimental roomie. This helps Wednesday stay one step ahead of Tyler, whose powers of affection Wednesday must visibly resist. She’s still human, just capable. By controlling her emotions in the dogged pursuit of truth, she triumphs, saving her own life and a great many others, too. I would say this happens by accident except she’s always on guard, taught to be by her family since she was young. The fact that her training of her privileged background is worth considering—i.e., its abandonment of the actual poor to be voiced by a tempered Gothic regressive posturing as more progressive than she actually is. The xenophilic pitch is her love for social outcasts while self-labeling as a misfit, herself. She is weird, but remains rooted in classical Gothic moderacy. This makes her fairly recuperated/token in the grand scheme of things (a Netflix tradition, mind you).

Though not strictly of the Gothic school, Mattie Ross from True Grit conveys similar degrees of sex-repulsion through another formulaic genre: the Western. Frequently regarded as “dead,” the genre’s own hauntologies often bleed into retro-future and Gothic spheres with just as much iconoclastic potential. While not openly Gothic, Mattie remains a curious iconoclasm from the Cohen brother’s reimagined Western (a genre known for historical revisionism and colonial cryptonyms only recently dissected and challenged with iconoclastic blockbusters like Fury Road). Despite being treated like a sex object (one whose sexualization and eventual maturity is assumed and automatic), Mattie frankly couldn’t care less about sex or marriage. Yes, she’s fourteen and fixated on her father’s revenge, but there’s plenty of room for pigtails, personality and spunk. Framed as a shrewd, precocious detective, Mattie arms herself with education, money and guns; she rides with the boys and dreams of adventure, even telling them ghost stories ’round the campfire when they each have to play a part (eat your heart out, Rudolph Otto). Again, she’s the white, privileged, Protestant-coded girl in a Western, but she isn’t mean-spirited (essentially a nice way of saying, “It could be worse!” It could, but it could also be better).

Despite all this, Mattie cares nothing for marriage or sex when the deed is done. Instead, she grows into a spinster, vocally dismissing marriage and fondly recalling her time spent with aging gun hands and Texas rangers. She loved them like she loved her daddy: with grit, the “grey” side of the law dispatching justice to ruthless highway men. Throughout the film, the trueness of Mattie’s grit is questioned, but eventually accepted by the men. Yet, despite proving herself capable in the realms of gun violence and assistant pathfinding, Mattie remains Mattie. She isn’t Rooster Cogburn, La Boeuf, or any of the other men. However, nor is she patently “manly” in a cowboy sense; in xenophilic terms, she’s an oddball, her relative privilege allowing her to undermine Queen Elizabeth’s famous idea of the simple gender swap: “I have the body of a weak and feeble woman; but I have the heart and stomach of a king!”

Whether strictly “Gothic” or not, or canonical or not (a canonical “plateau” being Nancy from Stranger Things, a canonical, nostalgic mind prison—the do-gooder white-girl whose dated antics aren’t really Marxist at all, but the status-quo re-reassignment of Nancy as a tolerable form of rebellion against dated, cartoon-character sexism), the female detective is generally disinterested in sex as something to enjoy, solving its socio-material role as part of a larger puzzle; e.g., Velma Dinkley (re: “Non-magical Damsels and Detectives“). Like Velma, Wednesday is socially awkward and shrewd, but remains conventionally attractive, like any Radcliffean heroine; Mattie embodies the cold spinster trope as more historically framed in the Western sense: as modest, ostensibly gay or unattractive (Sarah Plain and Tall, Ruby Thewes, Putter, etc) and guided unapologetically by Christian revenge against a homewrecker who killed her daddy. While hardly threats to the reproductive order, the same cannot be said for the crones of “hag horror,” often presented as fearsome, ghost-of-the-counterfeit mysteries for the female detective to uncover before barely escaping the wicked sex dungeon with her life.

In Volume Two, we examined Gothic domestic detectives as mastering their emotions while surviving the traumatic past. Let’s apply that here (seeing as Wednesday doesn’t really have emotions we can see) to asexuality as something to convey through the Gothic mode. Historically men have punished women for not wanting to sleep with them, a hidden barbarity concealed within spaces that treat a reimagined, coercive past as “spellbinding.” To facilitate this purge, they create moral panics, declaring their victims a public menace: physically hideous viragos who ate babies, skulking about in special habitats that popped up seemingly out of nowhere. To this, coercive sexuality and its carceral hauntologies become something to escape altogether, generally in the form of a tyrannical, reimagined copy of the Gothic “castle.” Unlike their coercive counterparts, though, sex-positive matriarchs teach female detectives (a metaphor for inquiring female minds) to fear or “repulse” reproductive sex, often with masculine, “crossdresser” bodies inside patently cliché predicaments: the Spooky basement of Doom (called “the closed space” by Ann Radcliffe, and popularized in ludic-Gothic spaces through the Metroidvania; see: exhibit 64c).

Barbarian (2022), for example, conveys sex-repulsion by presenting the hag as an Archaic Mother—an infantile, superhuman, coerced “breeding mare” that rages against patriarchal men. The crossdressing elements are metatextual, which we’ll examine in a moment. First, we’ll examine the dress itself. While the Archaic Mother trope frames reproductive sexuality as something to fear (re: Alien), Barbarian specifically portrays it as gruesome inside a seemingly ordinary house: a rich dude’s rental. Above ground, things appear harmless; below ground, rape and incest extend the patriarch’s counterfeit bloodline. Over several generations, the curse wanes, the weakened, dying king unable to control his final bride. Manufactured underground, she wanders the crypt-like halls, warning the next generation against potentially dangerous men.

Leave it to our beleaguered, put-out heroine to solve the case. Rained out in the dead of night, she finds herself in abandoned Detroit (which might as well be a dark forest). Before long she’s face-to-face with her double: a fearsome, all-powerful hag.

Here, the monster is also the victim, straining to asexually communicate a deeper horror between daughters and mothers: There is no difference to the killer, who forces teenage girls into surrogate daughterhood-motherhood. Protecting the heroine from men like the patriarch, the old hag cannot tell the difference. She savagely kills one, then another, finally gouging out the eyes of the heroine’s perfidious friend: the ostensibly charming homeowner (recently fired from his job for raping a female co-worker). The hag’s idiotic violence denotes her as a generational victim under his roof, murdering potential threats to warn the heroine of a lateral threat: the serial killer squatting inside the homeowner’s basement! By climatically killing the homeowner, Barbarian warns how patriarchal abuse turns women into irredeemable monsters, the heroine putting the hag down like a rabid dog. The hauntology concerns the decay of the gentry to reveal (and revel in) their imperfect, messy exposure: catching dickheads and, in turn, injecting returning bourgeois crimes onto state victims through token cryptonymy (the Radcliffe scapegoat narrative).

Note: The liminal hauntology of war is a very important concept that I coined; i.e., vis-à-vis Bakhtin and Walpole per my studying of the Neo-Gothic; re (from Volume One):

Such a castle’s nightmarish presence denotes potential mayhem tied to one’s habitat; i.e., through the liminal hauntology of war colonizing nature and those tied to nature. When such a castle appears, it is time to be afraid; the colonial harvest is at hand. Yet, precisely because the state does not hold a monopoly over violence, terror and morphological expression, a demon or castle needn’t spell our end; it can represent our sole means of attack, reclaiming said poetics’ endless inventiveness to turn colonizer fears back into their hopelessly scared brains with counterterror. Adjacent to more classic methods of colonial upheaval, the terrifying power of Gothic poetics can serve our counterterrorist ends [cryptonymy or otherwise] (source: “Prey as Liberators”).

This connects to Metroidvania, but also Gothic novels; i.e., stories famously explored by modest warrior-maidens and nosy female detectives exploring rape spaces to interrogate their trauma in ace-like ways. —Perse, 5/5/2025.

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Before we move onto the metatextual aspect of the hag’s performer, a note about liminal hauntologies (which Chapter Four will address further). We’ve already touched upon its iconoclastic functions in Chapter One (and societal role within moral panics and canonical praxis, in Chapter Two). I want to further suggest the heroic function of the space as something to occupy by iconoclastic avatars in Gothic stories. As a hauntological construct, the Gothic castle is generally something that materializes under times of perceived crisis—not so much actual cataclysm and more a threshold of chaotic change: revolution. For example, under the light of a full moon, Dracula’s castle suddenly appears every century (or two). seemingly by magic. Despite its ridiculous size and uncertain construction, it operates almost like clockwork in response to something bigger than itself.

So while the timely appearance of the castle could symbolize the seasonal nature of the harvest tied to cultural anxieties and taboos: the harvest, a blood moon, killing time, the season of the witch, etc—all bleeding together during notions of intense threatened change—I view it as endemic to Capitalism’s seasonal decay that threatens not mere collapse, but desired change to a tyrannical, unequal system that obscures people’s imaginations. Thereupon, the weakened boundaries between the world of the living and the land of the dead allow for a variety of material responses to pass through, moving back and forth: heroes, hunters, witches, vigilantes, survivors, and so on.

There are different ways one can examine this. Barbara Creed examines cis women in horror literature beyond their historical portrayal as universal victims: often, the avenger of past wrongs. This can be grotesque, like the “archaic” hag from Barbarian (or the xenomorph from Alien); or ghosts who warn the protagonist of danger, waiting to be avenged by them. There’s also vigilante variants, which straddle the fence between victim and victimizer (exhibit 71, but also: Brünhilde Blum from Woman of the Dead, 2022). And often, like a Count presiding over a castle, there is a Patriarchal overseer. All can potentially represent something different, but understanding if they do or not requires careful holistic, dialectical-material study.

However, like “good” witches and “bad” witches, the matter of female revenge differs not in its visual iterations, but one, in whether it is functionally for or against Capitalism, and two, who’s piloting the avatar. We’ll see this in the fascist/neoliberal iterations, which we’ll explore more in Chapter Four. For now, let’s return to Barbarian. The film is certainly over-the-top. Yet, to merely call it “dumb hag horror” would ignore the iconoclastic/campy conversation it has about coercive sexuality—something to escape from, Gothically performed in sexual terms through asexual motive. It’s a complex performance, one told through “lights, camera, action!” but also crossdressing and makeup. The character was played by a man covered in prosthetics (source: “Matthew Patrick Davis Went ‘Ass Out’ to Transform Into Horror Film’s Creature,” 2022):

Indeed, Barbarian‘s crossdressing meta-narrative mirrors pre-Renaissance art, using male models to represent women’s bodies through a kind of Archaic Mother to ultimately euthanize by a vigilante detective. While certainly performative, its liminal threshold allows for various asexual stories to be told through sexual tropes to a traditional audience, thus change how they think about bodies and how they’re “supposed to look”:

When I give a talk, or run a class that includes work by Michelangelo, generally at some point someone will suggest that Michelangelo’s female figures look like “men with breasts.” I have to admit, that I sometimes deliberately task students with describing a picture of Michelangelo’s “Night” just so I can elicit this reaction – it’s a really useful starting point for discussing ideas about what we expect men and women’s bodies to look like, whether renaissance art is naturalistic, differing ideals of beauty and so on. Because this has happened so frequently, my title for yesterday’s masterclass at Glasgow Uni was “Men With Breasts: Michelangelo’s Female Nudes and the Historical Context for Body Image” (source: Jill Burke’s “Men with Breasts [or Why Are Michelangelo’s Women So Muscular?] part 1,” 2011).

This has all the makings of a profoundly queer-ace narrative celebrating the beauty of the physical form—not the veneration of sexual reproduction, but nude art and crossdressing as asexual by rejecting compelled sexual reproduction (and witch hunts against monstrous-feminine crossdressers). The movie’s behind-the-scenes reframes sex repulsion through an asexual meta-narrative—not simply a cautionary, Gothic tale about challenging the established reproductive order or an altered state, but an alternate state expressed through liminal art: a neurodivergent mode of being.

Before we move onto trans ambiguity as its own thing to appreciate in sexual and asexual ways through iconoclastic praxis and the cryptonym process (re: masks and cryptonymy as Harmony Corrupted does it, below—see: “Perceptive Zombie Eyeballs“), I want to briefly outline the metatext of asexuality in nude art; i.e., “artistic” nudes, but also the trope of the gay artist diverging from homonormativity by asexually relating to persons of different genders and orientations. Like the ace/grey ace portions of this chapter, both sections are less an examination of hauntology themselves and more about instructing viewers to interpret art in non-heteronormative (thus non-canonical) ways.

his will prove useful when we dialectically-materially analyze TERFs in neoliberal/fascist media (which are both incredibly perfidious); i.e., in Chapter Four, which explores how canonical praxis—gaslight, gatekeep, girl boss—often owes to reactive abuse based on defense of canon with token, witch-cop elements (which we, as detective-esque workers, will challenge with revolutionary cryptonymy in Chapter Five). While there’s value in sex repulsion and “grey ace” detectives like Wednesday interrogating rape trauma in Gothic stories, Gothic heroines are classically ace cops exposing whores in modesty narratives loaded with rape trauma (with Wednesday outsmarting a deadly lothario shapeshifter/crossdresser dating back to problematic love [re: vampires] hiding in plain sight); whores must turn that on its head—i.e., by hugging Medusa (the Big Sassy Whore) to have their naked/crossdresser revenge against profit as Commie detectives baring it all: “butter my muffin if you dare!” This wild survival through exposure (re: segregation is no defense) happens through artistic nudity and ace bodies—to show off in social-sexual, “greyly” queer model/muse relationships (re: Harmony and I, below), whose base premise we’ll explore next!

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

Onto “Artistic Nudity and Asexual Bodies/Relationships in Art; Gay Artists“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] The praxis, here, is semi-canonical. Netflix making Wednesday’s parents Latin American largely feels appropriative—i.e., functionally white, blue-blooded do-gooders conspicuously loaded with “old money.” While bourgeois Marxism is entirely possible provided it quickly delineates from the status quo, it very much needs to be recognized amid the neoliberal AAA conventions that celebrate ostentatious wealth as the “best” means of achieving social-sexual activism.

To this, Wednesday‘s biggest failing is the setting itself: a magical boarding school for rich kids, which strongly reeks of assimilation fantasy in both directions (the desire to go to such a school; the entire world is like the school, an ideological site that brands activity for a select group: those who can afford the tuition fees). I much prefer Andor (re: “Marxism in Space“) whose widespread holistic revolution incorporates working and owner class peoples into a grand collective action against Capitalism).

Book Sample: “Crash Course: Asexuality and Demisexuality” + “Queernormativity” + “Sexualized Queerness” + “Sex Normativity”

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

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Crash Course: An Introduction to Asexuality and Demisexuality

Here is a list of things I like more than having sex: Reading. Lying flat on my back staring at the ceiling. Peeling back the skin of a grapefruit. […] Riding my bike away from parties. How the night swallows me like a dragon. The wet heat of one body alone. Love is a girl who slept beside me barely touching for two years. Love is whatever kept us fed. And this is how we knew that we belonged to it. If orgasm is really what makes the body sacred then the best love I have ever known was sin or sacrilege (source).

—Cameron Awkward-Rich, “A Prude’s Manifesto” (2015)

Picking up where “Selling Sex, SWERFs and Un(der)paid Sex Work” left off…

The following epigrams—specifically those of Cameron Awkward-Rich and Ela Przybylo—were recommended to me by Dr. Sam Hirst (re: author of “Zofloya and the Female Gothic,” a piece I’ve cited repeatedly throughout this series); i.e., after our own conversations on asexuality and the Gothic. —Perse, 5/3/2025

As stated in Chapter One, empathy is a mindfulness towards trauma, be that one’s own or that of other people. Asexual people are often traumatized or overwhelmed by sex as foisted onto them, as something that negates who they are; or they view it as traumatic, having suffered trauma themselves (to which the heteronormative Symbolic Order sublimates rape through the ghost of the counterfeit and its various cryptonyms). While no one wants to be raped, the experience for ace people often involves a recipient who would find the act of consensual sex incredibly unpleasant, unremarkable or insipid under the best of circumstances (controlled regression, as with age play and “Bigs”/ “Littles,” is often nonsexual in nature—invokes agency by deliberately choosing not to have sex as a form of cathartic agency with a dominant, good-sport/-faith partner).

Some ace people are shaped by their trauma; some are neurodivergent in ways that lead them to experience personality disorders and mental conditions that historically are abused/pathologized by societies that often scapegoat, gaslight or neglect the mentally ill, neurodivergent or genderqueer. Even if we orient sexually ourselves, we must think on our feet (and our toes, when caution calls for it in relation to Capitalism as something to protect others from) for others who don’t orient sexually. Because art is an expression of the artist and their own gender and orientations, it’s not strictly up to artists to curate their own galleries to suit the needs of other people; but it does behoove one to be considerate and respectful when someone has made their boundaries plain (not all sex-repulsed people do, mind you, and there are reasons for that shouldn’t be held against them; e.g., the comorbidity of neurodivergence and histories of abuse).

Before we delve into asexuality and demisexuality more deeply, this chapter section will define them in relation to heteronormativity. Heteronormativity is canonical, thus capitalist (as are its relative terms); it compels erotic/reproductive sex, a process that alienates anyone who isn’t a white, cis-het Christian male in relation to the future—what will be as tied to past images and arguments. For example, Beauvoir’s infamous expression, “Woman is other,” frames otherness within female sexuality. However, heteronormativity also alienates queer people. By likening them to sex, it anchors queerness to normalized, compulsory roles of sexual reproduction that affect the public’s general/Gothic imagination (and subsequent image production) moving forward.

While I want to be thorough and focus on the general imagination for a bit, I promise we’ll return to the Gothic imagination and its monsters, lairs/parallel space and phobias before long. —Perse, back in 2023

For queer people, escaping these roles has become a fight to be heard, a “loudness war” during sexual discourse. As noisy bigots control discussions about sex, the act of having sex and feeling euphoric about it dominates sex-positive proceedings—so much so that many authors of sexuality, myself included—often forget about the other aspects of sex-positivity and queerness: the asexual side; i.e., not having sex, or having it despite feeling indifferent about it.

(exhibit 87h: More examples of Michael Emberley’s artwork. Many of the book’s illustrations have stayed the same since 1994. However, several have been updated in recent additions. The book seeks to raise awareness about sexuality [and gender, in the 2019 version] to help children and parents understand issues that are both commonly misunderstood but also deliberately kept out of public/private schools by conservative lawmakers and their proponents.)

For example, even the sex-positive milestone, It’s Perfectly Normal, frames sexual attraction and activity as normal. Though continuously banned throughout the past three decades (even being featured on Matt Walsh’s hateful polemic What is a Woman? in 2022), the book barely-if-at-all delves into people who feel sex-repulsed. Even so, it remains challenged and seen as heretical by concerned parents resisting the idea of children being educated on sex at all:

Author Robie Harris says she always knew the book could be controversial. “I was warned by several people not to do this book, that it would ruin my career,” she remembers. “But I really didn’t care. To me it wasn’t controversial. It’s what every child has a right to know.” Now in its fourth edition, the book has sold more than a million copies. Harris asks experts like pediatricians, biologists and even lawyers to fact-check each edition, to make sure updates to AIDS prevention information or birth control laws are accurate. Michael Emberley’s illustrations, like this one showing an egg traveling through a fallopian tube, make sexual health information accessible to an elementary and middle school audience. But elements of the art, including naked bodies, make some parents uncomfortable. Candlewick Press Internet safety and sexting are new topics in this edition. “There can be a lot of inappropriate, weird, confusing, uncomfortable, creepy, scary or even dangerous websites that you can end up on when you’re looking for information,” she writes.

Harris also updated her explanations of gender and sexual abuse, and includes information about and for transgender youth. A lot of parents say they don’t want their kids learning about that kind of sensitive information without supervision. Carey Fritz of Culver City, Calif., has two children in elementary school. He says he’d rather his kids not see the illustrations in the book without him present. “If they saw this without me, I’d probably feel a little frustrated,” he said, referring to a page with illustrations of various birth control methods and how to use them. “It’s talking about sexual activity, which I don’t think a 10-year-old needs to worry about,” he explains. Over the years, many parents who share this sentiment have asked for the book to be put in a restricted section of the library. It’s not a ban — parents just don’t want young children to come across it accidentally. Author Robie Harris doesn’t think that’s a good solution. “No child’s going to go up to a librarian and say, ‘You know, I’m going through puberty, I’m having these changes, I seem to have these pubic hairs, and could you recommend something to me?'” she says. “If a book is in a special section of the library, maybe the kids who need it the most are not going to get it” (source: Rebecca Hersher’s “It May Be ‘Perfectly Normal’, But It’s Also Frequently Banned,” 2014).

(exhibit 87i: The artwork of Stephen Gammell [source: J. Meyer’s “The Dark Illustrations of Stephen Gammell,” 2020] may have terrified many other children of my generation, but for me was something that I happily read; the artwork appealed my trauma as a young girl, I think—one who was already experiencing child abuse at home, but also being one of three or four divorced families in my grade. I found my home-away-from home in forbidden places and texts.)

To that, when I was in the fifth grade, I was exposed to a sex-ed talk in school. Curious, I wanted to read about sex, but It’s Perfect Normal not at my elementary school library [though Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark was, another banned book that, in light of its 2019 revival, I decided to write about in “Gothic Themes in Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark, the trailer,” 2019:

I would know. I grew up in Chelsea, Michigan, a small American town. The town itself was, and is, innocuous, insipid. We had (and still have) dime stores, gas stations and post offices; there was (and is) a graveyard and a clock tower (no bullshit). In 1991, I was a first-grader at North School, one of Chelsea’s two (at the time) elementary schools. It featured a small, private library hosted by Mrs. Locks, the librarian. A stout, smiling woman with long, mousy hair, she loved telling horror stories. As the children gathered ’round, a great horned owl would loom overhead, stuffed and standing inside a glass case (“He’d flown into some power lines,” Mrs. Locks promised us). I loved the owl, but the stories more. And on the shelf sat one of my favorites: Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark (1981).

By the time I was old enough to read, the books were already banned in many public libraries. Yet, Mrs. Locks had a penchant for ghastly things, and the library was a private one. Under her care, the books were allowed a home. For all I know, they’re still there. Outside of private libraries and private ownership, however, the book’s public distribution was ardently stymied. It became something of a legend in its own right, a relic out of the past. I easily imagine it a collector’s item, stashed far from prying eyes. M. R. James’ ghost stories leap to mind. Concerning antiquarians beckoned to haunted curios, their discovery was always unfortunate (source).]

but I was able to go to the local library, the McKune Memorial Library, to acquire books on sexuality. Shortly after that I discovered It’s Perfectly Normal sitting my grandparent’s bookshelf, as if just waiting for me like magic; the book would have new at the time, with me being in the fifth grade in 1995 (as for the Memorial Library, it was expanded upon—going from a single building to be emptied of most of its more interesting orthographic material in exchange for cheap, forgetful paperbacks.)

Heteronormativity stems from compelled ignorance. As something to foster into the Internet Age, it tends to compel erotic sexuality inside a ludic, audio-visual scheme, so much so that American canon describes the path to sex in literal baseball terms. “Scoring” amounts to PIV sex between traditional cis-het “players” (which often results in pregnancy). For traditional “players” of American “baseball,” snuggling isn’t even on the board. 1st base is kissing and touching. What’s more, their existence on a numbered list heavily implies progression towards increasingly sexual activities: kissing to heavy petting to straight-up fucking.

(source: Leah Stark’s “Stanford Scholar Blazes Pathway for Academic Study of Asexuality,” 2015)

For some ace persons, though, cuddles aren’t “just” a surrogate for 1st base; they’re home base. This happens because many ace/semi-ace (aka demisexual or “grey ace”) people prioritize gender performance[1] and emotional intimacy over compulsory erotic sexuality. This extends to non-normative queer persons who reject the heteronormative tropes of reproductive sexuality in canonical and countercultural stories—i.e., the neoliberal, homonormative appropriation of the “two moms/two dads” trope as an alternative parenting scheme: gay parents raising straight children (so basic and overused as to become stereotypical “queer bait” in popular shows like The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance, 2019, or Wednesday, 2022).

However, before we discuss asexuality and demisexuality in terms of queernormative media (media that frames queerness in a sexual light), I want to outline their basic distinctions. Both are orientations, denoting entire or partial asexual attraction/sexual repulsion. Conversely heteronormativity canonizes sexual attraction, reifying sexual orientations to diminishing degrees of normality. A homosexual cis-man’s orientation, for example, is semi-typical because, despite being attracted to other men, the attraction is still sexual. Sexual attraction—its tension, build-up and eventual release—are legion in popular narratives, many couching queer sexuality within normative, even nostalgic scenarios: the marriage, the affair, the coming-of-age kiss, etc.

 

Call Me By Your Name (2017) contains all of these things. When a younger man falls for his father’s older pupil, the two fall in love, kiss, and eventually have sex. At the end of the movie, the older man marries a woman and leaves the younger man behind. The tragedy of the movie is heteronormative because the older man closets himself on purpose (explaining why over the phone). Moving forward, I want to examine normativity in queer cases that aren’t closeted, including how they override ace potential in canonical stories and how to resist this effect in queer counterculture.

Queer-/Homonormativity in Sex-Centric Canon (feat. The Matrix, Sense8, Sherlock, etc)

Sedgwick, in particular, questioned what gets condensed into sexual identities, providing a dynamic list ranging from one’s own gender identity, the gender of the recipient of one’s attraction, sexual acts, fantasies, emotional bonds, power, and community. Thus, sexual identities are formulaic labels that exist within the modern regime of sexuality and glaze over most aspects of relating, including the many possible manners of attraction and the practices they generate. Yet, because of the central role that sex has played within determining sexual identity, sexual identity has been understood as based on sexual attraction (source).

—Ela Przybylo, Asexual Erotics: Intimate Readings of Compulsory Sexuality (2019)

Note: The Matrix is a very important piece of GNC media, one whose philosophical merger with action-hero tropes it camps in critique of Capitalism. While “The World Is a Vampire” close-reads The Matrix‘ GNC an-Com legacy (and adoration of Plato’s famous allegory of the cave) at length, here is where I starting flirting with that idea. —Perse, 5/5/2025

Although Call Me By Your Name’s heteronormativity prioritizes sexual orientation, reproductive sexuality and formulaic love take equal precedence in many openly queer narratives, often restricting their ace potential. In this section, I’ll cite The Matrix (1999) as an example. Then, I’ll examine how Black Butler showcases sexualized gender performance and dialog that are visibly divorced from sexual consummation (which historically would have been to legitimize marriage and its patriarchal bloodline). The next section will examine the broader ways that queer canon and counterculture alienate asexuality by normalizing sexuality in popular stories, including fan fiction written by ace persons. In the two sections after that, I’ll explore ways in which sex-positive Gothic media repels these advances and how asexuality manifests in nude art.

Many queer narratives radicalize sexuality through a sexually queer stance: “Don’t listen to these hypocrites, Neo,” says Mouse from The Matrix. “To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human.” By arguing that sexual impulses are intrinsically human, the speaker inadvertently dehumanizes ace people—either entirely for individuals who don’t experience sexual desire at all, and partially for those who feel sexual attraction, albeit to an atypically lesser degree, or only in one particular way but not another. Put another way, The Matrix is, at best, queernormative; at worst, heteronormative, predominantly sex-centric and laden with cliché themes that define queerness through the pursuit of heteronormative sex. It’s less the film outwardly repressing its queerness through open rejection, devoting much of the screen time towards potentially queer individuals doing visibly heteronormative activities. Neo is a man, Trinity is a woman, and they gotta kiss before the credits roll.

Until the Oracle intervenes, however, sex is barely discussed. Ridiculing Neo for missing Trinity’s muted signals, the Oracle shoves him in a sexual direction. This is significant, as Neo didn’t care about sex before her interference. He ignored the girl with the rabbit tattoo (a symbol of fertility) and everyone at the dance club; he also didn’t accept Mouse’s offer to bang the woman in the red dress. By the time he and Trinity kiss, however, the script has practically reversed, making everything about true, heteronormative love retrospectively. Trinity always loved Neo and vice versa; they just needed an old sage to spell things out, letting the hero enjoy his reward: the kiss from a princess that wakes him from an enchanted slumber. This concentric dream-inside-a-dream has retro-future elements that have ironically become franchised; i.e., not just Jean Baudrillard’s idea of “hyperreal,” but a desert of the real as alluded to diegetically by the movie pointedly synthesizing the concept (the liquidated dead being fed to plugged-in newborns an apt, ouroborotic metaphor for the cycle of war and the treat of the Global South). As Abigail Lister writes in their free article for those who sign up to The Companion, “The Matrix | Explaining Jean Baudrillard and the Desert of the Real” (2023; exhibits, theirs):

The Matrix is also a fulfillment of the ideas of one influential French philosopher: Jean Baudrillard. In his 1981 philosophical treatise Simulacra and Simulation, Baudrillard examined popular culture and argued that in the new technological world—and I say this in the simplest way—reality has ceased to exist.

Baudrillard’s ideas are so entrenched in The Matrix that fans couldn’t fail to recognize them, even if they’ve never read a word of Baudrillard. He stipulates that in the postmodern age (he’s talking about the 1970s and 80s, but his words still ring true in the internet age), our world has become so entrenched in signs and symbols—in part down to our saturated media culture—that we’ve lost all connection with the real, and instead live in the world of the hyperreal. Reality no longer exists; we aren’t connected to the real world; we live in a simulation. In a strange coincidence, my translated copy of Baudrillard’s Simulations from 1983 even has a black-and-green cover eerily reminiscent of how the matrix itself is rendered in the films.

Neo (Keanu Reeves) stores his illicit floppy discs in a copy of Jean Baudrillard’s Simulacra and Simulation in The Matrix (1999).

We know that the Wachowskis were interested in Baudrillard’s work. The cover of Simulacra and Simulations even appears in the first Matrix film—Neo (Keanu Reeves) keeps his floppy discs for clients in a box stamped with the treatise’s title on it. When he opens the box, the interior is turned to an essay from Simulacra titled “On Nihilism,” in which Baudrillard argues that “the universe, and all of us, have entered live into simulation.” Humanity’s nihilism (and isn’t Neo the archetypal nihilist human?) “has been entirely realized no longer through destruction but through simulation and deterrence.” The irony here is that if Neo had bothered to read this, he would have had an inkling of what Morpheus (Laurence Fishburne) will reveal to him later.

In fact, it’s Morpheus who delivers one of the most significant lines in the entire film. When he invites Neo into Nebuchadnezzar’s simulation system to reveal the secrets of the real world, he says “welcome to the desert of the real.” This line comes directly from Baudrillard, back in his explanation of Borges’ 1:1 map:

“It is the real, and not the map, whose vestiges subsist here and there, in the desert which are no longer those of the Empire, but our own. The desert of the real itself” (source).

and later expounded on by thinkers like Slavoj Zizek’s Lacanian, Marxist analysis to the September 11th attacks, Welcome to the Desert of the Real: Five Essays on September 11 (2002); his own stance is an appeal to Americans who—unlike Ward Churchill—were white, extends to more thinkers and artists commenting on an illusion that’s meant to conceal the lived experiences for many behind illusions that, in the hands of minority directors like the Wachowski sisters, can direct an audience towards a particular point of view shaped by their axes of oppression recognized in a popular allegory. The thing to remember moving forward is iconoclastic praxis: emancipate “game” workers through hauntologies that always have the potential to become canonical while various people fumble around for the truth in semi-obfuscating pedagogies.

To be fair, I wouldn’t call Zizek entirely “chickenshit,” just an old fuzzy racoon stuck in his ways. He can be frustratingly circuitous sometimes, which stems from his general lack of a Gothic-Marxist fluency—i.e., an express and lucid ability to talk about Gothic things in actual Gothic and openly dialectical-material language. Like, lose the psychoanalytical models, my dude! I get what you’re hinting at, but for the love of Gay Marx, call a spade a spade, not the “Big Other” when talking about David Lynch, the Wachowskis or John Carpenter! Why learn about these lateral, generalized dialectical models that occasionally dabble in material things when you could just talk about material things directly and in material-dialectical language designed to keep things as clear as possible and safeguard workers in the process?

Moving on. Neo and Trinity’s union is a simple reversal within the same, overarching formula: prescribed sex, specifically modest sex (threatened by robot squid demons with glowing red eyes, no less). This changes radically in the sequel, when the writers have Trinity and Neo bone in an incredibly forced and overlong sex scene. Though pushing things away from a modesty narrative, it still feels like compelled heteronormative sex. Any queerness is implied at best, though largely lost in the hippie-like orgy that ensues.

I wouldn’t attribute strict malice to the directors—two trans women outwardly presenting as cis men when the first film released. However, they still materialized a heavily conventional story sprinkled with queer potential they deliberately sexualized when they didn’t have to (no doubt pressured by Hollywood, a legacy the directors would fight to undermine decades later). Likewise, while the Wachowskis’ transness was and always is valid, a difference nonetheless exists between them as individuals and how they visibly appear through their work. Despite having changed noticeably over time, both sisters appeared as men when The Matrix released, were credited as men, and helped materialize various heteronormative and homonormative themes in their movie. In her own words, the process was closeted, relying on limited-yet-vital imagination:

The character Switch – who didn’t make it past the first film – shows “where our headspaces were,” Lilly says in a Netflix video. “The Matrix stuff was all about the desire for transformation but it was all coming from a closeted point of view. We had the character of Switch – who was a character who would be a man in the real world and then a woman in the Matrix.” Lilly doesn’t know “how present my transness was in the background of my brain as we were writing” The Matrix. “But it all came from the same sort of fire that I’m talking about.” She was always drawn to science fiction because “we were existing in a space where the words didn’t exist, so we were always living in a world of imagination” (source: Newsbeat, “The Matrix is a ‘trans metaphor,’ Lilly Wachowski says,” 2020).

Even though the Wachowskis are and were trans, the hatching of their trans “egg” wasn’t materially obvious inside a queernormative magnum opus whose approach would change radically by 2022 when the fourth film came out (Renegade Cut’s “The Matrix Resurrections Is Absolutely Beautiful,” 2022). The sex-centrism of their heroic story remains textually apparent despite Lana calling The Matrix a trans metaphor post hoc (saying what fans had already determined years prior). Despite this rejection of old compromises with Hollywood, her movie decidedly lacks an asexual focus, making heteronormative sexual arguments onscreen in monomythic language: Neo and Trinity’s destined love story, sealed with a kiss (and later consummated in the sequel very erotically) through a larger hero’s journey stuffed with action clichés.

Also, while officially “out” as trans thanks to Lana, The Matrix trilogy’s call-to-action visualizes in thoroughly sexual language. So does its enduring legacy as queer canon. Inspired, no doubt, by The Matrix Reloaded’s (2003) infamous rave scene, future efforts like Sense8 celebrate queer existence and rebellion as united through overtly sexual displays. Over and over, the queernormative message remains constant: “Queer rebels love sex.” Often, group sex, apparently.

(exhibit 88: The rebels of The Matrix evoke a kind of retro-future Free Love facing off against cybernetic squid Nazis and state-corpo panopticons.) 

To Sense8′s credit, it focuses on erotic sex as part of a larger whole—a community of queer people who have sex sometimes—but there is no one among them who identifies openly as ace and rejects the act of group sex (which much of the feature-length slow-mo birthday bash is dedicated to). For one, the rejection of immodest or casual sex is generally regarded as a homophobic stereotype in heteronormative canon. Tropes aside, the show’s lengthy metaphysical union requires sex—specifically group sex—to take part in. Ostentatious, collective eroticism become a kind of “glue” that binds everyone together in queernormative ways (which straight people can partially understand; i.e., the heteronormative myth that everyone likes sex).

Nevertheless, no attempt is made to discuss the asymmetrical relationship of sexual and asexual persons within this larger commune. While group/solo sexual activity and rebellion is entirely valid (this whole book is about it), popular stories like The Matrix and Sense8 focus on sex as a selling point for their rebellions. In turn, these propositions shape the material world that asexual persons belong to, prescribing social-sexual norms through queernormative/potentially appropriative stories. By attempting to explore their stories as part of, or against, these norms, the rest of this section and the next few sections will argue asexuality and demisexuality as groups historically alienated by queer canon and counterculture alike; re: “art is love made public” and love exists on a social-sexual gradient.

Asexual orientation (e.g., heteroasexuality) is rarely acknowledged or explored in academia, let alone as central to adult-themed narratives. Although it’s possible to depict asexuality using the same basic body/social language of sexual spheres, I think the focus remains on sexuality in popular stories, even when challenged through queer counterculture. For either, “adult” means “nubile,” of age/related to adult sexuality activity. For example, my dialectical-material analysis concerns sex positivity and coercion, but refers to variables of either in “social-sexual” terms. Because ace people exist inside sexually-dominant societies, I want to discuss asexuality in relation to social-sexual terms—less through a pure lack of sexual markers, however, and more according to what makes asexuality its own thing regarding these markers: the reclaiming of one’s body through agency as a choice to have sex or not if that’s what one needs to feel empowered.

The Reapers from Black Butler (2008) illustrate how this choice is commonly interpreted, even by ace persons wrestling with queernormativity—as sexual. For Grell Sutcliffe, though, empowerment arguably comes from dressing snazzily and performing in queer ways through the thrill of sexual tension, not sexual consummation. Yes, the chainsaw is visibly phallic. However, Grell predominantly teases our heroes with it. What if doing so is entirely the point—to flirt, not to fuck? To make their performance entirely about physical sex is to stymy asexual potential within queer narratives, foisting fucking onto the narrative when it should be up to the viewer to interpret the imagined outcome to all that sassy, fabulous sword-crossing.

(artist: Vermeille Rose)

Grell shows us that sexual empowerment isn’t exclusively about having sex; it’s about choosing whether to have sex or not when the idea is being discussed. All the same, assumptions of them orienting sexually is not uncommon, even among ace people (who are often forced to look at compelled sexuality in queernormative stories).

These widespread assumptions emerge from a deeper understanding of sexuality in media as being automatic. Queer movements often stress the reclaiming of sexuality from the Patriarchy as a means of liberation. While reclaiming the body as an asexual site is perfectly legitimate within these discussions, asexual theory also remains relatively new and misunderstood within the Humanities, let alone in popular media. This leads to general misconceptions in either sphere: i.e., ace persons don’t have appetites, don’t experience sexual pleasure at all, or are somehow sex-negative (against the idea of mutually consensual sex). Quite the contrary, they have appetites, but experience them within a gradient that allows them to orient along divergent lines.

I would go a step further and call ace categories neurodivergent—a robust orientation that, while certainly subject to potential change, isn’t automatically going to. Rather, it manifests through self-discovery and experimentation amid changing circumstances, including the brain as neuroplastic. The aim, here, is to highlight compatibility. Normally the expression is “sexual compatibility,” but asexuality is equally present in this equation, if not more so. Asexuality—like sexuality—pertains to fluid bodies and brains that change over time yet have more fixed characteristics like hereditary components, fetishes, and trauma markers.

Therefore, it would be a mistake (and tremendous insult) to default to social-sexual norms—including academic or queer ones—that infantilize or pathologize ace people for “not liking sex.”

Not only do sexual impulses canonically manifest as childlike and violent (re: Ambrosio), but ace persons are as adult and healthy as anyone; they just don’t prescribe universally to standard “adult” material every waking moment. They certainly don’t want to be automatically demonized or excluded for who they are and expected to change because they don’t demand, devour or identify with erotic sex from dusk till dawn, refusing to adhere to various queer stereotypes that normalize sex.

(source: Geeky Fanboy’s “ Discussing Asexual Characters In Fiction,” 2021)

Straight/queer stereotypes automate sex. However, fights against this automation become complicated by the unique manifestations of individual asexual persons. My friend Mavis (as mentioned in Volume One and Two; re: “Healing from Rape” and “Vampires and Claymation“), for example, is grey ace/cis-heteroasexual. They avoid sex given the choice, partly because they associate it with violence—something to do to survive; and yet, they’re almost vampirically allergic to cuddling as a display of affection, and use it to get their way (this includes fucking for attention, as invisibility invokes a paradox of desiring to be seen by one’s protector and unseen by one’s abuser, itself a liminal proposition on the surface of the image of the same kinds of bodies and genders a damsel might be attracted to).

For Marvis, the end result is violent sex with cis-het male strangers, which feels the best in terms of erotic pleasure, and a total rejection of sex with people they know and care about intimately. For them, the scenarios are night-and-day, but afford them relative agency based on what they know about themselves. They don’t feel the need to change in regards to how they feel about themselves; it’s simply who they are and they’re cool with that. All the same, they feel broken in relation to canonical media because post-coital affection is so often sold to the public as a universal love language. Their tastes and habits clearly diverge with this habit, leading to the informed consumption of media with problematic elements: guilty pleasures that cover rape and degradation as something they can consume—not because they condone abuse, but because they attain agency by revisiting trauma through fictionalized variants.

In their case, an entire genre (exploitation) allows someone whose asexuality stems from trauma to make empowering decisions about what they privately consume. It parallels their ability to decline sex through the asexual aspects of their orientation.

Not all ace people are even traumatized in the criminal sense, however. Some are natally neurodivergent, born literally with different brains that place them on the autistic spectrum. While existing here can be intense and differentiates them from non-autistic people, it’s not an illness; it’s a neurodivergent condition. So is asexuality in this context. They shouldn’t have to change just to fit into heteronormative society’s neat little box (especially since this box materially functions like a prison that exploits workers for their labor). So while sex is important for a great many people, it isn’t transcendental. To argue otherwise is to compel sex, which leads to violence against unwilling participants.

We’ll explore these effects next, including how canonical media and paratextual “fan” fiction cater to the visibly queer, social-sexual appetites of ace persons, which, while not always openly erotic, often lead to sexualized canonical myths about the broader queer community. In other words, the symptoms of ace authorship sometimes become collateral canonical praxis regardless of authorial intent; i.e., reactionaries will be livid regardless of why the ace person made Harry Potter gay with Draco in their personal head canon (to literally make Harry Potter gay in spite of Rowling’s extreme and ongoing queerphobia).

(artist: Nedjemmm)

Sexualized Queerness and Ace Voices in Sex-Normalized (Fan/Meta)Fiction

He started putting his penis near her vagina. It was BIG. His penis, that is. Not her vagina. THAT was small. Anyways, so his penis is starting to get near her vagina.” […] Her tits were there (source).

—a tweet from Patti Harrison, who quotes “her sexy kinky book,” 2019

“He said he wanted to fuck me. I said he shouldn’t, but he forced the head of his prick into the mouth of my cunt. Then giving a great heave he drove it up. It smarted me a good deal at first, but when it got in altogether, and he commenced to work it in and out, the pleasure was so great that I could not help telling him, when he asked me, that I liked his fucking very much, and that his prick felt very nice in my cunt” (source).

—May, “My Grandmother’s Tale, or May’s Account of Her Introduction to the Art of Love” (c. 1797) from The Pearl: A Journal of Voluptuous Reading [as] The Underground Magazine of Victorian England (1968; originally published in 1879)

(artist: Edouard Chimot)

Note: The second epigram, above, comes from a book given to me by Alexandra “Sandy” Norton. Sandy was a professor I wrote for as an undergrad (re: “Beneath the Church-Isle Stone: Posthumous Liberties,” 2015), but also whose work—specifically their essay “The Imperialism of Theory” (1994)—I’ve cited multiple times (re: “Preface: Gothic (gay-anarcho) Communism“). Said citation includes, all the same, The Pearl, including its opening (re: “Rape Reprise“). —Perse, 5/5/2025

Fan fiction, aka “head canon” or paratextual media, is often conspicuously sexualized, but also penned by ironic sources. In this chapter section, we’ll explore the existence of sexuality and asexuality side-by-side regarding literal fan fiction. We’ll also examine the canonical media that inspires fan fiction—not just the texts themselves, but the meta/para relationship between consumers, performers and producers that encourages various canonical myths about sexuality in spite of a story’s ace potential or author’s orientation.

The creation of sexualized fan fiction displays a curious paradox among ace persons: Many experience sexual fantasies with fictional characters, not real people (many ace people are xenophiles: monster-fuckers; re: “Dark Xenophilia“). However, the degree of this sexuality varies tremendously, allowing for a variety of sexual activities beyond penetration, orgasm, marriage or babies (not always in this order). Despite being “tame” in the eyes of regular sexual consumers, snuggling and emotional intimacy are often the order-of-the-day for ace persons. Likewise, the orientations of the characters become open-to-debate, the playful attitudes of the authors extremely liberating for those who wish to experiment without a real, physical partner. This goes for ace people, but also outwardly sexual people trying something different—a “bit of strange” having infinite forms when hugging the alien!

(artist: butchtats)

In either case, the deeper context separating them is not immediately apparent. Nor is the fanfic meta-goal always masturbatory. If it is, the sexual activities occur “off-screen,” happening when online dialogs are paused or while the individual is not present within them. Even so, what people do in private doesn’t survive through public record. Rather, a collective break from convention is immortalized through:

  • epic sagas: Msscribe (Eldena Doubleca5t’s “Msscribe: The Harry Potter Fandom’s Greatest Con-Artist,” 2020)
  • hilariously ironic fanart (re: Nedjemmm‘s gay Harry and Draco piece)
  • and surreal camp (seriousness that fails): Snapewives (STRANGE ÆONS’ “The Story Of Snapewives,” 2022)

Anything goes in Harry Potter fanfics, the curious case of Snapewives or Msscribe demonstrating a social desire to play with fictionalized sex. The same goes for Sherlock, whose collective, hidden thirst among fans flows out into the public sphere through saucy paratexts. The authors may or may not orient sexually at all—might be in it purely for the laughs (this 2013 Edward “Eddie Snowjob” Snowden fanfic by Andrew Schaffer is especially glorious). If so, their underlying irony and parody must be investigated; the sexual immediacy of their imagery largely speaks for itself. Moreover, an author’s fun in writing an erotic scenario is enjoyed very differently by them than by consumers who often relish in the sexual irony through their own specific orientations.

(artist: Sweetlittlekitty)

The authorship of fictionalized sex is nothing new, any more than murder or marriage are. Austen did not marry; Poe, Radcliffe and Dacre did not kidnap maidens, bury them alive or stab them to death; Stephanie Meijer does not sparkle in sunlight; Laurel K. Hamilton doesn’t fuck werewolves, sidhe or goblins. These were/are ordinary human beings with large imaginations, catering to a public fascination with BDSM and signifiers of queer sexuality, not things they necessarily experienced or did themselves. This extends to ace persons exploring sexuality in their own creative performances. Divorced from the physical acts that occur between two (or more) people, this creativity helps them flirt with sensations they cannot wholly or partially experience with others (it’s not unheard of for monster-fuckers and “service tops” to be ace, for example).

The fact remains, many fanfic authors are inexperienced. But the reasons for their “thirst” still vary considerably. Some are indisputably young. However, many more are not. Of the latter, a bored housewife’s repressed sexual fantasies might seem a likely culprit. Equally probable, though, are the sexual incompatibilities of ace persons, whose lingering desire to explore sexuality in their own creative output despite knowing their own sexual incompatibilities is often mistaken as compulsory sexuality. This accidental outcome leads to an oversaturated legacy of “thirsty” taboos eclipsing a given author’s deeper ironies and general know-how in the process.

Less contested is the overall presence of sex. Whether canon or counterculture, sex is sold everywhere and endlessly experimented with/talked about. As part of these grander dialogs, the blatant pan-eroticism of fanfics supports underlying presumptions of sexual consumption/orientation that become near-universal in popular stories regardless of where or how the popularity comes about. Those seeking confirmation will generally point to fan fiction, gleefully highlighting the prolific sexual variety on display. In fan fiction, the havers-of-sex try seemingly everything there is to try purely for its own sake, serially exploring sexual ironies and curiosities as wide and diverse as the world can afford.

Orientation bias leads to a series of canonical, sex-prescriptive myths in oft-collateral ways—i.e., in canonical fiction but also fan-fiction and countercultural fiction, continually pushed onstage or onscreen by a throng of disparate performers, including older/ace fanfic authors:

  1. Potentially ace people are assumed sexual unless explicitly stated otherwise (the “celibate” or closeted nerd/bachelor).
  2. People with genitals must want to use them.
  3. Sex is universally enjoyable once experienced (e.g., male ejaculation/erections are always enjoyable).
  4. Everyone enjoys sex the same way.
  5. Everyone wants sex the same way.
  6. Queer people aren’t simply sexual; they’re hyper

We’ll explore the first four for the remainder of this section and the second two in the next section; in the two sections after that, we’ll explore how—as time goes on—ace authors find ways to openly identify as ace by rejecting these myths (and by extension sex) through Gothic iconoclasm: Gothic counterculture conventions and the asexual treatment of nudity in general artistic life studies (that extends to the monstrous examples we’ve already talked about in Volumes One and Two, and will talk about more in this volume).

Our first sexual myth is the closeted bachelor or castrated nerd, which tries to sexualize potentially ace intellectuals (often with queer overtones). Though famous characters like Sherlock Holmes and Varys the Spider aren’t explicitly stated as ace, the possibility is no less likely than them being gay or straight (so-called homo- or queernormativity enforcing a heteronormative role onto queer and ace characters). Sex isn’t the end-all, be-all for Sherlock and Varys, who choose to devote their lives towards what actually interests them: mysteries, puzzles, espionage; etc.

It’s not that either cannot be queer/ace. However, they’re often assumed to be straight, or at the very least, sexual, because heteronormativity normalizes sexuality. It either sexualizes everything or focuses on sex as something that’s missing or incorrect within outliers and exceptions. The fact remains, some canonical heroes feel more ace, regardless of what’s said about them officially. While coding the perpetual bachelor or old maid as gay is undoubtedly standard behavior even inside queer circles, exclusively doing so denies ace people some semblance of representation. Intersectionally it makes far more sense to investigate, “Does this character actually care about sex at all?” than try to forcefully pin a sexual relationship onto them. In situations where both interpretations work, vying entirely for one over the other risks breaking into unnecessary in-fighting.

These interpretations are challenged by the gradient between sexual and asexual persons (and the sexual creative output of either). While I want to examine predominantly asexual persons, I also want to inspect “grey” or demisexual persons. My goal in doing so isn’t to survey each and every variant, but introduce a parallel gradient that, while being interwoven like a helix into sexual norms and counterculture, frequently goes unnoticed in either circle. Their mutual alienation of asexuality comes from work within or around social-sexual dramas with eroticized and romanticized components. This includes the paratextual contributions of ace people, writing sexualized fanfiction instead of focusing on their ace-ness (a habit that is slowly starting to change as ace awareness increases).

As bigots sexualize queer people, queer people—including ace people—seek to liberate themselves through ironic sexualized variants. However, sexualized queerness leads asexual persons to be seen as anomalous within both groups: a lack of something that is popularized by both forces as “best in life”—sex. Even Monty Python called sex “the meaning of life,” its own satire echoing a regressive form of reactionary politics: tying everything to biological sites and markers, including sexual reproduction (the joke, the plot, the drama—all of these things have to be about sex; we’ll see TERFs doing this in Chapter Four). Yet even satirizing this trend tends to focus on sex, ironically ignoring the fact that many in the queer community would rather focus on things other than sex and genitals, if only part of the time.

This brings us to our second myth: genitals must be used/those who have them want to use them. In truth, many queer people (especially younger queer people) despise being branded with/defined by their sexual orientation—i.e., having their identities decided for them by others according to their birth sex as something to publicly announce: their genitals and how to use them. Not only is this assignment made entirely without their consent; it gatekeeps queerness as sexually dependent and genital-centric, when in fact (a)sexual orientation, gender performance/identity combine to denote someone’s gender expression more broadly. However, nor are public discussions about explicit genital ownership or preference the default queer approach. Often made in opposition to a status quo that forces queer people to justify their own existence, queerness allows genital-centric language to exist, but seldom employs it save when coerced by those in power.

Note: Paradise Lost and Original Sin come up extensively in this book series; i.e., as a campy agent; e.g., starting with “Notes on Power” and extending into “Food for Thought” (re: “Of Darkness and the Forbidden“), and frankly involving anything discussing the character Satan, including offshoots; e.g., exhibit 0a1b2b (re: Notes on Power“) and exhibits 7c/d (re: “The Nation-State“), but also Jamal Nafi’s essay, “Milton’s Portrayal of Satan in Paradise Lost and the Notion of Heroism” (2015), which we repeatedly cite—among other things—vis-à-vis Frankenstein and David the Android from Alien: Covenant (re: “Making Demons“); i.e., whores give birth to monsters, Eve a maiden that is corrupted versus Lilith the Jewish-coded whore being the mother of demons previously made from clay. —Perse, 5/5/2025

A note about this language before we proceed onto other heteronormative myths, as it leads to their continuation along linguo-material lines that queer people tend to avoid. This includes unironic sexualized art, whereupon the ironic variants of queer artists giddily celebrate the consumption of sexualized media. By venerating sexual consumption as ironic and informed, genderqueer iconoclasts dismantle ancient heteronormative dogma like Original Sin (if the artist below is ace, then the image, as usual, fails to communicate this deeper context):

(exhibit 89a: Artist: Erotibot. The usual Gothic stereotypes about body hair and “flashing” extend to a legend largely denuded of obvious monsters. The canonical monster here isn’t the snake, it’s Eve. “Abashed the Devil stood, And felt how awful goodness is, and saw Virtue in her shape how lovely” [source] is Milton finding a way in Paradise Lost to comment on the Devil’s shame at seeing Eve nude, while later demonizing Eve and blaming her, not the devil or God, for tempting Adam. Despite Blake going to bat for Milton by saying he was “of the devil’s party and didn’t know it”—and despite and others partially decolonizing Paradise Lost by calling Satan a revolutionary—Milton’s praxis was patriarchal and xenophobic towards women, thus canonical to some degree: An old blind dude having his daughters transcribe Paradise Lost from his dreams and into Latin, day after day:  

Milton was raised to assume a place in the Anglican Church but chose instead to write in every major literary genre of the Renaissance: elegy and epic, ode and sonnet, drama and pastoral. Milton went completely blind in 1651 and, until his death in 1674, he lived with his three daughters who transcribed Paradise Lost while secretly selling off volumes from his library [re: Lapham’s Quarterly’s “Misspent Youth“]. 

This took literal years. Call this daughterly servitude to their father “staying in a woman’s lane.” However—much like widower Patrick Brontë and his three novelist/poet daughters, Charlotte, Emily and Anne called themselves “neutral,” male-sounding names like Currer, Eliot and Anton to get their works published [largely through Charlotte’s game persistence despite being subservient to canon in their own ways; even so Charlotte Brontë would be a TERF by today’s standards; re: exhibit 21c1, “The Basics“]—Milton’s children were still living in a man’s world that allowed their privileged dad to lord over them in the first place. Simply put, he “knew best,” but so did society—i.e., seeing the Milton daughters as dumb, unthinking property to be married off.)

Beyond Adam and Eve, heteronormative myths more broadly flow from canonical linguistic habits. When skirting these habits, a curious quality of queer discourse lies in how people’s genitals generally aren’t implied or stated in everyday gendered language/media. This includes pronouns, orientations and gender roles; or canonical stories that famously promote these things. If you’re a cis-het man and say you’re heterosexual, by extension you’ve already implied that you’re into female genitalia; there’s no need to make a concrete distinction because heteronormative discourse denies anything beyond the colonial binary. Whether subtle or overt, the distinction as part of a larger socio-material structure is very clearly in place.

Conversely queer discourse detaches gender from an automatic connection to biological sex—with terms like pansexual denoting an (a)sexual attraction to someone regardless of either parties’ gender or biological sex (whereas terms like “hetero-” and “homosexual” are historically binarized and denote an explicitly sexual attraction to biological sex). Queerness views gender and biological sex as distinct, modular categories that often intersect. To this, queer people use the same general diction that cis-het people do when emphasizing sexual attraction; they just don’t imply the genitals involved. However, to spell things out would also require unusual genital-centric words for both groups: “androphile” and “gynephile.” Uncommon for being genital-specific language that stipulates erotic preference, both go unused by either sphere, albeit for different reasons.

First, in heteronormative spheres. As we’ll see more of in the “Hatred Against Transgender Persons, Intersexuality and Drag” section/Chapter Four, cis-het language essentializes an automatic connection between gender and biological sex, defaulting to enforced dichotomies that operate in rigid conjunction through compelled unions announced by heteronormative language.

Furthermore, said language treats gender and sexuality as tied to and defined by biological sex, implying genitals, gender and various sexual activities associated with either through a colonial binary that valorizes sanctioned reproductive sex: the institution of marriage and the linguo-material connection between consumers and canon. This relationship leads to some truly bizarre Latin jargon (with Latin being the language of power and historically sexist institutions like the STEM fields, next page), but also associative behaviors and myths whose sodomy double standards can be camped to Hell and back; e.g., “Save your spunk for marriage, boys (re: Monty Python’s “Every Sperm is Sacred”); girls, your maidenheads; and only have unprotected PIV sex!” (re: Garfunkel and Oates’ “The Loophole”):

Although specific terms illustrate the sacred hierarchy of sanctioned sex, defaulting to them says the quiet part out loud. While this already sounds weird as hell, it nevertheless outlines a socio-material structure that can be inferred regardless if the language is explicitly stated or not; or if the distributors, authors or consumers are overtly religious/secular or somewhere in between. Being heteronormative, the free market allows for all of the above, but some will undoubtedly be louder in support of the status quo.

(artist: unknown—originally known to me by Zeuhl, in grad school, as a joke)

Unlike their straight counterparts, queer interlocutors tend to favor sexual attraction as happening towards gender and leave out taboo mentions of genitals or heteronormative prescription. There’s still room to imply—you can have cis-gendered homonormative gay men, for instance. You can also have an attraction towards trans-men or trans-women, which generally denotes a starting position (AFAB/AMAB) that binary trans people deviate from on their own paths of self-identity and -discovery. But attraction isn’t binary for bisexual/pansexual orientations; nor is it for people who identify as non-binary or those born as intersex. In fact, the casual usage of words like “gay” or “trans” tend to supersede specific definitions unless someone has something specific they wish to impart (“I feel gay”; i.e., “I feel [gender]queer/trans, etc”). However, the explicit public mention of genital ownership or preference remains rare in queer circles for all parties involved. I think this largely has to do with such things being taboo, thus private—i.e., private parts. But terms like androphile or gynephile at least attempt to articulate the sexual attraction towards a person’s sexual equipment independent of their gender or marital inclinations.

While genitals being the instruments of erotic sex can certainly be something to think about inside larger sex-positive discussions, queer iconoclasts avoid automatically baking them into public sexual discourse, including sex-positive artwork or the labor exchanges that produce them. From a dialectical-material standpoint, everything hinges on context: who’s using it, how, and why. Personally I would simply state my preference for something directly; i.e., I am into androgyne AFABs and vaginal sex (re: Zeuhl, “Non-Magical Detectives“). But the open usage of genital-explicit language is tremendously discouraged outside patently frank/sex-centric dating scenarios: “Hi, I’m Persephone and this is my dating profile; I like vaginal sex.” For cis-het people this will sound redundant and crude; for queer people, it’s less about crudeness and more that many queer people don’t like being reduced to genitals, or known purely through sexual attraction in either direction. Instead, the sharing of this information becomes a privilege one merits under specific situations (itself a kind of agency that grants the speaker autonomy within public/private discourse about gender identity/performance and [a]sexual orientation/activity).

In other words, terms like androphile and gynephile are specific and granular, emphasizing a physio-erotic aspect of someone versus the sum of their existence. It’s also something that generally doesn’t need to be said outside the company of people you want to fuck (in which case, stating that one prefers AMABs/AFABs or phallic/vaginal sex is more likely anyways; yet all preclude asexual scenarios of non-sexual affection due to a sexual emphasis on genital ownership being reflected in/informed by popular language/media). Regardless, unless you’re an exhibitionist or a loudmouth, you’re not going to announce your erotic preferences to everyone in public spaces where dating isn’t expected. However, even on dating websites, these kinds of details tend to be limited to one’s dating profile—concentrically arranged in how they’re publicly available on private websites for inquiring minds to investigate. Even here, though, people tend to avoid sharing out of an instilled sense of heteronormative shame.

Returning to the idea of sexual/asexual consensus, the phenomenon varies within canon and counterculture. Canon tends to frame asexuality as being inherently dishonest, but also clueless. Ace people become canonically “confused,” depicted as painfully out-of-touch with their own bodies (though especially their genitals)—to the point that being ace amounts to simply lying about not liking sex. The 40-Year-Old Virgin (2005), for example, reinforces virginal status as a mark of shame that must be overwritten with marriage and sex. It treats the revelation as tragically stalled, but obvious after the fact, resulting in two more myths: Sex feels good and feels equally awesome for everyone.

Unfortunately sex doesn’t always feel good. Even if it’s consensual, the activities that transpire between two incompatible persons will be, at best, unmemorable; at worst, disastrous. Moreover, even if they are compatible, sex is often asymmetrically experienced and enjoyed; i.e., doesn’t feel the same for both sides (simultaneous orgasms can happen, but remain tremendously oversold in canonical media). This is doubly true for asymmetrically compatible couples where one side is ace, the other not (or one is an exhibitionist and the other isn’t, wanting to “share” their activists with a third party who likes to watch, etc; we’ll return to this idea in Chapter Five during the “Transgressive Nudism” subchapter). Even if both parties are experienced, comfortable and on good terms, the ace side will still experience sex differently than the non-ace side. This goes for cuddles, foreplay and the act itself.

While perfectly valid, such asymmetricities remain largely unexplored in romantic canon and queer counterculture. Responding to romantic canon, queer circles sometimes identify too strongly with transgressive sexuality as a countercultural lever. Doing so tends to favor the expression of queer people’s sexual activities (invented or otherwise), simultaneously ignoring asexuality as a legitimate form of self-expression within the sex-positive mode: one’s personal right to decline sex, including by choosing not to write about it in fan fiction.

This sexual bias leads us to our second pair of heteronormative myths: One, everyone wants sex; two, queer people are hypersexual monsters. In the next section, we’ll explore how these xenophobic myths inform the false notion that asexual people “aren’t as queer” as sexual people, aren’t actively queer as a means of societal change unless they’re clearly being transgressive—i.e., performing in a clearly hypersexual way—or at the very least being sexual in some shape or form that violates conventional boundaries. It’s Medusa’s pledge to do so—her sacred honor to defile canonical norms: a gorgon, a dark angel, a gender slide ruler (with Harmony being agender, for example; see: “An Interview with Harmony Corrupted,” 2025).

(artist: Harmony Corrupted)

Defined Through Sex: Sex Normativity in Popular Media

Reader, I married him.

—Jane Eyre, Jane Eyre (1847)

Note: When I say “sex normativity” in this section, it attaches to heteronormativity through the neoliberal monomyth model; e.g., the hero faces the monster in Hell, kills it, and either returns to pastoral bliss or dies from contacting a toxifying[2] element from Hell, mid-genocide (re: exhibit 1a1a1h2a1 from “Scouting the Field” or exhibit 30a from “Rape Culture“). However, their focus is heteronormativity insofar as Capitalism sexualizes everything” (re: “Thesis Body“), which would come after writing Volume Three. Here in this subchapter, I would focus on sex normativity as amatonormative, insofar as marriage is normalized, and whose subsequent normativity toxifying whores subverts in GNC language applied to canon. Revenge is classically blind, but we can make it perceptive (with me camping DBZ in “Cruisin’ for a Brusin’” analyzing the himbos of Toriyama’s work). —Perse, 5/5/2025

(exhibit 89b1: Artist: Harry Turney. The satire of Dragon Ball is that that Goku—ever the himbo—thought “marriage” was something you ate. And when he defeats King Piccolo he weds Chi Chi through an arranged marriage, who he will always come home to when she has a meal for him; i.e., “The way to a man’s heart is through his stomach.”)

The remediation of queer hypersexuality and erasure of asexuality comes from how popular stories historically prioritize sex: something that sells because it is sold a particular way—globally and aggressively. Whether through courtship, consummation, or scandal, heteronormative stories incessantly prescribe sex to people, especially activities that lead to institutional (reproductive) sex as normative behavior. In turn, canonical proponents grant sex a narrative “weight,” cementing sexuality as the “ultimate” love language: the final, oft-implied destination that everyone supposedly wants because it implies socio-material elevation (marrying into a castle and becoming a princess). The same notion is seemingly assimilated within many queer stories, whose degree of normativity must be carefully explored: homonormativity within the nuclear family structure, or queernormativity as an attempt to connect general queerness to either the institution of marriage and its outcome of sanctioned sex, or at least something that speaks a similar sexual dialect: premarital sex opposed to extramarital sex, or at least the latter in response to the former as something to resist.

Looking in on prescribed marriage or sex in popular stories, asexual audience members are often forced to look at sex even in queer examples. To be fair, ace persons, despite differing orientations, can still emotionally invest in resolutions of conflict regarding sexual characters they appreciate (a gay man crying when Adrian tells Rocky she loves him, for instance). However, they must still contend with sex normativity treating anything short of the act of sex or its pursuit as “lesser,” including themselves. The linguo-material consequence of sex supremacy is a global draining of ace-inclusive language among commodified queerness, which corporations appropriate for profit. Meanwhile, many queer persons assimilate to varying degrees through queer-normalized roles in these stories or while creating them. Even amongst queer audiences and their own paratextual material, there exists an overwhelming urge to discuss sex, if only to find one’s asexual place amongst a hoard of sexual conventions—e.g., the hypersexual queer person, but also the closeted queer person as both lacking the asexual lingo to navigate around, and disentangle from, common portrayals of queer people.

Asexuality is rarely if ever seriously discussed as its own equal thing in relation to sex. Heartbreak High (2022) is the unlikely exception, but still leads off with common queer stereotypes it later dismantles, if only partially. Cash, for example, initially comes off as transphobic, rejecting the sexual advances of openly queer person, Darren. Not only does the show hypersexualize Darren’s non-binary homosexuality (which, to be fair, communicates the pent-up sexual frustrations of many queer people who struggle to find romantic/sexual partners); but neither Darren nor Cash have the asexual language to counteract common attitudes in relation to queer people: queer persons are hypersexual, and asexual queer persons are “lesser” within this arrangement. Heartbreak High reverses/non-binarizes the gender roles within something called the cotton ceiling. Said ceiling is anisotropic, meaning its significance varies depending on the direction it flows in; e.g., how the penis is viewed as a demonic symbol of rape by cis-het women, even when it isn’t visible, only presumed based on someone’s face, jawline, makeup, shoulders, etc:

(exhibit 89b2a: Maxine Conway from Wentworth, a story about an Australian women’s prison. In Wentworth, Maxine is a trans woman who looks after the main protagonist. From a 2015 interview with the actor who plays Maxine, McKenzie Morrell writes (emphasis, theirs): 

Meet Socratis Otto, who plays Maxine Conway, a transgender character who in spite of having undergone gender reassignment surgery prior to her incarceration still looks unequivocally male. Even while exhibiting her true self, wearing a wig and make-up, our beloved Maxine often experiences transphobia, misogyny and unthinkable hardships by inmates and officers just because of her powerful build and height. […] 

MM: When you landed the role of Maxine, you had just finished up on Carlotta. Do you think working on that project helped you prepare for this part? 

SO: Absolutely it did. Yes, fundamentally. It was quite serendipitous, really. I was kind of—not clueless—but not sure about the intricacies of what being a transgender person meant. We haven’t gotten too much information from the media about what being transgender meant. And Carlotta herself was one of the first transgender, male to female transition [persons] back in the very early days of the ’50s and ’60s in Australia. So she told me that people within the gay and lesbian community just didn’t understand what she was trying to do. So even back then she was definitely an outcast in her community. And people still don’t understand what it means to be transgender. They kind of think it’s a cross-dresser, and still people think—actually, I don’t think they know what it means. You can still be transgender without having genital reconstructive surgery. It’s very complicated. There are so many intricacies. And it seems to me that everyone wants to define the un-definable. These days there’s so many labels on social media; we need to know everything, and we need to know everything specifically, so we can box everything, despite the amount of information these days thanks to all these programs and all these stories coming out about people transitioning. People are kind of treating it like it’s a fantastical thing that they don’t really understand. So to go back to your question—sorry about that—to me, I kind of got all that information, and I went, “Whoa! I can imagine Carlotta back in the days, back in the ’60s, feeling so incredibly lonely.” And to me, I thought the character breakdown for Maxine showed such a gentle soul and gentle heart. She’s trying to show off in a world telling her that she mustn’t, she can’t. Basically, I just kept that in mind, preserving her heart in these worlds she’s lived in, the outside world and the inside world [source:Wentworth’ star Socratis Otto talks Maxine”].)

Transphobia uses the penis as a queernormative object of fear against the trans community by TERFs. As we have already discussed in Volume Two, then, the penis is a heteronormative symbol of violence that continues to weaponized by second wave feminists against trans people using the penis in xenophilic displays. Cassie Brighter addresses how complex it is to acknowledge transphobia, as it butts up against real sexual abuse/dysphoria. In part one of “What Do We Do About Women With A Penis?” (2019), she writes:

We talked about the symbology of the penis. Jimena and I immediately agreed that penis-owners have historically hurt vagina-owners in many ways. Some of these ways have specifically included the penis as a weapon, as an instrument of harm. Some of the women in the circle could be survivors of rape or sexual assault. So, it is really important to start by openly acknowledging that history, and that symbology. And by directly addressing those concerns. The event leader can explain that, while there is an obvious similarity between a trans woman’s genitals and those of a man, this person’s genitals have received years of female hormones. They respond differently, they carry a different energy. While a man’s penis is an object of great pride, a trans woman’s member is often a source of dysphoria and shame. A man’s penis swaggers and struts, conquers and acquires, penetrates. A trans gal’s genitals generally carry none of this energy. Speaking in generalities, a man’s sexuality is urgent and assertive, and can be invasive. A trans gal’s sexuality is docile, patient, hesitant, fragile. (I’m speaking in broad strokes – each individual is different.) […]

A common scenario used by trans exclusionists Is the women’s locker room at the gym. It might be startling or upsetting for a woman to see a naked person in the gym locker room, and to find that person has a penis. One gal recently told me that her first day at her gym she walked into the locker to be immediately confronted by a very naked 70-year-old (cis) woman. And that was startling for her. I asked her what could have made the situation better. She said,  “Well, the old woman could have covered up.” Then she added, “or, I could have fewer hangups about the naked human body” (source: “Part 1: The Penis in Women’s Spaces”).

(exhibit 89b2b: Artist, left: Aki; right: e.streetcar. The schlong as canonical Satanic panic/rape epidemical is something to overcome through informed exposure, consumption and consent. Generally a femboy or gender-non-conforming AMAB has to live with, thus subvert male stigma through camping the penis as an automatic and inferred sense of rape [the sexualizing of the surface image to threaten the presence of a penis before it is visible]. This can be thoroughly camped through xenophilic genitals like the dragon dong [re: exhibit 37c1b, “Back to Jadis’ Dollhouse“] or zombie monster cock/”BBC” [re: exhibit 37b1, “Healing through ‘Rape’“]—i.e., as a cathartic form of rape play that “ravishes” the subject as autonomous during consent-non-consent with demon-BDSM, potentially Numinous aesthetics that constitute a profound trust-building exercise between dom and sub. As stated in volume Zero, exhibit 1a1c, the cock doesn’t need to be inordinately large [though it often is, exhibit 91b2]:  

Regardless of the size or usage—or even if the person is naked or not [exhibits 89b2a/2b]—the ludic-Gothic-BDSM goal stays the same: a chance between two [or more] parties to theatrically interrogate and negotiate, thus regain stolen worship and love that has been denied by Cartesian thought/scientists and their radicalized victims-turned-bad-faith activists; e.g., TERFs having been abused by a cis-het man and repeatedly conflating their former rapist with a trans woman through dogmatic propaganda they help write—i.e., destabilizing gossip/punching down. In response, punching up is generally done against a “Cotton Ceiling” [from Drew DeVeaux; source: Cassie Brighter’s “The Often Misunderstood Premise of the Cotton Ceiling” 2019]. And such rioting absolutely should be allowed; calling it a “stone in a glass house” is to put property before people” [source: “Symposium: Aftercare”].)

In part two, “The Often Misunderstood Premise of the Cotton Ceiling” (2019), Brighter tackles the complicated reality that trans women are often attacked by transphobes for feeling threatened by them in bad faith:

The term “cotton ceiling” has been viewed as quite the incendiary phrase. It was coined by porn actress and trans activist Drew DeVeaux in 2015. It’s been used to refer to the tendency by cisgender lesbians to outwardly include and support trans women, but draw the line at considering ever having sex with them.

Sadly, I’ve seen at least two YouTube responses from irate vloggers who profoundly (and maliciously) twist Riley’s words to connote an obligation to sleep with trans women. If this interpretation has occurred to you, please stick around. The point of such discussion is not, EVER, to exhort anyone to have grudging sex without enthusiastic consent. The point of such discussion is to exhort folks to examine their inherent bigotry. We change, we grow, we learn through familiarity and exposure. We can challenge and re-examine our prejudices and fixed ideas. I wish I could include Avery Faucette’s full article at Queer Feminism here – but I’ll just drop this one paragraph (and urge you to read the rest):

I pinned a misogyny that at the time I attributed to almost all men onto trans women, as well. I assumed that sex with a trans woman would be penetrative and violent, that I wouldn’t have the camaraderie with a trans woman that I felt at the time with many cis women, that female history was somehow very important. I didn’t think about what a trans female experience might be like, or what a trans woman’s relationship to her body might be. I was pretty naive about sex. I put a lot of stake in body parts because I was fumbling with my own gender, body, and sexuality. I said that I was against transphobia but knew no openly trans people.

These threats include by the term[3] itself as something to trigger cis women with; i.e., “trans women are dangerous. Such a “threat” has been furthered by old homophobic stereotypes revived in the 1970s and ’80s and later still by J.K., Rowling’s latter-day novel writing under nom de plume Robert Galbraith, a historically anti-LGBTQ+ conversion therapist:

But after Troubled Blood (2016) came under fire earlier this week for a transphobic subplot in which a serial killer hunts his victims while dressed in women’s clothing, Rowling denied that the alias is a reference to “ex-gay” therapy. Rowling “wasn’t aware of Robert Galbraith Heath” when selecting the name, a representative said. “Any assertion that there is a connection is unfounded and untrue” (source: Nico Lang’s “J.K. Rowling Denies Pen Name Is Inspired by Anti-LGBTQ+ Conversion Therapist,” 2020).

Whether Rowling “knew” it or not, she still kept the fucking penname after denying a connection between the two after having pointed a big DARVO finger at her would-be detractors through a hired representative:, Nico Lang’s previous article, “J.K. Rowling Compares Transitioning to ‘Conversion Therapy,'” 2020. The second article was written two days previous. Since then, Rowling’s unchecked abuses as a TERF billionaire have led her—on Elon Musk’s aforementioned conservative bent as Twitter’s new ownership—to support known fascist “I’m not a feminist” Kellie-Jay Keen-Minshull’s global-trotting hate campaigns against trans people (source: Shaun’s “Kellie-Jay & the Neo-Nazis,” 2023).

So while many ace people are sex-repulsed from trauma, denying them the linguo-material means and agency to interrogate their own genders and orientation is infantilizing (and spare me the “you can’t teach an old dog new tricks” argument; even my fat, stupid cat understands that, when I walk past the stairs, they go up to their “torture spot” on the landing and wait expectantly to be spanked; if she can do that, then humans can learn the difference between unironic torture and “exquisite” forms).

Returning to Heartbreak High, its characters lacking the words; neither Cash nor Darren understands that Cash is asexual when he only wants hugs and kisses in the bedroom; each misunderstands their own feelings in part of a larger conflict about compelled sexuality often disseminated through popular stories about queer people with overlapping axes of oppression (for those giving and receiving trauma using shared language that often emerge too late): Cash knows what Darren wants (sex) and feels like he should, too. When their true, differing appetites emerge, Cash feels ashamed, while Darren feels confused, even angry with Cash for lacking a similar sex drive. Despite critiquing their own father for writing hypermasculine love stories, Darren assumes that everyone likes sex as much as they do. Darren’s preconceived ideas don’t emerge ex nihilo; they come from canon and counterculture relating back and forth inside a larger material dialog about sex.

However, while counterculture actively resists canon, someone’s sexual preference—how they feel about sex as a defining character trait—will strongly influence the degree and flavor to which they resist compelled sexuality and its various myths/trope-y stereotypes. Sexuality is fluid, people liking sex however much they like it—at a given time, with a given partner, during a given mood, inside a given headspace. Through the turbulent drama of a semi-compatible tryst, Heartbreak High comments on the common assumptions that queer people regularly make about their own community members, including themselves.

It also highlights the confusion that queer people experience when they feel sexually inadequate according to society’s queernormative standards. By having Cash, an ostensibly cis man, asking for less sex from an obvious, willing source, the lovers’ individual needs come into conflict. However, neither can easily talk about it because they don’t have the words. This inability to neatly voice their distress comments on the larger misconceptions about sexual incompatibility that come from a lack of dialog between ace/non-ace people even within the queer community (which again, thanks to queer normalization, tends to be oversexualized).

Whether through canon or counterculture, popular media informs the positions of people like Darren and Cash: hetero-/queernormative stories that treat sex as a universal commodity necessary for human bonding. Such compulsion denies the potential for

  • persons who are capable of profound human interaction/connection despite orientating as asexual, therefore uninterested in commodified erotic sex.
  • people, even sexual people, to enjoy sex purely through artistic means—i.e., nudist displays partially or entirely detached from erotic bodily function or notions of courtly love, etc.

Said compulsion can be tremendously invalidating and confusing for those outside the sex-normative model. Cash’s lack of desire, for instance, leads Darren to question his commitment within their relationship, but also for Cash to question his own value as a person. Both of them feel wronged, broken, and inhuman in relation to various linguo-material markers—their bodies, their genders, and their genitals as objects to self-authenticate through various humanizing appeals to members of the in-group and out-group.

(source: “Jonathan Pryce does Shakespeare,” 2016)

Note: So-called Jewish revenge ties into any minority revenge fantasy that upends profit; i.e., through Gothic Communism avenging nature as monstrous-feminine into medieval Capitalism evolving into more modern forms (whose calumny still uses, but repurposes, the same dated persecution language used to originally persecute Jews alongside GNC people and Pagan women as controlled opposition; e.g., sodomy and blood libel but also witchcraft; re: “A Vampire History Primer” or “Policing the Whore“). We cite Shylock’s speech back in Volume Zero (re: “Doubles, Dark Forces and Paradox“), doing so to evoke the darkness of such revenge: as a collective, potentially solidarized means of giving the oppressed voice to express within Gothic media, onstage and off. All the same, said revenge exists in duality during cryptonymy as black war of mirrors that never ends; i.e., state proponents will abuse and colonize said darkness (re: DARVO and obscurantism) while punching down to pimp it. —Perse, 5/5/2025

Consider the famous line by Shylock, the Jewish moneylender from The Merchant of Venice: “Hath not a Jew eyes? Hath not a Jew hands, organs, dimensions, senses, affections, passions?” Just as Jews remain equally human as Christians, ace people are no less human than non-ace people are; nor is their own humanity somehow refuted by lacking eyes, or other senses/organs (in a figurative sense, here, though the same argument applies to ablest considerations). This includes genitals and sexual orientation, which tend to function as humanizing markers in heteronormative and queernormative discourse; by lacking it, the possibility of abjection once again rears its ugly head—from bad-faith “queer” persons, but also legitimate queer circles whose bigotry extends from genuine misunderstandings about genitals and how they’re semiotically portrayed in famous stories.

Whereas straight groups tend to link gender to the visible markers of biological sex, queer groups tend to emphasize sexuality through gendered language minus an explicit connection between the two. Nevertheless, we’ve already explored how an emphasis on sexuality remains normalized, including conversations about genitals and sexual activity. Asexual people, meanwhile, are generally defined by others through absence, often materializing through a lack of sexual attraction or feelings, but also a visible lack of genitals. Even so, queer-appropriative fiction and metafiction still tend to discuss these factors in sexual terms.

Varys, for example, is both eunuchized and queer-coded. Yet his queer coding often comes off as homocentric in Game of Thrones, the (cis-het) writers exacting homophobic tropes they sexualize by default. While “gayness” entails far more than mere orientation (and equipment), gender performance and gender identity are also more idiosyncratic than orientation when orientation is levied through the reductive historical standard: the “instructional manual” approach to one’s family jewels, even when the person no longer has them or otherwise doesn’t use them “correctly.” Describing Varys as “gay” or “queer” is far more common than calling him ace, despite how asexual interpretations would make far more sense within the text. Instead, he’s sexually “broken,” forced into the role of a chatty, sexless spymaster due to an injury to his genitals, not his orientation.

While Varys’ medicalized deviation from sexualization-by-default demonstrates a tendency to sexualize people using their birth gender and sex, the haunting of one by the other, post-castration, implies a larger pro-sexual bias outside the story:

  • the myth of asexuality as manmade: an inherent form of castration
  • the heteronormative treatment of potentially ace men, including eunuchs, as gay-through-compelled-service: the castrated [4] protectors of cis-het palaces and their cis-het harems (whereas female castration still allows AFAB persons to sexually reproduce, just not experience sexual pleasure)

Though commonly exuded by the audience, these biases arguably extend to the actor’s metatext, a performance that feels stereotypically gay from a visual standpoint—especially Varys’ effeminate body language and colorful attire as being historically assigned to gay men by queer-appropriative fiction. Meanwhile, his dialog might explain the lack of genitals; it remains altogether different than stressing his asexuality as an actual presence regardless of his visible castration or gender performance.

Disarmingly open about his condition, Varys still feels gay according to what others say about him textually and paratextually. The dialog of other characters is ultimately written by the screenwriters, who choose the show’s focus regarding queerness. Queerness, as a result, feels homo- and genital-centric, is homosexual and identified by sight, or conveyed through testimonies that express Varys’ neutered status in visual terms. While playing doctor is an old means of confirming someone’s in-group status or sexual purpose (“expertly” parodied by Jon Jolie’s “Show Me Your Genitals,” 2008), Varys revealing “his gash” becomes homophobic by effeminizing his lack of genitals in a sexualizing manner.

The confirmation happens inside and outside the show. Littlefinger likens Varys’ “gash” to an exposed vagina, forcing standard homophobic coding onto Varys despite him not having the equipment (or inclination) for sex. However, audiences taught to recognize gayness and identify it as sexual by sight can also recognize this coding. By “claiming” Varys for themselves, even gay viewers can commit possessive, territorial acts of queer acephobia that lead to marginalized in-fighting.

Apart from genitals and homosexual tropes, modular compatibility poses a unique categorical challenge—with some ace persons favoring romance and others casual sex, and others still liking neither but enjoying emotional vulnerability. Some treat sex like a handshake, while others see it as courtly and dear. Others still focus entirely on emotional connections (alterous) instead of romantic or sexual ones. A lack of any of these interests doesn’t cheapen the individual, nor lessen their connections with others. They simply characterize the narrative in neurodivergent ways, even if the story leans more noticeably into Gothically sexualized tropes.

We’ll examine some of these tropes next, including how the Gothic (and adjacent stories) allows for distinctly asexual narratives by rejecting automatic sexuality in counterculture narratives: the calling of the pigtailed ace detective!

Onto “Pigtail Power and Crossdressing: Sex Repulsion in Gothic/Queer Narratives“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] In theatrical terms, performance is often thought of as “acting,” denoting a fake or forced quality. However, in terms of gender, performances amount to genuine expression of one’s legitimate, authentic self—their chosen gender and orientation through various coded behaviors; i.e., gender performance, including performance as identity.

[2] “Toxification” being a process “often seen in genocide, whereby groups of people are depicted as inherently poisonous to the well-being of the body politic” (re: Behind the Bastard’s “Part Three: The Pol Pot Episodes: How A Nice, Quiet Kid Murdered His Country”; timestamp: 34:53). It’s something we’ve touched on poetically through the symbolism of toxic waste and replacement rhetoric per a structure of invasion that repeatedly goes toxic (re: “Toxic Schlock Syndrome“). However, the same basic idea—of genocide through markers of persecution; e.g., blood libel, witchcraft, sodomy and Orientalism (re: “Idle Hands“)—embodies a similar state of exception that comes home to roost during different apocalypse-scenario arguments; e.g., zombies (re: “Police States“). People—and by extension, all of nature—must be antagonized as monstrous-feminine as cheaply as possible for profit to occur repeatedly to enrich the state: “antagonize nature and put it cheaply to work” by pimping it as dark, alien, other, but also Nazi and Communist during centrist kayfabe refrains (e.g., Nazi werewolves; re: “Hell Hath No Fury“). The whore’s revenge vocalizes said antagonism while reclaiming such things “on the Aegis”; i.e., during the cryptonymy process to reverse abjection, thus profit (re: “Rape Reprise“), weakening police influence pimping monster language to normally abuse it.

(artist: Matt Smith)

Moreover, this includes various forms of self-destruction within fascism on a gradient; i.e., Eco’s “cult of death” point from “Ur-Fascism“; e.g., the “death before dishonor” mentality of the Nazi SS and mirror syndrome versus the Khmer Rouge’s more literal “auto-genocide” approach—the former toxifying Socialist argumentation and aesthetics versus Cultural Marxism, and the latter toxifying Marxist-Leninist rhetoric with Stalinist paranoia and French noble-savage argumentation: to push for Final Victory in one, and the other for a Year-Zero erasure of the present world; i.e., out of the same-old revenge arguments in either case pushing towards post-Rubicon desperation whenever the leader might otherwise appear to be mistaken; re: “the leader is always right” being a fascist principle, both regimes being sick with genocide as something to exact: military optimism becomes a cult of death (often a mechanical one, if industry is preserved, or an inhumane and primitive one, if not; re: insect politics,” regardless).

Except the latter example literally cannibalized its own population, doing so for ideological and material reasons: they had destroyed their country’s food production and declared everyone inside an Enemy Within; i.e., fascism is a disguise that eats itself for the state to the state’s detriment because the state relies on inherent us-versus-them paradoxes to alienate, fetishize and pimp nature with. So while the Nazis ate themselves alive on the Eastern front, the Khmer Rouge literally did it at home (and lied about it to hold onto power). It weakens itself to then feed on the already-vulnerable: a horrific self-lie as you immolate, then eat your own children, calling them “brood” (mirror syndrome reaching delusionally inwards).

(artist: Francisco Goya)

This is why I’m an anarchist, kids (re: “Preface“); Marxist-Leninism “horseshoes” into fascism because the state, Marxist or not, always decays to protect itself by eating itself through lies that hijack its own war/persecution mechanisms; re: punching the alien as a disease to purify through military optimism devolving into persecution mania and finally death. This isn’t a “bug” but a feature of the nation-state model, which capital balloons; i.e., from decimation, or one tenth of a population being killed as practiced by the Romans to their victims, to the Khmer Rouge arguably killing over half of theirs: “Cambodia’s last census before the Khmer Rouge came to power in April 1975 was held in 1962. It counted the country’s population at 5.729 million” (source: Ben Kiernan’s “The Demography of Genocide in Southeast Asia”); estimates for the genocide range “between 1.5 and 3 million” (source: University of Minnesota’s “Cambodia”). This was aided by genocide fervor to be sure, but also denial—including from so-called American “leftists” (re: Noam Chomsky and “How the West Missed the Horrors of Cambodia,” which we discuss in “Police States“). “Leftism” and “Communism” become nominal/fascist when they deny or perpetrate genocide through anti-war obscurantism, causing rape and war pursuant to genocide, ipso facto.

[3] Cotton ceiling is, like “TERF” itself, treated with disdain by TERFs. Simply put, it is a TERF-critical term referring to the difficulty trans women face when trying to sleep with cis-lesbians who act like TERFs; i.e., to be used when punching up against so-called “gender-critical” persons, often cis-supremacist lesbians who resort to petty DARVO tactics to punch down. For example, transphobe/transmed Miranda Yardley writes:

[Compelled trans inclusion] is the antithesis of freedom; this is a new form of fascism through economic coercion, which has cleverly been disguised as a civil rights movement. If the transgender rights movement may be described as a revolution, it is now time for counter-revolution: bring on the backlash [source: the article has since been taken down in violation of Medium’s terms and conditions].

all while bragging about being hosted on AfterEllen.com in 2018 (which is still up, and being SEO’d for top spot on Google during a search result of 50,000 hits for “the cotton ceiling”).

[4] Gender-conforming surgeries are not the same thing as state-compelled castration or conversion therapies.

Book Sample: Selling Sex, SWERFs and Un(der)paid Sex Work

This blog post is part of “All the World,” a sixth promotion originally inspired by the three I did in 2024 with Harmony Corrupted and Romantic Rose: “Brace for Impact,” “Searching for Secrets” and “Deal with the Devil” (2024), as well as “Make It Real” for Volume One and “The Total Codex” for Volume Zero. Those promotions sought to promote and provide their respective volume’s individual pieces for easy public viewing in single-post form; re: for the Poetry ModuleUndead Module and Demon Module, followed by my PhD and manifesto. “All the World,” by comparison, caps off my book series with a promotion for Volume Three; re: my Praxis Volume. As usual, this promotion was written, illustrated and invigilated by me as part of my larger Sex Positivity (2023) book series.

Click here to see “All the World’s” Table of Contents and Full Disclaimer.

Permissions: Any publicly available images are exhibited for purposes of education, transformation and critique, thus fall under Fair Use; private nude material and collabs with models are specifically shared with permission from the original model(s). For more details about artist permissions, refer to the book disclaimer (linked above).

Concerning Buggy Images: Sometimes the images on my site don’t always load and you get a little white-and-green placeholder symbol, instead. Sometimes I use a plugin for loading multiple images in one spot, called Envira Gallery, and not all of the images will load (resulting in blank white squares you can still right-click on). I‘ve optimized most of the images on my site, so I think it’s a server issue? Not sure. You should still be able to access the unloaded image by clicking on the placeholder/right-clicking on the white square (sometimes you have to delete the “?ssl=1” bit at the end of the url). Barring that, completed volumes will always contain all of the images, whose PDFs you can always download on my 1-page promo.

Selling Sex, SWERFs and Un(der)paid Sex Work (feat. Art Frahm)

While women are not considered full subjects, society itself could not function without their contributions. […] As is, Irigaray believes that men are subjects (e.g., self-conscious, self-same entities) and women are “the other” of these subjects (e.g., the non-subjective, supporting matter). Only one form of subjectivity exists in Western culture and it is male (source).

—Sarah K. Donovan, Internet Encyclopedia of Philosophy (1995)

Picking up where “Chapter Three: Liminality (opening and “Exquisite Torture in the Internet Age”)” left off…

Note: This section delves into the problem sex work as both underpaid/not paid and demonized, which I later address in “Paid Labor” from Volume One. —5/3/2025  

(exhibit 87e1: Left: source and model: Glasses GF; right, model: Glasses GF. In Gothic, whores are monsters. Catherine Mackinnon writes, “Sexual objectification is the primary process of the subjection of women. It unites act with word, construction with expression, perception with enforcement, myth with reality. Man fucks woman; subject verb object.” However, in “A Gender Analysis of Global Sex Work” from Selling Sex in the City: A Global History of Prostitution, 1600s-2000s, Elise van Nederveen Meerkerk argues, “While most of the chapters do not provide much information about male or transgender/transvestite sex work (and in most historical [legal] contexts prostitution has been defined as “female”), some countries such as China and the Ottoman Empire had a rich tradition of prostitution by men or boys.”

In other words, much of sex work is historically AFAB since ancient times but includes AMABs from as far back who are treated in a traditionally feminine sense under the current colonial model [whose exploitation under Capitalism we will examine in Chapter Three when we cover discrimination against femboys, “traps” and twinks in the “Patriarchal Hatred Against Transgender Persons, Intersexuality and Drag” section]. Regardless of sex or gender, all sex workers are heteronormatively slighted to varying degrees. Among them, men expect women [or beings forced to identify and perform as women] to labor in various ways that appeal to cis-het men as the universal clientele under Capitalism. These expectations objectify women for said gaze, but also treat them like disposable garbage.

To this, Glasses GF sadly falls into the industry standard of women who do sex work. They were abused by someone they trusted, a person called Don [DonDRRR on Twitter] who knew Glasses GF did sex work but tried to force them to keep quiet—after the initial abuse they did against them in 2021 [source tweet: Lex Updog, 2023] but also for years after. Only after Updog/Glasses GF released a YouTube exposé discussing the abuse at length [Lex Updog’s “My Experience With DonDRRR And SuperMega,” 2023] did Don release his own statement, wherein he attempts to describe his side of things:  

We had been intimate since day 1 but on the 3rd night I had asked her for oral sex she at first said no because she had a cold sore. Later I asked her again and she yes but to be careful not to be too rough. During the intimate act I had pushed down her head, after which she recoiled and told me that I was being too rough. I then profusely apologized and we ended up watching TV and going to bed after. Things were normal for the rest of the week until the trip was over and we went back home. During this time I was under no impression that anything traumatizing had occurred, however I realize now this was extremely upsetting for her [source tweet: DonDRRR, 2023]. 

The source of the trauma wasn’t just Don, but with Matt and Ryan from SuperMega trying to sweep everything under the rug:  

I called them before I got there to tell them what happened so I could avoid being around Don, but they gave me mixed messages; Ryan one of support and two days later Matt, a phone call where he went into lawyer mode and promptly explained to me that “technically Don isn’t an employee so we don’t have to do anything,” how SuperMega is his “magnum opus” and how this would be very bad for them if anyone found out [source tweet: Lex Updog, 2023].

After the initial confrontation, Matt and Ryan—despite Don having a history of grooming [source tweet: whitemagemain, 2023]—kicked Updog and a friend of theirs [iamRav] out of their office where they had been staying. Afterward, the two were not only robbed while living in their car and moving between hotels; they were unable to get what belonging of theirs that were still at Matt Ryan’s office because the two weren’t talking to Updog. In short, SuperMega’s material advantage and “dude bro” brand concerns [their Twitter bio literally reads “Pick-up artists”] put them in a position to lie and manipulate people around them, throwing Updog and their friend under the bus.

[source: Wikitubia] 

Claiming ignorance to defend powerful higher-ups is not uncommon; it happened with Harvey Weinstein in Hollywood, but also happens in YouTube. For example, Blair Zoń aka iilluminaughtii‘s own abuses as a highly manipulative grifter have recently come to light, exposing her as someone unafraid to use her material advantage to content farm, build a company town, force people into abusive contracts, and share someone’s suicide note to shame them into silence [source: Swoop’s “The END of iilluminaughtii: She Has ALWAYS Been This Way,” 2023]. In Matt and Ryan’s case, they were formerly the editors of Arin and Dan, the Game Grumps; they were [and remain to this point] industry fellows whose abuse towards Updog happened years ago. In other words, you can’t just rely on the better angels of peoples’ nature or assume they must be good because of who they know; rape and other forms of exploitation happen because people hide behind their connections, banking on society keeping quiet in order to protect the brand, name or reputation as more valuable than workers are but especially those who are habitually exploited: by men in the larger, male-dominated industry that turns said men into violent killer babies, next page.

To it, capital is founded on rape, hence begets abuse as a culture of rape;  i.e., one that dutifully polices nature as monstrous-feminine on all registers; re: “Nature Is Food.” Denial and self-pity for the abuser becomes yet-another-means of predation on state victims [which whores classically are]. Male or not, white or not, out abusers to challenge profit, having the whore’s revenge—one classically of testimony that immiserates the rapist[s] in question!)

(exhibit 87e2: Artist, left: Glasses GF; right: SuperMega. “Woman is other.” Heteronormative cultural standards lead to common assumptions that are sexually dimorphic regarding body exposure. Female workers are judged far more for their bodies, while heteronormative, gender-conforming male bodies are allowed to look however and still be treated like kings; i.e., persons with privilege whose fans will worship them despite them being demonstrably awful persons; re: Ashley Williams in “Valorizing the Idiot Hero” or his arguable palimpsest, Donald Trump [a notorious rapist whose crimes are well-documented; e.g., Renegade Cut’s “Donald Trump is a R*pist,” 2023]—in short, men that Matt and Ryan emulate and who are defended by their own legion of vampiric, lobotomized imitators and nepotistic parasite-fans. Apathy is a socio-material structure and event that requires constant participation to function, including xenophobic neglect, scorn and denial; the same degree of participation if not more is required to combat these abuses during oppositional praxis. Even Updog kept quiet for as long as they did because, according to them, they felt like they owed it to people they “needed” to protect—Don, but also Matt and Ryan. Keeping silent is a form of giving abusers what they want, which only guarantees that abuse will continue on an individual and systemic level.)

Thanks to its own ambiguities, the sale of sex remains a hotly-debated issue. So-called “working girls,” for instance, were historically owned as personal property by men, leading 2nd wave feminists—specifically SWERFs (which TERFs are)—to weaponize their own trauma; i.e., through xenophobic rhetoric, thereby treating sex work globally as enslavement and coercively exhibitionist and voyeuristic in their eyes; e.g., the Alien Queen was a Communist madame/abject brothel whore; and Jane Eyre “triumphed” when she got rid of Anne Cosway and married Rochester, etc. Under the proper conditions, however—conditions that admittedly didn’t exist in the West on a wide scale in the 1970s (or before)—the sale of sex can actually

  • provide freedom of sexual and gender expression, including mutually (albeit relative) consensual fetishization; i.e., xenophilia
  • liberate sex workers by letting them claim ownership over their bodies. By doing so, they seize the means of individual sexual image production (much of the world’s sex work today is conducted online), generating wealth to improve their own material conditions. Yes, companies take a static, 20% cut, but the terms are dictated individually by sex workers who can set their own rates in a larger market. This success is relative, of course, workers being incentivized by OnlyFans to earn more (with those who do so often marketing their success—i.e., the top “1% on OF” status).

So while it’s a truth universally acknowledged that sex sells, it’s not enough (for a Gothic Communist) to say that most people “just enjoy sex.” Rather, the heightened reliability of sex-as-lucrative is enforced through compulsory means, fetishizing sex workers to make them as profitable as possible under heteronormative conditions. Sex work doesn’t disappear during moral panics; it just becomes stigmatized and chased after (either to kill, exploit or both).

Canon as a means of control stems from the Patriarchy—specifically sexist norms ratified during the Enlightenment through the emergence of Cartesian thought: dualism, or the separation of the body and the mind. Dualism has had many sexist consequences. Chief among them is that men are framed as rational and women are not. Men know best, men deserve best; they are the universal client among the worker and owner classes. This sexist division (re: “the creation of sexual difference” by Luce Irigaray) is inherently exploitative and xenophobic—a lopsided, colonial binary that conflates sex and gender to specifically benefit the elite. The binary exploits women—or people forced[1] to identify as women/the monstrous-feminine—privatizing their sexual labor and siphoning the socio-economic benefits directly to the owner class.

To achieve social activism and defend worker rights, one must resist capital. This xenophilic process happens in steps, with earlier steps being taken by those with relative means. The cis-white women of yesterday certainly had more means than more marginalized groups did, but tended to make arguments that only took things so far. 2nd wave feminists not only prioritized white cis women over other women; they generally critiqued sexist mediums or institutions that represented white cis women as a target commodity/audience. Conversations pertaining to trans women or women of color generally had to come from elsewhere, let alone individuals existing outside the binary altogether.

As a result, 2nd wave feminists didn’t routinely stress queer distinctions towards individuals they themselves called “women.” Simone Beauvoir famously wrote “Woman is other” in 1949, leaving others to put in the legwork for trans, intersex and non-binary persons. For example, in the 2014 essay “Gender Identity and Expression and Simone de Beauvoir” from Northern Michigan University, an unnamed author writes:

“One is not born, but rather becomes, woman.” This is perhaps the line most often quoted from Simone de Beauvoir’s groundbreaking work The Second Sex, and as such has raised some interesting questions. Because Beauvoir first published the book in 1949, her biological interpretations and social commentary are somewhat constrained by the information that was available at the time. I do not think that this weakens her arguments, but do find that some important questions about her work can only be answered by evaluating her ethical arguments and seeing what conclusions they lead to. One example of such a question involves what her attitude would have been towards people who are now considered “transgender”- that is those who decide to live as a gender different than the one assigned at birth.  In this paper, I will argue that Simone de Beauvoir’s ethics and concept of gender roles would commit her to the acceptance of transgender individuals. Thus, this compels her second-wave feminist followers to the same commitment, which should lead to an environment of transgender-inclusivity in these feminist circles (source).

The essay’s filename says it was submitted in 2014, approximately three years before the rise of TERF culture online.

Unlike Beauvoir, Laura Mulvey (another second wave feminist) describes the definition specifically through the act of looking: the male gaze, illustrated not just by icons, but the cinematic gaze showing viewers what to look at (the female body as woman) and how (voyeuristically). While a good first step towards addressing sexism in general, the rhetoric of either remains grossly inadequate regarding racism, transphobia and material inequality. The idea has since been revisited; re:

The male gaze describes a way of portraying and looking at women that empowers men while sexualizing and diminishing women. […] first popularized in relation to the depiction of female characters in film as inactive, often overtly sexualized objects of male desire. However, the influence of the male gaze is not limited to how women and girls are featured in the movies. Rather, it extends to the experience of being seen in this way, both for the female figures on screen, the viewers, and by extension, to all girls and women at large. Naturally, the influence of the male gaze seeps into female self-perception and self-esteem. It’s as much about the impact of seeing other women relegated to these supporting roles as it is about the way women are conditioned to fill them in real life. The pressure to conform to this patriarchal view (or to simply accept or humor it) and endure being seen in this way shapes how women think about their own bodies, capabilities, and place in the world—and that of other women.

In essence, the male gaze discourages female empowerment and self-advocacy while encouraging self-objectification and deference to men and the patriarchy at large (source: Vanbuskirk).

Whether biologically female or not, those dubbed “women” are treated as the non-subject, the xenophobic sex object in heteronormative canon, which extends to the monsters of Gothic canon. Said media tends to exclude trans, intersex and non-binary people by treating them as “women” (which we’ll explore more in the “Discrimination and Ambiguity” subsection/Chapter Four):

  • making them invisible by ignoring their existence or conflating them with cis women
  • making them conspicuous by inaccurately portraying them as inhuman, often as criminals or demons

Queer or not, women are fetishized against their will, turned into sexual property. However, the same condition is applied to anyone who exhibits traditionally feminine characteristics within the colonial binary: AMAB/AFAB (assigned male/female at birth) homosexuals, intersex people, ace persons, crossdressers, and yes, sex workers whose so-called “female” or “feminine” nudity is seen as vulnerable, thus deserving of exploitation within the status quo; or whose xenophilic interpretations are outed as impostors deserving of moderate/reactionary intolerance.

Sellers of sex can be workers-as-owners (of their bodies) or workers owned bodily by an owner class. To this, it’s not the sale of sex that’s bad, but the means of selling sex in ways that are unethical. The marketing of sex—vanilla, as well as kinks, fetishes and BDSM—as sold and controlled by the owner class is unethical because it takes control away from the owner of the body by making that worker’s body—or images of their body—as property owned by someone else. Xenophobic canon.

(artist: The Doll Channel)

For example, if a cis/trans woman makes an OnlyFans account to own her labor, she’s one step closer to owning her own body. To this, a model, photographer and artist are generally one in the same. This rationale extends to all aspects of production from a labor standpoint: diet, clothes, sets, lighting, filming and marketing. Such control is relatively ethical because the woman, even when catering to fetishists, is still vying for equality and ownership over her own body (and the labor profit it affords) within an inherently unequal system.

Conversely, if a banking company denies OnlyFans the right to process credit card transactions, the elite are effectively monopolizing the means of production through the banking system, fiscally gatekeeping the woman’s body and all the money she can generate with it; re:

So why did OnlyFans (briefly) decide to ban the kind of content which had come to characterize its platform? “The short answer is banks,” said Tim Stokely, the site’s British founder and chief executive.

Banks, he claimed, are refusing to process payments associated with adult content. In an interview with the FT, Stokely singled out BNY Mellon, Metro Bank, and JPMorgan Chase for blocking intermediary payments, preventing sex workers from receiving their earnings, and penalizing businesses which support sex workers. He declined to reveal OnlyFans’ current banking partners. This follows similar behavior by payment service providers which have begun to dissociate from the porn industry. After a New York Times investigation found images of rape and child sex abuse on Pornhub, Mastercard and Visa prohibited the use of their cards on the site in Dec. 2020.

In response, Pornhub removed all content produced by unverified partners and implemented a verification program for users. In April this year, Mastercard announced tighter control on transactions of adult content to clamp down on illegal material. The requirements included that platforms verify ages and identities of their users (source: Eloise Berry’s “Why OnlyFans Suddenly Reversed Its Decision to Ban Sexual Content,” 2021).

Under such circumstances, consensually ambiguous activities (re: fetishes, kink, BDSM) become non-consensual through unequal power relations the worker did not agree to (called “negotiation” in BDSM language). When workers do not consent to being sexually exploited by the elite, this forces them into coercively humiliating positions. The only option is collective worker action, generally an organized/unorganized walk-out—a strike, and if that fails, an exodus lead by xenophilic, “Satanic” personas.

Sex workers go where they feel the least threatened or exploited, but aren’t always spoilt for choice. As Electric Frontier Foundation notes:

Tumblr’s ban on “adult content” is a treasure trove of problems: filtering technology that doesn’t work, a law that forces companies to make decisions that make others unsafe, and the problems that arise when one company has outsized influence on speech. It’s also the story of how people at the margins find themselves pushed out of the places where they had built communities. And so Tumblr is also a perfect microcosm of the problems plaguing people on every platform (source: “What Tumblr’s Ban on ‘Adult Content’ Actually Did,” 2018).

Indeed, when Tumblr panned porn in 2018, sex workers left to a new social media platform because one was conveniently available. However, as Twitter becomes increasingly conservative under new ownership, the lack of a larger safe space for sex workers and minorities has yet to materialize, leaving them waiting under dangerous, coercive conditions until a new space opens up; BlueSky is invitation-only thus hard to get into, and Facebook’s Threads, though already quite new, is already rife with extreme bigotry from corner to corner (Renegade Cut’s “Republican Twitter,” 2023).

The difference between privatization and mutual consent is not visually immediate. Certainly the existence of non-traditional variants in sexual media affords sex workers the means to express themselves sex-positively through historically sexist language. The sexism, here, is less about content and more about a lack of mutual consent when content is created: Some people like to be humiliated, if it’s their choice.

However, a monopoly over the means of production is more than forcing workers to do sex work, then stealing their labor as profit; it includes body theft and image theft, too (re: AI). It’s no different, in concept, than Disney recursively treating Mickey Mouse (and other canon) as their intellectual property in perpetuity. This is called privatization, and capitalists (thus TERFs) do it by design; i.e., “This is our feminism!” They’re (witch) cops, thus colonizers of former activism having gentrified and decayed into unironically toxic forms (more on this tokenism in Chapter Four). Not all guerrillas are good—a fact that goes beyond TERFS, even, and extends into Americans victims; e.g., the Khmer Rouge following the Cambodia bombings (re: “Police States“); i.e., radicalizing the Marxist-Leninist peasants enacting fascist Buddhism out of revenge against local enemies when American bombers (and the bourgeoisie) were absent (Behind the Bastards’ “Part Three: The Pol Pot Episodes: How A Nice, Quiet Kid Murdered His Country”; timestamp: 11:45). Bombs or no, genocide leads to genocide, though bombs seek to destabilize areas, not depopulate them; re: “Cryptomimesis“). Pimps serve a similar role. A cop is a cop, a traitor a traitor (which TERFs are; re: subjugated Amazons).

(artist: unknown)

As we’ll see moving forward, SWERFs aren’t against all sex work. Most reject unethical sex work in the abstract (sex trafficking as a criminal concept). But many more will defend heteronormative sex roles commonly expressed through gendered language (even fetishes)—i.e., those present within mass media/personal property—while also abjuring emancipatory sex work. This double standard (and its DARVO/obscurantist arguments) stems from how SWERFs function, operating as centrists who value the order of Capitalism over positive social-sexual justice for the victims of Capitalism. Rather than critique Capitalism, they centralize it by becoming the arbiters of reason, the moral team for which any action that preserves order is allowed. Partly they can’t help it, unable to imagine anything better as they worship the limited, cis-white supremacist feminists of the past, but also the whore of the past as something to abject in service to profit: jungle bunnies, PAWGs, etc.

(artist: The Doll Channel)

In the process, SWERF attacks against obvious, coded enemies—the feminist versus the chauvinist—become hollow and performative while punching down at whores. However, they’ll aggregate with sworn enemies to combat a common foe: anyone who threatens Capitalism, including whores as the original and oldest form of labor as policed. The traitor feminist, then, instates moral panic, demonizing erotic sex workers en masse by globally scapegoating their entire profession. By fearfully positing the “re-enslavement” of women, SWERFs reject intersectionality in favorite of dated, carceral-hauntological feminism: posters of women as entirely “liberated” from all erotic sex work (and in a grand, sex-negative paradox, slaying anything that might even suggest free love and sexual labor as a positive alternative to amatonormative models; re: the Alien Queen). In doing so, SWERFs fail to see the empowering qualities of sex work: a genuine means of self-expression, personal enrichment and material change through the rapid accumulation of personal wealth and veneration of the female form (we’ll examine the male body more at the end of the chapter).

Instead, SWERFs denounce the whole process. Trusting sexuality as privately enjoyed, they reject the possibility that sex work can be realistically perceived and actualized as gainful employment. For them, the public payment of sex work and its wider acceptance by the common public amounts to a massive betrayal, a return to bondage. However, by denying cis women the choice for paid sex work and excoriating sex-positive depictions thereof, SWERFs only ensure a lack of wages and choice for all female sex workers. SWERFs aren’t preventing sex work nor sex abuse; they’re keeping sex work privatized and un(der)paid, celebrating their moderate, centrist “victories” in glamorous, hauntological parades that conceal systemic abuse. Privatization, from a material standpoint, enslaves everyone, including SWERFs. On par with a prison warden giving a particular gang protection from his guards, the status quo grants SWERFs special rights for defending canon by attacking ideological enemies of the state (and conceals the structure of state sexism and its nature as a prison).

(artist: Art Frahm)

Compelled privatization discourages iconoclasts by design, turning marginalized groups into conspicuous targets that can be readily treated as sexual property during canonical sex work. A SWERF might reject open prostitution or the coercive nostalgia of female exploitation media (see above); they realistically deny women the means to do anything but resort to ignominious forms of sex work in times of crisis. In other words, besides punching down at minorities, SWERFs only ensure the sexual disempowerment of white straight female sex workers, too; i.e., their material deprivation, continued shaming and inevitable regression towards compelled objectification for all but the privileged few. Nothing meaningful changes; the ability to imagine anything beyond Capitalism is hampered by hauntological depictions of the imaginary past—specifically feminism’s second wave—that hamper progress indefinitely. The reimagined past becomes “as good as it gets,” a tacit compromise with the elite that prosecutes gender-non-conforming people in defense of the colonial binary.

Meanwhile, sexist conditions make sex work “easier” for women, in the sense that it’s expected of them and they have a large customer base. It also gives SWERFs something to reliably attack, albeit unevenly. AFABs who conform as cis-het women, for example, face less prejudice than those who don’t—identifying and performing standardized social-sexual roles through compelled, prescribed labor. In this way, sexism very much allows for sex work that upholds the status quo. However, prejudice under the status quo compounds intersectionally—with queer, secular and non-white AFAB workers being targeted differently than cis-het, religious, white ones. While either group is imprisoned and abused during sex work, only members of the out-group reliably experience open persecution during moral panics. Though shaming women is nigh-universal, reactionaries “protect” in-group women from out-group women (and their various xenophilic associates) by branding the latter as wicked degenerates who threaten decent society.

In turn, “decent” women (maidens) are shamed for associating with “shameful” women (whores, or “scarlet/false women,” concerning GNC persons), whereupon further deviations from in-group standards—skin color, class, religion, etc—invite greater and greater discrimination, but also factionalization. Sex work, as with other forms of compelled labor, promotes preferential mistreatment. This leads to a variety of assimilation fantasies by historically oppressed groups. By trying to fit in, including doing acceptable sex work (marriage, children, housework, etc), a poisonous desire to conform emerges—working to please one’s master, not oneself.

As we’ve already discussed in Chapter Two of this volume (and previously in this series; e.g., “Policing the Whore” and “Reclaiming Anal Rape“), pleasing the state includes policing one’s own minority group to coercively fetishizing extremes; i.e., employing DARVO to hamstring activist movements by portraying them, not fascists, as the “real” terrorists: the state is always right, and faggots must die. It’s not uncommon, then, for queer people to hate themselves, wanting to wear a mask to blend in with their conquerors (re: Fanon); re: Amazons being the oldest token in Western civilization.

Often, this conformity mimics an idealized, perfected form of servitude/personal property tied to carceral hauntologies versus criminal opposites: the obedient, “high-maintenance” woman; white, cis and heterosexual (which becomes something to enforce in reactionary or moderate ways, as we’ll see in Chapter Four) versus the criminalized slut, the homewrecker, the witch, the Medusa, etc.

Furthermore, these aren’t simply old ideas; they’re viewed in nostalgic ways that reactionaries and moderates reinvent and return to, over and over. Sure, moderates will wag their fingers to admonish fascists in times of relative freedom; but once fascism returns, SWERFs (normally white, materially advantaged cis women) will either flee if they’re able; or surrender their rights and become “kept,” with persons like Kellie-Jay Keen-Minshull playing the part of the zombie-vampire Stepford Wife while teaming up with fascists (thus becoming fascist themselves) to combat a collective scapegoat: Communist zombie-vampires! Instead of extinguishing monsters, xenophobia demands their proliferation within a sex-coercive content to maintain the state in perpetuity within inherently bad-faith rhetoric (a “gender critical” trademark: “Why do fascists keep showing up at your rallies. Yeah, well why do anti-fascists keep showing up at yours?!” source tweet: Katy’s Cartoons, 2023).

(exhibit 87f: Artist, left: Ernest Chiriaka; middle: Sveta Shubina; right: Art Frahm. Shubina’s nostalgic leanings, if not entirely consciously, still demonstrate mimesis through the nostalgia of artists who were, themselves, already nostalgic in their own time periods. Cryptomimesis challenges this nostalgia in ways that see past canonical nostalgia as “rose-tinted.”)

White women are a marginalized group. However, assimilation/emulation fantasies occurs differently per marginalized group: black skin, white masks; the closeted trans or non-heterosexual; the subservient white woman who polices them, but also competes with other white women for coveted positions—i.e., the privileged to not be raped by the state. All experience various forms of dysphoria, dysmorphia, and racialized angst in pursuit of something that SWERFs will reject in the abstract, but enable through a deliberate failure to move beyond moderate concessions (more on these in Chapter Four, when we examine TERFs): submission and class betrayal sublimated as “concessions.”

It’s also worth noting that marginalized persons can appreciate the objective qualities of sexualized art featuring privileged models. Art Frahm’s voyeuristic art easily lends itself to camp (exhibit 87f, above)

This certainly happens every day, doesn’t it? This fine picture has all the classic elements of an Art Frahm underwear vs. gravity battle: public humiliation, hand in the crotch, a uniformed working man in close proximity, the open fallen purse (consult Freud for the actual meaning of that one), and, of course, celery.

It has a brilliant invention worthy of the Northern European Renaissance: a mirror that adds an ironic twist. Note how Frahm places the mirror and the driver’s eyes so that the driver is simultaneously able to look at the maiden’s crotch and breasts (source: Lilek’s “A Fare Loser” from “The Art of Frahm: An Artistic Study of the Effects of Celery on Loose Elastic,” 2022).

and Chiriaka’s pin-ups are expertly made, chic and tasteful (if that’s your thing). Provided the viewer endorses model agency instead of canonical disempowerment, there isn’t anything intrinsically carceral or sexist about wearing red lipstick, high heels and one’s birthday suit and enjoying these things for oneself (or creating it in one’s art; re: Shubina, above): camping the canon with “violent,” exquisitely torturous language; e.g., “stab my muffin!” below. MUFFIN STABBED!

Rather, doing so can become sex-positive provided the display—as something to view, perform or sell—doesn’t automatically promote institutionalized, coercive variants and social attitudes. This occurs relative to informed consumers, whereupon de facto educators help people synthesize and transmute their guilty pleasures while staying true to a better political self. In turn, their radicalized values favor basic human rights over corporate profit and state power disempowering everyday workers, while still appreciating objective sexuality in art; re: through voy/ex dialogs of appreciative fear (which the Numinous ultimately is, in liberatory hands): tongue-in-cheek calculated risk.

(artist: Tyler and Husband)

Across a gradient of outcomes, then, the material reality of canonical sex work remains constant: manufactured scarcity as something for xenophiles to challenge. AFAB persons frequently resort to sex work (rather than do it for disposable income, fulfillment or both) because they’re poor and trying to survive; i.e., incumbent on either the “generosity” of privileged, entitled men, or the dubious mercies of people who share and uphold said men’s tyrannical views (with there being room to operate campily in such spaces by GNC sex workers, above; see: “An Interview with Tyler and Husband“). Moreover, much of this bias is complicated by the natal and gender-performative ambiguity of the human body and its overarching signifiers: camping state-corporate (fascist) cheapening and liquidation of nature into toxic waste (re: similar to blood, black bile, or anything else standing in/for capital at work; see: “The World Is a Vampire“).

We’ll examine these ambiguities relative to trans/intersex people and crossdressers, exploring the unique discriminations they face at the end of the chapter. First, I want to highlight asexual “ace” persons and the parallel gradient they occupy under Capitalism—specifically its general cryptonymic effect on ace artistry as part of a queer imagination that normalizes sex (shortcuts to sex as a liberatory coded act, mid-interface). For non-assholes, games are fun on equal terms (despite the unequal distribution of power in BDSM scenarios/Gothic poetics).

Please note: The following subsections are less about examining specific hauntological examples and more about interpreting art in non-heteronormative ways, which then can be used to recognize heteronormativity as something that frequently attaches to carceral-hauntological/complicit-cryptonymic forms; i.e., that must then be resisted, often covertly through cryptonymy in duality (Chapters Four and Five are entirely devoted to this concept). —Perse, back in 2023

Onto “‘Crash Course: Asexuality and Demisexuality’ + ‘Queernormativity’ + ‘Sexualized Queerness’ + ‘Sex Normativity’“!


About the Author

Persephone van der Waard is the author of the multi-volume, non-profit book series, Sex Positivity—its art director, sole invigilator, illustrator and primary editor (the other co-writer/co-editor being Bay Ryan). Persephone has her independent PhD in Gothic poetics and ludo-Gothic BDSM (focusing on partially on Metroidvania), and is a MtF trans woman, anti-fascist, atheist/Satanist, poly/pan kinkster, erotic artist/pornographer and anarcho-Communist with two partners. Including multiple playmates/friends and collaborators, Persephone and her many muses work/play together on Sex Positivity and on her artwork at large as a sex-positive force. That being said, she still occasionally writes reviews, Gothic analyses, and interviews for fun on her old blog (and makes YouTube videos talking about politics). Any money Persephone earns through commissions or donations goes towards helping sex workers through the Sex Positivity project; i.e., by paying costs and funding shoots, therefore raising awareness. She takes payment on PayPal, Patreon, and CashApp, etc; all links are available on her Linktr.ee. Every bit helps!

Footnote

[1] The cis-gender binary treats the man-male-masculine:woman-female-feminine dichotomy as the sole, universal state of affairs (elevating it to a natural order). Anything else is anathema, alien, worthy of attack.